I'll Miss by Beloved06

The shots ring out through the clear blue sky as they lower your body down to the ground. I'll never know why you did this. I'll never see your face smile at me in the mornings. That smile that brings me joy and happiness. The smug grin you always had after we made love, when you knew I came hard, just for you. The smile that only faltered once when we were together. That smile, I'll miss.

I'll never know why you did this, risked your life. I guess it was your calling to save the child. He's here now with his mom. The little big man, I dubbed him. His big bright blue eyes filled with tears as he clutches a photo of you that I gave him. It's that photo that I took of you when you weren't paying attention. You probably don't remember, it was my favorite photo. Your eyes smiled at me. Those big brown eyes. Over the years, I could tell what you were feeling just by looking into them. They were deep, soulful? an endless book to your life. Those eyes, I'll miss.

I'll never know why you did this. I seriously don't now. I remember arriving at the scene, the house crumbled into a million splintered pieces. I saw you, motionless. I ran towards you as fast as my legs could carry me. I grasped your hand just as you were leaving. I knew you wouldn't last long. I held your hands, those big strong hands. Hands, that smoothed over my thighs, held my face, brushed against my cheeks. Hands, that fit perfectly in mine. Those hands that carried so much power, that can hold a child's hand. Those hands, I'll miss.

I'll never know why you did this. The answers, etched on the lines of your face. The laugh lines, the worry lines, the stress lines, the lines that defined you as a caring person. Defined you very well, I might add. You are?were?attractive. As I held your hand, I looked at your face. It was scratched up and bruised but you still looked beautiful. You never got to see your face in ecstasy but I did. I'll never see it again; I'm at ease with that even though I'll miss you like hell. That face, I'll miss.

I'll never know why you did this. As I sat with you while your life slipped away, you whispered to me, "I love you." At that moment, I knew you weren't coming home to me. Your soul would be released while I held your hand, looked into your face and kissed your lips one final time. I remember whispering your name, "Liv." You never heard it. You slipped away from me, from this life, from this world. I gave you a final kiss on those lips that I love?loved?so much. "Goodbye." I gently whispered and let go. Let go of your hand, your face, your soul. I let go of you but never your memory. I'll never forget you, my one true love. I'll never forget that smile, those eyes, those hands, those lips, that body. You, I'll miss.

The ground is now covered and you are lost to me forever. Under the earth, I know now that you rest. Rest in a peacefulness you probably never knew. I still feel you now that you are gone from my bed, heart and mind. You are here with me forever, holding me.

"I love you. I'll miss you. Watch over me, please." I whisper looking up towards the sky.

I swear I hear you. "Promise.", you tell me.

"I promise, Alex."