~ Love in Photographs ~
by Alex Tryst
Copyright © June 2002
Disclaimers: See Part 1
Part 8
Once Helen began teaching again that fall, they hardly had any time to see
each other. As much as they wanted to be together, Helen was inevitably too
tired to make the trip into New York at the end of most weeks, and
Torrance’s schedule had gotten busy with photo shoots as well as being
hesitant to leave Melissa alone overnight. However they talked almost daily.
Much to Torrance’s regret, things hadn’t improved with Helen’s mother,
making her wondering if her beloved would ever reconcile. The more time that
passed the more apathetic the blonde became about trying to make things
better, instead putting all the responsibility on her mother. Torrance knew
that wasn’t the way to repair the relationship, but any time she even tried
to broach the subject with her girlfriend, it was met with a quick,
indifferent retort. Knowing the younger woman has hurting, the brunette
always tried to be sensitive to her feelings on the matter, but there were
moments that she wanted to force the model to listen to reason.
One month into their time apart, Torrance decided to surprise Helen on a
Friday evening. Calling Kelly’s office a few days before hand, she made sure
that it was a good time to come see her girlfriend, and after much talk with
the brunette roommate convinced her and Mark to spend the evening out, so
she could have alone time with the teacher. Additionally she got Kelly to
consent to helping her carry out her plan, so she could surprise the model
with dinner. Arriving at the apartment early that afternoon, Torrance
knocked on the door to be sure no one was there before using her key to
enter.
Since Kelly and Mark were taking Helen for drinks after work, Torrance knew
she had a few hours to prepare the meal and apartment for their romantic
evening. She quickly began fixing their dinner before heading off to the
bedroom. Ever since they had reunited, they had yet to become intimate again
due to unexpected circumstances, but the photographer was hoping that this
particular night would be different and having Helen’s two roommates gone
greatly improved their chances. Deciding to go all out for the evening,
Torrance decorated Helen’s bedroom with candles and flowers. She took the
time to spread rose petals over the comforter as well as pick soft intimate
music. Heading back into the dining area, the brunette set a table for them
with the finest place settings she could find. One she felt everything was
in order, she changed into a dark suit and awaited her girlfriend’s arrival
home from a long week.
That evening when Helen met Kelly and Mark for their usual Friday drinks,
they were both being secretive. As Helen sipped her wine, she inquired,
“What’s up with you two tonight?”
“Mark just has finally decided to be romantic for once and take me out for
a night on the town.” Kelly mentioned.
“Oh, well, that’s great.” the teacher mumbled into her drink.
“What’s wrong?” her roommate asked touching Helen on the arm.
“Nothing. I just thought we might do something this evening, but I think
that’s wonderful that you two are going out alone. I’m sure you’re tired of
us singletons.”
“Missing Torrance a little, are we?” Mark inquired.
“Yeah, I guess. I just never imagined it would be this difficult, but this
long distance thing is driving me crazy. I miss not being able to see her
all the time like I could in the summer.”
“Well, why don’t you move to New York to be with her?” he asked curiously.
“I hate New York, at least I did until I met her. I don’t know. I already
moved once for a relationship, and it didn’t work out. I’m not sure moving
to New York would be in my best interest. What if it doesn’t work? Then I’d
be stuck in a city I hated. I guess I just need more time before making a
commitment like that. That’s a serious step.”
“Well, do you see things going there? I mean you’ve had feelings for
Torrance for a long time.” Kelly said.
Helen smiled. “I think that eventually things might progress there or even
further.”
“Further? How much further?” the auburn-haired woman asked in interest.
The model blushed. “You know when I first moved in with Richard, I thought
we’d be together forever. I thought he made me happy and that I was in love,
but I was so wrong. I deceived myself, probably as much as he did himself.
However with Torrance I honestly believe that she could make me happy for
the rest of my life. I can see us together next year, ten years from now,
even forty and fifty years from now. Everything I ever wanted I can see
happening with Torrance, marriage, children, life. She encompasses
everything I ever thought I wanted in a spouse. I just didn’t realize that
spouse might be a woman.”
“Wow. So, does this mean that when she does ask you to marry her that
you’ll say yes?” Mark inquired.
“If she does, Mark. I know Torrance loves me, and I know she believes in
fidelity, but I don’t know if she wants to get married yet, and I don’t know
if she wants to have children necessarily. My gut feeling says that she
does, but we’ve never talked about that kind of stuff seriously. There is a
lot we need to discuss before either of us could make a commitment like
that. I’m not going to make the same mistake again. I’m getting too old to
take a chance like that. I have to know before we take such a serious step
like living together or anything.”
Kelly patted her arm lightly. “Well, I think you’ve met your match, Helen.
From the moment I saw you two together for the first time since you broke
up, I knew she was the one for you.”
“Well, I hope so. I’m going to go. I think I’m going to go home and call
Torrance now. You two have got me missing her all that much more. Have fun
tonight.”
“We will. You try to have some fun as well.”
As Helen drove herself home that night, she thought of the photographer,
wondering what she might be doing at the moment. She thought that Torrance
was probably at home with Melissa having dinner and a quiet evening, but she
wished she was a part of it. Upon reaching her building, she retrieved the
mail before heading upstairs to the apartment. However as she put her key in
the lock, she noted that it was already unlocked making her nervous, because
she wondered if someone had broken in. Hesitantly pushing the door open, she
saw the older woman sitting in a chair in direct eye line of the door.
Torrance was dressed in a black suit and was sitting off center in the
chair. In her hand was a glass of wine, and she was giving Helen a dangerous
grin.
“Good evening, Ms. Melbourne.” she whispered alluringly.
“Torrance, what a surprise. Hi.” the blonde said closing the door and
coming to the brunette. “What are you doing here?”
Torrance stood and embraced the younger woman in a slow kiss. “I just
couldn’t stand it any longer. I had to see you. You don’t mind, do you?”
“Of course not. I’ve been missing you so much. These phone calls are
nothing like being near you.”
“Well, tonight I’m all yours. I believe that we have the apartment to
ourselves, don’t we?”
“You know about that?”
Torrance gave a laugh. “Know about it? It was my idea. I just let Mark take
the credit. Why don’t you relax? Sit down and rest a bit. Dinner is almost
ready. Would you like some wine?”
“That would be wonderful. Just let me go change, and I’ll join you.” she
said making a move toward her room, but Torrance held her back.
“Oh no. You look perfect as you are. I like what you’re wearing. Just sit
here on the couch.” Torrance instructed leading the blonde over to it. She
pushed her down gently before going to get a second glass of wine. Coming
back with it, she extended it to her girlfriend before kneeling on the floor
to take off the blonde’s low heels. Soothingly the photographer began to rub
Helen’s feet. Helen moaned her approval. “Long day?” the older woman
whispered.
The blonde nodded. “It’s drastically improving though. This feels
fantastic.”
“Good. Why don’t we take these off though? I guarantee it will feel even
better.” she suggested lightly picking at the hose encompassing the
teacher’s leg. Helen agreed and lifted her hips off the couch enough to slip
off the hose. Torrance assisted in the process and dropped them in a pile
with her shoes. Returning her attention to her girlfriend’s feet, she
massaged each one with a firm yet tender touch.
“Oh, Torrance, you have no idea how wonderful this feels after being on my
feet all day.” she sighed closing her eyes and leaning her head back against
the back of the couch.
“Good. I’m glad. That’s all I want to do tonight is bring you pleasure.”
sexily the older woman murmured as her hands moved up to the blonde’s
calves, and her mouth lightly began to follow their path. Inching the
teacher’s long skirt up to her thighs, Torrance leisurely kissed and stroked
Helen’s legs until she reached the model’s knees. The older woman was
intently exploring the shapely legs and steadily moving higher when the
buzzer signaled dinner.
“Oh, God. I’m not sure I can make it over to the table after that.” Helen
teased.
Torrance pulled her up from the sofa and helped her to the table, pulling
out her chair. “Just stay right there. I will be right back with our dinner,
mademoiselle.” Torrance served to plates in the kitchen and brought them to
the table. She topped off each of their glasses before raising her glass in
toast. “Bon Appetite.” she stated.
The meal passed in content quiet talk, but Torrance’s mind kept straying to
the surprises she had for the younger woman after their meal. When it was
obvious that Helen wasn’t going to eat any more, Torrance began to clear the
dishes. “While you’re doing that I’m just going to go change clothes. Okay?”
the blonde mentioned.
“No. You can’t.” the photographer stated.
“Why not? Why won’t you let me go back there?” curiously the teacher
inquired.
“Because it will ruin the surprise. I’ll tell you what. You give me two
minutes to get things ready, and then you can go in there.”
“Fine. I’ll do the dishes then. Go on now. I’m anxious to get out of these
clothes.” the model replied shooing the brunette from the kitchen.
Torrance went back to the bedroom to light the candles and turned on the
music. Then she returned to the kitchen to finish the dinner dishes. “All
right. You can go back there. I’ll join you in a few minutes.”
Helen waltzed back toward her room wondering what the older woman was
planning. As she pushed open the door and saw the elaborate setup, her heart
constricted at the beautiful layout. Never in her life had anyone gone to
such effort to be romantic for her, and it stirred her spirit and passion.
Hoping that she was reading the intimate scene correctly, the blonde decided
to do something equally inviting. Deciding on her most provocative lingerie,
the blonde slipped it on before crawling onto the bed and striking a
seductive pose for her beloved.
After the kitchen was clean, Torrance grabbed their dessert of fresh cut
strawberries and whip cream and headed back toward the bedroom. She opened
the door to the bedroom to find her girlfriend stretched out across the bed
of roses staring at her with obvious longing. It had been such a long time
since Torrance had seen that look on the blonde that her knees almost gave
way, and she had to lean into the door frame momentarily as she took in the
green teddy on her lover’s body that left little to her imagination.
“Dessert’s ready.” she finally stated.
“Not quite.” the blonde whispered beckoning the taller woman to the bed
with an outstretched hand. When Torrance came to the bedside, Helen stood
and took the bowl of dessert from her to place it on the night stand out of
the way. She looked up into the brunette’s face and saw the excitement and
fire just lurking under the surface of her seemingly calm exterior. Without
a word the model slid the photographer’s suit jacket off her shoulders to
the floor before slowly starting on the buttons of her shirt. The only
reaction from the photographer was hitched breathing, but she stood
completely still letting the teacher do as she wanted. Helen focused on each
button leisurely undoing it and taking a few moments to gaze at the new
treasures each one revealed. Being that she had never seen the photographer
completely naked, she wasn’t sure what to expect, but as the moments passed,
she felt herself becoming more aroused at the idea of finally being able to
see the body she had dreamed of so many times. When the shirt was open, it
followed the jacket to the floor. The photographer hardly ever bothered
wearing a bra, because she thought there was little need for her size, and
tonight was no exception, leaving her entirely exposed from the waist up to
the model. The belt was next as the younger woman slipped it out of its
loops on Torrance’s pants and dropped it to the growing pile on the floor.
Helen intently concentrated on the button and zipper next, and it wasn’t
long before the photographer’s pants slithered down her legs to pool at her
ankles. Helping the process a bit, the older woman stepped out of her
slip-on shoes and slacks, leaving her in only her boxer shorts. Their green
eyes met momentarily. Torrance could see the mixed emotions of her lover’s.
There was a sense of curiosity combined with slight anxiety, but more than
anything there was an ardor that the brunette had never seen in her entire
life. Holding each other’s gaze, the blonde shed the brunette of her final
article of clothing. Torrance took an nervous breath, a flicker of
insecurity passing through her as the blonde dropped her eyes to take in the
photographer’s body. Almost in childlike exploration, the blonde’s hands
took in the new unveiled landscape for a moment.
“Well, it’s about time I saw the body that loves me so well.” the blonde
whispered meeting Torrance’s eyes again. The older woman saw the approval in
the teacher’s gaze. “I’ve never looked forward to touching someone so much
as I am with you.” she murmured sexily leaning into to kiss the slopes of
the brunette’s breast experimentally. When Torrance whimpered and put her
arms around the blonde’s shoulders to steady herself, the younger woman
dipped her head lower as her hands moved over the photographer’s breasts.
“Helen.” she softly called out as her hand cradled the blonde head in
further.
The teacher pulled away for a moment and smiled at her lover. Giving
Torrance a slight push, she got the older woman down onto the bed before
covering her with her own smaller frame. Torrance’s legs had widened to
balance herself as she fell leaving just enough room for the younger woman’s
slim hips to wedge themselves between her thighs. The lace of the teddy
scraped against the brunette’s breasts enticingly as their mouths finally
met. As they kissed Torrance realized that the moment she had dreamed of for
the past two years was finally coming true, and the feelings were so
overwhelming that she began to cry.
The blonde felt the older woman’s tears against her lips and pulled away
slightly. “What is it?” she whispered.
Torrance cupped the younger woman’s face in her hands. “I love you more
than words could ever say, Helen. You’ll never know how much I’ve longed for
this moment.”
“So have I, Torrance. I’ve wanted this for two years. I love you, and I’m
now going to show you how much you mean to me.” The smaller woman began to
kiss her way down the older woman’s neck and across her shoulder as she
began to stroke Torrance’s torso with tender hands.
Torrance closed her eyes as she enjoyed the feeling of the model showering
her with love. However after a few minutes she regained enough of her senses
to realize it might be easier for the blonde if she took control of things.
Becoming more active she began to tend to the petite body on top of her own.
She ran her hands over the younger woman’s back down between her legs from
behind to unclasp the snaps holding the teddy in place. Once it was open,
her hands guided the material up the slender body and over Helen’s head,
leaving them both naked. Torrance groaned as their bare bodies meshed firmly
together. It was even better than she had remembered. Moving her right hand
onto Helen’s side, she slid it up to the teacher’s breasts.
Helen gasped but then pulled away slightly. “What are you doing?” she
inquired.
“I want to touch you, Helen. Please let me touch you.”
The blonde smiled at her lover. “A long time ago, Torrance, you promised me
that next time we were together, you would let me lead this dance. May I?”
“Are you sure you want to?”
Helen nodded. “I want to make love to you, Torrance, like no other woman
ever has. I’m long overdue in showing you exactly how you make me feel. I
want to give you all the love you’ve given me over the years. Please?”
The plea was her undoing. Torrance knew at that moment she really never
could deny Helen anything. “Then do with me what you will. I’m at your
mercy.”
With a small grin, Helen returned to the photographer’s neck. It wasn’t
long until Torrance was in ecstacy with the attention she was receiving from
the younger woman. What Helen lacked in experience, she made up for in
fervor as she investigated every inch of the photographer’s frame with her
hands and mouth. However when Torrance saw the model starting to direct her
attentions up her inner thighs, she wondered if the younger woman was about
to fully and intimately ingratiate herself between the photographer’s legs.
As Helen neared the older woman’s sexual core, her trepidation of the
unknown began to surface, but she was determined to give to Torrance all
that the taller woman had given those many years ago out of her adoration
for the brunette. Before she could change her mind on the matter, the
teacher let her mouth close over Torrance’s wet heat.
“Oh, God, Helen.” Torrance called out interlacing her fingers in the
model’s fair hair.
Helen moaned at the brunette’s reaction, knowing that her actions were
pleasing the older woman. Spurred by that she let instincts take over and
within moments she was inside the photographer bringing her to peak.
Torrance screamed and her legs trembled as her climax ripped through her
body, leaving her temporarily incapacitated. Feeling the taller woman’s
spasms, Helen felt a sense of accomplishment overcome her. She had brought
her lover pleasure which in turn gratified her immensely. It was at that
moment she realized what Torrance had felt the first time they ever shared
themselves. For one instant in time, all that mattered was Torrance’s
delight, and Helen felt just as satisfied as if she had been the one to have
the physical release.
A moment passed as Helen rested her head against the photographer’s stomach
before she crawled up the strong body under hers to look into the green eyes
she loved. They were dazed, but the older woman was wearing a appeased grin.
“You okay?” the blonde whispered gently pushing Torrance’s hair back..
“Yeah, better than okay. How are you?” she inquired softly.
The teacher gave a reassuring smile. “For the first time in my life, I now
know what making love really means. I now understand what you tried to tell
me in Italy. Being inside someone else and seeing them that vulnerable is
truly an homage to the love people share. You were so right, Torrance. I’m
glad I learned this lesson with you.”
Torrance gave a chuckle. “I’m glad you did too. I haven’t actually had that
many people touch me like that, Helen, but I always desired to let you if
that’s what you wanted.”
“Really? I thought you were quite the expert.”
“I am when it comes to giving my affections. However when it comes to
trusting someone enough to touch me as you have, very few have had that
honor.”
“How many?” curiously the model inquired propping her head up on the
brunette’s chest.
“You’re only the third.” Torrance admitted. “The last one being my previous
serious girlfriend.”
“How long ago was that?”
“I was in twenty nine, so it’s been five years.”
“Wow. I had no idea.” Helen confessed cuddling closer as she contemplated
the meaning of what had just transpired between them.
Torrance was quiet a few minutes as well as she simply played with the
blonde’s hair and enjoyed the feeling of their naked bodies against each
other. Finally breaking the stillness, she asked, “Do you think you might be
interested in your other dessert now?”
Helen sat up and smiled playfully. “Only if I can have more of you later.”
“I’m yours, but how about a little fuel first?” Sitting up Torrance reached
for the bowl to pick up a strawberry. She held it to her lover’s lips.
Keeping their gaze the smaller woman took the treat into her mouth. Torrance
watched her swallow it before the model scooped one up as well.
Making sure it had whip cream on it, Helen whispered teasingly, “You want
it?” Torrance gamely nodded. The teacher smiled slowly running the fruit
down her own breast and circling the crest of it. Leaving it there and
leaning back slightly so it would balance, she demanded, “Come and get it.”
Torrance gave her girlfriend a playful raise of her brow as she wondered if
there was a wild side to the blonde she had never considered before leaning
down to capture her prize. Helen’s hand came to the back of Torrance’s head
as the brunette sucked her dessert and girlfriend’s breast into her mouth.
“So good.” she mumbled leaning over to the other one to give it attention as
well.
“Still want that for dessert?” breathlessly Helen asked.
Torrance moaned as the younger woman pushed her head in deeper. “No. There
is definitely something else I’d like to eat right now.” she muttered.
With a chuckle the model inquired innocently, “And what might that be?”
Torrance gave her a predatory stare and growled, “You.”
Helen felt the admission go straight between her thighs as her arousal
jumped in response. Just the thought of the photographer’s tongue working
its magic put Helen on the edge of orgasmic bliss. Her legs automatically
opened to accommodate the hard body on top of her as Torrance began to kiss
her way down the model’s frame.
Even though they had been together once before, it truly was like the first
time with the way Torrance explored every curve of the body she adored.
Torrance felt addicted to the teacher’s body with the way her own responded
to the sight, sound, and smell of her lover. The brunette never wanted the
overload of her senses to end as she took an inventory of each inch of the
model. Being drawn to the blonde’s essence though, the older woman spent
most of her time relishing the taste and feel of her lover from the inside.
Torrance knew that all she could ever want was right there in the cradle of
the younger woman’s thighs and simply savored being that close to her at
first. She didn’t aim to bring Helen to climax, content with just their
intimate connection. However she kept in time with the instinctive rhythm of
the blonde’s hips thrusting gently each time they undulated up toward her
taking her deeper into the depths of Helen’s body and soul.
Helen felt herself floating along a plane of pleasure she didn’t know
existed. She had never experienced making love the way she was now, even
with their first time. It was clear that Torrance’s mission was not to just
make her orgasm but to give them a real physical and emotional tie, and the
feel of the older woman being there inside of her made her heart ache in so
much joy that tears began to form in her eyes. The years of longing were
over, and she now had the love of her life there worshiping her body out of
reverence of their relationship. “Torrance.” she softly uttered.
The photographer glanced up into the teacher’s face. Seeing the green
tearful eyes, she pulled away slightly and moved up the petite frame so they
were face to face. “What is it, beautiful?”
“I love you.” she avowed.
“I love you too, Helen, more than you could ever know.” the older woman
replied gently wiping the blonde’s tears and kissing her sweetly.
Their love making last long into the night with each of them taking several
turns acquainting themselves with their lover’s body until exhaustion
finally overtook them both. As they laid quietly having worn themselves out
for the night, Torrance lightly stroked her girlfriend’s forearm as she
cuddled in closer to the blonde’s back and leaned in for one last kiss.
Helen sighed when she felt Torrance’s lips against her temple. Everything
in her life finally seemed right. After such a long wait, the photographer
was there holding her and protecting her from the world. All she had ever
wanted in their relationship had come true, and she was now intimately
reconnected with the woman she had loved for so many years.
In the morning when Helen awoke she rolled over expecting to find Torrance
there bedside her, but the bed was empty. Alarm came over her at seeing her
girlfriend gone, but refusing to give in to the panic she felt right away,
she slid out of bed to investigate the rest of the apartment. Stepping out
into the hallway, she heard the shower running in the bathroom instantly
calming her. For a moment she felt as if she was reliving their past, but
the fact that Torrance had stayed made her feel more assured that their
relationships was strong. Helen knocked on the door before opening it and
saying, “Morning.”
Torrance pulled back the shower curtain enough to see the blonde standing
there. She flashed a soft smile. “Bonjour, Mademoiselle Melbourne.”
The teacher’s eyes roamed over the photographer’s naked, wet body and found
her passion from the night before making another appearance. “Is there room
in there for one more?” she inquired stepping completely into the bathroom
and shutting the door behind her.
The older woman gave an audacious grin at the sight of the blonde’s bare
frame. “There’s always room for you. Care to join me?” Extending her hand,
Torrance grabbed the smaller woman by the arm and pulled her into the
shower. Helen stumbled slightly off balance, but the strong arms of her
girlfriend enveloped her. “I’ve got you.”
“You certainly do.” the model replied looking up into the eyes she adored
as her arms came around Torrance’s neck. They began to kiss softly but
before long their ardor began to resurface as their hands became more
possessive along each other’s bodies. Taking control of the situation,
Torrance leaned the blonde against the wall of the shower to help support
her as her mouth dipped down to taste her beloved’s inviting cleavage.
Immediately Helen’s hands were in her hair pressing her deeper as the
younger woman let out a strangled cry of her mounting desire. “I need you,
Torrance.” she pleaded when the older woman’s hand dropped between her legs
and began teasing her inner thighs lightly.
The photographer wasted no time as she responded to the request, sliding
easily inside her girlfriend. Both of them groaned at the feeling. Torrance
set a grinding pace working Helen slowly as she had done the night before,
making the blonde do her share to reach satisfaction. “God, you’re so sexy.”
she whispered against the smaller woman’s ear as she thrust with her whole
body.
Helen gasped and cried with each plunge as her lover went deeper into her
body. She felt incredibly and blissfully full as she did her part to
increase the contact by pulling Torrance closer each time she delved
further. “Torrance!” she shrieked as she neared her climax.
“I’ve got you. Just let go. Come for me, Helen.” seductively the brunette
instructed.
Helen screamed and gasped loudly shoving Torrance’s face into her neck and
holding on tightly as she shook to the core with her peak. Torrance went
over the edge as well feeling the younger woman contracting around her
fingers. Heavy breathing was the only sound for several moments until they
settled. When it appeared that they were both calm, Torrance kissed the
blonde’s cheek lightly. “I love you.”
“I love you too, Torrance.”
“Could I wash your hair for you?” the photographer sweetly asked.
After their shower Torrance regretfully announced that she had to get back
to New York that afternoon much to Helen’s disappointment. However making
love to her again before they dressed seemed to pacify her blonde lover
temporarily. That day as they stood at the door saying good bye, Helen
didn’t want to let Torrance leave. She knew that even though she was content
it would now be harder when they were apart due to the new aspect of their
relationship. Now that she was open to their sexual relationship she
couldn’t stop thinking about her girlfriend in the throes of passion.
“I wish you didn’t have to leave.” the younger woman mentioned fondling the
seat of the brunette’s pants.
“I wish I didn’t have to either, but I have work to do.”
“Stay just a little longer.” she pouted kissing the older woman’s neck
temptingly.
Torrance moaned at the feeling as her sexual core responded to the
stimulus. “You’re making this impossible to leave.” she groaned, her hands
bringing their hips together.
“Then don’t go. Stay here and love me.” Helen leaned up to catch her
girlfriend’s mouth in a steaming kiss.
Torrance growled deeply in her chest as she gave into her desires to have
the young woman again. She dropped her bag off her shoulder and backed Helen
over to the couch. Pushing her onto it, Torrance fell on top of her and
began to grapple with the teacher’s clothing. Helen forwent undressing the
photographer, content with just slipping her hand between the folds of her
trousers. Their mouths came together roughly, their tongues battling each
other hotly as their hands found each other’s entrance. Without any
hesitation they slipped into each other simultaneously. Groping each other’s
frames, they came together with a carnality neither of them were used to at
least with each other, but both were satisfied with the quick jaunt.
They rested inside each other as they cuddled on the sofa for a few
minutes. “I really have to go even though I don’t want to.” the older woman
stated quietly.
Before Helen could reply the sound of a door opening in the back of the
apartment made them quickly pull away from each other and get presentable.
Kelly hesitantly walked into the room and jested, “Is it safe to come out
yet?”
“Kelly, what are you doing here?” Helen asked. “I thought you were working
today.”
“Well, I was supposed to, but I was too tired after last night. When Mark
and I got home, the two of you kept us up with your carrying on. Then after
he left this morning I thought I was going to finally get some sleep, but
then you two got into the shower. I’ve been waiting all morning to escape
the confines of the bedroom. Sorry I interrupted though.”
“It’s all right. I have to get going anyway.” Torrance stated taking the
opportunity to stand. Helen did the same. Going over to the door, the
brunette picked up her discarded bag. She turned her eyes to her girlfriend.
“Well, I will miss you, Helen.”
“I’ll miss you too, so much. I wish we didn’t have to do this.”
“Yeah, me too but we have to. That’s what we get for being in two different
cities. Sometimes that few hour commute seems like across the country.”
“I know, but I’m going to make more of an effort to come to New York on the
weekends.”
“I’d like that, but you don’t need to be running yourself ragged just
trying to come see me. All we’d be doing there is babysitting Melissa.
That’s not very exciting.”
“But I want to. A month was too long, Torrance.”
The older woman nodded. “Well, we can talk about this more later. I really
have to get going. I’m going to be late for my shoot if I don’t hurry.”
“Call me later?” Helen asked.
“Sure.” They kissed quickly before Torrance whispered, “I love you.”
“I love you too. Talk to you tonight.” Helen closed the door behind the
older woman and then leaned her forehead against it momentarily. Even though
she felt wonderful about the new phase of their relationship, her heart
ached all the more at the dark-haired woman’s departure.
Her thoughts were interrupted by her roommate’s voice. “So, do I even need
to ask how things went?” Kelly inquired playfully. Helen turned to look over
to the couch. Seeing the blonde near tears, the brunette softly asked,
“What’s wrong, Helen?”
“I feel like my heart just walked out the door.” she stated coming to drop
onto the sofa next to her.
“That’s because it did, but it’s a good thing.”
“I know. This is just going to be harder now.” she mentioned.
“I know. On a brighter note, tell me. Was last night as good as it
sounded?” she teased shaking her roommate lightly by the arm.
The teacher blushed and giggled. “Oh, I can’t even begin to describe it,
Kelly. It truly was like nothing I’ve ever experienced, even the first time.
I now know what I’ve been missing my entire life. This is what it’s supposed
to be like.”
“Sounds like she really knows her stuff. I’ve never heard you like that.”
she joked.
Helen gave her roommate a serious look as she replied, “That’s because I’ve
never been like that. She touches something inside of me that no one else
has.”
Kelly nodded. After a pause she hesitantly inquired, “So, how was it for
you to reciprocate?”
Helen smiled. “You know, Kelly, I don’t know why I was so freaked about it
now that I look back. I guess it was because I just didn’t understand what
it meant. Now I know that my giving to her is just an extension of my
feelings for her. I mean when I think about it giving a blow job is much
worse.”
“How so?” curiously Kelly asked.
“Well because guys just use you as a receptacle. Men expect that service as
a part of being a girlfriend, and I always just kind of did it out of a
feeling of obligation to the relationship. It was just a way to get out of
sex if I wasn’t in the mood, and they didn’t care as long as they got off. I
never felt the urge to do that of my own accord. However with Torrance I
wanted to show her in a way I’ve never shown anyone how much I love her. In
fact she was the one who was a little hesitant. There was a moment of
nervousness on my part, but I just jumped in, and the moment I did I
realized how much time I wasted by being scared.”
“But you didn’t think it was disgusting or anything? I mean the thought of
me doing that personally is vile. I think it would make me sick to eat out a
woman like that.”
Helen shrugged. “Well, I always thought giving head was disgusting, so to
each their own I guess. There is nothing about giving Torrance pleasure that
is repulsing to me. Besides aren’t you the one that said you’d go to Europe
with her even if you had to sleep with her to do it?
You couldn’t be that disgusted by it.” she joked.
“Well, there’s a difference between letting a hottie like that bang me for
a free trip to Europe and getting personal with that tiger of hers. I’d
still let her eat me if she wanted to. How hard is it to spread your legs
for a body like that? To tell you the truth, if Torrance were a man, I’d
probably dump Mark for her.” she quipped with a laugh.
Both women laughed. “I guess it’s a good thing she is definitely a woman
then. I’d hate to have competition from you on this one. Seriously though
I’m perfectly comfortable with the idea of being sexual with her now.
Providing her that particular intimacy is enjoyable for me, because I know
how it makes her feel. She was right when she said it was different between
women. You have to be completely there and into it for it to work. There
isn’t this laying back and letting a guy to what he will. You have to be an
active participant, and I’ll tell you, Kelly. It’s so much better than I’ve
ever had it before, because I know for certain when she touches me that it’s
out of love. Even though she can get off on giving to me, the reason she
touches me is to give me pleasure and only that. With men they touch you to
try to get you in the mood to please them, but with her it’s all about
mutual pleasure. It really is incredible.” the blonde stated with a content
sigh.
“Sounds that way. I’m glad you’re happy, Helen. I always hoped that you
would find someone that makes you as happy as Mark makes me, even though if
you keep this up, you and Torrance will be the death of me.” she teased.
“Why’s that?” Helen asked in interest.
“Mark is just a man. He doesn’t have superhuman strength. The idea of two
women in the room next to ours getting each other off like there is no
tomorrow was a little more than he could handle. As soon as we settled down
for bed, he wanted a little action himself. I think hearing you like that
knowing that Torrance was the cause made him horny even as much as he didn’t
want to admit it. I think he was disappointed though that Torrance lasted
longer than he did.” she jested.
Helen moaned as she thought of the photographer’s stamina. “Oh, she can go
all night. That part might take getting used to. I’ve never had anyone with
as much endurance. Tiring her out might be a challenge, but it’s also great,
because it doesn’t have to be over as soon as you orgasm. She’s the first
one to tap me for multiples. It’s fantastic.” she said dreamily.
Kelly laughed at her. “You are so in love, Helen. This is so good to see.
Mark and I are happy that you’ve found the right person.”
“She is the right person.” Helen replied.
Sobering slightly Kelly inquired, “Could I ask where you stand as far as
your general sexuality? Saying Torrance is the right one kind of leaves the
question open.”
“Well, I’ve been giving that a lot of thought actually, and last night
confirmed what I think I already knew. Torrance is the one I could see
myself being with the rest of my life. However heaven forbid something
happen to us, I don’t think I could ever go back to men. Torrance has showed
me that I deserve more than I got from them. I’ve always needed more I
think, but I never realized that until her. She’s shown me that I deserve to
have all my needs met, and I never found that with men. There was always a
piece that was missing, and Torrance has filled that void.”
“So, does that mean you’re a lesbian?” Kelly timidly inquired.
“I don’t know. I don’t think I’ve started looking at women sexually in
general except for Torrance, but I do know that I’ve stopped looking at men.
They don’t interest me at all anymore. If that makes me a lesbian, then I
guess I am one. I know people will think I am one by virtue of being with
Torrance, and I’m comfortable with that. I’m not going to say it of myself
yet, but if they say it of me, I don’t think I’d dispute it.”
“Well, that says a lot, Helen, but I think you have found the person you’re
supposed to be with for the rest of your life as well. I guess the only
question is how are you ever going to survive in New York?”
Continued Part 9
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