~ Triumphant Love ~
by Alex Tryst
Copyright © September 2001


Disclaimer: This is a story like none other posted on this site, so please throughly read this disclaimer before beginning. This book contains original characters and is about one couple’s struggle with their demons as they venture through their relationship. As with real life, there are gay, lesbian, and straight people even though the focus is primarily on the heterosexual couple. Derogatory, racists, and homophobic language is used. Additionally, sensitive subjects matters are addressed such as but not limited to: teen pregnancy, abortion, racism, rape, child abuse (verbal, physical, and sexual), hate crimes, sexual dysfunction, infidelity, and anger management problems. Please be aware that this story is not for everyone and may not be appropriate for all readers. If you are under age 18, you probably should not be reading this material. I tried to write of these subjects with delicacy and discretion, but it may still be offensive to some, so please understand what you are becoming involved in as you begin to read. As always constructive criticism and comments are welcome at alextryst@hotmail.com.

Dedication: To my wife, you are my fondest wish, and to the woman that was the inspiration for this story... I hope I captured your essence as a strong and enduring spirit in the character of the lovely Brittany Saxton.

Now on with the show...


Part 7


Chapter 9

Months quickly passed into a year. Dan finally graduated from school with his Masters in English while Brittany decided to continue on to her Ph.D. in physics. Two year old Victoria was looking more like Brittany daily while one year olds Alexis, who Dan had gotten accustom to calling Alex for short, and Ana, were showing a mix of their parents. Kim was still with them, living in the guest house. Eventually she and Brittany had worked through things, and Kim had found someone else to occupy her thoughts. Jen and Melissa ended up moving in to a small house of their own when Becca and her boyfriend of a year and a half decided to live together. David, much to everyone's surprise though, had managed to hook himself a sweet, middle- aged, petite brunette divorcee with adult children of her own, named Kelly, with whom he was seen on a regular basis.

Lounging together in the living room one night after the kids had been put to bed for the evening, Brittany and Dan snuggled in content silence as they each read their books. "You want me to get you another cup of tea?" he asked finally breaking the silence.

"No, thanks. I'm fine." Brittany whispered.

"Brittany, I've been wanting to talk to you about something important."

"What is it?" she asked closing her book and looking at him.

"I've been thinking I want to go back to work. I've finished writing my poetry book, and the college is looking for someone to teach some undergrad poetry classes in the spring. I mentioned to them that I was interested, and they seemed to think it was a good idea."

"Well, that's great. I was wondering what you're plans were once school was over. I'm happy for you."

"Are you sure you're okay with it? I mean after all that's happened, I just wanted to know how you felt about it."

"You've grown up considerably, Daniel. You're twenty seven now, not twenty two. I know you can handle it. If they are willing to look past your resignation, I think it's wonderful. I definitely think you should pursue it if that's what you want."

"Good. I was hoping you'd feel that way."

"Since we're on important topics, I also have something I was thinking about."

"What's that?"

"After finishing my doctorate, I'd like to have another baby." she hesitantly presented.

"Are you serious? Why? Three's not enough for you?" Dan inquired with surprise.

"Yes, I'm serious. I want to try to try to have a son. I'd really like to give you a son, Daniel."

"Brittany, I already have paradise with you and the girls. I don't need a son to be happy."

"I know, but it's something I've wanted to do. Our children have never been planned, but I'd like to plan for one more. I just want one more opportunity. I promise no more after that."

"Well, if it's what you really want, I'll do it, but let's give it some more thought. You still have two years before you're finished with school."

"You mean it?" Brittany inquired hopefully. Dan nodded giving her a loving smile.

That spring Dan began teaching freshman poetry as well as advanced poetry and was a student advisor for freshman. On the first day of classes, he walked in with coffee in one hand, books in the other. He immediately noticed the majority of the class was female. Setting his things on the table in the front of the room, he grabbed a vacant chair. "Good morning class. My name is Daniel McKnight, and this is the freshman poetry class. The first thing I want to do is rearrange the desks into a circle, so everybody up out of their seats." After a few minutes of rustling, the students were in their circle awaiting Dan to continue. "Fabulous. Now being that this is the first day, we're just going to discuss the syllabus, but first off I'd like everyone to introduce themselves. I believe that for most writers, their work is personal, and it takes trust to share it. In order to build that trust, we must know and respect people's differences as well as similarities. Having said that, I'll go first to ease any tension. As I said before, my name is Daniel McKnight. I would like to be called Dan, since I want the class to have an informal feel. I'm twenty seven years old. I've been married for almost three years to a wonderful woman named Brittany, and we have three girls, Victoria, Alexis, and Ana. I just finished my Masters, and I'm about to publish my first book of poetry."

"Didn't you used to play for the Cowboys?" one male student asked.

"Yes, I played for the Dallas Cowboys for two years." Dan curtly replied, making it known that the matter was not up for discussion. Once introductions were complete, Dan handed out the syllabus. "We will be going over the fundamentals of poetry, but for the most part, this will be a creative writing class. Everyone will be required to turn in a certain amount of original pieces for us to read and discuss. The details are in the syllabus. I want everyone to read the first two chapters in our book and begin working on their poems. The first submission date is next Monday. That's all for today unless anyone has any questions."

Dan went back to his office since he had a couple of hours before his next class. A knock on the door brought him out of his book. "Coach McKnight." a male voice called tentatively.

Dan looked at the man standing in his door curiously. "No one has called me that in years. You're too young for me to have been your coach. How do we know each other?"

"Actually, you were my coach in high school when I was a freshman. I took a couple of years off before starting college. You probably don't remember me. I've definitely changed."

"What did you say your name was?"

"Peyton."

"Cooper?" Dan asked. Peyton nodded. "No way! You certainly have changed! I remember you as this scrawny, lanky, five foot six kid. You ran distance, right?" Peyton nodded again. "Wow! Look at you! I never would've recognized you. You certainly have grown. What are you up to? About six two, 200, 210?"

"Something like that."

"The girls must be wild about you." Dan commented.

"I get my fair share. You've changed a lot too, married, kids." Dan nodded. "So, Brittany, was that the same Brittany that was student teaching at our school?"

"Sure is."

"Man, I used to have the biggest crush on her. She was something else."

"She still is." Dan commented turning the picture on his desk so Peyton could see her and the girls.

"What's she doing now?"

"Well, she's playing mother and full time student. She's getting her Ph.D. in physics."

"Wow, that's impressive."

Dan nodded in agreement. "So, Peyton, what are you hoping to get out of my class?"

Peyton shrugged. "Well, all the freshman have to take a writing class of some sort. I thought it would be mostly girls in poetry. Thought I might get lucky."

Dan laughed. "At least you're honest about it. Still I'm going to try to make it interesting for everyone."

"May I ask why you quit football? I remember watching you. You were great."

"I don't normally like discussing football with people, but basically I quit to save my marriage. Brittany and I weren't having the relationship we wanted with each other, and when we found out we were expecting, it just seemed logical. Everyone's happier this way."

When Dan returned home that evening, he was greeted by all his girls. As soon as he closed the door, he heard the familiar footfall of his eldest, followed closely behind by the twins. Kneeling down, he embraced them all in a hug. "How are my girls? Were you good for Kim today?" he asked as they climbed all over him. Brittany turned to corner to see Dan surrounded. Scooping Ana up into her arms, Brittany watched Dan get Victoria and Alexis in each of his. Standing he gave Brittany a slow kiss. The girls squirmed and squealed to get free of their parents. Letting them go, Dan and Brittany walked back into the family room. "How was school today, Mom?" he asked playfully pinching her jean clad posterior.

"Hectic but good. How was your day?"

"Great. I met a former runner of mine. He name is Peyton Cooper."

"I think I remember him. He's a tiny guy, one of those distance runners that used to pace me when I ran."

"Yeah, but he's not so tiny now. He's turned into quite a man actually. He told me he used to have a crush on you." Brittany just smiled as she settled herself on the floor amongst the girls.

Settling the girls for dinner that night was like most every night, quite an affair, but it became an unvoiced understanding that each adult, including Kim grab one child to get situated. As usual dinner focused around the children. With two year old Victoria beginning to speak and the one years olds trying to fed themselves, meal time was always entertaining as the three adults tried to do damage control on the furniture and clothing. Once dinner was over, Dan and Brittany took the girls upstairs for their bath time while Kim did dishes. Most of the time, Dan and Brittany would throw all three kids in together and both work on bathing them, before dressing them for bed. While Brittany worked on Ana, Dan dressed Victoria, and Alexis ran around the nursery naked and wet, delighted to be free from the confines of her clothing.

"I'll go get our little streaker." Dan joked when he finished with Victoria. Dan crawled to the bathroom door and peered around it into the room. As always Alexis was standing in the middle of the room waiting on him. Dan smiled to himself. This was his favorite game to play with his daughter. Unlike her other two sisters who fled when Dan playfully stalked them, Alexis liked to charge him, trying to knock him over. Even though Brittany tried to discourage the behavior, Alexis had differentiated between her sisters and mother, whom she couldn't run into and her father and Kim which she could. Running as fast as her little legs could carry her, she came barreling at Dan. Just before she made contact, Dan fell to the floor, so she tumbled onto him, laughing with excitement. Then all at once he was pounded my all three girls. Dan sighed in contentment as he smiled at Brittany in the bathroom doorway. He was blissfully happy with his life.

Once the children had been put to bed, Brittany and Dan sat quietly together, Brittany studying her physics and Dan preparing for classes. At nine Brittany announced that she had to work on a paper in her office, leaving Dan alone on the family room couch. Stretching out, he closed his work and just thought about his family. His beloved twenty six year old wife continued to bring him happiness like he'd never known. Her magnificent physical beauty was only surpassed by her tender yet strong spirit. He knew he wouldn't be the man he was without her. She had pulled him from the depths of emotional hell and transformed him into a person who cared and who could love again completely. She had given him the greatest gifts he'd ever known, her undying love and devotion and three beautiful children, who enriched their lives daily.

Dan couldn't imagine life without his little girls. Every time he looked into Victoria's face, he saw Brittany smiling back at him. Even at two she was trying to exert her independence. Her strong interest in art pleased Brittany and Dan greatly, even though Dan found paint spatters in places he never imagined in her room. He had finally given up on scrubbing the floor and walls, deciding to just redecorate when she had grown out of her paint throwing phase. His little Ana was the most proper of the girls, looking like a doll at all times. She was the only one who made notable effort to keep herself clean and neat, often getting upset if either of her sisters managed to mess up her clothes with food or toys. She was a shy child with strangers and liked to stay as close to Brittany as she could, often quietly following her around the house. Then there was Alexis. It was obvious that she took after Dan, with her looks and natural athletic aptitude. She liked physical play, which Brittany considered too rough most of the time, but somehow she knew Dan and Kim would allow her to get away with it. It seemed like the only time she wanted to be still was when she looked at her books.

Dan never even realized he had dozed off until he felt familiar, supple lips against his own. Opening his eyes, he saw Brittany standing over him. "Come on, handsome. It's after 11:00. Come to bed." Dan checked all the doors before joining Brittany upstairs. She was already in their bathroom, standing in her robe, brushing out her golden hair.

Dan came up behind her encircling her waist. "Thank you for making my life so wonderful." he whispered kissing the nape of her neck.

She moaned softly. "You know exactly where to touch me and what to say, don't you?" She turned to face him. Dan kissed her intently. When it broke, she stated, "You know if I wasn't totally exhausted, I'd be completely into this."

Dan stroked her hair gently. "I know. I'm pretty tired myself. I'll tell you what. Why don't I give you a back rub in bed? You're all stiff."

"Oh, I'd love you forever." she mumbled.

"You mean you don't already?" he teased.

They both awoke around five the next morning to attend to the twins, but once they were sleeping again, Brittany and Dan went back to their bedroom. Brittany crawled into bed, as Dan disappeared into their dressing area. He reappeared in his running clothes a few minutes later. "Do you really have to go running right now?" Brittany asked as he sat on the edge of the bed to tie his shoes.

"Well, I was going to go into the office early today to prepare some lesson plans."

"But I have the morning off. I don't have to be at school until after lunch." she mentioned embracing his shoulders. "What if I offered you an alternative cardiovascular exercise? Would you stay here in bed with me for awhile?" she purred into his ear as her hands ran over his chest. Dan could feel her shapely breasts rubbing into his back, making him groan. "Kim's going to come over early to take care of the girls, so we can spend some time together. Come on, Daniel. Don't go."

Dan slid off his shoes as Brittany's hands worked under his shirt to his bare abs. "How could I resist such persistence?" he asked lying down again and pulling her into his arms.

Dan and Brittany spent the rare luxury of being alone asleep in each others embrace. Finally at 8:00 they leisurely dressed before going downstairs into the whirlwind of their children.

They opted to go out together for an early lunch, before Brittany took Dan to his office. Being that they had extra time before she had to go, they walked hand in hand through campus toward the English department. Suddenly Dan heard his name in the distance. Turning, he saw Peyton headed toward them. "Hey, Peyton. How are you?" he greeted when Peyton got closer.

"Fine." he replied his eyes on Brittany.

"Peyton, you remember my wife Brittany. Brittany, Peyton Cooper."

"So I assumed. How are you, Peyton? Good to see you again."

"Dan wasn't lying. He is the luckiest man alive to have you. I remember you as beautiful, but age has made you undescribably so. You're absolutely radiant."

Brittany blushed deeply, shifting closer to Dan. "Well, not only have you become a physical work of art, you've become quite a Casanova as well. I remember you being not much taller than me, chasing me around the track."

It was Peyton's turn to flush. "Yeah, well," he muttered. "I needed something to keep me motivated."

As Brittany and Peyton spoke, Dan felt like an outsider in the conversation. Never in his life had a man stolen his wife's attention away from himself.

"Dan showed me a picture of your girls. They are beautiful. Looks like motherhood suits you. I hear you're working on your Ph.D. as well. Beauty and brains. What I would give for a woman like you."

"I'm sure you get your share of ladies." Brittany stated sensing the tension suddenly coming from Dan.

Peyton shrugged. "Well, most of the women I meet are through my lawn and pool service. They are all bored housewives looking for a little excitement. Not the makings of a relationship by any means."

"You own a lawn and pool service?" Dan asked finally breaking in between their chatter.

"Yeah. I started in high school, and it's just grown from there. I never intended for it to happen, but it's become quite lucrative, so I've stuck with it."

"Well, that's good to know. I actually have become dissatisfied with the company we've been using the last few years. I was thinking of using someone else."

"Well, I'd be happy to come give you an estimate sometime."

"That would be great. We'll talk about it later. Right now we really have to get going."

Brittany noticed the slight edge in Dan's voice and knew he was growing tired of Peyton's company. "Yes, we really do." she repeated.

"All right. It was good to see you again, Brittany."

As they walked away, Brittany took Dan's arm. "He's turned into quite the ladies' man." she stated.

"Yeah, as long as he stays away from my lady, that's all I care about."

"Don't tell me you're jealous that he was giving me some attention."

Dan shrugged. "I know men look at you and probably flirt with you when I'm not around, but I've just never had one do it in front of me before. I wanted to punch him."

Brittany laughed. "Don't get worked up over nothing, honey. He was just being nice."

"Nice? Nice is saying you look great, not whatever line he gave you."

"Daniel, there's no need to feel insecure. There's no contest. I'm yours heart, mind, body, and soul. Besides, he's only what? Twenty one? That's way too young for me." she joked trying to lighten the mood.

"Promise? I know I'm not the young stud I used to be. I'm getting gray hair and have to wear glasses now. You could have any man you wanted."

"But I only want you, Daniel. You don't need to feed me lines, never did. All you ever have to do is touch me, and my insides melt into liquid fire. You are a wonderful man, and you've helped me become a better person."

"You've helped me too. I know I owe my life to you. If it weren't for you, I'd still be angry at the world and taking it out on everyone. You and the girls have made me a pushover. I'm just a big softie."

"But what a sexy pushover you are. You know, this morning I promised you a workout. Just because we didn't get to it then, don't think I forgot." she whispered as they arrived at his office door.

Dan felt her hand dive into his front pocket suggestively. Quickly he unlocked the door checking his watch. "Well, you do have a little under an hour before you have to leave." he stated giving her the eyes. Escorting her inside, he locked the door behind them.

"A futon, how convenient." Brittany said taking Dan by the arm. Pushing him onto it, she straddled his legs.

"You know what I love about you, Brittany? I hardly ever have to ask for sex. Your sex drive equals if not surpasses my own, which I wasn't sure was possible. Many men would kill for a woman like you."

Brittany giggled. "You made me this way. It's your own fault for being so damn good." she teased, but then her face took on a seriousness. "You know after Stephen, I never thought I would be able to enjoy sex or even enjoy being physically close to a man again. You brought my spirit back to life, Daniel. It's like every time we make love, it feels like an incredible dream. The tenderness and deep, all-consuming emotion is so powerful. I never want it to change."

Dan stroked her cheek gently. "It never will, because I'll always be deeply and madly in love with you, Brittany. I'm destined to love you for eternity. Never in my life has someone touched my heart so deeply. You've touched places I didn't even know existed."

Brittany leaned into his mouth, giving him a sensual open-mouthed kiss. When it broke, their eyes met in a loving gaze. Knowing how much it turned him on when she asked, she whispered, "Make love to me, Daniel."

Dan knew he would never deny that request from her, so he laid them both out on the couch. Just as many times before, they were completely in tune to each other. However Brittany teetered on the brink of fulfillment longer than usual, only falling over the precipice at the sudden unwelcome invasion of an auburn haired twenty one year old Romeo in her mind. Unnerved that Peyton had appeared at her pinnacle of pleasure, her eyes shot open, surprising Dan.

Dan had never seen the look on his wife's face before. Stopping his ministration, he asked, "Are you all right?"

Brittany was shocked that Dan had read her so easily. Meeting his eyes, she saw the loving concern pouring out from his green pools. Her heart ached and her eyes began to tear. "I'll be okay." she whispered, trying to shake Peyton from her head.

"Maybe I should stop." Dan offered beginning to pull away, but Brittany clutched his body back to her.

"Please don't." she begged.

"But if I hurt you..."

"You didn't, Daniel." she insisted.

"Are you sure?"

"Yes, I'm sure. It was nothing. Please don't stop."

Dan continued as requested, but he noted that she never peaked again before he finally did, concerning him that he had hurt her, even though she said otherwise.

When Brittany went to class that afternoon, she cried all the way there, disturbed by Peyton intruding into her deepest thoughts only reserved for her husband. Never in her life had her mind strayed away from her cherished Daniel during physical closeness, and even as active as Dan's mind was, she was confidant that he was only thinking of her during intimacy. Her mind had betrayed her, and she felt guilty for the unintentional impropriety.

The following Saturday morning Brittany and Kim were letting the girls play in the front yard when they noticed a car turn into the driveway. "You expecting someone?" Kim asked.

Brittany shook her head as the car approached the house. Brittany stared closely trying to see the driver. "Oh God." she gasped.

"What?" Kim inquired.

Brittany just looked on as Peyton parked his car in the circle drive. She watched him step from his car as her eyes made their way up from his tennis shoe clad feet up his strong legs to his khaki shorts and knit shirt that accentuated his broad shoulders and chest and finally up to his smile.

"Good morning, ladies." he greeted.

"Hi, Peyton. How are you?" Brittany asked embracing Ana who had crawled into her lap at his arrival.

"Fabulous. Your beauty is only magnified around your children, Brittany. You glow. It's amazing."

Brittany couldn't fight the blush rising in her cheeks, but she ignored the comment. Instead she gave him quick introductions to Kim and the girls.

"Well, where's Dan this morning? He said he wanted to walk to grounds with me while I did the estimate."

"Oh, he's not here. He went out to run errands. Knowing him, he probably forgot. That man forgets everything if he doesn't write it down. Let me call him for you." She returned a few minutes later. "He said he'd be back within half and hour, and to go ahead and start if you're in a hurry."

"I'll just wait. I'm not in a rush. Besides it appears as if Alexis isn't finished with my shoes yet." he mentioned looking down at Alexis who was pulling on his shoe strings.

Instantly Brittany came to get her. Bending down she stated, "Sorry. Daniel taught her to untie shoes thinking it was funny. We don't even notice any more."

Peyton gave Alexis, who was now in Brittany's arms, a warm smile before turning to Brittany. "Smart kid. Must take after you." he joked before retying his shoes.

Brittany desperately tried to push the thoughts she'd been having about him over the past week from her mind as they spoke. Twenty minutes later she was relieved to see Dan's old Mustang turn into the driveway.

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Over the next few months Peyton and his company made weekly appearances at the house, usually Saturdays. Most of the time, Dan was out at the golf course with Mike leaving Brittany to deal with him alone. Although Peyton had always been complimentary with his words, he never tried to get physically close to her, so Brittany assumed that he was uninterested and therefore harmless. However, she had let herself become more comfortable with the idea of him in her thoughts. Slowly she had found herself having fantasy scenarios with him, figuring they were a safe way of dealing with the attraction she felt toward him.

One particular summer Saturday Dan went to his usual golf game. Kim was out for the day, and Jen and Melissa had come to pick up the girls early so Brittany could plan an afternoon alone with Dan. Knowing he wouldn't be home for several hours, she decided to get some sun. Slipping into Dan's favorite bikini, she settled herself by the pool, thinking about how wonderful it would be to have time together without the kids.

Dan and Mike played nine holes that day, but Mike's poor performance and solemn mood made Dan wonder if something was bothering his friend. Once the round was over, Dan suggested that they get lunch at the clubhouse. Mike agreed quietly. After it was brought to them out on the patio, Dan asked, "What's bothering you, Mike? I can tell something is on your mind."

"It's Mike, Jr."

"Something wrong with him?"

"He's gotten himself into serious trouble at school. He called me from jail last night asking if I would post bail for him."

"Oh no. What did he do?" Mike didn't answer at first, concerning Dan further. "Mike?"

"He was arrested for three counts of rape." flatly he stated.

Dan groaned in displeasure. "Are you going to try to get him off?"

"I'm not sure what I should do. I know of several good attorneys that could probably beat whatever case they have. I'm just not sure I should get involved."

"Do you think he's guilty?" Dan questioned hesitantly, reading his friend's demeanor.

"I'm not going to say I think he's innocent."

"I'm really sorry, Mike." Dan apologized.

"You know what really upsets me, though? I keep thinking about Melissa. When she told me what he had done, I didn't believe her. She was telling the truth, wasn't she?"

"Yes, she was." quietly Dan answered.

"I screwed up so badly with her. I loved her, and I didn't believe her when she needed me the most. Maybe if I had, Mike, Jr. could've gotten help before getting himself into this mess, and maybe she and I would still be together."

"

It's pointless to speculate, Mike. It'll only drive you crazy."

"I know, but I can't help it. She was the best thing to come into my life, and I blew it. I told you once that I thought she was the love of my life. I still think that, even after all this time. This year and a half has done nothing to change the way I feel about her."

"Why don't you tell her?"

"What would I say? I'm sorry I didn't believe you when you said my son assaulted you?"

"Yes, say exactly that. I think it would make a difference if she knew how you felt."

"Even so, I'm not really worthy of that woman's love after how I treated her."

"Why don't you let her decide that?" suggested Dan, trying to give Mike some hope.

Brittany was awakened from her snooze by the sound of lawn mowers. Slowly opening her eyes, she jumped seeing Peyton standing at the end of her chaise, staring at her with unguarded lust. "Sorry." he stuttered. "I didn't know if you were asleep or not." Brittany could feel his eyes burning her skin. He sighed heavily. "Well, we're going to get to work. I'll do the pool last."

She just nodded as she looked over him in his white tank top and blue running shorts. She had long ago acknowledged to herself that she was attracted to him but felt it wasn't mutual. Now having seen him gaze at her brazenly, she felt a disconcerting churning in the pit of her stomach that settled with an agonizing pang between her thighs. She found herself imagining him there again. Turning onto her stomach, she closed her eyes, drifting back to sleep with him on her mind.

She didn't know how much time had passed when she awoke to a spray of water across her back. Instantly sitting up and turning over, she saw Peyton standing there with the hose, smiling at her playfully.

"You just looked like you could use a little cooling off." he joked.

Returning the grin, Brittany walked directly to him. Just within his reach, she took the hose from his hands. He eyed her suspiciously. Suddenly she turned it on him, splashing the front of his shirt, the wet cotton clinging to his defined chest. He grabbed the hose, turning it back on her to get her front side wet. For a few moments they fought for control over it, but then Brittany found herself in strong arms. She exhaled quickly as her chest brushed into his, but she didn't pull away.

"God, Brittany, you don't even know how many times I've dreamed of touching you." he confessed whisking a trickle of water off her bare shoulder.

"Peyton, please don't. Let me go." she said placing her hands on his upper arms but not trying to pull away from his body.

"Brittany, please. If you really want me to let you go, I will, but just listen to what I have to say first." When she didn't protest, he continued, "Brittany, you are so sexy. Every Saturday I come here not to mow your stupid lawn but to see you. You are one of a kind. No other woman I've ever met compares to you, to your beauty, to your intelligence, to your spirit. I'd hardly be a man if I didn't get all worked up whenever I saw you."

Brittany was stirred by the urgency in his whisper. She could feel him leaning into her, his stubbled jaw against her cheek putting her on sensory overload. Suddenly she felt his lips on hers, his tongue diving into her mouth. Brittany's world began to spin out of control as he purposefully ground her hips into his. She could've drowned in the feeling had Dan not penetrated her thoughts. Pulling away she covered her mouth with her hand in surprised shock at what she had allowed to happen. "Oh God." she whispered. She jumped when she heard the sliding glass door slam open. "Daniel." she croaked meeting his horrified glare.

Dan said nothing at first as his eyes went back and forth between the two of them. Never in his life had he imagined seeing his wife kissing another man. Ignoring the pain of his shattered heart for the moment, he asked, "Where are the girls?"

"Jen and Melissa took them for the day, so we could have some time together."

"You mean so you could have time together with Peyton!" he yelled.

"No! This is not what it looks like!"

"Then exactly what is it?"

"We were talking and..."

"Bullshit you were talking!" He cut her off. "I'm leaving! I can't talk to you right now!"

"Daniel, no! Please don't go! Just let me explain!" she begged following him into the house and grabbing him by the arm.

He quickly yanked free. "Don't touch me! I'll die if you touch me ever again after seeing you in his arms! How could you do this to me, Brittany?" He wasn't even attempting to hide the tears that cascaded down his face.

Brittany had never seen him in such pain in her life. "Daniel..."

"No! Don't say another word! I can't take it! Just leave me alone! Don't touch me! Don't talk to me! I'm leaving! Don't call me on my phone either!" he screamed moving toward the front door. Brittany tried to hold him back by the arm. Dan swiftly turned with his hand raised like he was going to strike her. She flinched. Realizing it would be the biggest mistake of his life, he dropped his hand. "Brittany, I said don't touch me." softly he stated.

The threat of him hitting her had moved her back several steps. She just watched as he got into his car and raced off down the driveway as she began to weep. After a few minutes, she felt a hand on her shoulder. She turned angrily. "If you respect me at all, never touch me again! I could lose him! I could lose my children! I can't let that happen! Just go, Peyton! I never want to see you again!"

"Brittany, we can work this out."

"Get out of my life! There's no room for you in it!" she screamed pushing him out the door. Running up to the bedroom, she collapsed onto the bed letting painful sobs rack her body. Seeing Dan in such pain, knowing she had caused it was too much to bear.

Dan's vision was so blurry he could hardly even drive. He went straight to Jen and Melissa's house to see his kids. When Melissa opened the door with Victoria by her side, Dan's tears began anew. Sweeping Victoria into his arms, he held her tightly as he wept.

"Dan, what's wrong?" Melissa asked.

Victoria began to repeat his name causing him to smile at her. "Yes, sweetheart. Daddy's here." Looking at Melissa he asked, "Where are the twins?"

"Still napping. Are you all right?"

He shook his head but didn't comment further. "I'm going to look in on them."

Brittany awoke in a daze hearing the phone. Grabbing it she asked hopefully, "Daniel?"

"No. Sorry, Britt. You sound awful. Did you and Dan get into a fight? He's here right now and looks terrible." Melissa stated.

"He's there? Put him on the phone."

A few minutes later Melissa came back. "I'm sorry, Brittany. He refuses to talk to you right now."

"Dammit Daniel. Has he said anything to you?"

"No. He refuses to talk, just wants to be alone with the girls."

"All right. See if you can keep him there. I'm on my way over."

Less than an hour later Brittany arrived. As soon as Dan saw her, he handed Victoria to Melissa. "Could you keep the girls occupied for a minute? I don't want them to have to see this." When they were alone, he said, "I thought I told you that I didn't want to talk to you."

"Daniel, we have to talk about this. What you saw or what you think happened didn't."

"You mean I imagined you kissing the pool boy! I saw you, Brittany! I saw you from the moment he sprayed you with the hose! I saw the smile you gave him! You were flirting with him, and you allowed him to touch you, to hold you, to kiss you, God dammit! I'm disgusted! Do you mean to tell me I imagined all that?" he screamed before tears choked him up. "Brittany, how could you? I love you. How could you tear our family apart like this?"

"Daniel, I'm so sorry. It was a big mistake, but it was an accident. I never intended for that to happen."

"An accident? You never even tried to pull away from him! How can you say it was an accident?"

"I love only you, Daniel. Please believe that."

"But you don't want only me! Tell me. Is there more to this relationship? Have you given yourself to him?"

"No! There's nothing between us! I swear it!" Dan started for the door. "Where are you going?" she asked.

"I am not your concern any more!" sharply he stated.

Brittany was obviously hurt by the rebuff. "Will we see you at home later tonight?"

He sneered at her. "How could you even ask me such a ridiculous question? No, I'm not coming home! How could I? How could I share a home not to mention a bed with you? The whole time I'd wonder if you were thinking of him!"

"Daniel, at least tell me where you're going. I'll be worried about you if I don't know."

"Why? You sure as hell weren't worried about me earlier! What were you thinking anyway? How to get him in bed?"

"Damn you!" Brittany screamed. "You really want to know what I was thinking? I was thinking of you, Daniel! You! When he kissed me, I thought of you! It felt awkward and wrong, and I pulled away from him."

"It took you that long to realize it was wrong?" he asked. When her answer was not immediately forthcoming, he took the chance to slip out the door.

Brittany went into where Jen and Melissa were playing with the kids. Getting onto the floor, she accepted Ana into her lap and silently rocked her back and forth as she cried. After several minutes she mumbled, "I guess you heard all that. I've just lost the only man I've ever loved. I can't go on without him. I don't want to."

"Who's the guy?"

"His name is Peyton Cooper. He cleans our pool."

"What's he like?"

"Twenty one, six two and gorgeous. Damn! Why did I let this happen? He's the first man I've ever been attracted to other than Daniel, but I should've been able to handle it."

"Apparently the attraction is mutual." mentioned Melissa.

"I really didn't mean for this to happen. If I could just take back those two seconds when he kissed me, Daniel would still be upset, but he wouldn't be shutting me out like this."

"He's really hurting, Britt." Jen said.

"I know, and I hate the fact that it's my fault."

Dan spent the night at his father's place that night. Since his father was out of town, he had a lot of time to think about where he wanted things to go. Brittany spent her night alone in their bed balling. Neither slept well. The following day Dan went by the house. Brittany was out, so he found Kim watching the girls.

"God, you look like shit, Dan." she commented.

He ignored her heading up to the master bedroom. He was just packing his clothes when he heard Kim put the kids down for their nap. She halted in the bedroom door. "What are you doing?" she asked.

"Packing." he mumbled.

"Going out of town?"

"No. I'm moving out."

"What?" Kim asked with surprise. "Why?"

"Because I can't stay here with her any more."

"You're leaving Brittany?" He nodded slowly. "Why? Does she know? What about the kids?"

"The kids have you and Brittany. I'll see them as much as I can while she's at school."

"You don't want to leave her, do you?"

"No, of course not, but I can't stay here either. I love her, but I can't pretend it didn't happen."

"What did happened? You two are in love and happy. How could that have gone so bad so quickly?"

Looking at her directly for the first time, he bluntly replied, "I found her with another man."

"Oh, Dan, I'm so sorry. You're obviously crushed."

"I don't know how I am. I just feel dead inside. I don't want to leave, but I don't know what else to do."

"Does she know about you moving out?"

"I'm going to wait until she gets home and tell her then."

When Brittany turned into the driveway and saw Dan's Mustang, her heart fluttered with hope, thinking maybe he had calmed down enough to speak to her. However as she pulled up to his car, she saw the suitcases in the back, and she was seized by panic. Rushing into the house, she confronted him in the family room. "What's going on, Daniel?" she asked nervously.

"Oh, you're home. I need to talk to you. Why don't we step outside?" Before getting off the floor he kissed each of his children before leading the way out to his car. "Last night I had a lot of time to think about things. I'm not really sure what to do. I don't really want a divorce, but I can't live here with you right now. You've hurt me deeply, Brittany. I don't know if I can forgive you. I guess only time will tell. For now though, I'm moving in with my dad."

"Daniel, please, don't leave. Don't leave me. Don't leave our children. They need you. I need you."

"I'm sorry, Brittany. I just can't stay. It would be too difficult. I plan on making arrangements with Kim to see the girls daily. I'm not walking out on them."

"No, you're waking out on me. You're leaving me for two minutes of indiscretion. Is our family worth so little to you?"

"It wasn't two minutes of indiscretion! It started here long before!" he yelled pointing to her heart. "Or maybe it started some place lower! I guess only you know!" he spat in anger.

Brittany's head snapped back at the venomous affront. "How dare you speak to me like that? You make me out to be some sort of whore! I feel bad about hurting you, Daniel, but I won't sit here and take your lewd innuendo! I know you're hurting, but right now you're just being an asshole!" she screamed in tears barging back into the house.

Dan sighed heavily. He had never stooped so low, speaking to a woman that way. Part of him wanted desperately to go after her and apologize, but the hurt refused, so he left feeling even worse.

By the time Dan had finished unloading his things, his father had returned with his girlfriend in tow. "Dan, what a surprise. What are you doing here?" David asked.

"I'm sorry, Dad. I just didn't know where else to go. I had to get out of that house. If you don't mind, I need to stay here for awhile."

"Of course, I don't mind, but what's wrong? Why aren't you at home with your lovely wife and wonderful children?"

Dan didn't answer at first looking over at Kelly. "Maybe I should go to let you two talk." she suggested.

"All right. I'll call you later." David stated. Dan watched them kiss good bye quickly before she left. "So," his dad began again. "What happened? She kick you out?"

"I left."

"Why?" When Dan didn't answer, his father stated plainly, "There's someone else." Dan nodded. "What's her name?"

"His name is Peyton!" Dan yelled rubbing his wet eyes.

"Oh boy." David mumbled. "I've always suspected Joe, but never would I have expected that from you. You've genuinely shocked me, son."

Dan glared at his father. "Not me, Dad! Brittany! There's someone else in Brittany's life!" he clarified slamming himself into the couch.

David wheeled himself to his son. Placing a gentle hand on his knee, he whispered, "Daniel, I'm sorry. I never would've guess it. You know this for a fact?" Dan nodded. "How did you find out?"

"I saw them kissing by the pool. They didn't know I was there, and I didn't confront them until they broke apart. I had to watch. I had to know if she was really an active participant. Had she struggled even slightly, I would've come to her rescue, but she didn't want to be rescued. She went willingly into his arms."

"What are you going to do now?"

"I don't know. This is not easy. We can't just break up. We're married. I have children to consider. I don't want to divorce her, but I'm not sure staying together would be right. It would only be for the children, and they would realize something was wrong. They are very perceptive."

"Do you think you can work it out? Divorce is not fun, Dan. It should be your last option, not your first and only."

"How can I work it out? Every time I think of her, I think of him. I think of them kissing, and I can't help but wonder if there are other things I don't even know about that they've done together."

"Give it time, Dan. You stay here with me as long as you need. Time will reveal the answer. Right now everyone's emotions are very raw. The wound is too fresh. Let some time pass. Things will look clearer."

"Thanks, Dad." Dan mumbled.

Tuesday morning Dan awoke after a relatively sleepless night. He went for a longer run than usual as he thought about the past few days. His anger resurfaced, but this time focused on Peyton. He wanted him to hurt as much as he was hurting. When he got back to his father's he grabbed his keys, heading to Peyton's office, feeling fairly sure he'd be there. Barging inside, he yelled, "We need to talk now!"

Peyton calmly surveyed his employees before answering, "All right. Let's go out back where it's more private."

Dan followed him out to the small warehouse before they squared off against each other. "I have to know. Do you love her?" Dan asked in controlled hostility.

Peyton laughed. "Love her? Hell no. I just wanted to fuck her. She wanted me to fuck her. She was screaming for a good lay. Maybe you're not man enough to do it, so she came to me."

"You fucking asshole! You played with her feelings! You don't care about her at all, do you?"

"No, I don't. I just wanted a piece of that fine ass. I have to say that she's pretty vulnerable between the thighs, Dan, and what a screamer."

"You made love to my wife?" Dan asked feeling his breakfast about to make a reappearance.

"No. I fucked her brains out. I've never known a woman to be so anxious to go down on a man before. That mouth is quite talented. Face it, Dan. She might be a beautiful, but she's a whore."

"I'm going to fucking kill you!" Dan screamed lunging at him with his fist.

Peyton side stepped easily, landing one punch in Dan's stomach, the other across his face. Dan felt the crack of his nose and tasted blood. Turning to face Peyton again, he decided that he didn't care how he won this fight, only that he make the man suffer. Knocking Peyton off his feet, they both fell to the ground and began wrestling and pounding on each other unmercifully. Dan knew he was losing his fight badly, so to end it, he managed to get to his feet. Just as Peyton started to stand, Dan kicked him in the knee as hard as he could. Peyton screamed as it cracked, landing back on the ground in a quivering heap.

Instantly employees entered the warehouse. Dan looked down at Peyton knowing he'd just blown out his knee, potentially ending his running career. He wanted to put the man out of misery permanently, but the opportunity wasn't going to present itself, so Dan just kicked him once more for good measure. "Enjoy your knee surgery and stay the fuck away from my wife!"

Racing back to his dad's, Dan found David in the kitchen. "What the hell happened?" David asked.

"I got in a fight. I need you to set my nose."

"All right. Sit down. Let me get you some ice." After David set the nose again, Dan stripped off his bloody shirt, using it for an ice pack. "So tell me what happened."

"I confronted Peyton. Put that son of a bitch out of commission. He's going to need surgery and lots of rehab. Hope he thinks of me in every ounce of pain."

"Did you talk to him at all or just beat the crap out of each other?"

"We spoke briefly. Brittany lied to me. They had sex."

"How do you know? Because he told you that? Couldn't he be lying?"

"I guess." Dan mumbled.

"Does it matter to you?"

"Hell yes! I'd divorce her in a heartbeat if I found out she's been fucking around!"

"What do you believe, Daniel? Who do you believe? I think in your heart you know who is telling the truth. I think he's just trying to get you two separated, so he can get in her pants. After he does he'll drop her like yesterday's news. He's going to hurt her if you don't stop him."

"She's a grown woman, Dad. She'll do what she wants obviously. Besides, why should I fight for her? She hurt me."

"You fought for her today, even as angry as you are. That shows you're not ready to give up on your marriage."

"Well, that might be true, but she should fight for me if she wants me back. Obviously she doesn't. I haven't heard from her in two days. If it were me, I'd be ringing the phone off the hook."

"She's hurting too, Dan."

"Not as much as I am. I have to shower now. Kim's coming by with the kids."

David and Dan spent the afternoon with the girls. At Dan's urging Kim took the afternoon off but promised to come get them before dinner. As six o' clock approached, they heard the doorbell.

Brittany shifted nervously on her feet contemplating who she wanted to see less, Dan or her father-in-law. When the door opened, she looked down to see David.

"Well, what a surprise. We were expecting Kim." he stated.

"Kim's at home working on dinner. I thought I should pick the kids up."

David nodded as Brittany stepped inside. David took her hand, holding her back momentarily. She looked down at him expectantly, dreading what he might have to say. "If you love him, fight for him. I believe in my heart you two can work this out if you want."

"I guess you know everything."

"Yes, but I'm in no position to judge you, Brittany. Lord knows I've done much worse than this. If you still love him and want him, you can win him back."

"But he hates me."

"No, he doesn't. He loves you, and that's why it hurts so much. He hates what's happened. More than anything, he needs time, but if you do want him, you have to tell him. If you don't love him, he deserves to know that too." Brittany just nodded as she walked toward the living room. She paused int the doorway for a moment and just watched Dan on the floor with the girls. When he finally looked up and noticed her, she gasped at the disfiguration under his eyes and around his nose. Forgetting herself for a moment, she rushed over and kneeled next to him. She reached to touch his bruised face, but he swiftly retreated standing.

"I had a talk with your boyfriend today." he stated.

Frustrated by the remark, Brittany answered, "I don't have a boyfriend, only an absentee husband who I miss desperately."

Dan looked at her still on her knees. Ignoring her statement, he said, "I talked to Peyton. Tell me the truth, not what you think I want to hear. Do you love him?"

"No, I don't. I love you, Daniel."

"Did you ever have sex with him?"

"No."

"Did you ever perform oral sex on him?"

Brittany's stomach turned, the line of questioning making her nauseated. "No, never. Why are you asking me this?"

"Because he said you did. In fact, he said even though you were a whore, he still enjoyed fucking your brains out. He said he loved how loud you screamed and that you gave pretty good head." casually he informed her.

"He said that?" she asked in hurt surprise.

"Yeah, so I'll ask you again if it's true."

"It's not true. Please, you have to believe that. The only thing that has ever happened between Peyton and me you saw. That is the truth wether you choose to believe it or not."

"Are you going to see him again?"

"No. The day everything happened, I told him to get out of my life. I told him I didn't want or need him. All I want and need is you, Daniel, and our children. This family means everything to me."

Dan just nodded. "I'll go get the girls' things." he mentioned walking into the other room.

Brittany heard the familiar creak of her father-in-law's wheelchair as she stood. "How did it go?" he asked touching her hand. Brittany shrugged. "Did he tell you what he did to Peyton today?"

"No."

"He got in a fight with him over your honor. He got himself a broken nose for it, but he put the guy in the hospital for the awful things he said about you."

"He didn't tell me that."

"Well, he did. He still loves you, Brittany."

"He's just so cold. He won't let me in."

"That's his way of protecting himself. It's going to take time. The more you push the longer it's going to take. Just let him know where you stand."

Leaning down, Brittany gave David a hug. "Thank you for everything you're doing."

Dan escorted Brittany and the girls out to the car. "All right. Give daddy a kiss good bye." Brittany said to Ana.

Dan leaned down to kiss Ana's head before kneeling down to Victoria, while Brittany settled Ana in her car seat. "Do I get a kiss?" he asked.

She smiled at him before leaving a wet kiss on his cheek. "Bye, Daddy." she said as Brittany picked her up to put her in the car.

Dan could feel his heart beginning to break from the idea of separation from his girls. With Victoria strapped in, Brittany held her arms out for Alexis. Alexis turned away burrowing further into Dan's neck.

"Come on, Alexis. Time to go home." Brittany tried to cheerfully state. When Brittany pulled her from Dan, she began screaming, her eyes tearing as she extended her arms to him.

"What's wrong, Alex?" he asked taking her back from Brittany. She calmed after a moment, so Dan passed her to Brittany, at which point the tears began again.

"It's okay, Alexis." Brittany tried to soothe her but to no avail.

Dan could see the sadness in his daughter's eyes, and he melted completely. "All right, honey. It's okay." he assured her reaching for her. She scurried back into his embrace. "I don't think she wants to go."

"Well, she's not old enough to decide that." Brittany stated holding her arms out, but Dan didn't relinquish her.

"She can stay here. It's no big deal."

"Giving in to temper tantrums is not a good habit to start, Daniel." Brittany pressed.

Dan looked into his girl's eyes. "I'm sorry. She doesn't want to go, and I don't want them to either."

"Well, two of them are already in the car, so they are coming home with me. Now put her in the carseat." Brittany demanded with annoyance.

"No, I won't do it. She's staying right here with me. I'll bring her back tomorrow."

Brittany huffed in anger as they stared at each other. Finally folding, she stated, "Fine. Get her bag out of the back."

Dan walked Alexis around to the driver's side door. "Kiss Mommy good night." he prompted. Alexis lifted her head off Dan's shoulder slightly to receive a kiss on the cheek from Brittany. The feeling of Dan's body as she brushed into him set her ablaze, but the sudden withdrawal made her ache. Dan gave her a knowing glare. "Good night, Daddy. I love you." she confessed holding his eyes.

The feel of Brittany's skin had set him on fire. He couldn't deny the sexual energy surrounding them, but it still hurt too much to think the last man she had touched was Peyton. Instead of responding to her, he waved to the girls in the back seat. "Wave to your sisters." he said to Alexis.

Brittany needed to hear him return the endearment terribly, but noting that it was not forthcoming, she sighed heavily getting into the car. Dan and Alexis watched until the car had disappeared until returning to the house.

As Dan went to bed that evening, he checked on Alexis once more in the guest bedroom. She was sleeping soundly, so he went to his room. He flipped through tv channels for awhile stumbling upon an adult movie. Watching it for a few minutes, he realized it only made him feel more alone. Shutting it off completely he laid on his back closing his eyes. Brittany appeared in his mind. She was naked straddling his hips. Her body was covered in a sheen of perspiration, and her golden hair was drenched from exertion. He could feel himself deep within her, making them both groan. She was moving on top of him in an erotic display of passion, but as soon as she opened her mouth, Peyton's name was on her lips. Dan opened his eyes, growling angrily. He was frustrated, and he ached for the relief that only Brittany provided him.

Quickly weighing his options, he decided that he'd have to try to focus on something else or try his rarely used technique of self-fulfillment, choosing the latter, all the while yearning for his beloved wife.

Brittany awoke late that night with a startle. Thinking it might be one of the girls, she listened closely, but all was quiet. Suddenly she heard the thunder of a summer storm. Realizing that was all it was, she laid down again, turning toward the middle of the bed. Her eyes fell upon the empty place next to her. Brittany thought about how many times she'd awakened in the middle of the night and just watched Dan's sleeping form. Her heart twinged in sorrow seeing his empty pillow. Pulling it to her, she breathed in his distinctive scent.

She whimpered his name, closing her eyes to fight the tears that were welling up in her. She saw him in her mind as she had so many times in real life before, seeing his reflection in the bathroom mirror as he approached her from behind. He was only in a towel, fresh from a shower, and she was standing in her silk robe, brushing her hair. His arms encircled her waist as he began to kiss her neck softly. She giggled reaching behind her and yanking the towel away. Playfully she teased him, knowing at any moment he would turn her around. When he did, he slid the robe off her shoulders, and took her down to the floor. Even now she could feel the cold bite of the tile against her back and the heat of his body covering her, warming her entire being.

Brittany sighed with sadness. So many mornings she had begun her day wrapped in his arms, being filled with his love and melting into oblivion with him. Now there was no morning intimacy. There was no playful caressing. There was nothing, but the nagging reminder that she was now alone. "I'm sorry, Daniel." she whispered into the night before allowing herself to be overcome with sobs.

Part 8


The following morning Brittany awoke later than usual. Knowing Kim had already taken care of the girls, she slowly made her way to the bathroom, leaving the door open in case Kim needed anything. Stepping into the shower, she just stood under the warm spray with her eyes closed.

When Dan arrived at the house, Kim had the girls eating breakfast. Dropping Alexis into her highchair, he inquired, “Is Brittany still here?”

“Yeah. She hasn’t come down yet.”

Dan nodded heading up to the master bedroom. Seeing the door open, Dan looked inside. He saw through the room into the bathroom where he saw her in the glass shower. Quietly stepping into the room, he looked closer. Her eyes were closed as she bathed. Dan watched the path of her hands over her wet skin, lathering her ample breasts with soap. He saw the peaks harden responsively. Her hands moved lower down her taut stomach between her thighs. Dan felt his insides tighten and smolder. Knowing his body was about to betray his conviction, he took a deep calming breath before slowly making his way out of the room.

Brittany felt as if she was being watched. Quickly opening her eyes, she looked into the dark bedroom, seeing a form retreating into the hallway. Brittany finished her shower as fast as she could. Dressing in only her robe she came down downstairs. “Did you need something?” she asked Kim.

Kim gave her a confuse stare. “No. Why do you ask?”

“I thought I saw you in the bedroom while I was in the shower.”

“No. Dan went upstairs for a moment when he dropped Alexis off. He asked if you were here, and when I said you hadn’t come down yet, he went upstairs. He just left looking all upset. I thought maybe you two had gotten into another fight.”

“No.” Brittany mumbled, knowing it was his presence she had felt watching her.

Dan spent most of the morning in his office. Even though he wasn’t teaching summer school, he found it a private place to work on his second book. However over the last few days, his work had consisted of only pain and suffering. Around noon that day Melissa dawned his doorway. “Hey. What are you doing here?” he asked in surprise.

“I was just doing some research for my book. I thought I’d stop by on the off chance you were here to see if you wanted to go to lunch.”

“Yeah, sure.” On their way out to his car, he inquired, “So, how is your book coming?”

“Great. I guess your talk with your publisher helped. They’re going to publish my book. They’ve made some suggestions on it, and we’ve talked over what we consider weak points. I’m just working on those right now.”

“Well, that’s more than great. It’s fabulous. It’s what you’ve always wanted. Congratulations are in order. We should celebrate. Let me take you out to dinner tonight.”

“I’d love to, but I can’t. I already have plans.”

“Oh? Hot date or something?” he teased.

“Actually, I’m going out with Mike. He called me yesterday and said he really wanted to talk to me about something important.”

“Really?” Dan asked with interest.

“Yeah. I was wondering if you know anything about that.”

Dan smiled. “Maybe I do, but I’m going to stay out of it. How do you feel about this whole deal? I mean you two haven’t dated in over a year. How do you feel about him calling you out of nowhere?”

Melissa shrugged. “Well, you know I never wanted to break up with him. I was in love with him, and it took a long time to get over. I’m just curious what he has to say that’s so important after all this time.”

“Do you think you could find it in your heart to love him again?” Dan inquired hopefully.

Melissa smiled. “Well, I still find him physically attractive, and I know he’s a good man. He’s the type of man I’ve always hoped for, but he has to believe me.”

“What if he apologized for not believing you? Would it help?” Melissa nodded. Dan gave her a warm smile. “Well, I hope you have fun tonight.”

Over lunch matters turned toward Dan’s personal life. “How are things between you and Brittany?”

Dan shrugged. “I moved out of the house. I just couldn’t stand the thought of seeing her. Every time I do, I think of it, and I really don’t want to think about it any more.”

“Where are you staying?”

“With my dad for now. I’ll probably get my own place of my own soon, though, so the girls can come visit for extended periods.”

“Do you think you’ll get a divorce?”

“I haven’t ruled it out as an option. It’s really too painful to even think about right now.”

“Do you think you can work it out?”

“I don’t know.”

“Dan, I know you’re hurting, and she is too, but I know you love each other.”

“I won’t deny that I love her, but I’m not sure I can trust her. I know you understand that.”

“But it was different with Mike and me. We weren’t married with children. You have a lot to lose.” Dan just shrugged closing the discussion. Changing the subject, Melissa said, “So, Victoria’s birthday is right around the corner. Brittany told me you all were planning a little pool party. Is that still on?”

“I don’t know. I guess so. Maybe I should ask.”

“Have you gotten her anything yet?”

“No. I haven’t even thought about it. I can’t believe she’s going to be three already, and the twins will be two in November. Time is just flying.”

“It really is. That’s why you shouldn’t waste it by being away from your family.”

Dan sighed. “You know, I confronted Peyton the other day about this whole thing. I just felt like I had to have answers. I thought maybe I was fighting a force greater than myself and maybe they had fallen in love or something like that. As much as that would’ve hurt, I think I could’ve handled it better than this. I asked him if he loved her, and he was so arrogantly insulting. He said horrible things about her. When I confronted her with the information, I could tell she was hurt. She says she doesn’t love him, but I think maybe she felt a little something for him. In a way I feel sorry for her that he played with her feelings like that. Makes me think about all the women I screwed around on when I was his age. I never spoke about them the way he did, but I definitely treated them the same, just getting laid whenever and wherever I could. I was even like that when I first met Brittany. You can ask Jen. I still had sex with her while dating another girl and having feelings for Brittany.”

“You had sex with Jen? I never knew that. When?”

“Brittany and I had just become friends. She and Jen were still in college. I knew I had feelings for Brittany, but she was dating this guy named John at the time, and I was with a woman named Kristen. Jen and I both just kind of found we had a mutual interest in sex.”

“Did Brittany know about it?”

“Oh yeah. She caught us in the act once. That’s the moment I realized if I was ever going to have a chance with Brittany I was going to have to change my ways. I thought is was worth a shot, so I did.”

“And it worked. You got her. Isn’t she worth holding on to?”

“Melissa, I know you are only trying to help, but I’d really appreciate it if you would stop bringing it up.”

“All right. I’m sorry. I just can’t stand seeing you two like this. It’s painful to watch.”

“Well, regardless of what happens between Brittany and me, I still have my children, who bring me great joy. As the mother of those children, Brittany will always hold a special place in my heart. If nothing else, I guess I will respect her always for that.” Dan mentioned.

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The month between Dan moving out and Victoria’s birthday was difficult on Brittany and Dan. They hardly spoke or saw each other except on a rare occasion when they were transferring the kids between them. However for Victoria’s birthday everyone had been invited over for a pool party.

Dan arrived late that morning to help Brittany and Kim set up. Going up to the door, he contemplated whether or not to use his key, deciding to ring the bell instead. When Brittany answered it, she just stared at him a moment before realizing the implication of the small gesture. He no longer considered it his home, and it grieved Brittany. Trying not to dwell on it too long, she forced a smile. “Hi. Come on in.”

Dan walked into the kitchen, depositing the present onto the table before turning to her. “When’s everyone arriving?”

“Around noon, so that leaves us a little less than two hours.”

“All right. Just tell me what I can do to help.”

“Actually if you wouldn’t mind, the patio furniture needs to be wiped down and the grill set up. Kim will be back with the food shortly.”

Dan nodded going out the back sliding glass door. Brittany saw him pause for a moment as his eyes fell upon the place of the incident. She watched him walk over to the hose and slowly turn it on as he held it in thought. Brittany knew what he was thinking, so she stepped outside. “Daniel,” she began.

Dan looked at her, for a moment seeing her in his mind in the same suit she’d worn that day. “Brittany,” he stated cutting her off. “I’d like to go through this afternoon without talking about what happened. I don’t want to talk about us or where we think our relationship is going. This is Victoria’s day. Can we do that?”

“Yeah, sure.” she mumbled.

“Thank you.” he replied going over to the lawn furniture. The first piece he came to was the chaise where Brittany had been lying that day. Dan sprayed it down throughly with water before wiping it down. Stepping back he studied it before hosing it down again. Brittany watched Dan work from the window. He rewashed the chair several times as if trying to purify it before moving on to the other chairs. Just as he had finished Kim came outside with tray a of food.

“Hey, Dan. I didn’t even know you were here.” she mentioned.

“How’s it going, Kim? What’s on our menu today?”

The guest list that day consisted of Dan and Brittany’s closest friends and family. Everyone except Melissa and Mike had arrived when Dan began to start the food. “Where’s Melissa?” Dan asked Jen. “I thought she’d come with you.”

“Oh, she said she and Mike had to go shopping first.”

“Melissa and Mike shopping together? Are they dating again?” asked Brittany with surprise.

“Yeah. It surprised me too.” Jen stated.

“What about you, Jen? You have any new boyfriends?” Dan inquired.

“Uh, no. I guess no one told you.” hesitantly she answered.

“Told me what?” He looked at her expectantly.

“Well,” Kim began taking Jen’s hand. “You haven’t been around much, and no one I guess mentioned it to you.”

“Kim and I...” Jen started.

Understanding dawned quickly. “Oh, sorry. I didn’t know. I had wondered why Kim looked so damn happy all the time.” he joked making them all laugh. “How long has this been going on?”

“A few weeks.”

“Shocked the hell out of you, didn’t it, Brittany?” Dan asked.

“Yes, I admit it did, but it’s fine now. Everyone’s happy. That’s what matters.”

By mid afternoon the children had gone down for their naps, leaving the adults lounging pool side. The young love bird couples were up on the deck dancing to Brittany’s favorite jazz music, leaving Dan, Brittany, and Becca to talk. Dan just listened to them chatter, mostly about Becca’s boyfriend as he watched the two couples dance.

He could tell that they were all genuinely happy, and Dan had to smile at the fact that he and Brittany were instrumental in bringing love into the lives of their four closest friends. During a lull in conversation, Dan looked over at Becca. “So, how about a dance with your big brother?” he asked.

Becca’s eyes moved to Brittany before accepting Dan’s outstretched hand. Brittany watched her husband and sister-in-law for a few minutes. It had been so long since she’d felt his embrace. The only times she’d felt him over the past month were accidental brushes of their bodies while dealing with the children. He hadn’t attempted to touch her at all, nor she him fearing the reaction she received last time. She had been shocked and afraid when he had raised his hand to her in anger. For a moment she thought he might actually strike her.

“Why don’t you ask Brittany to dance?” Becca suggested after a few songs. Dan shrugged. “Oh, come on, Dan. Give her a break. Can’t you see she’s trying?”

Dan glanced over at Brittany who was busy studying her glass of lemonade. “Hey, Brittany.” he called over to her. Her head snapped up at the sound of his voice. “You want to come join us?”

Brittany’s heart thudded in her chest. “Uh, that’s okay. I don’t think Mike wants to dance with me right now.” she replied.

“I wasn’t talking about Mike.” Dan stated. Dan knew everyone was trying to act casual even though it was a monumental moment. Dan cracked a smile at how fast Brittany sprang from her chair.

When she came toward him, her steps slowed unsure of how close he wanted to get with her. Dan took her hand and wrapped a tentative arm around her waist as they began to move to the music. Even though there were only two points of contact, Brittany was melting. Desperately she wanted to close the gap between them, but since Dan made no effort to do so, she maintained her distance.

Looking down into her eyes, Dan thought about the first time he’d ever asked her to dance. He had taken her to a steakhouse not knowing she was a vegetarian. A country band was playing that night, and he had taught her how to two-step. He remembered holding her for the first time as they began to dance and feeling the sexual energy that flowed between them even though they were only friends at the time.

Dan didn’t even realize her had begun to smile until Brittany inquired, “What’s the smile for?”

“Oh, I just thinking about the time I taught you to two-step.”

“That was a fun night.” Brittany mentioned.

“Yes, it was. Maybe we could do it again sometime.” he suggested.

“I’d love to.”

“How about next Saturday?”

“Yeah. Great. Sounds wonderful.” Brittany answered trying to withhold her excitement.

“Okay, then. Next Saturday it is.”

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The following Saturday Dan picked Brittany up at 6:00. He rang the doorbell and shifted nervously on his feet as he wiped his palms on his jeans. He knew this time together would have significant bearing on where their relationship was headed. At least Dan hoped to regain an amiable friendship with her for the sake of the children.

When Brittany answered the door, Dan’s mouth dropped open at the sight of her. She was dressed in a pair of tight jeans and a sweater set. Her hair was pulled back into two braids. “I’m almost ready. Just let me do my hair.” she mentioned letting him inside.

“No. Leave it like it is. You know I love it like that.”

She smiled and nodded. “Okay, then. I’ll just get my purse. The girls are having dinner.”

Dan walked into the kitchen to see Jen and Kim eating with the kids. “Oh, looking sexy, Dan. I always thought that shirt looked good on you. Brings out your eyes.” Jen mentioned. “Nice boots too.”

“What time do you think you’ll be back?” Kim teased.

Dan shrugged playing along with the game. “I don’t know. Midnight maybe if that’s all right with her moms.”

“Great. Gives us lots of time to have sex after the girls go to bed.” Jen joked earning a laugh out of Dan.

When Brittany came into the kitchen, they both said good night to the girls before going out to the car. Dan dutifully opened her door for her before getting in himself. Things were quiet and awkward for a few minutes as they just listened to the radio. Finally Dan was the first to speak asking, “How’s school going?”

“Fine. I only have two more major classes to take before my dissertation. I’ve already outlined my paper. I think I’ll get all A’s this semester.”

“Yeah, I’m sure you will being the brainiac that you are.” he teased playfully.

“How about you? You ready for next term?”

“Oh yeah. They’ve given me another class to teach, so I’m up to three. Plus I’m working on my second book. Should be busy.”

“Great. I can hardly wait to read it.”

A few more minutes passed as Brittany wondered what to say about the incident, if anything at all. She wanted to know what his intentions were, but she was afraid of pushing him too hard for answers. Finally deciding to test the waters, she asked, “How are things working out living with your dad?”

“Actually, I’m going to get my own place by the time school starts up in the fall. I think he and Kelly are pretty serious about each other, so I figured they could use the privacy. Besides, I want a place that the girls can visit. Dad’s place isn’t childproof. I’ll probably get an apartment near school. Makes the most sense.”

Brittany nodded, swallowing hard and trying to hold back the tears. “Yeah, I guess is does make the most sense.” she mumbled.

Dan heard the sadness in her voice, but he didn’t address it. Instead he changed the subject. “So, I was thinking after dinner maybe we could catch a movie or something.” Brittany nodded in consent.

After placing their order at dinner, Dan asked Brittany to dance. As it was on Victoria’s birthday, Dan left a gap between their bodies. The foot and a half seemed like a mile wide chasm to Brittany, but instead of seeing it as it was, she opted to hope that they were at least on their way to reconciliation.

While they ate that evening there was little talk. Brittany kept waiting on Dan to set the pace of the evening but so much silence made her uncomfortable. Dan finally put out a line for her by asking, “How did you find out about Jen and Kim?”

“Jen and I went out for lunch one day a couple of weeks ago. She just looked so happy, happier than I’ve ever seen her. She said she wanted to tell me before finding out from Kim. She says she’s in love, and I’ve never heard her say that in her life. It’s still a little weird for me to see her with Kim, but they seem so happy. How could I not support that?” Dan nodded in agreement. “I can’t believe that Melissa and Mike are back together. I have a feeling you had something to do with that.” Brittany mentioned.

Dan chuckled. “Maybe I did. I just talked to both of them about it. Mike has some serious issues to deal with concerning Mike, Jr., and he told me he was sorry for not believing Melissa. I told him that he should tell her that. Apparently he took the advice. I’m glad they’re back together, and I think this time it’ll stick.”

“What kind of issues with Mike, Jr.?”

“Oh, I meant to tell you, but with everything going on, I guess I forgot. Mike, Jr. was arrested on rape charges. It’s a big mess at school and all.”

“Oh, that’s awful. Poor Michael.”

“Yeah. He’s just not sure if he should offer legal help or not.”

“So he has doubts about Mike, Jr.’s innocence?” Dan nodded. “God, I hope we never have to deal with something like that.”

“Me too.” Dan agreed.

They arrived home that night shortly before midnight. Dan slowly walked her to the door and watched her unlock it before she turned back to him. “You want to come in for awhile?” she asked tentatively.

“Oh, no. That’s okay. I should probably get going.”

“You’re sure? Not even for a drink or bathroom or anything?”

Dan saw the hopeful look in her eyes. “No, really. I’m fine.” he answered.

Brittany was determined to get him inside so she flirted softly, “Surely I have something inside you might want before you go, Mr. McKnight.”

Dan’s groin jumped in response, but he didn’t take the bait. He simply shook his head.

“Not even your favorite ice cream?” she inquired.

“Ice cream?” He asked raising an interested brow.

“Yeah.” she whispered. Her hand slowly moved to his arm. The feeling of her finger tips grazing over his skin made him weak. He couldn’t deny how her touch affected him, especially after such a long absence. “I have all kinds of ice cream inside.”

“Vanilla and chocolate?” he inquired forgetting himself long enough to respond with his own line. “You know how I love to have them mixed.”

Brittany’s blood was rushing south at his deeper meaning of her heritage. “If you’re lucky I might even have a cherry for you to put on top.” she breathed as her fingers played a circular pattern across his forearm.

“Okay. Ice cream it is then.” he replied realizing himself and the position they were in.

Brittany noted the transition back into reservation and withdrew her hand, but he had given her enough to hold on to as he had momentarily flirted with her. Stepping inside they were greeted by Jen and Kim, who seemed anxious to leave as soon as they appeared.

As soon as they were gone, Dan joked, “Guess they had some urgent business to attend to.” Brittany laughed as they continued into the kitchen. Dan retrieved two bowls from the cabinet while Brittany got the ice cream and a popsicle for herself. “What? No ice cream for you?” Dan inquired seeing her open the popsicle wrapper.

She shook her head hopping up onto the counter next to him. Dan scooped his ice ream before returning it to the freezer. Leaning casually into the counter with his hip, he ate in silence as he looked at her.

Brittany felt like they had just started dating. The nerves and energy were almost too intense to address. Deciding to tease him a little further, she looked away from him, pretending to read a random piece of mail on the counter. Trying to act like it was an unconscious act, she slowly began to work the popsicle in and out of her mouth.

Dan watched her. She seemed unaware of her actions, but his mind raced with desires as he studied her mouth taking the popsicle all the way in before slowly sucking it as she pulled it out. Her tongue circled the tip several times before sliding it passed her lips to repeat the process. Brittany knew she was having the desired effect on him. Dan knew if he made the first attempt at seducing her, she’d willing give herself over to his passion. His body still wanted her, but he knew he wouldn’t be able to stay in her bed once he had finished with her, which would only damage the fragile relationship further. He’d leave her hurt and confused as to where they stood.

Quickly finishing his dessert, he rinsed his bowl and spoon putting them into the dishwasher. “I really should get going. It’s late, and the girls are going to be up early.”

Brittany just looked over him. His need was obvious. She knew he still wanted her physically, but it was apparent he wouldn’t be easily swayed. Sliding off the counter she walked over to him. She extended her popsicle to him, which he took giving her a questioning gaze. She moved in closer, her full body brushing into him. Dan closed his eyes at the feel of her. He could feel her hands on his belt. “I’d rather have the real thing.” She worked open his pants. “And I know you would too.” she whispered kissing his neck.

Dan felt his primal need overtake him. She had set him so close to the edge that her touch sent him crashing over into a frenzy. Self-fulfillment had done nothing to satisfy his need for her.

Their fervor was too intense to sustain itself, and they found themselves lying semi-naked in an exhausted heap of clothing and melted popsicle half an hour later. Dan could feel Brittany’s body quivering under his as they laid silently on the kitchen floor.

Suddenly the cries of a child interrupted the afterglow. As Brittany ran upstairs to tend to the child, Dan began to dress. He knew he had to get out of there. Part of him wanted to flee without seeing her, but Dan knew she deserved the truth from him.

While Brittany attended to Ana’s diaper, she reveled in the release they had given each other. She hoped that this had made things right with him again. When she came downstairs, she saw him dressed hovering in the foyer, his hand already on the door knob. “Where are you going?” she asked in confusion.

Dan took a deep breath knowing this was going to cause a confrontation. “I have to go home.” he stated.

“What? You’re not staying here?”

“No. I’m not.”

“I don’t understand.”

“Brittany, I’m sorry. Nothing’s changed between us in my eyes. Your infidelity still plagues me. We shouldn’t have done this. It was a mistake on my part, and I’m sorry if I lead you on by it.”

“A mistake? You consider making love to me, your own wife, a mistake?” Brittany asked in anger.

“Brittany, please. Let’s not make this more difficult than it has to be.”

“Difficult? It is difficult! You think it’s been easy for me to deal with your absence?”

“That’s not my fault. You’re the one who decided to be unfaithful.”

“And you won’t let me forget it, will you? You know what, Daniel? Peyton might’ve called me a whore, but you’re treating me like one! I give myself to you in an act of repentance, and you’re throwing me away just like every other woman you’ve ever been with! I thought I was different!”

“So did I.” Dan stated.

Brittany took a moment to collect herself. “I think you should go, and I think you should think about what you might want from me in the future! If all you want is me on my back taking it from you out of guilt, I’m here to tell you it’s not going to happen! Never in my life have I been treated so poorly! You’ve made me feel used and cheap, and I’m not going to let you do it again! Now get out!” she yelled in tears.

The next morning Dan awoke to the sound of female laughter. Groggily he opened his eyes to find himself still in last night’s clothes on the couch in his father’s den. Beer bottles were scattered across the floor and coffee table from his binge when he returned from Brittany’s. He heard the soft giggle again. Fighting the pain shooting through his eye sockets at the introduction of light, he sat up enough to look over the back of the sofa. He saw his father in his pajamas in his wheelchair and Kelly in his lap. His father appeared to be busy ducking into Kelly’s neck between sips of coffee making her laugh. Dan moaned painfully as his stomach churned from last night’s beer.

Instantly David and Kelly noticed him. Kelly was up out of David’s lap as they both came to him. “Dan, we thought you had a date with Brittany last night.” David stated.

Kelly noticed the empty bottles before gazing sympathetically at Dan. “Did it go that poorly?” she softly inquired moving to sit next to him. Dan nodded. “Do you want to talk about it?”

Dan shrugged. “It started out okay, but then we got back to the house. One thing led to another, and we still have our physical chemistry. We just moved too quickly. Neither of us was emotionally ready for intimacy again. She wanted me to stay, and I just wanted to get out of there as fast as possible, because I knew it had been a mistake. Well, she got upset. We started to argue, and she threw me out. She was so angry with me. I think we’ve ruined our chance of getting back together.”

“Maybe not. Maybe all you need is time. Your father and I have been down the path of divorce, and it’s not a place you want to visit in haste. You have extremely young children together, and I see the deep love between you. Don’t give up so easily. You will regret it later. She’ll never be out of your life due to the kids, so you need to find an amiable solution at the very least. However, I would hope that the two of you wouldn’t let pride stand in the way of reconciliation.”

Dan just looked at her as he thought about her words and felt her caress to his thigh. Never in his life had he had motherly affection directed at him, and her simple caring was almost overwhelming. Lowering his head into his hands, he tired to hold back the tears that were stinging his bloodshot eyes. He felt her hand move to his shoulder blade.

“Why don’t you lie down in your room for awhile? I’ll bring you some tea and aspirin for your headache.” she suggested.

He nodded following her instructions. Twenty minutes later she came in to check on him. She sat on the bed and watched him take his aspirin with the tea. Leaning back onto one arm, Dan sighed heavily. “You know, if you ever decide to get rid of my old man, I’d be more than happy to take his place.” he joked trying to lighten the mood surrounding them.

Kelly laughed. “Well, I don’t think that’s going to happen. I plan on keeping him around for a long time.”

“You really love him, don’t you?”

“Yes, I do.”

“Well, he’s one of the best men I know. He’s a loving man and father, and he deserves some happiness.”

“I know. He doesn’t really think of himself as a good father, but you, Joe, and Becca turned out fine. I think he did a good job under the circumstances.”

“So do I.” Dan affirmed. “It was a mother that was lacking.”

“Well, I know you’re too old for mothering, but I want you to know that I still care about you and your family very much.”

“I know you do. I can feel it. You’ve been more of a mother to my siblings and me than Laura ever was. You’re the mother I always wished I had as a child. You love and respect my father, and you accept us for who we are, flaws and all. You know, I’m glad that Laura never met any of my children. I know she would have hated them, because they were part black just like Brittany. I couldn’t fathom how anyone could hate a child for their skin color. They’re angels, but she would’ve been down right cruel for no other reason.”

Kelly nodded. “Your father had told me a lot about Laura. Most of it wasn’t good. She treated all of you with such disrespect. I don’t see how a mother could act that way with her own children. So, you prefer to date black women, and Joe is gay. I just don’t understand how either of those could be a problem for a parent.”

Dan cracked a small smile. Placing a hand on Kelly’s leg, he said, “I want you to know that I would enjoy having you for a step-mother if the opportunity ever presents itself. My children love you and so do I.”

Kelly returned the smile before brushing back a lock of his hair. “You’re a sweet son, Daniel. I know you’re father is proud of the man you’ve become. I think someday, sooner than you may think, you might get your wish. Your father and I have talked about it, and I think we will marry in the near future. I’d enjoy being your step-mother and grandmother to your children, and you are right. They are angels. Why don’t you get some rest now? You’ll feel better after some sleep.”

Brittany spent most of the morning playing with the kids. Every time Dan entered her mind, she quickly forced her thoughts away before anger got the better of her. After lunch however, the girls went down for their naps, leaving her with more free time than she would’ve liked. Noticing Kim and Jen in the pool, she walked out onto the deck.

“Hey, Britt. How’s it going?” Jen greeted.

“Fine.”

“Where’s Dan this afternoon?”

“I don’t know, and I really don’t care.”

“Why? What happened? Things looked like they were going so well last night. We took off so soon, because it look like you two were going to explode in a sexual frenzy at any moment.”

“Yeah. You could call it an explosion all right.” she mumbled.

“What happened?” Jen asked in concern.

“I guess I asked for it. I began playing with him, trying to drive him closer to that edge. I guess I had hoped if we had sex, everything would be better. Well, it backfired. As soon as we were finished, he was putting his clothes on to leave! He made it very clear to me that he had no intension of staying the night with me, and I got upset! I’ve never felt so used by him! He treated me like a woman of the streets! What happened wasn’t making love, wasn’t even just sex! I practically begged for it, and what I got was not what I was expecting. He wasn’t the man that I love. He was very detached. Usually he’s so emotionally involved with me, but he just wanted to get laid. That’s all it was, a quick lay, and when he was finished he just brushed me aside like it meant nothing to him, like I meant nothing to him!”

Later that afternoon Dan decided to go over to see his children. When Brittany answered the door she just stared at him angrily. “What are you doing here?” she inquired abruptly.

“I came to see the girls.” he stated steeping onto the threshold.

She put a hand out to stop him. “I didn’t invite into my house.” she informed him.

“Your house? I bought this house, Brittany! I paid for it with sweat and blood! My name is on the mortgage! The only reason I let you stay here is because I want my children to have a place to lay their heads at night!” he yelled trying to step inside again, but she blocked him with her body and the door.

“Maybe you didn’t hear me the first time! I said I didn’t invite you in!”

Dan stepped back screaming, “Do you realize that you owe your lifestyle to me? You stay here for free! Even though I don’t live here, I continue to pay your bills! I pay for your schooling! You get to stay home and play mother instead of working! If I pulled all that out from under you, you wouldn’t have anything to stand on! You don’t want me to do that, do you?”

“You can threaten me all you want, Daniel! That doesn’t change the fact that I don’t want you in this house! This is my house now, and you’re not welcome in it! You want to see the girls, you make arrangements with Kim. I don’t wish to see or speak with you any more.”

“All right! You’ll be hearing from my attorney!” he yelled bounding down the steps to his car.

As soon as Brittany saw his car turn out of the driveway, she closed the door, placing her forehead against it. She closed her eyes and sighed as the tears began to flow. She knew they had pushed each other too far out of hurt and pride. She feared that Dan would take everything she had worked so hard for away in his anger.

As soon as Dan got onto the main road, he called Mike. After the initial greeting, he requested to see Mike immediately. When Dan arrived at Mike’s house, Melissa answered the door. “Well, I didn’t expect to see you here. He should’ve told me.”

“He said you had some urgent business with him. He’s in his office.” she said going back to the living room.

Dan made his way down the long corridor to Mike’s office. Mike was already sitting behind his desk when Dan stepped into the doorway. Closing the door behind him, Dan took a seat in the large leather chair in the corner.

“Dan, I’m afraid to ask what this important business is.” tentatively Mike stated.

“I want to file for divorce.” Dan stated purposefully.

Mike sighed rubbing his forehead. “Are you absolutely sure you want that?”

Dan paused for a moment before answering, “Yes, I am sure.”

“Well, I have to tell you that it is law in this state to have a waiting period before proceeding with a divorce. It gives a person time to change their mind.”

“Fine. Let the waiting period begin. The sooner it does, the sooner we can get on with it. In the mean time, I also need a custody agreement.”

“What’s wrong with the way you are working it now?”

“She refused to let me see the kids today.”

“Oh, I beginning to see the whole picture now.”

“It’s not what you think, Mike. I’ve been dragging my feet on this, but after today, she made it clear she wanted nothing to do with me. I at least need a custody agreement, so I can see my girls.”

“Okay. I can do that for you, but may I make a personal observation? I think divorce would be a mistake.”

“Well, that’s why you’re acting as my attorney right now, not my friend.” Dan stated making it clear he was uninterested in Mike’s opinion.

“All right. If that’s how you really feel about it, I’ll stay out of it. Tell me what you want as far as custody.”

“I want half. I know Brittany and I can no longer have a relationship, but the girls still need their mother. They’re too young to be without her, but I want my fair share of time too. They need me just as much.”

Mike nodded. “I think that’s sensible of you, and I will see to it. From this point on, I will communicate your wishes to Brittany on your behalf. Please consider what you are doing carefully. You have to be positive about this divorce. Tomorrow I will let Brittany know of your intentions for divorce and custody. Okay?”

The following morning Brittany was on her way to school when the phone rang. Kim answered it for her as she kissed each child good bye for the day. “It’s Mike. He says he has to talk to you right away.”

Getting on the phone, Brittany stated, “Mike, hi. I’m on my way to school right now.”

“Brittany, I really need to speak with you. If you can’t talk right now, can you come by my office later?”

“Yeah, sure. I guess. I get out of class at 3:30. With traffic I don’t know when I’ll be there.”

“I’ll wait for you. If the receptionist is already gone, just come back to my office. I really have to speak to you today.”

“Is something wrong, Mike?”

“It depends on how you look at it I guess. I’ll see you this afternoon.”

Hanging up the phone, Brittany looked at Kim with concern.

“Everything okay?” Kim asked.

“I don’t think so. He wouldn’t tell me over the phone. I have to go by his office this afternoon. I hope Daniel didn’t do anything rash after our fight yesterday.”

Brittany hardly paid attention in her classes that day as she thought about her upcoming meeting with Mike. Even her lab partner, Colin, who could always make her laugh, didn’t seem funny. As they worked on their lab that day, Brittany continued to drift off into her own thoughts.

“Brittany, are you all right? You’re not yourself today.” he mentioned.

“Oh, I’m sorry. I just have a lot on my mind right now.”

“You want to talk about it?” She shrugged. “I’ll tell you what. Why don’t we finish this up and go to lunch? At least if you decide you want to talk, we won’t be around prying ears.” She gave him a nod in agreement.

Once they had gotten their lunch, Colin lead the way to a secluded corner if the cafeteria. Brittany was quiet at first as she just picked at her salad. “So, how are the kids?” Colin inquired, trying to open her up to talking.

Brittany gave her first genuine smile that day. “They’re wonderful. We just celebrated Victoria’s third birthday. The twins are good. Alexis is getting into everything while Ana is the prim and proper one. They’re complete opposites. It’s funny.”

“They sound like great kids. Maybe one day I’ll get to have my own.”

“You know, last time we had a long talk, you mentioned wanting to find a girlfriend. Have you succeeded yet?”

He shook his head. “No. I just don’t know how to talk to women. You know, I’m thirty. I’m a complete science freak. I don’t have one sociable bone in my body, and I’m not exactly ‘Hunk of the Month’ either. Women don’t give me a second glance.”

“Oh, Colin, you’re a great guy. Some women can be stupid and superficial. You wouldn’t want those types anyway.”

“Face it, Brittany. I’m not in high demand. I mean if you weren’t married, would you go out with me? I think not.”

Brittany looked at him for a moment. “Well, to be completely honest with you, I’d like to get rid of those glasses of yours, but I would go out with you.”

“No. You’re just saying that. Why would the most beautiful women I’ve ever met in my entire life go out with me? I’m not buff. My hair is starting to fall out, and I wear these awful glasses.”

Brittany blushed at his indirect complement. “Listen to me, Colin. Right now I’m married to the sexiest man I’ve ever known, but lately it’s become obvious that we are having martial problems. Looks don’t sustain a relationship. It’s what’s inside that counts. Inside he’s turned into a jerk, and I’m sure if you asked him, he’d say I’ve turned into worse. In fact I think he might be thinking divorce.”

“Oh, Brittany, I’m so sorry. He’s stupid if he leaves you. I’m sure you’re the best woman he’s ever met.”

“My point is this, Colin. Twenty years from now, he may or may not be that ‘Hunk of the Month’ as you say. There needs to be more. You have the more that women want. I have no doubt that you’ll find someone who will love you for who you are, and when you do, it’ll last the rest of your life.”

Colin gave her a shy smile. “That’s the nicest thing a woman’s ever said to me.” he mentioned.

Brittany placed her hand over his. “You’re a good man, Colin. Don’t give up on love.”

“Your husband is an idiot if he decides to leave you. You are so beautiful, but not only that, you are genuinely the sweetest woman I know.”

Brittany blushed. “And you said you couldn’t talk to women.” she teased.

“Well, talking to you is different. You’re unattainable, but you’re also my friend. I’d ever want to risk losing that.”

“I’m glad we’re friends, Colin.” she stated patting his hand before going back to her meal.

After classes that day, Brittany drove over to Mike’s office. The few minutes in the waiting area seemed like an eternity. Her insides were painfully twisted in anxiety. When Mike escorted her back to his office, he was silent until he had closed the door. Brittany took a seat as she watched him sit in his chair and shuffle files on his desk momentarily.

“Michael.” she softly stated.

He looked at her in obvious distress. “Brittany, there’s no easy way to say this. I wish there was. It grieves me to do this. I’m acting as Dan’s attorney when I tell you that he has asked for a divorce.”

Instantly Brittany was in tears as she whispered, “Dammit Daniel.”

Coming to her Mike held her for several minutes as she wept. “I’m so sorry, Brittany. There is more. Are you able to continue?” When she nodded Mike moved to the edge of his desk. “Dan’s also requested a custody agreement. You’re going to need an attorney.”

“You’re the only attorney I know, Michael. Is there anyway you can do this for me?”

“Well, that could be a potential conflict of interest. It depends on how amiable you two are going to be.”

“Has he made any demands?”

“Only concerning the children. He wants joint custody, which is fair and reasonable in this case.”

“Okay. If I agree to that, will you do it?”

“Brittany, I’m going to give you some advice as a friend. I think divorce is a secondary issue for Dan. The girls are the real issue at hand. If you agree to joint custody, I can draw that up for you, and you two can sign it. As far as the divorce is concerned, I would tell you to contest it. Dan’s hurt and angry, and he’s looking for a quick solution. By contesting it, you delay the process, and give him more time to think about what he’s doing. As I said though, you need your own attorney if you decide to do that, because that would be a conflict of interest.”

Brittany sat for a few moments in silence before saying, “I don’t want to contest it, Michael. If he really wants this, then I’ll let it happen. I don’t want it, but I won’t try to stop it.”

“Are you sure?” he inquired with concern. Brittany nodded. “Very well. Let me tell you how this will play out over the next few months then.”

By the time Brittany left Mike’s office, she was completely deflated. All her hope of reconciliation with the man she loved was gone.

When she arrived home, Kim had the girls sitting at the table for dinner. “What’s wrong? Things go poorly at Mike’s?” Kim asked seeing Brittany’s swollen eyes.

“Daniel’s asked for a divorce.”

“Oh no. I’m so sorry.” Kim replied coming to her. The two women embraced in a long silence. “What are you going to do?”

“I don’t know. Michael said it could take six months to a year depending on how amicable we are on the terms.”

“This has just gone too far. I can’t believe one kiss could ruin a marriage like yours. How could he do this?”

“I don’t know.” Brittany mumbled taking a seat at the table. Looking at the twins, she saw Daniel smiling back at her. Putting a smile on her face for her children, she asked, “How was your day, girls?”

Several weeks passed without a word from Dan. Mike had made a temporary custody agreement between them outlining visitation times for Dan, but Kim always saw to the transference of the children. Brittany started her last semester of classes, and Dan went back to teaching.

One morning Brittany awoke earlier than usual for classes. As it often was, her first thoughts of the day focused on Dan. She thought about the last night they had shared, the dancing, the tension, the frenzied sex. It had been six weeks ago, but the pain of him walking out was still fresh. As she reminisced a disconcerting thought occurred to her that her cycle was off. In fact she had skipped a whole month, not noticing due to the other stresses around her.

Slipping out of bed, she went to the bathroom. Going to the cabinet under her sink, she just stared at the home pregnancy test tucked away in the corner. She took it out and checked the date on the box, rendering it still valid. She thought for a few moments about taking it, fearing the possibilities. Slowly she took it from the packaging, knowing she didn’t have a choice. She quickly took it, but to wait to see the results until after showering. Armed with her answer, she headed downstairs to the kitchen. She fixed herself a bowl of cereal and juice all the while staring at the spot in which she and her now estranged husband had laid together for the last time. Since Kim would pick the girls up from Dan’s that morning and bring them home, it allowed Brittany leisure time to dress and prepare for classes.

Brittany was just about to leave for the day when Kim arrived home with the kids. After hugs and kisses for all the girls, Brittany looked at Kim. “Are you all right?” Kim asked seeing Brittany’s tired eyes. Brittany shook her head. “What’s wrong outside of the usual?”

“I’m pregnant.” she stated softly.

“Oh no. Does Dan know?”

“No, and you’re not going to tell him either. This is just between us for now. Promise me that.”

“You know I’d do anything for you, Brittany. I’ll take it to my grave if you want.”

“Thank you.”

“Do you know what are you going to do about it?”

“I’m going to have it obviously, but I just don’t know how involved I want Daniel to be.”

Kim nodded. “Well, go to school. I’ll see you tonight, and don’t worry. I won’t tell anyone.”

Brittany was preoccupied during her first class as she thought about what to tell Dan, if anything. Going to her lab, she was greeted by a smiling Colin. “Hey, Brittany. I brought us some coffee. You look like you could use it.” he mentioned extending it to her.

“Thanks, Colin, but I can’t.” she answered.

He frowned at her. “Why not? Something wrong?”

“I’m pregnant again. Thanks anyway. It was sweet of you.”

“Uh oh. Does the soon to be ex know about this?”

“No, he doesn’t.”

“Is it his?”

“Yes, it is his.”

“What are you going to tell him?”

“I haven’t decided yet. I don’t think this will change things. I guess it’ll be another child to fight over.”

Curving an arm around her shoulders, he answered, “I’m sorry that he’s a jerk. You deserve better.”

Returning his hug she patted his chest lightly. “Thanks.” she whispered.

“Anytime. You know, if you ever need anything, just let me know. I will help you in any way that I can.”

“Thanks, Colin. I appreciate it, and who knows? I might just take you up on that sometime.”

“Please do.” he replied. As they started their lab, he mentioned, “I just wanted you to know that I finally broke down and took your advice.”

“What advice was that?” she asked in bewilderment.

He took off his lab safety glasses and smiled at her. “Contacts.” he stated. “What do you think? Do I look any more handsome?” playfully he asked.

She smiled at him. “Very nice and very handsome.”

“Now if I could just regrow some hair, I’d be a regular Casanova.” he joked.

Brittany laughed. “Does your hair really matter that much to you?”

“Brittany, all men care about their hair whether they admit it or not.”

“Well, it does look a little thicker on top. What have you done to it?”

“I’ll never tell my secret. It really looks thicker? I could kiss you for that.” Smiling Brittany leaned up to his cheek kissing it lightly. Colin flushed deeply. “What did I do to deserve that?”

“That was for being my friend and a good man. You always find a way to make me smile, Colin. You’ll find Ms. Right, and she’ll be a lucky woman.”

Colin ducked his head shyly. “God, you’re a wonderful woman. Dan has lost a precious gift.”

“Thanks for thinking so.” she mumbled turning her attention back to their lab.

A few minutes passed before Colin inquired, “Brittany, I was wondering if I could ask you something.” She nodded as she read over their lab instructions. “Would you like to go out with me Friday night?” timidly he asked.

Smiling at him she joked, “Are you asking me on a date?”

“Well, um...” he fumbled looking down at the table.

Realizing he was nervous, Brittany seriously asked, “Colin, are you asking me out?”

“Sort of.” he responded. “Listen, I know you’re still technically married, and I would never really ask out a married woman, but I was just thinking that we don’t spend any time together outside of school. I thought maybe you were free, but with your kids and all you’re probably not. Forget it. Forget I brought it up.” he stammered turning his attention to their lab equipment.

“Colin, may I answer your question, or do you really want me to forget you asked?”

“You can answer it if you want.” he mumbled.

“Well, it just so happens that Daniel has the girls on Friday night, so I am available. I would like to go out with you. Why are you so nervous about asking? Did you think I would say no?”

Colin shrugged. “Brittany, I know that you and I are only friends and that’s all we’ll ever be, but that doesn’t change the fact that you are the most gorgeous woman I’ve ever laid my eyes upon. Even the thought of going out in public with you makes me nervous.”

“Oh, Colin. Aren’t you the charmer? You don’t need to be nervous. What did you have in mind for Friday?”

“Well, my parents have tickets to the symphony, and they offered them to me since they can’t go. We could go, or we could do something else. It’s up to you. Whatever you want to do is fine.”

“No. That sounds like fun.”

“Great. Let’s go to dinner too.”

“All right. Let me give you directions to my house. What time will you pick me up?”

When Brittany arrived home, Kim was playing with the girls in the den. “How was your day, Britt? You seem to be in a little better mood.”

“Yeah. You’d be amazed to know being asked out has actually lifted my spirits.”

“Someone asked you out? What’s his name? What’s he like?”

“He’s just a friend of mine from school. He name is Colin, and he’s so sweet. He always knows exactly what to say to make me feel good about myself.” Brittany answered with a smile.

“You interested?”

“Only as a friend, but he’s still good for my self-esteem. Not a day passes that he doesn’t tell me how wonderful I am.”

“Sounds like he’s interested in you.”

“No. He knows we’re only going to be friends.”

“So, when’s this hot date?”

“Friday.”

“This Friday?”

“Yeah. Why? Is there a problem? Daniel has the girls.”

“No. There’s no problem. It’s just that Dan scheduled to come by the house to pack up some of his stuff while he’s picking up the girls. Maybe I should stay late to supervise, just in case.”

“Thanks. I appreciate it. I’m going to try to stay out of his way as much as possible.”

“Do you think he’ll be upset if he sees another man here?”

“What’s it matter? He gave up his claim on me. He has no right to complain.”

Continued Part 9



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