So much time and distance has come between us that I hardly know where to start save that I love you.

I pray that the distance between us hasn't dampened your ardor for me. For the distance has turned the flames of my passion turn into an inferno. My waking moments are filled with thoughts of you. I can not walk through a breath of my life with out my mind touching an imagination of you.

My nights are populated with dreams of you. In my slumbers we walk together down rural paths that run through beautiful fields of green. A soft breeze rustles the leaves of a tree that we stand under. As the snow lightly falls in the winter, white blossoms swirl in the air surrounding us in a gentle cyclone perfumed beauty. You look deeply in my eyes and smile as you pick the small flowers from my hair. You lean in and kiss me ?my eyes flit open?once again I am shocked that you are not with me. I lift my fingertips to my lips, they still tingle with your touch. I let a tear slip.

My love, there is so much to say but no words to say it. 'I love you', seems poor and insignificant when it comes to how I truly feel about you. There are no words in the English language that can convey the depths of my love for you. Just the remembrance of the sound of your voice makes my heart swell within me. Those sultry dulcet tones are a balm to my bleeding soul.

I never thought that my life would take me down this road of joy and ecstasy.

There have been so many broken hearts, so many tears that destroyed my faith in love. All my dreams ended trajecly as I cursed the Fates for their calloused treatment of me. I balled my fist at Eros for making sport of my emotions. Being so angry at the winged god who blithely used my heart for target practice with totally disregard of the consequences these exercises would bring to me and my life. Laughing at my agony.

Yet as I stood high upon the precipice of all my tomorrows prepared to throw myself into the abyss of hopelessness, Eros' mother took note of my despair. The lovely Aphrodite, had mercy upon me. She chastised her evil son and set the Fates a new mission. The Fates tasked to wash my hopelessness away with the waters of love.

So the Fates spirited me away to the mountain tops, to the secret alcoves where the looms of life resides. There the Maiden bathed me in the waters of new beginnings. The Mother bound my wounds and healed my weeping sores. Then the Crone opened my eyes the endless possibilities of life and love.

Once blind eyes were open they beheld a beauty beyond compare. You. You were the first thing my eyes caressed. You are such a vision of loveliness that it miraculously brought my soul out of the desolations of Tartarus to heights Olympus. You are my perfect love, my soul mate, my forever. Oh that you would love me too.

Then you made my happiness complete by uttered those words I had been waiting to hear. I love you. You said it, that you love me?.me. You will never know how wondrous those words were for me to hear. Would that I could hold you in my arms right now and love you with my entire being.

I know the distance between us has been as unbearable for you as it has for me. Please don't let your love, your passion grow cold. Let neither time nor distance steal our love away. When your heart is heavy and your recollections become hazy know that my love will never fade.

Know that our connection can never be denied. I will come to you, I will strengthen you via our connection of souls. You will feel my touch, my love even though I can not be with you in the flesh right now. My soul will dive into the waters of your spirit. I will drink the sparkling waters of your light as you feast on the waters of my own.

My darling hold on as I will soon be with you. I promise.

I realize there have been so many changes come to your life. There are even more changes yet to come. So many decisions to be made, so many more trials and conflicts to be resolved, but please remember, my heart, just close your eyes and feel my arms wrap tightly around you. You will never walk alone again.

Forever your,

Joan


Continued in the next letter, 'Dear Joan'.