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Part XIII

Rayne and Lark’s fifth year anniversary was quickly approaching and they were happily settled into their home after making numerous renovations throughout the years. Lark’s interview requests, movie and TV roles had doubled since her last movie was a box office smash. Her sexual preference for women didn’t seem to hinder her movies at the box office or with landing coveted roles and she was quickly moving up to the A-list for Hollywood actresses. The pair had welcomed a new nephew, Cole, into their lives and Lark was asked to be his godmother by Holly and Shayan.

Rayne had been assigned to international covert operations, which required her to investigate locations before appearances for the Secretary of State when she was out of the country and also served on her protection team. Her job required her to be out of the country quite frequently. The security measures of the Secretary of State was always a top-secret operation and they frequently were heavily armed and most of the agents were disguised during the assignments ensuring the safety of the important government official. After being commended for solving the case involving Congressman Morgan and for their exemplary work performance with their assignment during the presidential inauguration, her and Forrest had been chosen from a select group of agents for their current assignment. They were highly recommended by their supervisor and Congressman Morgan for their hard work and dedication. The pair was elated to finally obtain the jobs they coveted from the day they became Secret Service agents.

“Now Elaine, you have to make sure my schedule is cleared for our anniversary okay?” Lark asked as she removed the make up from her face after an interview she had just finished.

“Yes boss.” Elaine teasingly answered, stuffing a ham sandwich in her mouth.

“I’m serious. It’s a big anniversary for us and I want it to be perfect.” Lark told her, worried that her plans would not be followed through, as she wanted.

“Lark, I know how important they are to you. You’ve been planning this elaborate surprise party for months now and you have made sure to tell me, what? Every week? Yeah, that’s it, every week to make sure your schedule is free at that time.” Elaine sarcastically said and grinned, then ate more of the sandwich.

“I’m sorry, it’s just that I’m getting nervous because it’s going to be here before I know it and I feel like I won’t have everything completed by that time.” Lark whined anxiously, knowing she was aggravating her friend.

“Don’t fret it my dear. You have plenty of people helping you with the party and you’ll have everything ready for the big night. Don’t worry!” Elaine reassured with a chuckle.

“You’re right, but you just never know about trying to keep a secret like this because someone might slip up and make a comment about it. There have been many times I’ve had to bite my tongue around Rayne to not reveal the big party. I’m kicking myself for telling Jayce though. I’m not sure he’s very good with keeping secrets, especially if he’s been out partying and he sure has a hard time keeping them from his sister.” Lark told her and rubbed her forehead; stressed out with the party plans despite the fact the party was still a few weeks away.

“I think he’ll be alright and I’m sure Shayan spoke with him about the secrecy of it. You need to stop worrying Lark, because you are getting wrinkles from crinkling your forehead up like that. We can’t have your forehead looking like that on the big screen.” Elaine teasingly told her to lighten the mood and ease Lark’s nerves.

“Did you ever consider being a comedian instead of an agent?” Lark sarcastically asked, with a sly grin.

“Actually, yes but I wouldn’t have gotten through my act because I would have been laughing to much, envisioning everyone naked like my speech teacher taught us all to do.” She jokingly quipped and both women laughed.

“I should remember that for when I have to present an award in front of tons of people.” Lark added with a chuckle.

“When will Rayne be home?” Elaine asked and took a sip of her water, looking at Lark.

“Who knows?” Lark answered and shrugged her shoulders looking away from Elaine.

Elaine was taken back by her comment and wondered why she was acting so smug about it. Elaine furrowed her brow and was curious as to what else was going on in Lark’s mind as she sat silently staring off in the distance. She had a feeling something else was happening between her and Rayne, considering the comment she made and the way Lark was so nervous about the party. She decided to fish the information out of her. “Is something else going on that you’re not telling me about?” Elaine queried.

“What do you mean?” Lark evasively asked and turned to Elaine then looked back at the mirror removing the remaining makeup, unable to maintain eye contact with her.

“I knew it, something is going on between you two. What’s wrong?”

“Nothing’s wrong, I’m just nervous about the party that’s all.” She deceptively replied and looked down into her purse as if she were looking for something to change the subject.

“Bullshit, now give it up. Tell me what’s going on Lark.” Elaine thwarted her attempt of casting aside the conversation and moved closer to Lark, touching her arm to get her attention.

Lark looked up at Elaine and slightly grinned. “You know me too well.”

“Yes, I do now tell me what’s wrong.” Elaine warmly smiled and gently demanded.

“I’m worried that something is wrong and that Rayne may be growing tired of us.” Lark answered and looked away.

“Oh, don’t start that again Lark. Remember what happened just before your first anniversary? You thought the same thing and she gave you that ring, the one that is suppose to remind you of her love for you. Have you forgotten all about that?” Elaine reminded and pointed at the ring on Lark’s finger.

Lark looked down at the ring and smiled when the diamond sparkled in the light, remembering their beautiful first anniversary. She remembered everything that Rayne told her that night and felt a catch in her heart from her admissions. “No, I haven’t forgotten about that evening and her promises.” Lark softly answered and glanced at Elaine.

“Well, why in the hell are you so worried now?” Elaine asked confused by her friend’s manner.

“We have been talking about getting married and having kids for quite awhile now, but I get the feeling that those things are no longer important for Rayne. She seems to really enjoy being out of the Country a great deal for work and maybe she doesn’t want our relationship to move in that direction. She isn’t very accommodating when it comes to work and acts as if that is the most important thing in her life.” Lark explained, with a sad look on her face.

“Have you spoke with her about it?”

“Yes and she has kind of blown it off saying that we’ll get married and have kids when both of our lives aren’t so hectic. I can easily make my life less chaotic if she would just say so, but she hasn’t and I get the feeling that she wants us to just stay status quo. If she wanted something to change she would have asked to be transferred to a different assignment so we could be together more often. It’s as if I’m supposed to jump and rush off to be with her, but she doesn’t make the same concession for me. Maybe she’s got a thing for the female agent that has been on her team for the past few months and that’s why she’s so reluctant to leave work for me.” Lark insinuated with a touch of resentment and jealousy in her voice.

“You know, you always jump to the wrong conclusion about things Lark. I think you need to discuss the marriage and children thing more. You need to let her know your feelings, that you want those things in your life and you’re willing to do whatever it takes to accomplish them. Express your feelings to her about her job and that you would like her to be home more. I wouldn’t even think twice about her being with someone else, because she is completely enamored with you, and you can see that by the way she looks at you. That would be the farthest thing from Rayne’s mind. Listen don’t sit around fretting about something that you aren’t sure of, especially if you haven’t expressed your feelings to her on the matter. She probably doesn’t know that you’re upset about her being gone for work so much.” Elaine calmly explained and rubbed Lark’s arm for comfort.

“You’re right, but she should recognize there’s a problem and I’m fed up with everything Elaine. If she doesn’t want to compromise with her work schedule, which I really feel like she won’t, then maybe I shouldn’t either. You know that I’ve turned down many job offers to be with her, but I don’t see her doing it for me.” Lark told her, adamant about her decision.

“I understand what you are telling me Lark, but you should still speak with her about your concerns or otherwise, you’ll keep them bottled up and end up resenting her.” Elaine gently advised, to not upset her.

“I think I’m at that point already Elaine, but I’ll talk with her and see what comes about this time. Hopefully, she’ll be more receptive to my feelings. What would I do without you?” Lark asked, smiling gratefully at her friend and had a sinking feeling that Rayne wasn’t going to accommodate to her.

“You would be really lost, but you’re going to have to manage to get by without me for a little while.” Elaine answered and grimaced knowing Lark wasn’t going to like her news.

“What do you mean, get along without you for a little while? Did I forget that you were going on vacation or something?” Lark asked confused.

“No, I got a call from the company and they’ve asked me to come to LA. I leave in a little while and I’ll be out there for a few days.” Elaine explained, knowing Lark relied on her a great deal with appearances and as a friend.

“Oh, no. I’m going to miss you. I hope it’s good news that they are going to give you though?” She asked, sad that Elaine would be gone.

“Yeah, let’s hope I’m not getting fired.” Elaine answered with a chuckle.

“Well, you always have a job with me if that ever happens.” Lark told her and smiled.

“Thanks, I appreciate it.” Elaine grinned happily. “Speaking of jobs, don’t forget that you have to be in London in three days for the promotional tour of your new movie. I’ve left the packet with your tickets, credentials and instructions on your kitchen table. As soon as I finish everything in LA I’ll head out to see how you are doing okay?”

“It’s a good thing you reminded me that I have to leave, because I did forget!” Lark grimaced and nervously chuckled at forgetting about the promotional tour.

“Oh, dear God! We both would have been in deep shit if you had missed that tour. The producers and the studio would have had our heads on a platter for that fuck up.” Elaine explained with horror at the thought. “If this tour is as successful as I know it will be with you wowing the fans and the media at the premieres, along with the all star cast, you have a great chance of getting an award. You will definitely hit the A-list.” Elaine encouragingly told her and smiled proud that Lark’s career was taking off.

“Oh, that would be an added bonus, but you know I do this because I love to act.” Lark humbly answered, not as enthused and in awe of making the Hollywood A-list, of receiving the awards or the whole celebrity glitz that accompanies fame.

“Shush, don’t say that so loud!” Elaine chuckled and held a finger to her mouth. “I’ve got to run hun. Remember don’t give any quotes that could get you into trouble with the press. Be very evasive if they ask any controversial questions.” She reminded her and shook her finger to emphasize her point.

“I know, I know.” Lark chuckled.

“Call me if you talk with Rayne about the situation okay? I’ll give you a reminder call on Thursday so that you don’t forget to get on the plane.” Elaine smirked and laughed.

“I will and I’m sure you’re right, that I’m overreacting to something that I shouldn’t, but I’m a woman and I can’t help it. It’s my nature to be that way.” Lark answered with a laugh, as did Elaine. “Ooh, maybe that’s my sweetheart calling me.” Lark giggled when she heard the phone ring and raised it to her ear. “Hello.” She cheerfully greeted.

“Hey Lark.” Shayan solemnly greeted.

“Is everything okay?” She asked, noting the somber tone in his voice.

“No, aah I need to get in touch with Rayne and can’t reach her with the numbers I have.” He explained evasively.

“What’s going on? Is it the boys, Holly, your parents or Jayce?” She worriedly asked and sat up in her chair. Elaine’s smile turned to worry when she saw the pensive look on Lark’s face.

“No, they are all fine. It’s Gram, she’s taken a turn for the worse and I need to find Rayne.”

“Oh, my god. I just saw her the other day before surgery and your mom said everything would be alright.” She anxiously told him and put her hand to her chest, trying to calm her racing her. She knew Rayne would be devastated by the news about her beloved Grandmother.

“I know, the doctor said she would be fine with the heart surgery, but she has gotten worse.” He explained sadly.

“Okay, she’s a strong lady and I’m sure she’s going to pull through this. I’ll give Rayne a call on my way to the hospital.” Lark told him in a hurried tone, standing up and grabbing her purse.

“I sure hope so. Thanks for contacting Rayne and tell her to give my mom a call.” He answered, somewhat grateful that Lark would call his sister instead of him, knowing that she would be very upset with the news.

“Okay, I’m leaving now.” She answered with an urgent tone in her voice and exited the studio.

“I’ll see you soon then.” He answered softly.

“Hang in there honey, she’s going to be fine no matter how bad it seems. I’m sure of it.” Lark encouragingly told him.

“Thanks, bye.” He answered and clicked off the phone.

“I’ve got to run.” Lark told Elaine and swiftly walked towards her car.

“What’s going on?” Elaine asked nervously as she hurried to catch up with Lark.

“Rayne’s grandmother had heart surgery and she’s taken a turn for the worse.” Lark explained in a rush.

“I hope she’s going to be okay and I wish I could go with you, but I have to catch my flight. Call me later and let me know what’s going on. Tell the family I’ll be thinking of them.” She called out as Lark headed for the limo and opened the door.

“Thanks, bye!” She shouted before climbing inside and slammed the door, startling the driver who didn’t see her rush out of the building. “I need to get to Memorial hospital right away,” She ordered, settling in the seat and wondered how she was going to tell Rayne that her grandmother was gravely ill.

*******

She lifted the phone to her ear after punching in the numbers and waited for an answer. “Come on, pick up, pick up.” She coaxed anxiously and fumed that the light was taking an eternity to turn green. ‘Where is she?’ She questioned surprised that she couldn’t reach her and left an urgent message for her to call her. ‘Finally.’ She said relieved that the light changed and thought hard about how she could find Rayne. “Ah-ha.” She said out loud and punched the numbers into her phone when an idea of how to reach Rayne came to mind. “Hello, this is Lark Morgan and I need to speak with Director Bailey right away, it’s an emergency.” She explained to the person who answered the phone.

“Can I ask what this emergency is in regards to?” The person asked not very eager to put her call through.

“My name is Lark Morgan and my partner is Agent Rayne Donovan. There is a family emergency and I need to speak with Director Bailey to get a message to her right away.” Lark incredulously told the woman and felt like strangling her through the phone for making her wait. ‘If she only knew how much of a hurry I am to reach Rayne she wouldn’t be moving at a snails pace. Bitch.’ She angrily thought frustrated with the woman and the entire situation.

“Please hold.” She told her and Lark heard elevator music on the other line.

‘I can’t believe how long she is taking.’ Lark fumed and waited for her to come back on the line.

“Lark, hi it’s Mark Bailey. I hear there is a family emergency and you need to speak with Rayne?” He cordially asked, after picking up the line.

“Hi, yes. I’ve tried to contact her, but I can’t reach her. She needs to call me right away, her grandmother has taken a turn for the worse after her heart surgery.” Lark explained, sounding rushed and parked the car once she arrived at the hospital.

“Okay, I’ll contact one of my agents there and he’ll get a message to her right away. I know she’s right in the middle of a detail so she may have turned her cell phone and pager off until she was finished.” He explained.

“Thank you so much.” She answered grateful as she rushed in to the hospital after the limo stopped and headed straight for the elevators.

“I hope everything turns out fine for Rayne’s grandmother and I’ll get that message to her right away.” He reassured her.

“I’m sure she’ll appreciate that. Thanks again, bye.” She appreciatively answered and clicked the phone off, impatiently waiting for the elevator door to open. ‘I hope gram is going to be okay.’ She nervously thought and stepped off the elevator when the door opened. She looked down each hallway and saw Shayan pacing in the waiting room. She quickly walked towards him. “Shayan.” She called out when she approached and hugged him when she reached him.

“Hey, Lark.” He softly replied and hugged her. He broke the hug and looked down at the shorter woman. “Did you get in touch with Rayne?” He asked, hopeful that she had.

“I left a message on her voicemail and called her director who assured me he would get a message to her. How’s gram doing?” She anxiously asked.

“I’m not sure, I’m waiting for my mom to come out here and fill me in. They only allow a certain number of people in the room and mom wouldn’t let me in there.” He explained and sighed nervously.

“Okay, well we will wait together then.” She smiled and comfortingly rubbed his arm. “Where are Holly and the boys? What about Jayce?” She asked, wondering why she didn’t see them.

“Thanks. Holly took the boys down to get something to eat and Jayce is on his way here from Boston.” He tentatively smiled and sat down as did Lark, waiting for news about his grandmother.

******

“Where’s Agent Donovan?” The man asked, as he approached the cars.

“Right there.” Danielle, an agent on Rayne’s team pointed out after seeing Rayne step out of the other car.

He rushed towards the tall woman and stood before her. “Agent Donovan?” He stammered nervously.

“That’s me.” She answered with a chuckle by the way the shorter man was acting.

“I have an urgent message for you.” He informed her and handed her the note.

She looked at him and glanced at Forrest who was standing next to him, unsure of what was going on by his nervous and tense demeanor. She looked down at the note and hesitated before opening it. She read the note and quickly dialed her mother’s number into her phone. “Mom, what’s going on with gram?” She hurriedly asked, without any pleasantries.

“Rayne, I’m so sorry, but mom has taken a turn for the worse.” Her mother tearfully told her.

“What? Wait, I don’t understand. Mom you said that this was just something routine and not that big of a deal. Now you’re telling me that gram has taken a turn for the worse?” Rayne asked anxiously feeling her heart pound in her chest and took a step, but had the small agent in front of her. She sighed disgusted and pushed him out of her way as she began to nervously pace, out of an audible range from the rest of the group.

“I know honey, but there were complications and she’s taken a turn for the worse. You need to come home, now.” She told her and began sobbing harder as her husband wrapped his arm around her to comfort her.

“I’m on my way.” Her voice lowered in an answer and clicked the phone off. “Forrest, I have to go back home.” She informed his and hurriedly picked up her gear not giving him a chance to answer. “Hey, little man, where’s your car?” Rayne called out to the smaller agent who gave her the note.

“Oh, aah over there.” He nervously stammered, intimidated by the taller agent and pointed towards it.

“Give me your keys. You’re staying here to take my place until another replacement can get here.” She told him and snatched the keys from his hand.

“Hey, wait aah, you can’t…” The agent attempted to tell her, but was fighting a useless cause as Rayne took off for his car.

“Rayne, what’s going on?” Forrest nervously asked as he jogged to keep up with her.

“My grandmother has taken a turn for the worse after surgery and I have to get home.” She anxiously told him and threw her gear in the back seat of the car.

“Oh, shit I’m so sorry. I’ll be thinking about you and her as well as your family that she gets better. Let me know if there is anything I can do”.

She looked back at him and smiled appreciatively. “Thanks, I appreciate it and I hope she pulls through too.” She nervously told him.

“Do you need me to call the airport for a flight for you?” He asked, wondering what he could do to help.

“No, but thanks. Director Bailey told me in the note that he arranged one for me. Now all I need to do is get to the airport.” She explained and opened the driver’s side door.

“Okay, what if I drive you there then?” Forrest offered worried by how anxious Rayne was.

“No, you need to stay with the team and finish the assignment. I’ll get back here as soon as I can.”

“Okay my friend. Have a safe trip and know that our thoughts are with you.” He told her with a warm smile, hoping it would give her a moment of peace and engulfed her in a hug.

Rayne fought the tears that wanted to break out as she hugged her partner and friend. She patted him on the back, grateful for the comfort and smiled, breaking the hug. “Thanks, it means a lot and you be careful. I’ll see you soon.” She told him and smiled again, before climbing in the car.

“I will.” He smiled and closed the door behind her. He watched as she started the car and waved when she steered the car past him.

*****

Rayne glanced up in the rear view mirror and saw Forrest standing with one hand up for a wave. She lifted her hand up and waved back before turning the corner, disappearing from his sight. She sped the car towards the airport and reached into her backpack for her cell phone. She punched in the numbers to call Lark. “Hey, did you hear about gram?” She asked, when she heard Lark’s voice.

“Yes, I’m here at the hospital Rayne. I’m so sorry.” Lark told her and began to cry when she heard Rayne’s voice.

“I’m on my way there right now.” She hurriedly told her and screeched the car to a halt at the airport terminal.

“Okay, what is your flight number and I’ll come to pick you up?” She asked and grabbed a pen and piece of paper from her purse.

“They arranged for a private plane for me and they’ll have someone pick me up at the airport. So, I’ll see you at the hospital.” She explained in a rushed tone and headed into the terminal.

“Be careful and try not to worry, I’m sure gram is going to pull through.” Lark encouragingly told her.

“I hope so. Do me a favor and tell gram I love her.” She asked in a shaky tone, trying to avoid losing it.

“I will.” Lark gently promised, then looked at Shayan and back to the ground, knowing that Rayne’s mom wasn’t going to allow anyone in the room. “I love you.” She softly told her and felt a tear streak down her face.

“Me too, bye.” She answered and ended the call, hurrying to the hangar to catch her flight.

*******

Lark clicked off the phone and wiped the tears away. She looked over at Shayan and softly said, “She’s on her way,” then stood up, and walked towards the window. She looked out over the city, brightened by the crisp sunlight and wondered how it could be such a beautiful day with so much turmoil happening in their family. She sighed deeply and closed her eyes, saying a prayer that everything would be turn out fine.

*******

Rayne was relieved to finally arrive at the hospital after the grueling and long flight where her thoughts were only about her grandmother. She fumed and angrily questioned why her mother down played her grandmother’s condition and not tell her to come earlier. She jumped out of the car before it came to a complete stop and headed for the entrance. Rayne rushed into the hospital and scaled the stairs to the fifth floor after the elevators took too long to reach her. She burst through the door and looked to her right, then left and saw Lark leaning against the wall. “Hey, what room is she in?” Rayne asked as she rushed towards her out of breath and placed her hand on Lark’s arm. “Lark?” She questioned and lifted her chin up to look at her.

“I’m sorry Rayne.” Lark tearfully replied and began to sob harder as she engulfed her in a hug.

“Wha…what’s going on? How is gram?” She asked confused and broke the hug, trying to get some answers.

“She’s gone Rayne. She’s gone. I’m so sorry.” Lark tearfully informed her and cried harder.

Rayne stood stunned by the news and nothing but denial hit her. She refused to hear or accept that. “No, no she’s not dead. Where is she? I want to see her?” She anxiously asked, holding Lark’s shoulders and leaning closer to her face for the answers.

“I don’t know where they have taken her. You’ll have to ask your mother.”

“Where is my mother? Take me to her.” She angrily demanded and started to walk in the direction of where Lark pointed, then looked back when she felt Lark grasp her hand. She clutched Lark’s hand and both women picked up their pace as they turned the corner.

********

They entered the room where the rest of the family was sitting all in stunned disbelief and Rayne headed right for her mother. “Where is she?” She angrily demanded, blaming her for not being there in time.

“She’s at the morgue.” Her mother solemnly said, staring with a blank look on her face.

“I’m going to see her.” Rayne replied and turned, but was stopped when her mother grabbed her hand.

“No, I won’t let you see your grandmother that way. She isn’t how you know her and I don’t want you to have that memory of her stuck in your mind for the rest of your life. You’re brothers didn’t see her and neither will you. I won’t allow it.” She adamantly told her, looking up at her angry daughter.

“I don’t care what you will allow, I’m going to see her!” Rayne angrily shouted and jerked her hand away from her mother.

“Rayne, honey.” Lark replied trying to calm her, but was no help as Rayne stormed towards the door and was stopped by her father.

“You heard your mother. We knew you would react this way and we’ve given strict instructions downstairs that no one is to see her.” He sternly told her.

“Why? Why can’t I see her?” She asked and began to cry. “I want to know why?”

Lark began to cry harder when she heard Rayne cry and moved towards her, desperately wanting to comfort her. She put her hand on Rayne’s back and lightly rubbed as Rayne’s father hugged her.

“She’s very bloated from the surgery honey and to be honest, you wouldn’t recognize her if you saw her. Your mother is right, you need to remember her the way she was and not this way.” He gently told her and held her tighter as she cried on his shoulder.

She regained her composure and became angry. “Why didn’t someone call me sooner and tell me she was so bad?” She asked, turning towards her mother and waiting for an answer. “I told you I would come home for the surgery, but no you told me not to that she would be okay? You lied!” She angrily shouted.

“I told you what the doctor’s told me. They felt very confident that she was strong enough to handle the surgery. They assured me that she was strong enough to handle it. It wouldn’t have made a difference if you had been here or not Rayne. She had been in a coma since coming out of surgery. Her organs shut down and she passed in her sleep.” Her mother tearfully informed her.

“Yes, it would have made a difference. Maybe she would have fought harder to come out of the coma if she knew I was there! I didn’t get to talk to her and tell her that I loved her.” Rayne angrily shouted and broke into tears with her last comment then pushed past her father, and headed down the hall.

“Rayne!” Everyone called out as she headed towards the elevators.

She repeatedly pushed the elevator button and headed for the stairwell when the elevator was delayed. “Rayne, where are you going?” Lark frantically asked when she approached; terrified for Rayne’s safety by the way she was acting.

“I’ve got to get out of here Lark”. She had a searing case of feeling helplessness and couldn’t bear to just stand around, crying. She had to release her anger anyway she could, but not there.

“I’m coming with you then.” Lark insisted and moved towards the door to follow her.

“No, I need to be alone. I’ll talk to you later. I’ve got to go.” She anxiously told her and rushed down the stairs.

“Rayne!” Lark called out and began to cry harder. She turned around when she felt someone touch her.

“Just let her go, it’s her way of dealing with death.” Shayan softly told her and remembered how she acted the same way when Karen died.

“It’s not safe. What if something happens to her?” Lark tearfully and worriedly asked.

“She’ll be fine, just give her some time. Okay? Come on I’ll get Jayce to drive you home.” He comfortingly suggested and put his arm around her shoulder, leading her back to the room.

“No, I’ll be fine. He needs to stay with you all. I’m sure he’s very upset too.”

“Are you sure?” He asked, concerned.

“Yes, but thanks for the offer. I’ll talk to you later and find out what the arrangements are going to be.” She slightly smiled, grateful for his concern.

********

Lark frantically paced the living room floor with worry as Rayne had still not come home. It was late into the night and she hadn’t heard from Rayne since she stormed out of the hospital. She had tried to call her but Rayne turned her cell phone off. She quickly turned when she heard the lock on the door being turned and let out a sigh of relief when she saw Rayne enter the room. “Rayne, honey I’ve been so worried.” She told her and rushed over to her, hugging her tightly.

“I’m sorry. I just needed to be alone.” Rayne softly replied, hugging Lark tighter and leaned her head on her lover’s shoulder.

Lark kissed her shoulder and lightly stroked her back to comfort her as they stood in silence. Lark kissed her and broke the silence, “Come on, and let’s go sit down.” Lark suggested and grasped Rayne’s hand when she stood up. Lark led her towards the couch and sat down, followed by Rayne who laid down with her head in Lark’s lap.

Lark lovingly stroked her dark hair and wasn’t sure what to say. It hurt her deeply knowing how much pain Rayne was feeling and all she wanted to do was take it away. “I can’t believe she’s gone Lark.” She softly said and buried her face in Lark’s stomach.

“I’m so sorry baby.” Lark sorrowfully replied and leaned down kissing her on the head. She felt Rayne clutch her and felt a deep sadness when she heard Rayne begin to sob uncontrollably. She had never heard Rayne cry so hard before and this was killing her. “It’s okay baby. It’s going to okay.” She softly tried to reassure, kissing her head repeatedly and held her tighter, trying to comfort her the best way she could. She sat lightly stroking Rayne’s face and running her fingers through her hair as her lover sobbed until she could no longer.

Rayne sat up and turned to Lark, wiping her tears. “I’m going to bed.” She flatly said shutting off any emotion she had and stood up, quickly heading towards the bedroom, slamming the door behind her.

Lark sank back into the couch and sighed, disappointed. She was confused by Rayne’s strange behavior and wasn’t sure what she was supposed to do to help her. She headed down the hall and opened the door to their bedroom, which was darkened. She saw Rayne laying on the bed still fully clothed and climbed in next to her. “Do you want to talk about it?” She softly asked, leaning her chin on Rayne’s shoulder.

“Aah, I just want to go to sleep okay?” She asked, and then moved onto her stomach, away from Lark.

Lark leaned back on the bed and stared at the ceiling, trying to deal with the rejection and pain she felt. She wanted to be there for Rayne and help her through all of this, but she was shutting her out. ‘Doesn’t she know I’m hurting too? I loved her grandmother very much. I need her and I know she needs me.’ Lark thought, hoping Rayne’s denial and anger wouldn’t consume her. She was physically and mentally exhausted. She closed her eyes and wondered why Rayne had to be so distant from her especially at a time like this. She wanted to comfort her and make everything better, but Rayne was rejecting her offer. She sighed disappointed and hoped Rayne would let her in.

Rayne lay still and thought about how much she loved her grandmother, as the tears streaked her face. The loneliness, vulnerability, anger and pain she felt were unbearable. She felt guilty for not being there at the hospital for the final moments of her grandmother’s life and blamed her mother for not telling her how gravely ill her grandmother really was. ‘Why did that wonderful woman have to be taken from us when there are so many other horrible people who are allowed to stay here on earth?’ She angrily questioned and wiped the tears that trickled down her cheeks. She rolled onto her back and inhaled deeply to calm her emotions. She turned her head and looked at Lark who lay with her eyes closed next to her. She smiled at her beauty and the way she was always able to make her feel better. She knew she would make it through this as long as Lark was there for her. She rolled onto her side and draped her arm across Lark’s stomach, then laid her head on her shoulder. She felt a warmth and calming peace when Lark put her hand on Rayne’s arm, as they laid silent. Lark opened her eyes when she felt Rayne cuddle up closer and was happy that she soon fell asleep, comfortingly stroking her dark hair.

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Rayne’s grandmother had requested that she be cremated and the family had a memorial service two days after her death. Rayne and Lark arrived at the funeral home, not wanting to have to go through so much anguish. Rayne parked the car and turned off the ignition, then sighed, reluctant to go inside. “I don’t want to do this Lark.” Rayne told her and gave her a sideways glance.

“I know baby, none of us do and I wish it didn’t have to be this way.” Lark warmly replied and held Rayne’s hand. She smiled and hoped it would give Rayne some peace.

Rayne gave her a slight smile and brought her hand up, lightly kissing the back of it. “Thanks.” She appreciatively smiled and opened her door. She stood up out of the car and walked around to Lark’s side, then opened the door for her and held her hand out to help her.

Lark took Rayne’s hand and stood up out of the car. She smiled appreciative of the help and smoothed out her dress as Rayne shut the door. Rayne grasped her hand and both sighed apprehensively as they walked towards the funeral home, wishing they could be anywhere but there.

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Rayne was not dealing with the service and all the mourners who stopped by to express their condolences well at all. It was all she could do to get through the memorial service without having a break down. She was happy to be home and away from all the reminders that her grandmother was gone. She needed a break and didn’t want to think about it. She tossed her keys on the table and headed down the hall, removing her coat along the way. She entered the bedroom and tossed the coat on the chair, then changed into a t-shirt and a pair of shorts. She walked out onto the balcony off their bedroom and looked out over the turbulent ocean. She stared at the rough sea and thought it was fitting as she felt the same way. She inhaled deeply, trying to regain her composure and fight of the grief she felt so deep in her heart. She quickly turned when she felt Lark’s hand on her back, startled, as she was lost in her thoughts.

“Are you okay?” She gently asked, looking up to her and rubbing her back comfortingly.

Rayne crossed her arms over her chest and looked out at the ocean. “That’s such a funny question at a time like this, but everyone seems to ask me that. I tell them yes, I’m okay, but I’m not.” She softly admitted still staring out over the sea.

“I’m sorry I asked that, I know you’re not okay. You’re devastated. I’m just not sure of what to say or do to help you.” Lark sympathetically answered as her eyes welled with tears.

“There is nothing that you can say or do that will make any of it better. She’s gone and there’s nothing I can do about it. I can’t bring her back. I’m just going to have to get over it somehow.” She impersonally answered looking down at Lark, then back out over the ocean.

“Okay.” Lark softly replied and got the feeling that Rayne didn’t want her there. She walked back into the house and wondered how she was going to tell Rayne that she was leaving for the promotional tour the next day. ‘From that chilly comment she made, I don’t think she will miss me being gone.’ She thought, hurt by the rejection. She walked into the closet, sighed frustrated and grabbed her suitcase. She placed it on the bed and began to pack.

“What’s going on Lark?” Rayne nervously asked when she entered the room and saw her packing.

Lark sighed, trying to gather the strength to tell her and turned around. “I have a promotional tour starting in London tomorrow.” She answered, looking up at Rayne, then back down.

“I can’t believe this. You’re leaving now?” Rayne asked in a raised tone.

“I have to Rayne. I can’t get out of this tour.” Lark explained, hoping the conversation wouldn’t turn into a shouting match.

“Why can’t you?” Rayne asked and folded her arms across her chest.

“For the same reason you can’t get out of your assignments, it’s my job!” Lark fired back and turned, starting to pack again.

“What’s that supposed to mean?” Rayne asked, moving towards her and sat on the bed.

“Just what I said, it’s my job. It’s unfortunate that I have to leave tomorrow, but there is no backing out of this Rayne. I’m sorry.” She explained and stood before her.

“Fine, whatever.” She angrily said and rushed out of the room, slamming the door behind her.

Lark hung her head and sighed, then flopped on the bed feeling guilty. ‘I’m horrible for leaving at a time like this, but I have to go. If I don’t go I’m screwed, I have to go. She’s just going to have to understand.’ She inwardly reasoned hoping it would make her feel better and went back to her packing.

She finished packing and set her suitcases by the door. She changed into her pajamas and decided it was time to talk with Rayne again. She hoped that she had given her enough time to calm down and searched the house for her.

**********

Lark entered the family room and saw Rayne lying on the couch, watching TV. She inhaled deeply and walked over to the couch. Rayne stared at the TV as Lark stood next to her. “Rayne, I’m sorry. Please understand.” Lark softly pleaded and sat down when Rayne moved her legs to allow her to sit next to her.

“I really don’t understand, but I can’t stand in the way of your job. Don’t worry about it, I’ll be fine. How long will you be gone?” She indifferently answered and asked, looking at Lark then back to the TV set, too disappointed with her lover to look at her.

“I’ll be home in two weeks.”

“Hmmm, well at least you’ll make it for our anniversary.” Rayne sarcastically commented and flipped the channel on the TV, acting as if she weren’t bothered by everything.

“Yes, I made sure my schedule was cleared for it.” She smiled, excited about their anniversary.

Rayne turned and looked at her, wondering why she could free up her schedule for their anniversary, but not now. She decided not to ask her that question and buried it deep inside to avoid a huge fight that she had no energy for at the time. “Okay, well I’ll see you then.” Rayne coldly smirked and looked back at the TV.

Lark looked down at her hands and twiddled her thumbs unsure of what else to say or do. “Well, I’m going to bed. Would you like to join me?” She suggested, hopeful that Rayne would take her up on the offer and finally make up with her.

“No, I’m good right here for now. I’ll be in later. Night.” Rayne answered and leaned up, kissing her on the cheek then lay back down, watching the TV.

“Okay, I love you.” Lark mustered from the awkwardness of the situation and the unfeeling kiss Rayne gave her. She knew Rayne was doing her best to put a guilt trip on her so she would get her way and stay there. She decided she wasn’t going to allow that to happen and stood up, then walked out of the room. ‘If the situation was reversed, she would do the same damn thing with her job. I’m sure she thinks I’m letting her down, but she’s done the same thing to me many times. Besides, I have to go and I can’t get out of it.’ She thought and reminded herself, as if she needed reassurance that what she was doing was right thing.

Rayne waited until she closed the door and tossed the remote on the floor, frustrated with Lark’s refusal to not stay home. ‘I can’t believe it. How can she just go off like that when I need her?’ She angrily thought and sat up on the couch. ‘I need to take a walk and release my aggressions.’ She restlessly thought, looking at the remote in pieces on the ground and stood up. She opened the sliding glass door to the patio and stepped out. She headed down to the beach to clear her head.

*********

Rayne had gone for a long walk and sat on the beach until the sun began to rise. She had forgotten all about time as she tried to make reason of her life. She had cooled down and decided that she would take Lark to the airport. She realized that no matter how mad at her she was, she still loved her and didn’t want to regret not going with her to see her off. She walked back up to the house and entered to find Lark standing in the kitchen drinking a glass of orange juice. “Morning.” Rayne softly greeted with a slight smile to ease the awkwardness of the situation.

“Why didn’t you come to bed? I was concerned when I couldn’t find you.” Lark worriedly asked placing her glass in the sink and leaned against the counter, looking at Rayne for her answer.

Rayne shut the door and walked over to Lark, standing before her. “I went for a walk on the beach and sat down there thinking and lost track of time. What time is your flight, I would like to take you to the airport.” She shyly asked, giving Lark a sideways glance and hoped she would allow her to.

“I need to leave in a half hour. Have you forgiven me?” Lark tentatively asked, hating the fact that Rayne was mad at her.

“I’m trying to.” Rayne softly replied and leaned towards Lark, giving her a lingering kiss her on the forehead. “I’m going to get dressed.” She softly said and turned, walking out of the kitchen.

Lark crossed her arms over her chest and reached up covering her mouth with her hand, still conflicted that she was doing the right thing. She wanted Rayne to hold her in her arms like she used to and tell her how much she loved her. She needed that interaction from her, desperately to make everything seem okay. She wanted them to get married and have children just like they had always dreamed about. She didn’t want Rayne working so far away and so frequently. She hated the way she was feeling and the fight that they had, but thought Rayne should understand that she had to fulfill her work obligations. She perused her itinerary for her trip as she waited for Rayne. She placed the itinerary in her purse unable to concentrate on what she was reading after the third time from constantly thinking about the tension between the two of them.

“Okay, I’m ready.” Rayne told her after walking into the kitchen.

“Oh, aah okay.” Lark stammered, startled out of her thoughts.

Rayne handed Lark her cosmetic case and picked up her luggage, carrying it towards the front door. Lark opened the door for her and locked it behind them once they exited the house. Rayne loaded the luggage into the car and they headed off to the airport.

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“Which hangar?” Rayne asked, navigating the car through the parking lot.

“Number three, over there.” Lark answered and looked up, pointing at the hangar when she saw it.

Rayne pulled the car up and parked, then got out to open the door for Lark. She held her hand out and helped Lark from the car. Lark shook her head to the side when the wind whipped her long hair in her face and squinted from the bright sunlight when she looked at the plane. Rayne inhaled deeply and felt her heart skip a beat from how beautiful Lark looked when she pushed the hair off her face. Rayne wondered how such a beautiful woman could hurt her by leaving and cleared her throat, snapping back to reality and headed to the trunk. Rayne pulled her luggage form the trunk of the car and handed it to one of the workers, who put them on the plane.

She walked back to the passenger’s side of the car and leaned against it, watching Lark as she spoke with the pilot. ‘I should tell her that I’m not pleased with her leaving, but how can I tell her nicely that I think she’s being selfish?’ I can’t so I’ll bite my tongue, tuck my displeasure deep inside, and try not to hold it against her.’ She thought that it was going to be the only way to keep the peace between them. Rayne intently watched as Lark placed her paperwork and credentials in her purse before walking back over to Rayne. “Are you all set?” Rayne asked, looking down at her.

“It looks that way.” Lark replied, feeling awkward and unsure of what to do.

“Call me when you get there so I know you arrived safely.” Rayne told her and clasped Lark’s hands, pulling her closer. She stared into Lark’s mystified greens and reached up, cupping her face in her hands.

Lark nearly burst into tears when Rayne held her face and stared deep into her eyes. Her heart raced when Rayne thoughtfully brushed the errant strand of hair from her face. She leaned in and tenderly kissed Lark, and then held her in her arms. “I love you.” She whispered in her ear and kissed her cheek. Rayne leaned back against the car, lovingly staring at her.

Lark moved closer to her and fiddled with the button on Rayne’s shirt, and looked up at her. “Are you going to be okay alone?” She worriedly asked, having second thoughts about leaving after that beautiful admission.

Rayne inhaled deeply and released her breath. “I’ve been through this before and I’m sure it won’t be the last time.” She answered, casual shrugging her shoulders as if she were casting her pain away. She looked away, and then set her sights on the warm emerald greens before her. “I won’t be okay by myself because I’ll miss you.” She admitted with a bashful smile.

Lark felt a catch in her heart and smiled back. She pushed open her jacket and placed her hands on Rayne’s hips. She leaned up and kissed her. “I’ll miss you too.” She whispered through her kiss and deepened it as Rayne held her face, passionately reciprocating the kiss. Lark reluctantly broke the kiss and stared into loving blues. “I love you.” She tenderly told her and smiled, backing away from her.

Rayne lovingly smiled as she watched Lark back pedal, then turn and walk towards the plane. She felt her heart flutter when Lark looked back at her and smile as she waved good-bye. Rayne waved and blushed when Lark blew her a kiss just before boarding the plane. Rayne stood with her hands crossed over her chest, leaning against the car and watched the plane prepare to leave.

*********

In the plane, Lark took her seat and looked out the window at Rayne. She lovingly smiled as she stared at Rayne who stood intently watching and felt a catch in her heart when the blue eyes she absolutely adored met her gaze. She caught the breath that momentarily escaped her from Rayne’s beauty as the wind from the plane blew her hair about. She thought about how much she loved her and wondered if Rayne still loved her as she did before considering the disagreement they had. She moved her hand from her mouth and pressed it against the window as if she were blowing Rayne a kiss. She smiled when Rayne waved as the plane began to move and strained her neck to keep sight of her when the plane moved away from the hangar. She leaned back in her seat and rested her head after the plane moved onto the runway. She sighed closing her eyes and thinking of the woman she just left behind. ‘I hope I did the right thing.’ She worried and felt the plane lift off the ground.

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Rayne pulled into the driveway and was confused as to why her director was standing at her door. She walked up and he met her half way. “What’s going on sir?” She asked and stopped, standing in front of him.

“Rayne, can I come in?” He solemnly asked and motioned towards the door.

“Okay, sure.” Rayne stammered wondering why he seemed so serious and opened the door. She entered the house and tossed the keys on the table. She turned to face him when he entered the house. “What’s going on?” Rayne worriedly asked.

“Unfortunately, I have some bad news.”

“Aah, okay what is it?” She asked growing more concerned with the way he was acting. For a moment her heart raced that something happened to Lark and knew she would have heard something before her director if it had.

“Rayne, I’m sorry to tell you this, but Forrest was killed.” He told her in a crackling tone, fighting his emotions over losing one of his agents.

“What?” She shouted in disbelief. “How? Are you sure?” She rapidly questioned still not believing what she was hearing.

“He was killed when the team was attacked by a couple of militants wanting to take out the Secretary.”

Rayne placed her hands on her hips and paced back and forth, unsure of what to do, what to say or what to feel. “Damn it! Damn!” She shouted and sat down on the couch, frustrated and without being able tocontain the tears that streaked her face.

“Rayne, I’m so sorry.” He replied sorrowfully.

Rayne sat rocking back and forth with her elbows resting on her legs and her hands over her mouth. “Have you told Sandy yet?” She softly asked, thinking of Forrest’s wife and how she was going to take the news.

“Yes, I saw her just before I came over here.”

“Is someone with her?” She worriedly asked. She was shocked by the horrible news. It wasn’t bad enough that her grandmother just died, but now her partner has died too. She just knew it had to be a nightmare and was questioning why there was so much death around her.

“Yes, her mother was visiting so she’s with her now.”

“When will Forrest be back?” She asked, looking over her shoulder at him.

“He should be here by six tonight.” He informed her sadly.

“I want to be there to meet him.” She answered, staring blankly out the window.

“Are you sure you can handle that?” He asked, concerned.

“No, I’m not sure, but he was my partner and my friend and I owe it to him to be there.” She answered deeply troubled by what happened and stood up.

“Okay, I respect that and I will have an agent stop by to pick you up around 5 pm then.” He told her and turned towards the door. He turned around as Rayne walked behind him and stopped when she saw him turn. “Look Rayne, take all the time off you need. This has been a living nightmare for you and I’m sorry for your loss.”

“I appreciate that, but the best thing for me to do is to get back to work after Forrest’s funeral. It will help me forget about all of this. By the way, did they catch the people who killed him?” She asked, curious.

“They killed them.” He coldly answered.

“Well, justice was served then huh?” Rayne sarcastically remarked, satisfied that her partner’s death was vindicated and the killers would not go free.

“Oh, yeah.” He smirked and opened the door, heading outside not believing that his top agent was taking everything very well despite, how much she fought it. “Bye.” He slightly smiled unsure of what to say and decided to leave it at that and headed towards his car.

Rayne closed the door and was no longer able to contain her emotions. She lost it and burst into tears. She sat on the couch and rested her elbows on her legs, holding her pounding head as she cried. “This is all my fault. If I had been there, then he wouldn’t have been killed. I can’t take this shit. I can’t!” She shouted angrily and cried harder, rocking back and forth trying to calm down. ‘No, stop it. Control yourself Rayne!’ She inwardly demanded and stood up, shaking her arms, trying to gain control. She inhaled deeply and exhaled repeatedly, until she felt calm and in control. ‘Get dressed and do your duty as a friend.’ She reminded and headed down the hall to dress, pushing her emotions deep inside.

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The steamy hot shower did nothing to get her mind off the deaths of her grandmother and partner. It angered her more and to think that Lark was so far away when she needed her, it only added to her angst. She couldn’t believe that Lark left at such a horrible point in her life and wondered if she would come back when she heard about Forrest. ‘Nah, she’ll stay.’ She thought incredulously and slammed the door behind her, in an attempt to take out her frustrations. ‘I am so mad that I can barely stand it. Where the fuck is this agent? He’s freaking late.’ She inwardly fumed, looking at her watch and noted it was 5:02 as she paced in the driveway impatiently waiting for him. ‘Finally.’ She said, when she saw him pull into the driveway. “It’s about time.” She unpleasantly stated when she got into the car and slammed the door behind her.

“I’m sorry Agent Donovan, but I was caught in traffic.” The agent apologetically answered and looked back, steering the car out of the driveway.

“You should have taken that into consideration and not been late. What if you would have been on an assignment and you being two minutes late would have left your team compromised?” She irritably asked, looking at him.

“You’re right and I apologize for being late.” He hesitantly answered intimidated by the agent next to him.

“You’ll remember that and not allow it to happen again correct?” She assertively asked.

“Definitely, it won’t happen again.” He nervously promised and put the car in gear, driving away.

‘Ass.’ Rayne cursed and looked out the window. ‘Why is there so much death around me?’ She questioned and couldn’t come up with an answer. ‘Just when I thought my life was perfect this happens and the person I love more than life itself is not here to help me through it. I still can’t believe she left. There was a time when I was able to handle something like this on my own and since I’ve been with Lark, I’ve realized that I don’t have to handle things by myself, but now it seems like I have too. Am I being selfish for wanting her to be here for me?’ She wondered, staring blankly out the window and inhaled deeply. Throughout the drive she tried to calm her emotions and anger, sitting silently and trying not to think about everything, when it hit her. ‘I’m sitting here worrying about Lark not being here for me when my grandmother and Forrest are dead. I’m sure they would rather be in my position than what they are in now. I am such an ass!’ She privately admonished and snapped out of her thoughts when the car stopped. She looked around and saw that they were at the airport. ‘Damn, I should be more observant of my surroundings.’ She thought and opened the door, stepping out. She looked around and inhaled deeply as her heart raced knowing she would soon see her partner in a casket.

“Rayne.” Director Bailey greeted when he approached. “Are you sure you want to be here?” He asked, touching her on the shoulder.

“Hell no I don’t want to be here, but I need to be. He would have been here for me if things were reversed.” She tersely answered and stared at the plane that was approaching them.

“How are you feeling? I’m worried about you.” He asked, concerned for his top agent.

“What I’m feeling, pales in comparison to what happened to Forrest. Don’t worry I’ll be fine. It’s not the first time I’ve lost someone close to me and it certainly won’t be the last.” She coldly told him, staring stoically at the plane.

“I would like for you to see one of our staff counselors Rayne.” He suggested gently.

“Don’t waste my time or their time. I’ll deal with this in my own way and if I need to speak with someone about it, I’ll let you know. Thanks for the offer.” She angrily brushed off the suggestion after looking at him and walked towards the plane that had parked. ‘I don’t need to see a damn shrink. I’m fine.’ She fumed and stood next to the ramp of the plane. She looked at the other agents on each side of the ramp, and looked away unable to maintain eye contact, trying to conceal her emotions. Her heart raced uncontrollably when she saw the casket slowly moving down the ramp. She thought back and had a visual image of when Forrest said goodbye to her for the last time. She inhaled deeply and mightily fought the tears that so desperately wanted to fall. ‘Damn it!’ She inwardly cursed and sniffed back the tears and grabbed a portion of the American flag that another agent covered the casket with. She grasped the handles and looked at the other agents who had accompanied Forrest on the plane with all nodding in unison that they were ready. The group lifted the casket at the same time and carried it to the hearse that waited nearby, cautiously placing it inside.

They all stepped back when the driver closed the door and silently watched as the hearse slowly moved away. She felt a lump in her throat and let the unchecked tears trickle down her cheeks as she watched her partner leave for the last time. She was glad that she hugged him and took one last look at him before she left to be with her grandmother. At the time, she thought it was strange for him to act like that, but she was happy that they made the connection considering what had happened. ‘I should have been there to protect him. If I had been, he wouldn’t be dead now.’ She guiltily thought.

“Are you ready Agent Donovan?” The agent who drove her softly asked to not startle her.

She looked down and tried to discreetly wipe away her tears. “Yeah.” She softly answered, keeping her head down and walked away from the agent towards the car.

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Concluded In Part XIV

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