~ The Joining ~
by Kamouraskan
Part 3
Chapter 1
As he ran, James kept reminding himself that if he was seen by the archers he wouldn't live to warn Robin, so he forced himself to keep to the side of the ridge and behind the brush that hid him from the rival army. His heart was pushing the other way though, urging him to charge down by the straightest course to call out to her. He ran towards the base of the hill, his arm catching occasionally on an outcropping, scraping at his flesh, once nearly twisting his ankle as it slipped into a hole. Finally near the bottom, he stopped, gasping, to get his bearings and saw one of the archers had spotted Robin and was moving into position for a shot.
"Shit, I'm never going to make it," he cursed. There had to be a way, someway he could stop her and not warn the rebels. There was a grove of trees right along the ridge he was on, that rose up above the path Robin was riding towards. He should be able to intercept her at that point, he thought.
He had almost reached the interception point when he could see through the trees that the archer was drawing a bead on her. Panting, he saw Robin had made herself a perfect target and he knew that there wasn't going to be time even for a warning yell. As he leaped down towards her, he felt rather than saw the release of the arrow, and time seemed to almost come to a stop as he hurtled towards her.
A conversation with Xena about being fired upon had flashed through his mind, and he remembered her saying 'present a profile, harder to hit and you protect the vitals', and in this strange time-suspended moment he had time to turn his body as he leapt. He thought that the arrow striking would feel like a knife and there would be a simple shock, not pain, but he was wrong again. There was a great agonizing impact as it hit him hard on the right shoulder, knocking him slightly off trajectory. But he still seemed to have all the time in the world as he grabbed at Robin, hoping to pull her down off Titan and carry her to the culvert below. There was a moment of panicked struggle from Robin as he pulled at her, and he knew that because of the great height of the horse, and his own weight pushing her down, any muscle tension could be deadly.
So using his forward momentum, and against every instinct he had, he struck her across the jaw. As he pulled her body into a protective embrace, he felt her go limp and her feet 'thank God!' pulled out of the stirrups as they fell to the side of Titan. Still amazed at the slowness of their fall, he almost forgot to begin the roll to distribute the impact while relaxing his own limbs until the ground was all that he could see, and then there was nothing at all.
Chapter 2
Voices...
"Hades, one of those bitches shot James."
"Where? How's Robin?"
"I don't know yet, check for broken bones, that was a big fall. They might have internal injuries too."
Robin felt someone raise her gently. Damn, she hurt. Her jaw, shoulder, sides, especially her right shoulder. She lay still while the examination was made, and felt vaguely resentful when she was pronounced fine. She heard James complaining querulously that he was fine as well, but Gabrielle just snorted at that.
Eponin was asking him how he could have landed and not have broken anything.
"Parachute class at home." James tried to sit up, but the searing pain convinced him to stay where he was. He realized that he was surrounded by blank looks. "You jump from high places with some… material above you, that catches the wind and slows your fall," he explained. "But they also train you how to land if there are problems. How to roll and distribute the shock. And I had all the time in the world to do it too. I had so much time, I presented only profile..." He stopped at a shimmer of understanding, and looked at Xena. She was nodding.
"That's how you two do what you do, isn't it? You both seem to move so fast, but to you it's all in slow motion. The adrenaline speeds your mind or something."
Xena was grinning, and smirked. "If you had all that time, why didn't you just catch it?" pointing to the arrow.
James grumbled, "Only wimps catch the arrows in their hands." The warrior laughed.
Robin finally spoke out. "Would someone do something about MY shoulder, damn it?"
She opened her eyes and saw Gabrielle staring at her from the ground with an Amazon behind her. James and Xena were on either side of her, and the positions were so familiar. She followed their glances to her completely unmarked right shoulder, but the pain from it hit her again, and once more an intense stream of memories struck her, overwhelming her.
Chapter 3
Once more, she was in Amphipolis. A very pregnant Gabrielle was arguing with Saras, who had ridden all day to be there and now was not pleased to have her advice rejected. The Amazon Queen was lying on a litter being dragged along the ground by Xena who had a wicked smirk on her face. The expectant Queen was red in the face and yelling.
"I am not staying in that furking room any longer, Saras! I am not sick. This," pointing at her belly, "isn't an injury or a disease! It's my baby and it's going to be born under the same stars it was conceived under!"
Xena drawled, "The Queen has spoken, Saras."
Gabrielle now turned on her warrior. "You, you shut up and pull."
She lay back as another contraction hit her and Robin instinctively grabbed her hand and felt her own groin pinch and flare. She rode out the pain until it passed, and looked to Gabrielle in astonishment. James and Xena looked over at Gabrielle and from his own pain-filled hunched position he questioned, "That wasn't as bad, was it?"
Gabrielle nodded and looked up at Robin, who shyly suggested, "Maybe if we were holding hands each time, it would help?"
In silent assent, Xena pulled Gabrielle's pallet to the centre by the fire they had built and began to move the log seats around her. James picked up his present from Gabrielle. She had commissioned an Amazon craftswomyn for the addition of a sixth string to a five string lute, and with some ingenious adjustable clamps as frets, James was trying to tune it as a classical guitar. Xena listened to him for a while and growled, "I still say you should have just learned to play the lute."
He ignored her, and looked to Robin, asking, "how's this?" and played a G chord. Robin grimaced; it was getting closer, but...
They had just gotten settled, and Saras had left predicting dire consequences, when James called out "Incoming!"
Robin grabbed Gabrielle's left hand and Xena her right, and James dropped the instrument and closed the circle. Immediately they all felt a muscle grinding, tensing pain that left them grateful when it had passed.
They looked to Gabrielle who nodded weekly. "Much better", but she looked at each of her friends questioningly. Robin spoke what was on their minds.
"I don't know why we can do this, I'm just glad we can. For some reason we're in this together, and we're going to help. Okay?"
Gabrielle smiled crookedly, and said, "Much more than okay."
James picked up the pseudo guitar again and Xena, after whispering a few words to Gabrielle, began adding to the fire. Robin stopped her and said, "I can do that," and motioned her back to sit by Gabrielle.
She watched the couple as their foreheads touched gently. Sometimes it was hard to think of Xena that way. Except when the warrior was with Gabrielle. She had been so frightened of Xena, intimidated by both her beauty and presence even before she had heard about her warlord days. But here and now, observing the tenderness between the two of them, and the gratitude she had tried to express every time Robin or James did some small thing for her bard, she now knew where James found the courage to occasionally confront her. There was a core of loyalty to friends and family that overrode any of her inner violence. All you had to do was simply touch her heart, and she could never hurt you again. She looked up to see Xena watching her gather the wood. There was that strange wordless exchange between them, a passing of some kind of sympathetic awareness that she felt with James sometimes, and then the warrior turned back to her bard.
"There," yelled James triumphantly, startling her. He immediately began banging a boogie riff in E, until the strings stretched and he had to stop to tune again.
"There is no way," Robin pointed at his hands, "That you are going to introduce Rock and Roll to Ancient Greece. Got that?"
"But I could be Elvis!" he mock whined.
"No, you couldn't," but gave him a kiss on the forehead seeing his disappointment. "We're all here for a while, so let's figure out what we can sing."
James thought. "Nothing based on rhyme alone. I've tried it before, and it doesn't seem to survive the translation from English to whatever it is we're all talking. Presumably modern French wouldn't do any better. And that would rule out most syncopation as well, because it's based on the beat of the words."
"Well, what does that leave?"
"Any simple songs, or ones with real poetry in the lyrics."
As the hours passed, between contractions, Robin sang with Xena, working out the concept of harmonies. Gabrielle told stories, and Saras would interrupt periodically to remind the Queen that she had promised to return at the slightest complication. Ephiny had gotten over her resentment at not being able to join the 'contraction circle' as she called it, and sat behind Gabrielle, occasionally massaging her queen's aching back muscles.
Finally James took over the guitar and began to play. He began with songs of children, and switched to laments of love and wars, before switching to a song by Holly Near. With Xena and James as the basses;
And the Junta....
Ephiny's tenor would join in,
And the Junta...
then Robin's clear contralto:
And the Junta knows...
And Gabrielle with the weakest voice, but still the most creative in finding a new or different harmony between the singers;
And the Junta knows where they are hiding her,
And their sounds filled the clearing and glowed with the fire and the anticipation and sense of the uniqueness of the moment. Several times, various guards on the perimeter had attempted to approach with some message, and had been stopped by the almost physical barrier that had been created by their circle.
When James next tried a song by Cris Williamson, Robin finally decided to corner him.
"What is it with the gay songwriters? How do you know all this stuff?"
James seemed shocked. "Robin. Gay Songwriters? These are folk songs. Like Woody Guthrie. Some are songs about what's wrong, and unfair or how things should be. They're political and some are about human values and feelings, and when they're well written I want to play them."
She stared him down.
"Okay. That's all true but... there's a song I want to do, and I'm softening you guys up so that the irony of a man singing won't be as... apparent."
"What is it?" she asked.
"I Am Woman, Hear Me Roar."
She hit him.
"OK! No, it's by a fellow Canadian, Ferron. It's called Testimony. I just hope I remember all the words."
Despite breaks for contractions, by half an hour they had the first few verses of the song down.
There's Godlike, and warlike, and strong like on-ly some show
There's sad like and mad like, and had like we all kno-ow...
But by my life, be I spirit.
And by my heart, be I Woman.
And by my eyes, be I open.
And by my hands, be I whole.
There were many other songs as the waiting continued, but as the night drew on Testimony was requested again, especially by Gabrielle. She simply said it gave her strength. Robin could see that Ephiny was memorizing the song for future camps, and she wondered what the implications would be for Ferron to know her song had been sung around ancient Amazon campfires.
She decided that the writer would probably appreciate it.
It was only after a particularly heavy contraction that left them all weak for a moment, that James introduced the third verse.
You young ones, you're the next ones
And I hope you choose it well
You can be baited, and trade it
For the Jaded Jewel.
But by your lives, be you spirit.
But by your eyes, be you open.
And by your hearts, be you women.
And by your hands, be you whole...
Earlier in the night, there had been a crying towel that had been passed between them when the emotions had overflowed. Occasionally with jokes and smirking comments. But that had long since passed. They had also stopped breaking the circle of hands between contractions, and while James played, Xena and Robin's hands lay across his lap completing the circle. With this last verse there was no attempt to wipe away the tears, and the only movement occurred when Xena leaned over to very gently touch Gabrielle's belly with her lips.
If the third verse had been a prayer, the fourth was a declaration of purpose.
Listen, there are waters,
Hidden from us
In the maze we find them still.
We'll take you to them,
You take your young ones,
May they take their own in turn.
And by our lives, be we spirit...
And by our hearts, be we women
And by our eyes, be we open....
And by our hands, be we whole....
And the moon and stars were listening and waiting, and the whole universe was complete within that group and they were part of a greater whole like nothing she had ever experienced before and Robin caught Gabrielle's eyes and knew that they were both sharing the identical thoughts: 'I will never, ever forget this moment, this night. I will hold it with me until I am an old woman, I will never forget...'
Chapter 4
"Robin?"
Robin couldn't move. She felt overburdened by the memory, by joy and pain. She tried to find her way back to the present, to the attack, her shoulder, and James being hurt, but the first thing she saw was Gabrielle and she felt such a sense of shame that was almost a kind of betrayal, and she broke down, reached out to the bard and clutching her, cried, "Gabrielle I'm so sorry. I swore I would never forget and..."
And then they were both crying and Gabrielle was laughing through her tears, "I told you I was being selfish..."
Whatever she might have said next was cut off by the pain that shot through Robin's shoulder, and she looked over to see that Xena had just thrust the arrow backwards through James' arm.
"I thought you said I wouldn't feel it, that I'd probably just faint," James complained.
Xena sniffed at the arrowhead for poison. "I used to tell people it would hurt like Tartarus, but I found they tensed up." She put her hand out without looking and Gabrielle dropped a needle and thread into it. Robin wanted to turn away, but the pain was just as strong whether she watched or not.
"I missed something didn't I? How did you, we, get that arrow?"
James tightened as the needle passed through his skin. "There was a sale," he said through clenched teeth.
Gabrielle held Robin's hands as she explained. "You were riding into an ambush. James got between that arrow and your heart."
Robin stood, but she had nowhere to go, so instead she slumped down beside Xena. "What do you say?" she mumbled. "I never had anyone save my life before." The warrior didn't respond. Gabrielle took one of her hands again and laid it on James'.
She swallowed, and faced him. "Why did you do it?"
James looked away. "I don't know. Why did you come ahead and not wait for the cavalry?"
Robin gripped James` hand hard, and they both grimaced as Xena tied off the last of the stitches.
Eponin coughed. "Excuse me, but isn't there a civil war going on somewhere? I think we have a few decisions to make."
Her question broke through each of their thoughts.
"She's right. And though I'm assuming that forty plus trained Amazon warriors aren't having any problems subduing twenty-odd rag-tag mercenaries, this doesn't solve the bigger problem, does it?" James said to Xena.
An idea began to form in Xena's mind. "And even if we capture a few who might name names, we still will have a danger to..."
Robin interrupted. "So we need to get them to expose themselves, and crush them completely in front of the rest of the tribe…"
Robin and Xena were both now thinking out loud.
"But if they thought we'd lost,"
"Then the ones in the village would have to think..."
"But we'd need casualties..."
"We'd need some…sheets? The centaurs wouldn't mind losing a few sheets in a good cause, would they?"
"There are some berries on the hillside that would be perfect..."
"As a genuine casualty, James could go ahead..."
Xena and Robin stopped, noticing that the others were staring at them. Eponin asked, "Who's bonded to who?"
Xena looked at Robin and they both shrugged. "Straightforward tactics, that's all."
Robin added "A leads to B leads to C."
"Exactly. We need materials for litters and berries for blood. James, I'll show you where the berries are. Sorry to make you run around, but you can't tear sheets into bandages, and we're going to need lots of them."
Continued in Part 4