~ Too Far ~
by DS Bauden

This is a companion piece to Too Much. You may want to read that first to get the feel of this vignette.

I don't know what to call you, so please forgive my improper greeting.

If there was ever a time in my life when a woman made me stop and take notice, it was the day that I saw you. You were so beautiful, how could I not? Do you remember how our eyes locked? It seems like so long ago. My heart hasn't beaten the same since that blustery afternoon.

I've never encountered such passion in my life. No, not even with him. Perhaps it was a mistake to voice that aloud. Your eyes gleamed with victory as mine clouded with uncertainty. It's difficult not to compare you. You are a siren song to my ears, but he calls to me in ways you wouldn't understand. I wish I could blink it all away and live happily ever after, but this is not Neverland.

The guilt I carry never used to feel this way. Initially, when I'd return to my bed beside him, I was able to fall asleep easily. I would just think of you and what we'd shared only hours before. The scenario is still the same, except now, I cannot sleep. I look upon his peaceful face and cannot bear the thought of hurting him.

I've felt a change in you over the past few weeks. A subtle shift of sentiment, as it were. It's easier for me to work out my worries on paper, which is why I'm sending you this letter, and also, frankly, I'm a little scared. What am I to you? I feel as if your life depends on mine for nourishment to exist. I cannot be the sustenance you require!

I pause as I write this, as several days have passed since I began. My thoughts are all jumbled and my emotions are on high. I have been forced to make a very difficult decision.

When I left your bed the last time, indeed it was for the last time. Calling attention to our union wasn't something you should've done. I'll never forget the look on his face. Damn it! Why did you kiss me like that, and why in front of him? Words will never be enough when you've instilled pain in someone's heart. I know that now.

You are a stranger to me now. You were once the woman who took my breath away, but now you've taken so much more. Why did you have to love like that? It was too much for me and too much for us. It took away your clarity, your belief and lastly, your beauty.

You loved too much, yet it was not enough. Goodbye.

Fin

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~ Too Much ~
by DS Bauden

Nothing to disclaim this time… enjoy.

Sunday October 6 - 1:15 am

The taste of you still tingles my tongue. I wonder if you have our scent lingering on your skin. It never ceases to amaze me how passionate you become. After you left, the sheets were still damp against my body. I can't breathe without inhaling all that we are, when we truly let go. How did I live without you, without this? Please don't let me find out. I couldn't bear it. I know my life would never be the same.

Sunday October 13 - 9:21 pm

It's been a week and I still wait for your call. Wondering when we'll see each other again. Has he found out about us? Is that why you haven't phoned? He doesn't deserve the love in your heart. You've shown me you love me more. Why can't we celebrate that? Our hearts beat two lost rhythms when we're apart. I need to feel yours beating against mine again, soon. Oh, my beloved, why are we being punished?

Tuesday October 22 - 7:30 pm

You finally called today. Your resonating voice, a healing balm to my worried heart. Seeing you tomorrow night will erase my fears. You promised to make them go away. Belief in us will always remain paramount. I promise.

Wednesday October 23 - 8:30 pm

Something about you tonight was different. You held back as you did when we were first together. Have I become a burden your heart cannot take any longer? Oh my love, I wish you would talk to me. Your pillow is cradled against me, and your scent still remains.

Saturday November 2 - 4:19 am

My body is thrumming with desire for you. Our phone conversation left me breathless. How can you make me want you so badly? Just the thought of your skin on mine sends my world into a frenzy. The power you wield blinds me. I can't keep the smile off my face; I want him to find out about us. Is that so wrong?

Friday November 15 - 5:20 pm

Your husband never saw it coming did he? He trusted you, just as I do. I know you'll be with me soon; you just need time to calm down. You know what I did, I did for us. We are free now. Come back to me, lover.

Sunday November 25 - 10:38 pm

How can I love you too much? What does that mean? How can someone love too much? I don't believe you won't return to me. We've bared our souls! Don't you know you're a part of me? Your body melds with my own. Your voice soothes the aches inside of me. Until we can be together , I will feel incomplete.

Please, forgive me. I will wait patiently, my love. Forever, if I must.

Fin

Feedback is the Ruler of All Bards

dsbauden@comcast.net

http://www.dsbauden.com

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