~ Turning Point ~
by Larisa
Part 2
Olivia bent over and used a pot holder to pull the oven rack with the broiler on it out, flipping the huge family steak over, she then poured more marinate on it and closed the door. Before she straightened up, she looked to her side to see Alex watching her. She had the distinct feeling that Alex had stripped her of her clothes and she was cooking in the buff with only the pot holder in her hand. Straightening up, she grabbed the beer she had pulled from the refrigerator and took a long sip before putting it down. "A few more minutes and the steak will be done," she checked on the cheese and turned the heat off under it before grabbing the steamer pot with the cauliflower in it. "So you can't cook at all huh?"
Alex stepped beside her and pulled down plates from the cabinet. "I can, I just choose not to, it's easier ordering take out. I hate eating left overs and cooking for just me sucks." She reached over Olivia's head and grabbed a bowl for the cauliflower. "You know what I mean, you go to buy meat and it always comes in a family pack. So ya gotta freeze most of it, you go to get chicken and it's cheaper to buy a whole one then parts and pieces but I can't eat a whole chicken at one time and reheating it sucks." She pressed up against Olivia just for the Hell of it and carried the plates to the kitchen bar. "I feed the neighborhood stray cats and dogs a good portion of what I do cook because I forget about it and then I'm to afraid to eat it because I don't remember how long it's been in the refrigerator."
Olivia dumped the cauliflower into the bowl and then poured the cheese over it before handing it to Alex. "I feed the bull pen when I make too much," she opened the oven door and pulled the broiler out to place on top of the stove. "I love lasagna but I can't make just enough for me, it just kills the recipe. So I eat that night and then take the rest into work with me, it works out good because there's three of us bachelors there." She cut the steak in half and then placed the pieces on the plates along with the potatoes she pulled from the oven. "With the three of us bringing in food all the time, Kathy wants us all locked up because Elliot brags about what he eats at work." She sat down next to Alex at the bar and handed her a knife and fork. "You know you can come to the bull pen and eat with us any time you want, you've always been part of our little family."
"I'll remember that next time I'm looking at one of those disgusting sandwiches from the vending machine." She bit into a piece of her steak and moaned from the flavor bursting in her mouth, she had eaten in some of the best restaurants in New York and nothing compared to this. Swallowing, she wiped her mouth and looked at Olivia. "You cook for me every night and I'll give birth to all your children."
"What if I don't want kids?"
"I'll do or give you anything you want…to be honest, I don't want kids either." She took a sip of Olivia's beer and then filled her mouth with the twice baked potato covered in three cheeses, fresh chives and sour cream. "This world sucks too much to try and raise a kid; you know what I mean, look at the sick shit we see every day."
"I know what you mean and I see Elliot struggle every day with himself, he tries to hide it but he worries about his kids. He doesn't take our work home with him but its still there, it's in the news, the TV shows and the kids see it at school." She looked to Alex and shook her head. "No shop talk here, this is a cop and ADA free zone." She took a long pull of her beer and thought of what they could talk about. "OK now tell me more about these things that you've perfected."
Alex snorted and reached across the counter for the cap from Olivia's beer, placing it between her thumb and forefinger; she pressed it in half and dropped it in front of Olivia. "There's one for ya, the others are better for another time."
"But that's an easy thing to do; anyone can smash a beer cap in half."
"Really, OK ya wanna make another wager there Benson, I'll serve you breakfast in bed if you can do it? She got up from her stool, got another beer for them and twisted the top off. "Here ya go, now ya gotta do it like I did and no cheating either."
Olivia picked it up and placed it between her fingers. "Piece of cake Ally," she pressed her fingers and gritted her teeth together but it didn't help with smashing the beer cap. "Son of a bitch!" She dropped the cap and looked at the indentations in her fingertips. "I think you cheated and you're just trying to get me to bring you breakfast in bed." She rubbed her fingers and shook her head when they stayed red.
"Oohhh please like you wouldn't bring me breakfast in bed if I asked," she picked up the lid, held it right in front of brown eyes and smashed it in half. "See that no cheating either, that's what four years of law school gets ya."
"OK I would serve you breakfast in bed and so far I'm skill less…does that make sense?"
"Who cares, one more beer and I won't know my own name let alone be able to play scrabble." She finished her food and looked at Olivia with a raised brow. "Did I ever tell you that I can't spell worth a damn and if not for spell check all my motions would sound like a kindergartener wrote them?"
Olivia chuckled and placed her empty plate on top of Alex's before getting up and going to the sink. "And where did you place in your graduating class?"
"At the top, I'm always on top." She grinned when Olivia paused before getting to the sink; she loved throwing the detective off balance. She glanced to the microwave and saw what time it was. She got up from her stool and pushed Olivia out of her way. "I'll wash you dry and then we're getting outta here."
"And just where are we going at nine o'clock at night," she saw a grin forming on her face and knew she was in trouble. "Oohh Hell no…you're gonna get me in some kind of trouble aren't you?"
Alex laughed and hip checked her. "You sound like Fin and no I'm not gonna get you in any trouble, may give you a stroke or two but that's all."
*******************
Fin tapped knuckles with a few of the guys on his way to where the sound system controls were, a couple times a month he spun for a club that belonged to one of his childhood friends. He climbed halfway up the stairs and turned to look out over the crowd under the flashing and strobe lights. As usual, the place was crowded and pounding with the music's beat. Going all the way up to the top, he slapped hands with the DJ and stepped over in front of the second set of controls. He hit a button and a loud siren pierced the air before a loud thumping replaced it along with yells of recognition. Everyone knew what he did for a living and while he was in the club, there would be no problems or he would personally run the trouble makers in. Playing with the light buttons, he set lights to flash red and blue over the dance floor with a white light searching the crowd. It wasn't just for looks; he was actually searching the crowd for familiar faces.
***********
Alex had a tight hold of Olivia's hand, she pulled her through the crowd and over to the bar against the one wall. She had to grin at how Olivia had just about thrown a fit when the taxi dropped them off in a dark alley in the middle of Queens. When a siren started wailing, the cop in Olivia clicked on. It took Alex dragging her to a side door of the dance club and pushing her inside to convince her that they weren't in the middle of a raid. "Loosen up Liv we're completely safe here," she yelled in her ear and pulled her closer to her at the bar. "You seem surprised."
"You can say that," she looked around and saw that a majority of the place was people in their early 20's she felt ancient and out of place. "How often do you come here?"
"Not often, actually only when I can convince someone to come with me," she waved a hand at the bartender and took the two bottles of water he handed her. "My body guard might already be around here someplace, he's very imposing." She grinned at the narrowed look Olivia gave her. "Are ya jealous that I come here with a man?" She pressed into Olivia's body and rolled her hips into her.
"Why would I be jealous of that…" she shivered and grabbed a hold of the bar to keep from falling when Alex thrust against her. "Do you dance with him?"
"Sometimes, depends on our mood that night." She ran her hand up under the midriff shirt Olivia wore and caressed her stomach. "I'm gonna dance, you coming?" She shrugged her shoulders when Olivia leaned back against the bar and shook her head.
Olivia watched as Alex worked her way further into the crowd and to the main dance floor, she felt her stomach jump when she started to move with the beat along with the other dancers. What surprised her was the spot light that settled on the blonde and the change in music, it became a pounding Jamaican beat that brought more dancers to the floor. She watched for a full half hour before Alex came back to her and fell against the bar panting. She drank from one of the water bottles and used her forearm to wipe the sweat from her face before turning very pale blue eyes to her. Olivia had never seen Alex look like she did now, sensuality poured from her. She felt intoxicated and moved into Alex's personal space, she ran her hands up her back and pulled her into her body. "That was…I have no words." She ran one hand through Alex's wet hair, pushed it back from her face and ran her fingers down her neck. When the spot light hit them she looked up to where the DJ's were. "Friend of yours?"
"You could say that," Alex yelled into her ear and then held up two fingers and waved her hand in the air. "You will dance this one with me and then we'll go home before the crowd lets out and we can't get a taxi."
"Ally, I can't do hip hop," She whined but it did no good as she was dragged out onto the dance floor. "Don't scream when I step all over your feet." The lights lowered and the music changed to something slower, Olivia looked around and felt panic set in. She didn't see any other same sex partners in the place and was ready to pull away when Alex stopped her.
"Liv stop worrying and dance with me, these people don't care what we're doing." She moved against her and felt her loosening up, wrapping her arms around her neck, she pulled her even closer. "Listen to the words Liv." She said in her ear, tucked her face against her neck and listened to the song by 112.
Oh I need to know
Where we stand
Do we share this special thing called love
I know I do
What about you
I just can't get enough of your time
Where do I go
What do I do
I can't live without your love
Thinking of you
Makes me feel
Like I'm the only one for you
Girl I want to
Be with you
No one else
Only you
Why can't we just
Make it happen
Baby I need you in my life
Every time I'm with you
Never want it to come to an end
Always make me so happy
You'll always have a place in my heart
Olivia couldn't ignore the fingers caressing the back of her neck or the lips kissing the area beneath her ear, she tilted her head further to the side and moaned when Alex slipped her thigh further between her legs. Pulling back a bit, she tilted her head and captured Alex's soft lips in a hungry kiss. Her blood roared in her ears and left her dizzy with need when they parted, she swore she heard sirens again and then her body started to vibrate with the speakers. Before she realized what was happening, Alex pulled her off to the side. "Look up there to the DJ's and tell me who you see."
Olivia squinted and almost fell over. "Oohh my fucking God…why didn't you tell me Fin was up there?"
"Would you have kissed me like you did if you had known?" Her lips still burned from the kiss and she wanted nothing more than to drag Olivia from the dance club and home.
Olivia tilted her head to the side, looked around them and then backed Alex up against the wall. "Alex, I just threw you out of the closet…"
"No you didn't, I'm not in any closet here that only happens at work." She gave her a crooked grin and then moaned when her lips were capture once again in a burning kiss.
"Uhh huh leave you two alone for a second and ya end humping each other against a wall." Fin said close to Olivia's ear and snickered when she froze and pulled back slowly from Alex. "Let me help you two get outta here, Alex always has to be escorted from this place. She's a damn trouble maker and causes more fights than anyone I know." He wrapped his arms over their shoulders and guided them to a hidden door in the back. "Go right home and no sex in the back seat of the taxi." He grinned when Olivia groaned and then opened the door to a well lit alleyway for them. "There ya go girls and don't worry Liv, your secrets safe with me."
She turned and gave him a funny look. "What secret is that, I've never been in the closet, I was worried about Alex."
Fin rolled his eyes. "I mean you two humping against the wall." He gave them a wave and waited until they got into the taxi before closing the door.
Olivia gave the taxi driver her address and looked to see Alex grinning like a maniac. "You are so proud of yourself aren'tcha, ya set me up big time now every time I look at Fin I'm gonna turn bright red."
"Ya know he's known about me for years," she ran her hand up Olivia's thigh and played with the inner seam. "He's never said a single word to anyone and plays the innocent game to a T, so when you were trying to convince Elliot that I was straight, he was dying."
Olivia dropped her head back against the seat and turned to face Alex. "I forgot that nothing is sacred in that office," She leaned closer to her and looked into her dark eyes. "So about that song at the club…did you request that?"
"Yep, Fin knew there was a chance that we'd show up tonight, so he knew to play that song if I got you on the dance floor."
Olivia looked out the window when the taxi slowed and saw that they were already at her building, she pulled some bills from her pocket and then opened the door. Taking Alex's hand, she helped her from the taxi and then they ran for her front door. They hadn't worn coats to the club and now stood shivering in sweat dampened clothes while Olivia unlocked the door. Once opened, she let Alex go first and took in the low slung desert cami pants and pale blue midriff t-shirt that showed off her defined abs. When they got into Olivia's apartment, she tossed her keys on the kitchen bar and took Alex by her hand. "The words of that song, is that how you feel?"
"Every single word," she whispered in a hoarse voice and watched dark brown eyes lighten to a reddish brown. "Now what?"
"That's up to you." Olivia whispered back and felt her stomach flutter with the seductive smile that came over Alex's face. With a slight tug on her hand, she followed Alex to the bathroom and waited while she turned the shower on.
"Right now I need to get the stench of smoke off me," Alex started striping out of her clothes and looked up to see Olivia watching. "Strip Benson or I'll pull you in there clothes and all."
"It just amazes me that most of the time I see you in an expensive suit and when you're not in it, you go commando." She let her eyes trail down across her stomach to stop at a thin strip of blonde hair.
"Liv stop babbling," She grabbed the hem of her t-shirt and pulled it up over her head and then unsnapped the front latch on her bra. "You've got two seconds to get in the shower." She let her fingers trail across her nipples before she turned and climbed into the shower.
"And everyone thinks you're just bossy in the court room," she was trying to ignore the pounding between her thighs, she had never been this aroused before from just a little bit of touching. Most times, sex was just a release, a way of getting rid of tension. But with Alex, it would be much more. Shedding the remainder of her clothes, she tossed them in the hamper and stepped into the shower. The scent of body soap tingled in her nose and the sight of the lather sliding down Alex's body sent tingles lower.
Alex could sense Olivia behind her, she kept her eyes closed and shivered when her chilled body pressed into her back. She had no modesty around Olivia and she often wondered why that was, any other woman she would have been the prim and proper assistant district attorney. She wondered if it was impart to the job they did, that she needed to toss away the costume and lay bare who she really was. A low moan rumbled from her chest when fingers ran down across her breasts and stopped to investigate her naval and lower abdomen. Since before they had left the club, she had fought with her arousal and now with just a caress, she was ready to fall to her knees. She turned in Olivia's arms, turned them around and backed her under the shower spray. Closing her eyes, she dropped her head down to rest on her shoulder as the water warmed them. "If I give you my heart will you keep it safe?"
Olivia pulled back and blinked water from her eyes; she lost all means of speaking and went with what was in her heart. Slowly leaning forward, she captured Alex's lips in a gentle kiss and then pulled away to turn off the water and then lead Alex from the shower. She turned the bed side lamp on and sat down on the edge of the bed. "Til my dying day," She pulled her down on top of her and rolled them so that she was on top. "I'm in love with you Alexandra." She moaned when Alex pulled her down to capture her mouth in a deep soul stealing kiss, when they parted all she could do was gaze into dark blue eyes and wonder what she had done to deserve someone like Alex.
"What's wrong Liv…did I do something wrong?"
"No, it's just that I'm wondering why me when you could have anyone?"
"I don't want anyone, I want you, and we talked about this all before." She rolled them over and took total control, with one hand; she brushed Olivia's wet hair back from her face and lowered her lips to hers. For what seemed hours, they just kissed and caressed each other. It was when Alex ran her hand down between Olivia's legs and felt how wet she was that she made her way down her body to linger at her firm breasts. Cupping each one in her palms, she ran her thumbs across her nipples and watched them become hard and deepen in color. Licking around each one and then nipping her nipples, she looked up when fingers threaded through her hair and pulled her down to languish attention where needed. The soft whimpers and moans that came from Olivia had her center twitching; she rose up over her and looked deeply into her eyes. "I love you Olivia, I've been in love with you from the first day I saw you…wasted so much time." She leaned down and brought their lips together in a soft kiss before kissing her way down to her naval. She grinned when Olivia thrust her hips upward and moaned deeply when she dipped her tongue into her naval. With just her fingertips, she made whispering movements over her stomach and ribs and watched the muscles flex. Where she was willowy, Olivia was hard with muscle; they were complete opposites in so many ways but the same as well. She was the strongest woman she knew and in so many ways, but when she touched her she was soft and yielding. She watched Olivia's back arch when she brought the flat of her tongue across her nether lips, her hands grip the bed covers and her heels push into the mattress. She moaned with the taste of her lover and slipped her tongue into her folds to tease her center. She licked the flowing juices from her and then teased her clit with the tip of her tongue until she whimpered. When Olivia started to thrust against her, she moved back up her body and captured her lips in a deep kiss. Bracing her weight on one forearm, she let the other one trail down to slip between Olivia's thighs. Pushing two fingers into her center, she pushed in all the way and stopped. "You stop me if I hurt you." She whispered and started to pull her fingers part way out before pushing them back in, she pumped faster when her lover met her thrusts. When two fingers slipped between her folds and into her center she gasped out against Olivia's neck, they rocked together and panted out against sweat soaked skin until Alex bucked against her lover and went rigid. She grunted and shuddered with her climax but never stopped moving her fingers in Olivia's center. With the tremors still traveling throughout her body, she brought her lover to the edge and the over when she hit a certain spot.
Olivia gasped and pulled Alex down into her body as she bucked and thrust against her with her orgasm, with the last of the tremors rolling through her, she wrapped both arms around her lover and buried her face in her wet hair. When Alex let out a long groan and relaxed into her body, she couldn't help but grin. Long minutes later and after they recovered, Olivia relaxed her hug, moved Alex's hair away from her neck and kissed and then nipped at the salty skin. When she whimpered, she bit harder and then sucked knowing that it would be a nasty bruise later.
"I hope you have a turtle neck I can wear," she grumbled and then whimpered when Olivia bit her again and then rolled them to their sides. "You know I bruise easy."
"Uhh huh and that means they'll last for a couple days," she pulled back and looked into a still flushed face. "I feel like a kid giving you hickeys." She ran a finger across a faint bruise under her eye and down her cheek to stop at her jaw. "You're beautiful even with black eyes."
"You need glasses Liv, I look like some boxers sparing partner." She snuggled into her body, rested her head on her shoulder and tried to do something with Olivia's spiked hair. "Ya know I never thought this would happen, I figured I'd go through life with you staring at my ass and legs during court."
"How come I can't ever live that down…maybe because I get caught a couple times a month huh?" She grabbed the blanket, pulled it over them and wrapped herself around Alex. "I'm still gonna do that ya know but now I got more visuals to add in there."
"That goes both ways there Liv," She nipped her chin and then her neck. "But I've got the privacy of my office to explore certain day dreams."
"I've got…your office 'cuz you're gonna share with me." She kissed her lovingly and then brushed her tangled hair from her face. A few minutes later they were both sound asleep and snoring softly.
***************
Elliot had tried calling Olivia's cell phone and got the message saying that her phone was turned off and to leave a message, so then he tried calling Alex's cell phone and got the same thing. He lost all patience when he called both their apartments and got no answer from either place; he called the patrol car that was to do drive bys and had them go up to Alex's apartment and see if they were there. The officer told him that they pounded on the door for fifteen minutes and had no answer. The last thing that he could do was to go over to Olivia's apartment and pound on her door until one of them answered, to be on the safe side and keep Cragen off his ass, he had Monique with him. So now he stood outside Olivia's door pounding on it with the night stick he had brought with him and Monique stood leaning against the wall with a smirk. He had been driving her nuts for the last three hours, if he got this bad over his partner, she could just imagine what kind of basket case he would be with his wife and or kids. "Ya know Elliot if you break her door she's gonna be really pissed at you and why the urgency here?"
"Some hump left a note on Liv's desk saying that he knew Alex was with her and they would both pay."
"What the fuck is wrong with this idiot, if Alex was straight how could she show interest in someone who doesn't have the gonads to even face her?"
Elliot stopped mid strike and looked at her. "Am I missing something here?"
"You miss a lot Elliot; open your eyes once in a while."
He went back to banging on the door and getting dirty looks from the other people in the building.
***************
Alex pulled the pillow over her head harder but could still hear the irritating noise coming from somewhere in the apartment, she moved so that one ear was pressed to Olivia's chest and clamped her hand over the other one. "What is that noise?" She mumbled and jabbed Olivia in her stomach. "Go kill it or something!"
"I don't wanna get up and I'm kinda getting into the primal beat." She grunted and yelped after being poked and pinched. "At least I'm not the only one who's not a morning person." She wiggled out from under Alex, grabbed a t-shirt and shorts from her dresser and hopped around trying to get the shorts on. The entire way to the door, she yelled enough insults that the steel door should have been melted. Unlocking the door, she flung it open and growled. "Do you ever sleep?" She walked towards the kitchen without waiting for an answer and started to make coffee. "What happened that you're here at the crack of dawn waking me up by beating the Hell outta my door?"
Elliot took one look at his partners, evil black eyes, sheet wrinkled face, hair that stood out at a hundred different directions and shirt on backwards and knew that he was as close to Satan as he ever wanted to be. "Our mysterious stalker left a note on your desk sometime after we all left last night." He waited for her to face him before continuing. "It said that he knew Alex was with you and that you would both pay, but if he shows up with you still looking like this, he'll drop over."
"Fuck you Elly, I should plant my foot up your ass, Monique you want some coffee?"
"See that Elliot, be a dick and you get dick." She slapped him on his shoulder and took a seat at the small kitchen table, when she caught movement from her right; she looked over and almost fell from her chair.
Elliot looked to Alex and bit back the remark that was on the tip of his tongue. "Morning Alex…"
"How would you like me to stick that night stick up your ass?" She took the stick from his hand and tapped him on the chest.
Monique grinned at her. "You'll have to wait until he gets Liv's foot removed." She looked at the blonde ADA and held back her laughter, her eyes were still bruised but they had nothing on the marks on her neck and upper chest. And the way her hair was beyond bed head almost had her screaming; wind tunnel on high was the picture that would stick with her every time she saw Alex. She gave Olivia a nod when she placed coffee in front of her and stuck her tongue out at Elliot when he had to get his own. What made her smile was when Olivia handed Alex a glass of OJ and pulled a chair out for her.
"So the freak walks right into the bull pen, puts a note on my desk and no one notices, where the Hell was everyone?" She started to pace behind Alex and came to a jerking halt when Alex grabbed the back of her shirt.
"Liv drink your coffee and calm down, you're ranting and I'm not even awake yet." She looked down at the robe she wore and sighed with relief. "For a minute I couldn't remember if I put anything on."
"Oohh believe me I would have let you know if you came waltzing out here naked." Elliot said and winced from the kick to his shin. "Maybe I should just tell you about that note huh?" He looked from Olivia to Alex and leaned in closer, when he recognized the marks on her neck and chest, he looked to Olivia with his mouth hanging open. "The note right, the other shift were all out checking a double homicide involving two prostitutes with their johns so the bull pen was empty." He shrugged his shoulders and looked from Olivia to Alex and then to Monique who had an 'I told you so' expression. "The boss says for you guys to come in today and go over all past cases where someone showed any interest in Alex other than what's considered normal," he waved a hand at them. "You know what he wants and we've come up empty on the rape victims, the ones that are still in this area have solid alibis."
"I think we need to check a different angle," Monique pulled a paper from her pocket and handed it to Olivia. "That's my notes on what we found out."
Alex rubbed her face and ran her fingers half way through her hair before they got caught in tangles. "What about the men, can they be watched and if someone goes after one of them you guys swoop in and help kick his ass?"
"Liv's got you corrupted already," Elliot gasped. "It took her a whole month to get me corrupted and that was with the rubber hose beatings twice a week."
"Don't go dragging me in on your sex fetish, how soon does Cragen want us in?" She placed one hand on her lover's shoulder and ran her thumb across the nape of her neck.
"When ever you get there as long as it's not tomorrow," he said and got up from the table. "We're outta here." He headed to the door and waited until Monique joined him before pulling it open. As soon as they were in the hallway, he ran a hand across his mouth and shook his head. "They're a grumpy couple in the morning and those hickeys?"
"Would you and Kathy be happy if they started pounding on your door at six in the morning?"
"Well no, and if I put hickeys on my wife like that, I'd be sleeping at the station in the crib." He looked to Monique on the way down the stairs. "I'm still having trouble thinking of Alex being a lesbian and why did Liv keep telling me she was straight?"
Monique snickered, pushed the door open and walked out to where their sedan was parked. "Ever think that maybe she did that because she wasn't sure and wanted to protect Alex no matter what her preferences?"
"Ok I can accept that, learn something new every day."
***************
"So does it bother you that Elly and Monique know about us?" Olivia asked from where she had her face against her lover's neck.
Alex brought one hand up and ran her fingers through Olivia's hair before turning her head and placing a soft kiss to her lips. "Nope, I'm just glad that I don't have to hide like before, it gets tiresome to play the straight game." She stood up and pulled Olivia into a tight hug. "Guess we should shower and head on into work huh?"
"Or we could go in as is and scare ten years of everyone's lives, ya know we're gonna catch a lot of flack?"
"I can handle anything they throw at me," she groaned when a hand snaked inside her robe and caressed the side of her breast. "Think Don will be pissed if we show up in say two hours?"
"Just one question, why only two hours, is your stamina wearing out and why was Elliot looking at me a weird, what'd you do ta me?"
"I think he was looking at you because of what you did to me." She started walking Olivia backwards to the bedroom and didn't stop until they fell onto the bed. "I seem to be the only one marked, so that means I have a lot to catch up on."
*************
Olivia couldn't get the stupid grin off her face, they were late getting into work and her water bill would be astronomical but she didn't care. They would both be walking a little stiff as well for the next few days, well she would be, Alex was like Gumby woman and said it was from doing Yoga a few times a week. She looked up from the file she was reading and just watched as her lover worked on a brief she needed for court the next morning.
"Dirty thoughts I hope."
"Where you're concerned, always," she dropped the file on the pile that she had already read and stretched her arms over her head. "I've gone over all the files and I still ain't found squat, could your stalker be some kind of geek ya pissed off before you came to SVU?"
"I did have a few white collar crime cases but that was years ago, I can't see them doing anything like this though. It's gotta be someone in this building or the courthouse, someone who has computer access…Liv what about the computer guys?"
Liv sat up on the small couch and blinked her eyes, she hadn't even thought of the computer crimes people. "How often do you use that department, I mean we use them when ever we confiscate a persons computer but other than that?"
"I can't remember the last time, besides all I do is get you guys the warrant for the computer and then it's in your hands. I don't even know any of the people in computer crimes, what about wandering down there and seeing if anyone pays undue attention to me?"
"Alex you're putting yourself out there as bait, I can't let you do that."
Alex got up from her desk, stood in front of her and crossed her arms over her chest. "Listen here Liv; I'm not going to let this creep turn me into a victim. I saw how the Dean lived in total terror and there's no way I'm living like that, so if I have to be bait to get this asshole then that's what I'll do."
"Ally please just let me go down there and check them out; I know what the guy's description is, if he's down there then I'll haul his ass up to the bull pen."
"And then what, I can only identify him by voice, it's not enough?"
Olivia rubbed her face and sighed in defeat. "Let me go down and talk to the computer cop that helps me and Elliot out all the time, I trust him and maybe he can tell me how the hospital record thing was done and if any of their computers were involved in it?"
"OK but if you strike out down there then I'm going back to business as usual, I can't do my job for the SVU and I refuse to be locked up."
Olivia nodded, stood up and held out her arms to her lover, as much as she hated the idea of Alex going back to her normal schedule, she knew it would be pointless to argue with her. "I'll be back after I'm done down there, you have your Glocks?"
"Yes I have them and I'll even wear one of them to make you happy, but if you hear of a shooting in the court room, I'm not guilty by reason of they pissed me off." She stepped into Olivia arms and rested her chin on her shoulder. "I'll be OK, what can happen in a court room full of people?" She kissed her lover's neck and inhaled the scent of her cologne. "I gotta go; I've got a hearing in half an hour."
"Be careful he could be anywhere and call me when you're done and I'll come get you."
"Liv calm down, I've been dealing with this for months now." She gave her a deep lingering kiss and then pulled back to pull her shoulder harness on; collect her brief case and Olivia's leather coat. "I'm armed and more than happy to put an end to the fucker's reign of terror." She gave her a quick kiss before leaving her office. Olivia stood for a few moments thinking of what just happened, she no longer had control over what went on around her lover and panic was raising its little head. She grabbed the files she needed from the couch and headed out of the office to go to the computer crimes area.
**************
Munch tossed his empty coffee cup into the trash and then turned around to scan the street outside of the building they had been watching. They had two possible hits that they hadn't been able to contact by phone so now they were waiting for them to get home so they could warn them. Fin blew on his cold hands and hunched his shoulders against the cold wind. "If this guy is one of those workaholics that never comes home, I'm gonna kick your bony ass and then Stablers."
"Like this was all my idea, I was ready to settle on a Hallmark card, ya know sent by snail mail so that it would take a few weeks to go two blocks and by then we either have the bad guy or another body in the morgues cooler."
"If I didn't think we'd be selling hot dogs on a corner after Cragen canned our asses, I'd go get the damn card myself." He jumped up and down and cussed from the sharp pain shooting up from his bad knee. "This fucking sucks, where is this dumb fucker?"
"I think that's the dumb fucker walking up to the door now." He slapped Fin in his arm, pulled his badge and approached the man. "Mr. Adam Matheson, I'm Detective Munch and this is Detective Tutuola, we're from the SVU, we'd like a minute of your time."
The man turned and looked at them through thick glasses; he wiped wispy hair from his forehead and squinted. "Did you say SVU, why do the sex police want me?"
"God I hate when they call us the sex police." Fin mumbled and waved for the man to go inside his door. "Come on my nuts are somewhere in my chest looking for heat."
"Let's just say that we're doing or civic duty to warn certain members of the public that they may be in harms way." Munch would rather throw the man down the steps than warn him but he had to do his job. They stepped into the man's apartment and shivered with the temperature difference, the first thing Munch noticed was the emptiness. All that was in the room they were standing in was a recliner, a TV and a small TV tray with a remote on it.
"Now tell me why you're here…nothings happened to my sister has it?" He looked between the two detectives and then to where his answering machine sat, the total number of messages was 0. "Please tell me what's going on; if it's my sister then I have to go."
"It's not your sister; we're here to warn you of a potential threat against your life." Munch pulled his black leather gloves off and slapped them in the palm of his hand. "Remember college in 96, the trouble that was going around, well it's back with a vengeance and a number of your male classmates are now deceased and missing the family jewels."
"But I wasn't involved in what happened to those girls…"
"Ohhh no, then why was your name included in the police reports, and your Frat house was the first one to be torn apart?"
"I was in the Frat house but I didn't rape anyone, I wasn't even there."
Fin snorted at him. "Likely story, they all tell us the same thing, come on Munch we told him let's get outta here."
"Always in such a big hurry, Mr. Matheson, no matter what you did or did not do back then we had to warn you." He pulled his gloves back on and turned to Fin. "Come on let's go home I'm cold and sick of running around this damn city." Matheson waited until they were gone before grabbing the phone and placing a call, he twitched and looked out the window for anyone watching him. When he heard it picked up on the other end, he whispered in a hoarse voice.
"Just what did you stir up this time; the cops were here warning me that someone wants me dead?"
"Don't worry about it, no ones coming after you. It was just a small problem that needed taken care of." The person on the other end said and then hung up.
*****************
Olivia tried to digest and understand every thing the computer tech was telling her but it would be easier to train her to fix the Space shuttles thrusters, she knew how to turn a PC on and type. He was getting into all kinds of stuff that made her head spin and her ears bleed, she had no idea what back doors were in the computer world or the other things he was saying. "Detective Benson to put it simply, he hacked in to the hospitals mainframe and altered the records, you should be thankful that he didn't change the meds to something that could have killed you guys."
"Can you tell where all of this was done, you know the PC that was used to screw with us?"
He smiled all the way to his brown eyes. "He's good but I'm better," he typed a few lines and hit enter, a few seconds later a list came up. "Good news, well kinda, it was all done in this building. It was done on ADA Cabot's office computer."
"She was with me so that means the son of a bitch went back to her office." She stood up straight and looked around the room; no one fit the description of the man seen in the security video. "Is everyone that works here in here now?"
"Yeah, there's only three of us techs period. Olivia it's none of us, we would never have left a trail behind. This person learned how to hack by spending a lot of time on-line and chances are they got lucky making it into the hospitals system."
"OK can you put a security system type thing on Cabot's PC, you know if someone other than her uses it a flag goes up or something?"
"Have her change her password and I'll monitor her PC from here, now I won't be able to see what she sees but I'll know when it's being used and if her password has been bypassed. Have her call me before she leaves for the day and I'll set up my system to monitor."
Olivia ran her hand through her hair and pushed it back from her face. "I don't know if this is possible, is there a way to put a camera inside the monitor?"
"I can put a pinhole camera in the cover of the monitor; it'll be activated with movement."
"Do it and if you need a signature to get it done then I'll sign." She left the large room and headed back up to the bull pen to see if anything had come in on the case every one was working. She jogged up the stairs and automatically stopped on the floor where Alex's office was, she walked down the hall and stopped when she saw her assistant coming out of her office. "Is Ms. Cabot back from court yet?"
"I haven't seen her since she left earlier, she may still be there." The woman said and walked away from Olivia like she hadn't even spoken at all to her. As Olivia looked into the office, she noticed a single rose lying across a note. She moved around her desk and read the scrawled letters.
You didn't listen to me now you'll pay!
Olivia felt terror reach up and squeeze her heart, she used her cell phone and called Elliot's desk. "Hey can you come to Alex's office, she's got another note and rose here…I gotta go find her?"
"Wait, what do ya mean ya gotta find her, you're supposed to be guarding her?"
"She's supposed to be in court and I had to check in at computer crimes…you have to remember who I'm dealing with here."
"Yeah the one who wears the pants in the family, we'll be there in a minute, go get Alex and cuff her if you have to."
Olivia hung up and ran from the office, she charged out the door and waved down a cab to take her to the court house.
***************
Alex stormed into her apartment and threw her briefcase on the couch along with her coat and shoulder harness, next came her pumps as they flew through the air. "Fucking assholes!" She cussed and striped out of her suit before she reached her bedroom. "How the fuck would I see their God damn files, I'm not a fucking fly on the wall!?" She used her blouse as a whip and beat the foot of her bed with it and then threw it across the room. "I hate them with every fiber of…they blow!" She grabbed a pair of running shorts, a hooded sweat shirt and socks from her drawer before going into the bathroom to change. She still couldn't believe that she had been slammed in court; all she had been asking for was the maximum of ten year sentence on a sodomy one charge. The man was a repeat offender and had to be brought back from Maine to be tried for the charges after he ran. The Defense attorney Barrows argued that the sentence was extreme and that the case should be dropped all together because his case files had been stolen by the ADA, they were brought before the judge and Alex received the reaming of her life. Judge Bates threatened to bring Alex before the bar and wanted to know how she was able to get a hold of the other attorney's case files. She argued that she hadn't seen them and how it was that he thought she had them in the first place. He handed the judge a signed affidavit from his secretary that she had seen Alex leaving his office with an arm full of files, when asked to stop, she ran from the building and disappeared in a cab. The judge gave Alex a look that should have fried her on the spot; he ordered a fifteen minute recess and pulled both attorneys into his chambers. When all was said and done, the trial was dismissed, Alex was on report and the judge was going to investigate her allegations that it was her stalker or his accomplice who broke into the other attorney's office. He said he would be talking to both her boss and Captain Cragen to see if she was in fact being stalked and if so then she was to stay out of the court room until the problem was solved. She stormed from the court house, caught a cab home and was going to run her frustrations off in the park. She knew as soon as her lover caught up with her that she would be wishing she were in another country.
Grabbing her keys and cell phone, she slipped them in the pouch of her sweatshirt and left her apartment. As soon as she cleared the downstairs door, she set off at a fast pace across the street and into Central Park west.
******************
Olivia slammed her hand into the court room door and cussed under her breath; she had checked every court room and still hadn't found Alex. When she got back to Police Plaza she would kill her lover's assistant. She had called her to find out what court room Alex was supposed to be in and what judge was presiding over the case, the woman gave her the wrong information and made her look like an ass. Now 30 minutes later she still hadn't found her lover and her nerves were on their way out. She called Elliot's cell phone to ask him if he had heard from Alex and got a negative on that. She called her lover's cell phone and got her voice mail, three phone calls later she was standing in front of the court house ready to car jack someone. Finally a taxi pulled up to the curb, she jumped in and gave the driver Alex's address. What normally took fifteen to twenty minutes was pushing it along with Olivia's patience. She tossed some bills to the driver, jumped from the cab and started running down the sidewalk and then into the park, it would be longer but the way traffic was, it would be quicker.
*************
Alex was still running at a good clip on her way back towards her apartment, she had no idea how far she had run but sweat was running down her face and neck to soak into her sweat shirt. She rounded a part in the path and dodged a slower runner and then had to slow when she came to a few kids that were just taking up space. She ran off into the grass to get around them and then went down another path that would take her back to her apartment, she could just make out her building when she saw a hooded figure running right at her, she veered off to the side and froze when a pistol came up to point at her chest. She raised her hands and started walking backwards thinking that maybe if she turned and ran she could dodge a bullet. She stumbled, righted herself and then saw her lover sprinting towards her and the armed person, she opened her mouth to yell and felt a sting in her chest. She looked down and saw red blossom and start to run down her cream colored sweatshirt, before she could look up, three more blossoms erupted. She grabbed her chest and looked up just as Olivia slammed into the person and took them to the ground in a loud grunt. She patted her chest and then noticed that there were no holes or extreme pain except for a stinging. "ALEX!" Olivia yelled from where she was sitting on the downed person and then looked up.
"I'm OK, its paint." She walked over to where Olivia was trying to cuff the person and picked up the pistol used to shoot her, she looked at it and cussed. "Little fucker, I should ram this up your ass and pull the trigger!" She wanted to pull her foot back and kick the shit outta of him but knew her lover would throw a fit over the extra paperwork and she herself didn't need any more trouble.
"Stop moving or I'll break your arms!" Olivia grunted and finally got the cuffs on; she looked up and saw Alex looking down at her. "Are you sure you're OK, I…damn it Ally…"
"You can yell at me later, right now I think we need to call for a car and get this smuck to the bull pen." She stepped back when Olivia got to her feet and dropped her foot in the center of the person's back.
"Ohhh you can bet your ass I'm gonna yell at you," she pulled her cell phone free and hit speed dial to Elliot's desk, when she got no answer, she called Cragen. She winced when he yelled at her for letting Alex escape her protection and then hung up. "I take it all back, dads gonna kill us both and I don't wanna die being mad at you."
"How sweet, no wonder the boss wants you dead, fucking gay cop and ADA." Her prisoner said from where his face was pressed in the grass and cried out when she put more pressure on his back.
"Shut the fuck up you'll have plenty of time to talk once I get your ass in to the station."
*************
"This is like never ending isn't it," Fin said and pointed to the punk in the interrogation room. "This is what three assholes so far that've tried to get to Alex?"
"Ohhh he got me alright," Alex said and pointed to her chest. "Little bastard got me four times to be exact, good thing it was just a paintball gun." She nodded her head to the punk in the room. "Has he said anything helpful like who in the Hell sent him after me?"
Cragen shook his head at her. "Nothing yet, he's just been spouting off at the mouth calling us all fucking pigs, he's so original." They all watched as Olivia and Jeffries walked into the room and stood looking down at him, Cragen figured that since he had a problem with women, who better to send in to question him.
**************
"What a piece of work you are," Monique remarked and dropped down on the edge of the table. "Dressed like a bad ass gang member complete with colors, you know that there aren't any gangs where you were?"
"What ya think we just hang out in one part of town, get real bitch?"
Monique laughed and then slammed her hand down on the table in front of him. "Listen you shit head, next time watch a damn documentary, your colors are fake so stop the gang bang shit and tell me who sent you after ADA Cabot."
"I ain't telling ya shit, go fuck yourself bitch! He flipped her off, pulled his hood over his eyes and sat slouched down in the chair. As soon as he was settled, she kicked the chair backwards and watched him struggle to get on his feet. "Call me a bitch again and I'll put a bullet between your eyes!"
"Fuck you I want my lawyer!"
"Too late asshole," Olivia said and dragged him to his feet. "You waived your rights, now who sent you after the ADA?"
"Send her in and I'll tell ya, after all it's her ass that's gonna end up in a ditch somewhere."
Olivia looked to the one way mirror and back to Monique. "It's just gotta be the blonde thing," she went to the door and looked to Cragen. "What do ya want us to do?"
"It's up to you Alex; you wanna talk to the asshole?"
"Maybe we can put an end to all of this shit and I can go back to a somewhat normal life." She walked past Olivia and into the room, she held the punks eyes and stood next to Monique. "Who sent you after me, if you tell me I'll put in a good word with the DA?"
"All I'm gonna tell you is the message I was supposed to pass along. Next time it'll be a real gun and you won't be so lucky."
"Sorry that just won't do," She narrowed her eyes and looked over the tops of her glasses. "Who sent you?"
He jumped up and punched her in the jaw hard enough that she fell sideways into Monique, the whole time yelling at the tops of his lungs that she was a dead woman. The next instant he was picked up and slammed into the wall, Olivia rammed her knee into his crotch and bounced his head off the wall again before Elliot and Monique could pull her off him. He fell to the floor and lay gasping for breath and clutching his crotch. Elliot carried Olivia out of the room and put her down in the corner so that he could keep her from charging back into the room. The expression on her face sent shivers up his spine; he had never seen her react like she just did and wondered if she didn't need some time off. When he felt a hand touch his arm, he stepped back and let Alex take his place. What he saw amazed him, with one touch from Alex, his partner was calmed and sliding down the wall to sit on the floor. "What were you doing in there?" Alex asked in a deep whisper. "What if he presses charges against you for police brutality?"
"I don't care," Olivia replied and touched the bruise forming on her lovers jaw. "He attacked you twice and…"
Cragen came from the interrogation room and pointed at the women. "Benson you're off this case, Alex get her home and don't either one of you step outside unless your buildings on fire! And I'm gonna have a word with Liz, she shouldn't of had you in here today. I hate having a judge call me and get his nose in my cases; Bates is an asshole of the first order." He turned to leave and then turned back to Alex. "You knew that you weren't supposed to go anywhere without Olivia, what were you thinking?"
"I wasn't, I was pissed and if Bates called you then you know why I was pissed, this asshole is fucking up my life and career. If I can't prove that I didn't steal those damn files then I'll be waiting tables at some bar after my jail sentence is up." She stood up and reached down for Olivia's hand. "We're going home but somebody better find out whose after me or I'm gonna go postal and just start shooting." She grabbed Olivia's hand and pulled her from the room with everyone watching.
"What is up with your partner, she busted that perps gonads quick?" Fin asked. "But ya know I don't know whose more dangerous, her or her girl Alex, she sure can take a punch." He walked away shaking his head.
"They're both scary as far as I'm concerned," Elliot said to no one in particular. "Let's get that asshole in the tombs, Monique wanna do the deed of dragging his ass outta there while I grab his file?"
"It'd be my pleasure; he may just have to crawl all the way."
*******************
Olivia checked a sedan out for their ride home, she figured that if anyone needed the car they could come and get it. There was no way that they were taking a taxi and opening themselves up as targets after all that had happened in a few short hours. She was about to get into the car when Alex took the keys from her hand and pushed her in. "I'm driving, with the way you were in the interrogation room; you may just loose it and run people over just for the Hell of it." She crawled into the car and caught obsidian eyes glaring at her. "You're not about to beat me to it, I wanna take out as many assholes as I can before I go to jail for something I didn't do." She slammed the car door and started the car. "As far as I'm concerned today, there are no innocent people!" She made good time on their way to her apartment, she used both the flashing strobe lights and siren to get through the traffic jams and snarled and growled the entire way. It was so out of character for the cool ADA that her lover kept an eye on her until they parked on the street right in front of her building.
"You drive worse than Elliot," she got out of the sedan and heard the locks click after Alex hit the button on the door. "We need ta talk Ally," she waited for her lover to round the car and join her on the sidewalk. "And I wanna know why your assistant sent me on a wild goose chase?" She followed Alex into her building and then to her apartment, she noticed a large garbage can across from her door and from the heavy scent of flowers, she knew what it was for. "Looks like the asshole is still at it, anymore flowers at your office?"
"No idea," she unlocked her door, stepped inside and heard all the locks go home after Olivia closed the door. "I'm fucked Liv, the judge wants me barred and this asshole wants me dead." A lump formed in her throat, tears filled her pale eyes and started to trail down across her cheeks, she never cried but wanted to just fall down and weep. She pulled her sweatshirt off, tossed it on the floor and dropped onto her couch. As soon as Olivia wrapped her arms around her and pulled her tight against her body, the damn broke and sobs tore at her chest. Olivia just held her and felt her own tears trail down her face to drip into her lover's hair. She felt her lover's pain as if it were her own, she had to find out who was doing all of this even if it meant going against Cragen's orders. They both woke a few hours later, cramped and stiff from the way they had fallen asleep on the couch. Alex shivered when Olivia moved her arm and cold air touched her bare back, moving closer to her lover, she pushed them down further into the cushions. "What time is it?" She tried to look at Olivia's large silver watch and blinked her bloodshot eyes a few times to focus. "I can't read it and it doesn't really matter because I know it's late and I'm starving." She groaned and rolled off onto the floor and then pulled herself up to stand hunched over. "This will be a day you never forget, your dirty, sweaty girlfriend crying all over you and turning you into a cripple by smashing you into the couch cushions."
Olivia stretched out on the couch and gave her a crooked grin before winking. "I happen to like you all sweaty, you OK?" She got off the couch and pulled Alex into her arms. "You know I'm gonna get the son of a bitch whose doing all of this, if I have to haul everyone in the building in, I'll do it."
"Liv right now I'm not worried about that," She nipped at the tender skin beneath her lover's ear. "I know you'll get whoever's doing this, right now I want a shower and food." She placed a lingering kiss to Olivia's lips and then left her to head to her shower. "Would you order us something while I take a shower, my refrigerators a barren place?"
"Any preference, ya know Chinese, Tai, or Italian?"
"Your choice," she yelled from the bathroom and then hung out the door. "Look in the end drawer there; I've got all the menus for take-out food." A corner of her mouth curled up when Olivia's eyes wandered down to her breasts and stayed there. "Now I know your weakness, it's really not my legs is it?"
"You're my weakness, every single inch of you." She blinked and shook her head. "If we weren't ordering food, I'd join you in the shower and prove it to ya." She ran the tip of her tongue over her upper lip and wiggled her right eyebrow. "But afterwards there's not a deal you could make me that would keep me from licking every inch of your body." She smiled at the quick blush that raced up her lover's chest to color her cheeks.
"I'm gonna take my shower…you…God" she shook her head, waved a hand and went back into the bathroom and turned the shower to a cooler temperature.
Olivia pulled a menu from the drawer and placed an order for them, she knew that the person probably thought that she was ordering for the NY Mets but she hadn't eaten anything all day and Alex was always hungry. Checking her watch, she walked towards the bedroom while pulling off her gun, badge and then her shirt. She ran her fingers across her hip and winced from pain, her holster had left a nice sized crease in her skin and a small bruise. Stripping down to just her underwear, she searched through her lover's closet until she found a man's old button down shirt. Thinking twice, she slipped her underwear off and went trough the connecting bathroom door. She would have to control herself and hoped that her will was strong when faced with a wet and soapy Alex. Climbing into the shower behind her lover, she pressed against her back and felt her will circle the drain. "We've got maybe 45 minutes to play before our foods here." She said in a deep purr and ran her hands down the front of her lover's body to linger on her stomach and then delve deeper when Alex pushed her hands lower.
"45 minutes is more than enough time, you have this power over me that with just one look, I'm wet." She moaned when long fingers slipped between her folds and teased her center. "Two minutes…three tops…" she wrapped one arm behind her and tangled her fingers in Olivia's hair. "I've fantasized about this all day." She turned in Olivia's arms. Slipped her thigh between hers and brought them together in a deep consuming kiss that had them both falling sideways against the shower wall. Hands roamed across wet skin, hips thrust and ground slowly against flexing thighs. Olivia moaned when the flesh at the side of her neck was pulled between even teeth and then sucked hard. The slight pain went straight to her center and made her thrust harder; she gripped her lover's shoulders and shook when her climax overtook her. Alex felt hot juices pour out over her thigh she moaned and sucked harder when, Olivia's bucking against her took her closer to the edge. She pulled back a bit and looked at her lover's flushed face and parted lips, when her eyes opened and showed blazing red orbs, she knew it would be a long and very satisfying night. When Olivia sunk to her knees and buried her face between her thighs, she gasped and tried to keep from falling. She placed one leg over her lover's shoulder and thrust forward when her warm wet tongue plunged deep inside and then pulled out to lavish attention on her throbbing clit. Blindly reaching out to the wall, she braced herself as wave upon wave crashed over her. When she opened her eyes again, they were cuddled in the corner of the shower with warm water washing over them. "What you do to me." She whispered and brought their foreheads together. "I love you Olivia." She looked into her eyes and saw her future. "Let's take this to our bed, I'm feeling a little water logged."
"I love you too and not only water logged but my ass is cold." She tilted her head to the side and listened; someone was pounding on the apartment's door. "Shit that must be our supper." They crawled from the shower and slipped and slid all the way to the bedroom, Olivia grabbed up the shirt she had gotten earlier and pulled it on. She headed to the front door and clutched the shirt closed before opening it. As she pulled it open, she yelled to Alex. "Baby get my wallet from my pants pocket!" When she turned her eyes to the person standing in the doorway, she felt her heart stop and all the air in her lungs gush out. "Liz…shit," she looked to the side and saw the delivery boy with their supper and held up a finger. "Just a minute," she felt Alex come up behind her and fall into her back from shear shock.
"Liz what are you doing here?" Alex said in a forced breath and waved her boss in. "We were Uhhmm…" she pulled her robe closed tighter and handed Olivia her wallet. "Damn."
"This is quite a surprise Alex," she turned with a raised eyebrow and a smirk. "I never expected to see a half naked Detective Benson answer your door." She dropped her briefcase onto the couch, pulled her calf length coat off and watched Olivia carry the bags of food to the kitchen and then disappear into what she assumed was the bedroom. "Sorry to interrupt your dinner but I came over to see what the Hell is going on with Judge Bates, he called me today and threatened to drag me in front of the disciplinary board for your high jinx?" She watched as Alex tried to finger comb her wet hair and act normally. "Will you stop already, you're acting like a teenager that's been caught by her parents."
"Good then I'm right on target," She moved to the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of Scotch from the cabinet. "Can I offer you a drink; I've got Scotch, Vodka and red wine?"
"Scotch, I like the color, it seems richer some how." At that moment, Olivia came from the bedroom in a pair of Alex's shorts and brushing her hair. "At least now I don't have to worry about you not being safe from who ever." She took the offered glass and waved a hand at Olivia. "Don't let me stop you, go on and get your supper." She held back a chuckle when Alex dragged Olivia into the kitchen; she rolled her eyes when she heard whispering. "Ohhh for God sakes Alex I don't care about your love life, its work that concerns me."
Alex dropped her head in relief; she thought that this was the end for her and her career. Squeezing her lover's hand, she leaned in for a quick kiss and went back out with two plates of food in her hand. "Have some supper, we have plenty and I know you haven't eaten yet today." She took a seat on the love seat, placed her dish on the coffee table and took the glass of Pepsi that Olivia brought out to her. "So now I know that Bates called both you and Cragen, what did he say?"
Liz chewed the sweet and sour pork that filled her mouth and swallowed before speaking. "First, why in the Hell were you in the office, I told you not to come back until everything was solved?"
Alex pulled her briefcase across to her, opened the side pouch and pulled a hand written letter out. "You left this on my desk." She handed it to her boss and then sat back with her plate on her lap.
Alex,
We're jammed up; I need you to take the Sandborn case in the morning.
Liz
"Well this is interesting," she waved the paper and placed it on the table. "It's real close to my handwriting but I didn't write it," she pointed to the center of the page. "There's no water seal on it either, so who ever wrote it doesn't know about my personal letter head."
Alex let her head fall back with a groan; she turned her head to look at her lover. "I was set up again, what's next for this asshole to do to me?" She continued to look at Olivia and play with the dark hair that brushed her collar.
"Hopefully I'll have a suspect nailed and in the interrogation room, I had the computer tech guy put a tiny camera in your monitor. Hopefully he swapped it out today and no one's the wiser."
Liz chuckled and shook her head in amazement; this was a side of Alex that she knew she would have never seen if not for coming over unannounced. Her ADA was in fact human and not as prickly as she thought she was, she looked to the couple and smiled. She couldn't think of anyone other than Olivia who was an equal to Alex. "OK so what else have you found out about this stalker and how are they managing to pull so much shit without anyone catching them?"
Olivia took a drink of her Pepsi and set it on the table before answering. "I think that whoever it is doing all of this, is hiring these skel's to do the dirty work and then when the time is right, they swoop in at the end." She gave her lover's thigh a light squeeze before looking back to Liz. "And when that happens I'm gonna take the asshole down, I'm tired of the games and I know Alex is as well. Now I have all the time in the world to look into this and lurk in the shadows."
Alex looked to her boss and shrugged her shoulders. "Cragen ordered us both back here and not to leave unless the building was on fire but everyone knows that it won't last, only if they chain us to a wall in the tombs." She looked to her lover and let one corner of her lip raise and wickedness show in her eyes. "I know a few judges that would be ecstatic with the idea of me locked up."
Liz snickered and nodded her head, she knew of a dozen people right off the top of her head that would love to see her ADA locked up. The worst part was that they weren't criminals but other attorneys, cops and a few expert witnesses. "From now on unless I tell you right to your face, you are not to believe anything in note form with my signature on it that is until after this shithead is caught." She finished her supper and got up to carry her plate into the kitchen; she rinsed it and placed it in the sink before going back into the living room. "Thank you for dinner and the Scotch; if I need you I will call you. Do not under any circumstance make yourself a target or I will personally put you in the tombs." She grabbed her brief case, her coat and let herself out of the apartment. Alex put her plate on the table along with Olivia's and pulled her up from the love seat, after locking all the locks on the door and placing the steel bar in it's holder, she started towards the bedroom.
"We have some unfinished business in the bedroom," She untied her robe and let it drop to the floor on her way to the bedroom, she heard a low moan and then a hand run down to caress her ass. "So it's my ass you're always checking out?"
"Ohhh yeah especially when you wear those grey slacks and that jacket that doesn't come down over your hips, but then you know all of this because you always catch me."
"And that's exactly why I make sure I stand right in front of you." She pushed Olivia back on the bed, flipped the light off and crawled on top of her. "We are not answering the phone, the door or anything else until noon."
*******************
OK people what've ya got?" Cragen asked and dropped down on the edge of Munch's desk and watched Monique wave a paper at him.
"Late shift caught someone wandering around one of our possible victims place last night, she's down in the tombs and you'll never guess who it is?" She waited and knew that her partners were ready to strangle her. "John's girlfriend the wino."
Fin chuckled and looked to his partner. "You're kidding right, damn Munch you must have made quite the impression on her."
Munch snorted and waved a hand at them. "It must have been my expertise with mixing MD 20/20 and Boones Farm, so why'd they haul her in?"
"Says here that she refused to leave the area and she flashed 'em." Monique handed the paper to Cragen and leaned against the edge of her desk. "From what the uniforms described, if it'd been me, I woulda capped her ass." She saw the raised brow look her captain gave her. "She was giving them a striptease and they said that the stench that came off her made their eyes burn and their noses run. It was so bad that they called for a wagon because they didn't want her in the back seat of their cruiser."
"Is she still down in the tombs?"
"Yeah until she gets arraigned this morning, you wanna put a hold on it?"
Cragen nodded his head at her. "Go down there and bring her up here for questioning, it's a little strange that she was at this guy's building." He pointed a finger at everyone else. "What else we got?"
Stabler leaned back in his chair and rubbed his hands together. "Everything else comes up blank, we've checked all the rape crisis places and gone by Cabot's notes but nothing panned out. I'm thinking that maybe the victims were paid to remain silent and all records were shredded, so I was thinking about getting a hold of the college funds records for the years we think this happened?"
"We'll have to get a warrant for all that," he rubbed his bald head and sighed, as much as he hated to do it he was going to call Alex in. "Get a hold of Benson; have her bring Alex in for the warrants and tell her I need her dressed as an ADA." He saw the looks between his detectives and shook his head. "Her in blue jeans and a sweatshirt ain't gonna do it for this. And there's only one other ADA I trust besides Alex and that's Abbie Carmichael, unfortunately she doesn't work for us anymore. Get on it and let me know if ya get anything." He went back to his office and picked up the phone to return Liz's call, he had been checking on other things when she had called and he was curious as to what his two trouble makers had done this time. "Liz its Don, what can I do for you?"
"For starters find out who in the Hell is stalking my ADA and then find out who is forging letters from me."
"I'm working on the first thing but the second I had no idea about, explain to me about this forging of your name." He listened as she explained about the note that was left for Alex the day she was attacked in the park and the two other notes she just happened to find in Alex's filing cabinet. She remembered the instances where she had chewed on her ass royally for pulling a stupid stunt and blew Alex off when she swore up and down that she had told her to get the warrants and run rampant all over another ADA's cases. She almost fired her for accusing her of being a senile mean spirited bitch; she had bit her tongue and ordered Alex from her office before they both did something regrettable. "OK I'll see what I can do and just so you know I'm having her and Benson come in to question a suspect and issue some warrants."
"When they get in, have Alex come by my office, I have some files I need her to look at."
"OK it's as good as done." He hung up the phone and rubbed his face, the stalker business was making so many twists and turns that he had no idea where in the Hell it was going. What really concerned him was the threat on Alex's life, neither woman had come right out and said it but he had a good idea that it was because of their relationship. He rubbed his eyes and got up from his desk, he needed to move around or go nuts waiting for something else to happen.
***********
Olivia limped up the stairs behind her lover and couldn't help but watch her ass move beneath her grey slacks and grin like an idiot. She almost ran into her when she stopped and looked over her shoulder. "Stop it." She started back up the stairs and looked over her shoulder again. "Just stop it." Alex knew damn well that her lover was thinking of the bite marks she had left on her ass and that she was gritting her teeth with each step she took. She had woke that morning to her lover licking and nipping her back and almost shredded her sheets when she worked her way lower. What they had done in the hours before being called into work was nothing compared to the night before, she could honestly say that they were kinky. Olivia had found out just how adept she was with restraining someone when she found herself handcuffed to the headboard.
"Ya know even with wearing my coat on I can still see everything."
"That's because you're a few steps lower and I mean that in all departments, I never knew you were so…"
"Perverted," she winked and limped faster up the stairs so that they were side by side. "I'm only that way with you and I wasn't the one reading the Miranda or using handcuffs, I only used ice cubes."
Alex stopped, turned to look at her lover and she gave the small smile that was reserved for when she was about to slam someone on the stand. "And if I'm ever asked about that by anyone, I will say it was all your idea, now let's go see Liz first and then I'll get the warrants for Elliot." She gave Olivia a wink before brushing fingertips with her and then moving down the hallway towards her boss's office. "We're just freaks and I'll show you how freaky I can get…later." She whispered in a hoarse whisper and saw sparks of arousal flash in her lover's eyes.
*************
Cragen stood looking through the one way at the wino, he hardly recognized her from the last time they had her in the room. She had to be really bad if they cleaned her up down in the tombs, usually they left the same way they came in. What surprised him was that she was a lot younger than thought at first. With the dirt and grime gone and clean clothes, she looked to be in her early 20's. With the squeak of the outer door he turned to see Olivia and Alex. "Good of you to join us this lousy day," he pointed to where Munch was leaning against the wall staring the wino down. "They brought her in last night; she was lurking around one of the men that we're trying to protect."
"And she did what, brandish a knife and admitted to the other crimes?" Alex asked and dropped her briefcase to the floor, after her meeting with Liz, she just wanted to go home and cuddle in bed with her lover not play 20 questions with a drunk.
"She refused to leave and stripped for the uniforms, they brought her in because she was being a nuisance. What we wanna know is why she was there; it's quite a walk from where she witnessed the other crime to where she was last night. She was in Staten Island, that's just too much of a coincidence."
Alex looked through at the woman and then to Cragen. "And you want me to do what?"
"Nothing for her, we need a warrant to get the college financial records; Stabler seems to think that they paid off the rape victims."
Alex narrowed her eyes and shook her head. "You would have to have the financial records of the victims as well as the college; we need something to compare them to." She raised her hand and pointed to Cragen. "That's not guaranteeing that anything will show up or that a judge would sign off on the warrant to begin with. What about this wino here, if she was booked then that means they have her prints, run her and see if anything comes up." She saw the grin and sparkles in her lover's eyes and knew that she was thinking the same thing.
"If she hauled her ass all the way to Staten Island then she's got to be involved somehow." Olivia said, left the room and headed out to her desk to make the call downstairs to the booking sergeant.
Cragen took in the dark stripes below the ADA's eyes and the slouching shoulders. "You look warn out Alex, what in the world have you been doing?"
"Worrying," she lied, there was no way she was going to tell him that she only had a few hours of sleep because of the sexual Olympics she and Olivia had. "Look at all the shit that's been falling on me and it's only getting worse, I promised myself that I wouldn't become a victim in all of this and that's exactly what I'm becoming. I can't even go for a run in the park without someone trying to shoot me," she pulled the top of her white blouse to the side and showed him the bruises from the paintballs. "Those things hurt like a bitch and now I'm carrying to protect myself from this invisible chicken shit asshole who wants me dead." She pulled back her coat to show both Glocks in shoulder holsters.
"You do have a permit for those and a carrying concealed weapon license," he saw her roll her eyes and then flipped her badge case over to show her permit. "Just checking, be careful Alex I don't want anything happening to you." He looked her right in the eye and tried to convey his feelings. "I know that no one would be able to stop Olivia from killing if you got hurt, I know how important you are to her, she showed that yesterday." He grinned when her color grew deeper. "By the way, the punk took the deal Liz handed to him; he won't be out until he's ready to collect social security."
"But he was only going to be charged for assaulting an officer of the court, what did she do?" She was curious as to what her boss had pulled over on the punk and his attorney.
"After slamming the door so hard that the walls shook, she started making up charges before she was even into the room. His lawyer's head was spinning so fast with her words that he threw his hands in the air for her to stop. The punk had priors of assault and battery and a few other misdemeanors but she threw a premeditated something or another on the table with special circumstances of malicious assault, attempted murder and I can't remember what else."
Alex shook her head and grinned. "Who was the kid's idiot lawyer, and attempted murder?"
"Never saw the guy before but he was shaking so bad that I thought he was gonna pass out, your boss is a scary women when pissed off, she told me that the attempted murder was what would of happened if it had been her out there, she would have dropped from a heart attack."
"Believe me, I was close, if not for Liv who knows what else would have happened to me." He saw the sparkle in her eye and knew how deep her relationship with his detective was.
**************
Olivia came up the stairs with the rap sheet and other printouts from the booking room; she shook her head in anger. They hadn't even bothered to run her through the computer because she was a witness to a crime and a homeless person. She walked into the bull pen and waved the paper at Elliot. "Take a look at this and tell me what you see." She dropped down on the edge of his desk and watched his eyes browse over the pages.
"Katrina Perkins, she's been arrested a couple times for picketing abortion clinics…picketing experimental labs that use animals…chained herself to a bulldozer, that's radical. Ohhh Hell Liv, she works at a rape clinic on the campus grounds, which means…"
"That she knows about what happened in 96 because she found the files in her office," she slapped hands with him and went back to where her lover and Cragen were still talking. "I think we've got our killer," she stepped right beside Alex and discreetly tangled their fingers. "For the second time around."
"Son of a bitch!" Cragen growled, waved at Elliot and left the women standing alone.
Alex looked around before bringing Olivia's hand up to place a kiss on her palm. "So what do you guys need from me?"
"I know what I need but I think Elliot and the other's are gonna want a search warrant for Perkin's apartment and her office at the rape clinic." She leaned into Alex's side and breathed in her spicy perfume.
"I thought you were one of the primaries on this one?"
"Was, is the operative word, remember I'm only you're body guard." She winked and ran her tongue over her upper lip. "How have I been doing in that area?"
"You won't hear any complaints from me, now I think I have a warrant to get ready so that means you have to come with me."
"And watch your ass the entire way," she looked around them and leaned forward for a soft lingering kiss. "I just hope we can bust your stalker and get back to somewhat normal lives, not like I'm not enjoying this one but I wanna be able to take you out and not worry about someone jumping us."
"Yeah that kinda blows, I hate getting jumped." She ran her foot up the inside of Olivia's leg and watched her eyes catch fire. "If you're up for it we can have a romantic night out tonight?" She bumped hips with her lover and whispered in her ear. "I was thinking of having it on my tiny ass little balcony, my huge ass BBQ, some Nathan's hot dogs and Mac and Cheese?"
"Ohhh so you're gonna cook for me tonight, no take out and ain't kinda cold for a BBQ?"
"My stove hates me ever since it caught on fire, now it only let's me heat water for tea, besides, hot dogs taste so much better off the grill." She slipped past Olivia and walked slowly to the door that would take them to the bull pen. "We'll have to stop at the market on the way home and pick up the stuff we need and I want some good beer and that's your job."
Olivia walked beside her and gave her a quick grin. "Ohhh I get to buy the beer, you want that snobby micro beer or real beer like Sam Adams?"
"I said you get to pick the beer," she smacked her in the leg with her leather briefcase. "Any kind of beer except that nasty ass Schlitz Natural Ice, Milwaukee's Best or Rolling Rock." She saw Olivia's brow wrinkle and a look of pure disgust come over her face.
"And just when did you fall down in the gutter and drink that stuff, that has got to be three of the vilest beers you can get, I always thought of you as the micro beer type?"
"When you're in school and all you've got is a few bucks for beer, that's what you get stuck with and if you ever tell anyone, I'll tell the bull pen you have little L's and R's on the toes of your socks."
"I don't have letters on my socks…"
"But they don't know that now do they?" Alex gave her a wicked smirk and raised one dark eyebrow.
"My God you're evil and I thought you went to boarding school?"
"I did, so you can imagine what we went through to get beer and stealing the wine from the church was forgotten after we tasted it. I think turpentine would have been healthier than the shit they used for communion."
"So the janitor got you guy's beer and charged ya to do it huh, I woulda done it for say…" she leaned in so that her breath was ruffling the hair at her lover's ear. "Your panties." She reached into her coat pocket and cussed under her breath. "Ya took 'em back, that's not fair."
"You're just mad because I took away your fantasy prop, remind me to stop by my office and get the rest of my clothes, I'm running low and going commando is…gross and very uncomfortable."
*****************
Munch and Fin walked into the apartment of Katrina Perkins, what first caught their attention were the piles of picket signs in the corner and then the posters covering the walls. It looked more like an office for political activism then someplace where someone slept. "Would ya look at this shit," Fin lifted a page from a stack of papers. "Chemical castration, do you trust the rapist to take his medication blahblahblah?"
Munch looked up from where he was searching a desk drawer. "She's got a point there; if they don't take their meds then they're not castrated. But then if they do take their meds to prove that they are following the rules, all they have to do to reverse it is take testosterone shots."
"Either way the sick fucks are back on the street and to their sick games, they should just cut their nuts off and be done with it; maybe Alex can request it the next time?"
"And make it world war III between her, Jeffries and Benson to see who gets the primal joy of the deed of hacking and slashing the family jewels off?" He shook his head and then gave his partner his trade mark smirk. "We could sell tickets to that." He pulled open another drawer and grinned. "Ohhh just look what we have here," he used two fingers of his gloved hand to lift the knife out of the file folder he had found in the drawer. "I'd say this is filed properly under…" he looked at the tab on the folder. "Scum sucking rapist, catchy phrasing; call Cragen and tell him what we got while I bag and tag."
******************
Cragen stepped from his office, looked around and then saw Jeffries coming from the coffee room; he waved at her and pointed to the interrogation room. "Find your partner, Benson and Cabot; we've got the possible murder weapon and a whole bunch of other shit from the suspect's apartment. See if you can get a confession outta her while the labs testing the knife for blood and what ever else they need." He turned and started back to his office when he saw Alex and Olivia coming back into the bull pen, what he didn't expect were the trash bags and suit bags in their hands. "Please tell me that you're not moving into the crib?"
"What…no, these are the clothes I had in my office." Alex felt her face heating up. "I never got the chance to take them home with all that's been going on and…" She stopped when he ducked his head and raised a hand at her.
"I don't need to know, you two check with Monique, we have the possible murder weapon from Perkins apartment."
Alex dropped her bags near her lover's desk and looked to where she knew the Perkins woman was behind the interrogation room door, she found it hard to believe that they may have solved a case on strictly luck. She wondered if the women hadn't planned this all along to see how long she could play with the detectives before getting caught. She pushed her glasses up on top of her head and pinched the bridge of her nose. "I want her Mirandized again; I don't want anything to go wrong where we lose her." She pulled her hand away and looked from Cragen to her lover.
Olivia found it a little spooky that she could change from her lover to ADA Alex Cabot in the blink of an eye, even her mannerisms changed. Her back straightened, jaw flexed and her eyes grew to a lighter shade of blue. "OK then lets see what we can do here." She slipped her glasses back down and walked with the click of her heels towards the interrogation room. Knocking twice on the door, she opened it and walked in ahead of Olivia. She looked to Monique and then took a seat across from Perkins. "Would one of you read Miss. Perkins her rights?" She looked around for her brief case and remembered laying it on her lover's desk. "Shit…" she whispered and was part way up from her chair when Olivia touched her shoulder and placed her brief case on the table for her. "Thanks…Detective Benson," she pulled out a pad of paper, laid it on the table and then waited for Olivia to read Perkins her rights. She wasn't surprised to hear her wave them and spout off about the rights of the rape victims. Alex just gazed at her and let the corners of her lips arch a bit, crossing her legs; she continued to watch her until she shut up. "Are you quite done now, I have other things to do today besides listen to whiny little piss ants make excuses for their irrational behavior." She placed one hand on the table and leaned towards the woman. "You know that what you did is just as bad as the original crime, you almost got away without paying, just like they did and if you would have come to us with the information you had, we could have put those men away for what they did."
Perkins rolled her brown eyes and snorted. "Get real; the statute of limitations was up on that crime. You know damn well that it would have been covered up again, those assholes with all the money always get away Scott free. Throw a few checks here; throw some there and bingo, no more problem." She leaned in and looked directly into pale blue eyes. "What would your lover do if it was you that got raped and tossed to the side?"
A slight flicker came to pale blue eyes and then left, Alex leaned back in her chair and felt Olivia's fingers brush her back. "This isn't about me; this is about you and what you did."
"What slicing their dicks off," she let out a burst of laughter that was deep and humorless. "They deserved more but I just didn't have the time." She leaned back I her chair and looked to each of the three women for the first time before smiling wickedly. "How special, I get Charlie's Angels. Are all the men afraid to come in here now that they know who I am?"
"They're busy off doing something else," Olivia said from where she stood behind Alex. "So why did you take justice into your own hands and why wait all this time to go after those men?"
"Ohhh please you know why I did it and no one has answered my question yet, what would you do if your lover there was raped and no one was brought to justice?" She watched Olivia's expression change and knew she had her off balance. "You would do the same thing I did; you're not much different than I am." She laughed and slapped the table when Olivia left the room. "Touched a raw nerve there, she's too sensitive you need a tougher girlfriend."
Monique looked to Alex and then to Perkins. "Shut the fuck up, go ahead Alex I'll watch this sick bitch." She tossed a note pad and pen at her. "Write your statement down." She crossed her arms over her chest and kept an eye on her as Alex left the room to go after her lover.
Alex met Cragen in the doorway and waved a hand at the door. "I'm going for the Murder in the first with the death penalty on that one, no deals or anything; did you see Liv?"
"Check the bathroom; she was headed in that direction. I'll have them put Perkins back in the tombs and get the ball moving with everything else."
*************
Olivia slammed her hand into the wall ignoring the stinging of her palm, next came the toe of her foot until tears flowed down her cheeks, she then wiped at them with the back of her hand. When she heard the hinges of the door squeak, she took a deep breath and was about to turn around when two arms wrapped around her from behind. She stiffened at first and then relaxed when Alex whispered in her ear. "It's alright I'm here." She held her and rested her chin on her shoulder.
"She's right I'm not much different than her…I could be violent, I have been." she turned to face her lover. "If it's hereditary then I'm fucked." She whispered hoarsely and tried to pull out of her lover's arms. "Please Ally let me go…I have to go." She pulled free and ran from the bathroom leaving a confused and hurt Alex watching the door swing closed.
"Damn it!" She ran her hands through her hair and left the bathroom to look for her lover. She looked around the bull pen and saw Jeffries coming back in and walked quickly over to her. "Did you see Liv…she…fuck!" She pulled her glasses off and stuck them in her pocket before going over to where her stuff was by her lover's desk. Grabbing a black duffle bag, she pulled her cell phone out and dialed Olivia's cell phone number. She let it ring for a dozen times before she hung up the phone.
"Alex what happened in there?" Monique asked and placed a hand on her shoulder. "I've seen her mad before but the haunted look in her eyes is new, what did she say?"
"She had to go…that's what she said, I have to go." She placed her hands on her hips and looked to the floor. "Where…where would she go?"
"Wait right here, don't go anywhere without me." She said and then ran to Cragen's office to tell him where she was going and with whom; she knew he would throw a fit if she just took off. When she came back out, she found Alex slumped in Olivia's chair with her head in her hands. She placed a hand on the ADA's shoulder and leaned down next to her ear. "I'm not sure where to look but I'll take you to her place first." She waited for Alex to get up and then helped her with all the bags. "When we find her you gotta let me kick her ass at least once."
"It was something Perkins said but I don't know why it affected her this way, son of a bitch." She mumbled under her breath. "If she's not home would you drive me around, she may be walking off steam somewhere."
"Sure, we'll keep looking until either she calls you or we find her." She lifted more of the bags from where they sat on the floor and waited for Alex to do the same before they left the bull pen on their mission.
*************
Olivia handed the cab driver some bills and climbed from the back seat, she had no idea why she was here except that it held pieces to her mother's past. Looking around at the garbage filled alley ways, buildings stained from pollution and other things she would rather not think about and stray dogs and cats searching through trash for food. Stuffing her hands deep into her coat pockets, she dropped her head and took the walk that her mother had 40 some years before. She had walked this route numerous times before and tried to imagine what her mother had gone through the night she had been brutally attacked and raped. She still hadn't found any answers as to why the attack happened and now was a time that she wished the buildings would speak to her. She wanted to know if the rage that ran through the man who fathered her ran in her veins as well. She had read everything she could seeking the answers but they were illusive or just not there at all. She knew that certain behaviors had been linked to hereditary or by up bringing, but she wanted to know if she would turn violent one day. She stopped in a dark alley way and looked towards the spot that she knew to be the place where her mother was raped and she herself conceived.
Checking for traffic, she crossed the street and took the last few steps to the same spot. She looked around and felt the chill of the air and the one in her soul wrap around her. "Am I different then him or the same," she asked the darkness and shivered. "I see violence everyday; I wade through it and feel it seep into my pours, I have the power to kill at my fingertips." She brought her hands up to her face and pressed her fingers over her eyes, rubbing them, she tried to blot out Perkins expressions and her manic laugh. "I can't take the chance, I can't hurt Alex." She slumped down against the wall and felt the coldness of the stone steal into her bones. She had no idea how long she sat there but her body ached and, considering the bad area she was in, she wondered if she would be able to catch a cab at all. Getting up from where she had been crouching, she looked up and down the street, the flashing beer and liquor signs of a liquor store grabbed her attention and pulled her closer. "I'm an adult, I'm allowed to by the stuff." She said and breathed hot air into her chilled hands.
***************
Monique helped Alex with her bags and looked around as they went into Olivia's bedroom, after dropping the bags on her unmade bed; she snorted and pointed to the trail of clothes leading to the bathroom. "I never took her as someone who would do that; ya know leave her clothes on the floor."
"Well you're not wrong there, those are my clothes." She gave her a small grin. "But she tossed 'em there." She rifled through one of her lover's drawers and pulled out an old NYPD sweat shirt and then grabbed a pair of her own faded Levis from a bag. "I'm gonna change and then we can go."
Monique shook her head and went back out to where the kitchen was; she pulled open the refrigerator, grabbed a Coke and then sat down at the table. She was still having a time with Olivia and Alex being more than friends but knew that the two women defiantly belonged together. What had her worried was that Olivia was out wondering around somewhere, she wasn't worried about her safety, it was hypothermia. The temperatures had been dropping all day and with it getting dark in another hour and a half, she prayed that they found her in a bar somewhere instead of out in the cold.
"OK I'm ready," Alex said as she hopped into the kitchen pulling on a pair of Olivia's Bates patrol boots. "She must never wear these ones, they're covered in dust." She pulled the zipper up the side and fastened the Velcro strap across the front.
"You two are just…I don't know." Monique shook her head and brushed her braids back over her shoulders. "I guess it's easier to share clothes with your lover when you're the same sex, me wearing some guys underwear would be…unlikely."
Alex gave her a full smile that had Monique pulling in a deep ragged breath from shock. "But this is like a one way thing here; Liv would never be caught in one of my suits or my pumps for that matter. This way I get ta be butch without all the shopping that would be involved." She went to the closet and pulled out her lover's leather trench coat and a pair of leather gloves she found on the top shelf. "I only know of that one bar where we have drinks every once in a while and that little hole in the wall Chinese restaurant she likes to eat at, so where we going to look first?"
"Actually, I don't think she'll be at either one of those places; where do you go when you need some alone time?"
"Usually I just close my office door and sulk for an hour or so," she looked at the floor and then up at Monique. "I have no idea where she would go; we've never had this kind of problem that I would know where she'd go."
"Then we'll just start scanning the streets and I'll make some calls to patrol cars, every cop knows your woman, if she's been seen, they'll tell me."
"So you're saying that we have no private life what's so ever if a cop sees us?"
"That's right Hip Hop, ya know the guys at the bar call you B Felony, they say they'd risk life in jail to get your booty."
"You've seen me there?"
"Ohhh Hell yes, I almost fell over when I saw you. I was up with Fin one night and he dropped a light on you, you caused a Hell of a lot of chubs that night." Alex felt her jaw drop and closed it after they had left Olivia's apartment. "Ya know, you surprise me the more I hang around you and don't worry about the lock picks you used on her door, I'll never tell."
**************
Olivia had walked more blocks this night than she had since being a beat cop, her feet were cold and wet, her pant legs were frozen but the rest of her was hot. She dropped down onto a bench at a bus stop, pulled her bottle out and took a long drink. She had bought two bottles while in the liquor store but hadn't touched the second one…yet. She knew that she was being followed ever since she left the liquor store and knew that the homeless drunk had to be desperate to follow her so far, she was giving him a chance to catch up just so she could scare the shit out of him. She was tired of her puppy and wanted him to run off and play in traffic somewhere or crawl back under his rock. She screwed the cap back on her bottle, placed it between her feet and slipped a hand inside her coat. As the bum came with in a few feet, she drew her weapon and badge and pointed them at him. "Take a hike or I'll put some holes in ya!" She slurred and blinked her eyes a few times to focus. "I ain't kidding there, now move it along!"
"Come on baby gimme some lovin," he purred and pushed his floppy hat back to show his arched black brows and twinkling brown eyes. "If you won't, I'm sure Alex will." Fin said and dropped down beside her. "You know you walk entirely too much for a detective and you're buying me breakfast when you get back to work."
"Why am I doin that?"
"Because I've tossed a dozen would be suitors in dumpsters since Munch dropped me off that's why." He looked out across the street and down a few blocks to see one of their sedans coming towards them. "Do yourself a favor and talk to your girl; she's been going nuts since you took off today." He squeezed her shoulder and lumbered off across the street to where Munch had pulled up behind Jeffries and Alex.
"I can't even go fer a walk without body guards." She took a drink from her bottle and then watched as her lover got out of the car and walked towards her. "You spyin on me to or did ya just get them ta do it?"
Alex stood in front of her and looked into her flushed face and saw the pain in her eyes. "Actually, they called and told us where you were, I've been worried about you. We need to talk but first we need to get you home, you're half frozen." She reached out for the bottle and rolled the paper bag down to read the label. "One thing I have to say about you is you pick expensive Vodka to get drunk on, Grey Goose is like 30 bucks a bottle."
"And well worth it now gimme my bottle and go home." She braced one hand on the bench and reached out with the other to where Alex was holding the bottle out of her reach.
"Nope, you're coming home with me and I've got three cops that will be more than happy to help me get you there." She blew out a deep breathe and dropped her head. "Listen Liv, I don't know what's going on in your head but I love you and I wanna know what's wrong, please come home with me."
"That's right you don't know what's going on but if you hang with me, you might just see the beast and then whatcha gonna do?" She looked up with narrowed eyes and waved a hand at her. "Go on counselor go home."
Alex turned and looked to the two sedans sitting behind her and saw the doors opening up to let the detectives out. She knew it was probably not a good idea but Olivia was beyond reasoning with and she had no other choice. "You are a hard headed ass," she tucked the bottle in an inside pocket of her trench coat, grabbed Olivia's service revolver and badge from the bench and held out a hand. "Come on Liv before they carry you to the car."
"Why ya doing this…I wasn't botherin no one." She stood up and took her lover's hand. "Send the Gestapo after me," she waved a finger at Munch and gave him the German salute. "Man in black and the black man, some pair." She wobbled and fell against Alex before they got to the car. "Ya know you're mean and peoples have called ya a bitch before?"
"I know about all the names I've been called," she pushed her lover into the back seat and watched as her eyes rolled up in her head as she passed out. "I'm sure they'll call me a few more before I'm dead and buried." She got into the back seat and pulled Olivia up to lean against her.
************
Alex was glad that it was dark out and that her lover lived in a quiet part of town, because Fin ended up carrying her up to her apartment and then to her bed. He shook his head at all the bags and suit bags scattered around her bedroom, he recognized them from the bull pen and gave Alex a raised brow. "So ya movin in or what?"
"No, Monique brought me here earlier to see if Liv was here, I left everything here until I can get it home."
"Might as well just fill her closet, the way you two bounce back and forth between apartments."
Alex gave him a confused look. "And how is it that you know this, are you guys following us?"
"Nope, it's the way you guys are dressed when ya come in, one day Liv's wearing silk shirts, the next," he waved a hand at Alex in the NYPD sweat shirt and patrol boots. "You're wearing her clothes and looking like a cop, ya even wear Glocks, how many ADA's do that?" He punctuated the last with a jab of his index finger. "Now let me get outta here before Munch goes ballistic, I gotta get him some Geritol stress tabs or something." After he left, Alex locked the door and then undressed before taking care of Olivia. She was surprised to find another bottle of liquor inside a pocket in Olivia's coat; she put the bottle of Jack Daniels on the dresser and then went to undressing her lover. Once she had her naked, a bloodshot brown eye rolled open and looked at her.
"Ya take advantage of me yet?" She asked in a gruff voice and rolled to her side. "Ya know ya got a nice ass," she tried to lift her hand and touch Alex as she stepped closer but found it impossible. "Ya paralyzed me."
"Nope, that's called intoxication, just go to sleep Liv." She pulled the blankets over her and placed an extra one on top before going into the bathroom for a hot shower. She hoped that the hot water would ease the tight muscles in her neck and back, when stressed, she always felt like a whiplash victim. Turning the water on, she waited until it was hot and then climbed in to let it beat on her neck and back. At the sound of the shower door sliding on its rail, she dropped her head and waited for her lover's touch.
"I'm cold," she mumbled against Alex's back and hugged her tight. "Share the love baby, lemme at the water."
Alex chuckled and turned so that the water pounded on Olivia's back, she had to admit that she was funny when wasted. "You sound like Fin and just how drunk are you?"
"He's a good teacher and I'm sobering up some, where's my bottle?"
"Ohhh no, you're not getting anymore tonight. When we're done in here we're going to bed."
Olivia turned her around so that she was able to rest her head on her chest and wrap her arms around her waist; she closed her eyes tight and prayed for the room to stop spinning. "Shouldn't have drank that stuff, why'd you come looking for me?"
"Because, what did you expect me to do, let you wander around out in the cold over something a sick bitch said?"
"But she's right," she pulled from her lover's arms and got out of the shower. "I'm like her and there's nothing I can do about it." She walked dripping water all the way to the kitchen and searched the refrigerator for something to drink, grabbing a bottle of water; she opened it and drank half before putting it back. "I could flip out, slap ya around and then rape ya just like dear old dad!" She searched through her cabinets and pulled out a bag of sea salt and vinegar chips. "So whatcha say ta that Ally?"
Alex stopped in front of her took the chips from her hand and handed her a robe and a towel. "I say you better start at the beginning and tell me what this is all about, I'm not a mind reader." She got the bottle of water from the refrigerator, handed it and three aspirins to her lover. "Now take those, they'll help with your hang over in the morning." She went to the cabinets, pulled out some cans and then what she could find that was still edible from the refrigerator. In a few minutes, she had food cooking on the stove and Olivia sitting at the table drinking Gatorade. "You are not like her, you hear me?" She gave her a glare and went back to what she was doing. "OK Benson start talking, I want to know what this is all about, start with the slapping me around and raping me." She watched as her lover's head snapped up and dark furious eyes met hers. "You don't scare me so knock it off and start talking." She went over to the stove, grabbed the flipper and smacked Olivia on her upper arm with it.
"Why'd you hit me?" She rubbed her arm even though the small smack didn't even penetrate her robe.
"Ya wanna hit me back?" Alex asked and went back to fixing their late supper.
"No, why would I wanna do that…" she dropped her head to the table and bounced her forehead a few times before looking up at her lover's profile, she knew what she was doing. She ducked her head and raised her shoulder when the flipper came at her again. "Oww that one hurt!"
"Wanna hit me yet, maybe bitch slap me?"
"NO, no matter what you do ta me I won't ever hit…you." The last word fell off in a quiet whisper
She reached out and smacked her harder in her arm a few times and then held eyes with her. "How about now, maybe throw me down rip my robe off?"
"Why are you doing this?"
"I'm trying to show you something that you should never have questioned in the first place, your honor."
"I'm just afraid," she looked down at her twisting hands and back up to her lover. "I know it's stupid but...you don't know me or my past."
Alex filled a plate with the scrambled eggs mixed with tomatoes, green peppers, onions and bacon and placed it in front of her lover. "Eat; it'll help your body burn through the alcohol." She filled her own plate and took the seat across from Olivia and waved her fork at her. "I only know what you've told me and what's in your jacket, so fill me in."
Olivia looked up to her and felt tears fill her eyes, she didn't cry for herself or for her mother, she cried for all the ones who didn't have a voice. The way she brought a voice to the other's was by working the SVU unit and helping what victims she could. She knew that if her mother had chosen an abortion, she wouldn't be here and the victims would be with one less voice in the world. "My mother was attacked and raped one night on her way home from work, a few weeks later, she found out she was pregnant." Alex reached across the table and took her lover's hand; she hadn't any idea that this was what was bothering her. The violence part though rang loud and clear, it's what they dealt with every day but this was closer to home. Olivia wiped at her tears with one hand and looked into clear blue eyes. "Nine months later she had me, see my point, I was conceived in violence."
"I'm sorry Liv, I had no idea." She pulled her hand up to her lips to place a soft kiss to her palm. "But that has nothing to do with anything, we both know that, you can't stop living because you're afraid of what may or may not happen. No one has shown more strength when it comes to dealing with the violent world we live in than you, if you were going to be a violent person you would have been one way before you turned 40."
She narrowed her eyes and tilted her head to the side. "It doesn't bother you…at all?"
"Your mom being raped, yes it bothers me but that she chose to have you, not at all, if she hadn't, where would I be?" She got up from her chair and moved to stand in front of Olivia. She leaned down and pressed her face into her lover's neck and whispered. "I love you Olivia Benson, all of you." She raised her head and kissed her lips gently. "And just think of all the good you've done in your life, how many people you've touched." She used her fingertips to wipe away her tears before pulling her against for a long tight hug that she prayed pushed away any doubts that lingered. She pulled back and gave her a deep smoldering kiss before releasing her. "Now eat before it gets ice cold and nasty."
*******************
George Huang gave Perkins a small smirk and nodded his head at what she said, he was an expert at playing with suspects and this was no different. They all thought that the reason behind their crime was a good and honorable one; in this case, she thought that she had done the world and the past/future victims a favor. George would be the first to admit to having the same thoughts but he as well as the SVU Detectives would never kill a perpetrator unless it was a life and death matter and absolutely the only thing they could do. He leaned back in his chair and watched at Perkins lit another cigarette from the one she was smoking, he found it strange that someone so concerned about saving lives would risk lung cancer from smoking. "You know those are bad for you?"
She took a long drag until the tip glowed a brilliant red and then held the smoke in her lungs to then seep from her nostrils. "Like that makes any difference now," she waved her hand at the mirror. "I know that blonde bitch is going for the death penalty, so I plan on smoking enough that cancer gets me before the injection does." She shrugged her shoulders and closed one eye as the smoke curled upward. "So why are ya wasting your time with me, I'm nothing special?"
"I was just curious about the reason behind the murders, and if you were personally involved somehow, you know like a relative of one of the victims or just a concerned rape counselor?"
"I came across the file in the bottom of an old box when I was cleaning out a supply room, I tried to look into what happened and found out that the Dean and a bunch of other holier than thou assholes paid the victims off if they never mentioned what happened to them." She leaned forward and held George with her intense gaze. "It pissed me off, ya know that those punks got away with all of that and didn't even get as much as a slap on the wrist. So what if their Frat house got split up, they just hung out somewhere else and raped some more women when they were in the mood. Ya know there were others over the years. And just a few weeks earlier, I found out that they all met at some bar and made plans as to what they were gonna do with the dates they picked up that night." She let a wicked grin come over her face and laughed hysterically. "I broke up their little party every time they got some women, nothing like a woman screaming in the middle of a rich ass bar that she got the clap from one of them."
"If you knew all of this why didn't you tell the police?"
"What and have them do like they always do, what's the conviction rate on rapists, what's the longest time they get in jail?" She held out her hands and waved them. "New York Penal Code 130.35, class B Felony of rape in the first degree, what 5 years if no priors, eight to ten if they do have them?"
"The SVU teams do catch them and then the ADA puts them behind bars, but they need the help of the victims or witnesses to do their job."
"I've seen how they do their job, I've been in the court room when a rapist has been on trial and I've seen them slapped on the wrist and given two years and three of probation. My way is so much more fulfilling and we never have to worry about them raping again."
"That may be true but now you're going to prison for killing those men, when you could have just turned them in with all the information you had on them and done more good. Now that's one less person to help the police against their fight, but it's a mote point now."
"Sure is, but if the police have my office files, they also have information on other rapists." She held out her hand, shook his and then yelled for the guard to take her back to her cell. George just sat staring at the over flowing ashtray and wondering about her beliefs.
"Maybe she can still do some good from where she is?" He got up when the guard called his name and left the interview room with a heavy heart.
************
Elliot sat at his desk reading over some new files that came in on the late shift; it was the same old thing. The names and faces changed but not the crime, some variations occurred but it still formed a burning mass in his stomach. He looked up and across at his partner's desk and felt a loss, as much as they argued and drove each other nuts, he wouldn't trade her in for anyone. He grinned and shook his head, he wanted to call her cell phone and wake her up just to be mean, it wasn't fair that she got to sleep in while he was at his desk before it got light out. "Have some real coffee," Monique placed a tall cup on his desk and a small white bag. "I got the last of the cheese Danishes, so what've we got this morning?" She leaned against his desk and picked up the file he had been reading. "Geez don't these people have anything better ta do then drug each other and end up dieing at the end of a dog leash?"
"Nope, what ever happened to just regular sex, ya know without the leather, handcuffs and whips?"
"You're asking the wrong person, I have to use my cuffs just ta get a date." She shook her head and groaned. "I'm becoming Munch and it's scary as Hell."
"Maybe you should stop going to cop bars, I hear those guys are just plain kinky?" He wiggled his dark bushy brows and laughed when she rolled her eyes.
"OK people what have we got this morning?" Cragen asked on his way out from his office. "Any ideas on Alex's stalker yet, we need to find this person, they've gotten to the point where they're forging the DA's signature on notes and files?"
Monique waved a sheaf of papers in her hand and shrugged her shoulders. "I went over her phone records and the only calls to her house besides family came from this building, namely her own office. I don't know but I've never called my own place for anything so I can't see Alex doing it either."
Cragen nodded and looked to see if anyone else had anything. "OK, Fin, and Munch you guys go see Liz about the notes she has, Elliot, Monique, check with the computer crimes people." He ran a hand over his head to rub the back of his neck. "Olivia had Hernandez put a spy camera in Alex' monitor, see if they got anyone wandering around her office yesterday or last night, if ya get anything let me know." He watched his detectives grab their coats and head out of the bull pen, he hoped that they could get this one solved and put to bed, he needed all of his people back on the job and the ADA was counted as well. He had been getting complaints from other shifts about the sub ADA's they had to deal with in Cabot's absence and he feared a mutiny. "As cold and prickly as Alex is, she's liked and respected more than she knows." He dropped into his chair, leaned back, closed his eyes and wished he was anywhere but in his office.
*************
Elliot looked to all the computer parts scattered on Hernandez' desk and shook his head slowly. The computer he had at home was a mystery to him except for checking his e-mail; the kids used it all the time for their homework and made him feel old. "So tell me that you've got our stalker on tape and all we have to do is go pick the asshole up."
Hernandez chuckled and shook his head. "Sorry Elliot, I wish I had your stalker but all I've got is a geeky little bi-speckled woman that reminds me eerily of my mother. She goes in front of the monitor to put files on Alex's desk and then leaves."
Elliot narrowed his eyes and waved a hand. "Wait a minute, some woman is putting files on her desk, she's not working any cases…lemme see this tape."
"Sure, just come on over here to the monitor and I'll patch you in, I've got it saving to not only her hard drive but to mine as well, you know as a back-up." The three of them stood and waited for him to sign in to the program he had running in the background of Alex's office computer. "Now this only comes on when there's movement," he pointed to the screen when it went from black to show the interior of Alex's office. "In a second you'll see her drop the files and leave, she's been pretty regular all day, I'd say every few hours she shows up."
"What is she doing in there," Monique said out loud to herself. "Who is that women, I've never seen her before?"
"I think that's Alex's assistant, you know how the DA's office works, they replace people like we change underwear."
"I can print up a screen capture of her and you can ask Alex who she is," Hernandez hit a few keys and went over to a color printer; he came back with the picture of the woman in question and waited. "Should I keep monitoring her office and her PC?"
"Yeah, keep doing what ever Olivia had you doing and we'll let you know when we get the perp." He handed the picture to Monique and left Hernandez and the other police office geeks to their PC's. "Come on Monique lets see what else we can stir up around the ADA's offices, maybe we'll get lucky and the little geeky woman will be wandering around the hallways."
"Come on Elliot, its never that easy."
***********
"That woman scares me more than my own moms," Fin said in a low voice as he and Munch stood in the hallway outside Liz's office. "So what's next besides seeing if the lab can pull prints other than the hundred or so people who've already handled the letters?"
"Ohhh but we have something better than the letters," Munch looked over the tops of his glasses. "We have the files that Alex supposedly stole, unless this person wanted to look like a total fruitcake, I don't think she would have worn gloves when she stole them."
"Now what if we take a picture of Alex, slap her in a six pack and see if this secretary can pick her out, if she can't then maybe the DA will calm down and take care of the judge and that asshole lawyer?"
Munch looked at him for a few seconds before nodding his head, he hadn't even thought of doing a six pack with Alex in it. "OK, we can get her picture from her file and then we'll just toss a few similar ones in it. You can call the Captain and tell him what we're doing, he won't yell at you."
"He yells at me, just not as loud as he does everyone else, plus I don't screw up as much as you guys." He pulled his cell phone free and called the captains office, hopefully he could get them some pictures to put in their six pack.
*************
Olivia stood at one of the long windows in her living room; she placed her forehead against the cold pane and closed her eyes. She had awakened at an ungodly hour and had wandered around her apartment looking for something to get into, normally; she would have gone into work and went over case files. She was so restless because her conscious was bothering her, she wondered if Alex would even look at her when she got up. She knew that she had to have been an ass at some point in her inebriation, she usually was and she almost always did something stupid. That was how she ended up screwing Brian Cassidy, they had gone out after a tough case was solved, got drunk and ended up in her bed. What really worried her was what Alex really thought about her conception and childhood; most people wondered how her mother had treated her. With having a child born of violence, they wondered how she could even look at her own kid and not remember what happened to her.
"Liv it's something o'clock in the morning, come back to bed." She wrapped her arms around her and rested her head beside hers. "Why are you up anyways?"
"Not really sure," she placed her hands over her lovers and gave them a slight squeeze. "I just woke up and couldn't get back to sleep." She leaned her head against Alex's and took a deep shuddering breath. "Why don't you go back to bed, I'm gonna watch TV or something."
"Liv, stop worrying about nothing and put the little voices to bed. I love you and there's nothing that can change that." She hugged her tight before releasing her and then pulling her back into the bedroom. "If you're good, I may just let you be the top for a change."
"God if anyone knew what a wimp I am, they'd never let me live it down; ya know Elliot thinks I'm a top." She fell back on the bed and yelped when Alex bit her on the shoulder. She then moaned and thrust up into her lover's body when she licked and then bit the sensitive spot beneath her ear. "You can be the top forever…I'll even call ya Mistress Alexandra."
Alex raised her head and looked down at her lover, thinking of what she had just said; she busted up laughing and fell on top of her. "I may just change my answering machine to that, 'this is Mistress Alexandra, pick a penal code and I'll call you back.' whatcha think?"
"I think you'll get all kinds of perverted messages and a good number of 'em will come from Munch." She wrapped her arms around Alex and rolled them to their sides. "Sorry for getting drunk and acting like an asshole."
"Liv, if you hadn't gotten drunk would you have told me what was bothering you? And besides, you didn't act like an asshole."
"Ahhh nope, probably not," she snuggled into Alex's body and took a deep breath. "I can be a giant chicken at times, next time if I won't tell ya something just smack me."
"My choice of weapons?" She chuckled at the wide brown eyes and hugged her tighter. "Don't look so worried, I was thinking of the flipper."
*************
Fin handed the six-pack of pictures to Miss. Davies the secretary who had signed an affidavit to seeing Alex steal client files. "Is the woman you saw leaving your bosses office there?" The woman looked over each picture carefully and handed it back to him with a shake of her head.
"No, she was…the only word that I can think of to describe her is mousy, she wore those little black square rimmed glasses and her hair looked like it'd been fried a dozen times by bad perms."
"Well look at this picture here, she's wearing glasses."
"Nope that's not her, she was like I said mousy, this woman is no where near mousy."
"Well ADA Cabot will be very thankful you think of her as not mousy," Munch said and handed the secretary a pad of paper and a pen. "I need you make a statement stating that you did not pick ADA Alexandra Cabot out of the photo line-up. How about this woman, is she the one?" He handed her another picture that Elliot had given him and waited.
Her eyes grew wide with the information; she shook her head and stuttered. "But that's who my boss said it was when I gave him her description, he had me make that sworn affidavit so that he could 'nail her to the wall' his words not mine." She swore under her breath and looked to both detectives. "I don't know who that other woman is either and who do I see to straighten this out?"
"You might start with Judge Bates and then go see the District Attorney; I'll let ADA Cabot know that she's off the proverbial cross."
"I'm really sorry about all of this, my boss said it was her and I believed him. Kind of stupid to believe a lawyer but when he's the one who writes out your paycheck what are you supposed to do?"
"We understand, but if I were you, I'd be looking for someone else to work for, your boss hung you out to dry right along with Ms. Cabot. Not only that, his scum sucking client is back on the street because of all this."
***************
Olivia waved her hand in front of her face to clear the smoke and coughed. "Tell me again why I'm doing this," she coughed and turned her back to wipe at her eyes. "It's not even lunch time yet?"
"Such a baby, here use this." Alex handed her charcoal fluid and a Bic candle lighter. "Just make sure you jump back, I'm not gonna explain why your eyebrows are missing." She slapped her on the ass before going back into the kitchen to get the hot dogs and hamburgers.
"I can't believe I'm doing this, it's like 40 degrees out here and I'm lighting a tiny little BBQ. I've seen Frisbees bigger than this, if Elliot could see this he'd die, him and his manly man gas grill with the side burners to make what ever."
"Are you still whining?"
"Yeah and I'm getting really good at it, so much that I'm irritating myself." She squeezed out the charcoal fluid, leaned back and reached out with one arm to light the smoking briquettes, when it whooshed, she fell back into Alex. "This is fucking insane," she ran fingers across her eyebrows to make sure they were still there. "I got lucky that time."
Alex ran her fingers across Olivia's brows and then down to tip her chin up. "Thank God, you'd look really weird without them." She placed a soft kiss to her lips, handed her the plate with the hot dogs and burgers and then went to the coffee table. "Put those on the table out there and then come have a shot with me."
Olivia rolled her eyes; Alex's table was a milk crate. What the BBQ sat on was another milk crate with a piece of tin on top to shield it from heat. "Who knew that I could get such a classy woman, she has all the makings of a keeper." She went back in to the living room, slid the door closed and raised an eyebrow at the bottle of Monte Alban Mezcal and two shot glasses on the table. "Ally, two shots of that stuff can drop a man Elliot's size."
Alex held out a shot glass, the salt and then balanced a piece of lime on the top of the glass. "Ohhh come on and have a shot with me, Elliot's a light weight, I can do three shots before I fall over in a coma that lasts twelve hours or more."
"Sounds like experience talking there, ever eat the worm?"
"Yeah, my insight from eating that damn thing was to become a lawyer so I could get myself and friends outta jail."
Olivia licked the area of her hand between index finger and thumb, poured salt there and then licked it. Slamming the Mezcal, she then bit into the lime and grimaced. "Damn…three shots…you can do three shots of this stuff?" She closed her eyes and let the heat run through her body.
Alex took her shot and then placed her shot glass on the table. "Yep, but I'm not gonna do that today." She pulled Olivia into her body and hugged her tight. "Cuz we got wieners to grill."
"You know I think I'm a bad influence on you, your speech patterns have gone ta shit."
"Nah, I just know that my ten dollar words don't impress you anymore."
"I have news for ya baby, they never did." She gave her a big grin. "It's actions that impress me and what you did early this morning impressed me for the next century," she pressed her hips into her and groaned deeply into her ear. "I may have to take up yoga, I can't bend like you do and I think I broke a hip." She let go of Alex and dropped down onto the couch. "Remember, I got ten years on you," her grin widened. "I robbed the cradle!"
"You're channeling Munch again and just wait a few minutes and the Mezcal will numb all your pain."
"Like the vodka I drank isn't enough to kill my liver and numb my body, why are we doing shots on a Saturday afternoon anyway?"
"I always do at least one shot on Saturday, it's to celebrate that I survived another week at work and I'm not sitting in jail on the weekend, ya know contempt of court?"
"Yeah I know all to well about you and warming a bench behind bars, you've set a new record, John usually has to pay but you get to do both." She reached up and pulled Alex down onto her lap. "So back to the shot thing, I get it now; you take a shot as a way of saluting the worm, your profession and the fact that you're able to do it because you're not in jail."
"You put a lot of words to my simple little superstition, but yeah that's it." Wrapping her arms around Olivia's neck, she pulled her up to her, looked into her dark eyes and rolled her hips down into her. "Ya ready for wieners?"
"With you doing that ta me, you ask if I'm ready for wieners, that's the last thing that comes to mind."
"Too bad for you 'cuz I'm hungry," she got up from the couch and headed towards her balcony. "And the charcoal is just perfect; wanna cut up the onions and tomatoes for me while I watch our wieners?"
"Ya know you saying wieners is somehow…dirty, I guess it messes with the whole ADA Cabot vision."
Alex leaned in from the balcony and gave her a wink. "You ain't seen nothing yet."
*************
Munch looked to his partner, grinned and walked up the stairs to Alex's building. "Come on Fin its good news for a change."
"Yeah, but it's the weekend and Alex might be busy, we should've called first; ya know to warn her and Olivia?"
"And that's why you're going up to the door first."
"Remind me again why I haven't traded you in on a hot little number like Monique?"
"Because I look better in black than she does," he stopped beside Alex's door and crossed his arms over his chest. "What are ya waiting for?"
"You to change your mind and call this off until Monday," he watched John lower his head so that he was looking over the tops of his glasses and knew it was hopeless. "Alright but if we interrupt something I'm blaming you."
John looked at his watch and snorted. "It's three o'clock in the afternoon; no one has sex at this time of the day."
*********
Alex lay on the living room floor with one leg on the coffee table, her arms out to the side and the empty Dijon honey mustard bottle beside her. She opened one eye to watch her lover limp from the living room and grinned, she would admit to herself only that her lover had more stamina than she did. Not to mention that Olivia had a wicked imagination and she would never look at mustard the same or at least not without a smirk. She also knew that she didn't have to buy hot dog buns ever again; Olivia dipped them in mustard and ate them like little kids do. "You're gonna help me up right?" She asked when Olivia came back in the room after turning the shower on.
"Actually no, I like the view from up here," she let her eyes trail over her lover's body and growled. "But considering you're a funny yellowish color from the remains of mustard, I'll help ya up."
"You're so kind, I'll remember this next time you get a leg cramp." She groaned when Olivia pulled her up from the floor. "And you're the one who squirted mustard all over me."
"And licked it off," she winked and ran a fingertip through the damp blonde hair at her apex. "Next time we'll use hot mustard."
"You're one of a kind Liv, most people would use honey or some kind of love gel or chocolate syrup, you're the queen of condiments."
"You should see what I can do with Reese cups and Hershey bars," she pulled her into the shower and had just soaped up her body when she heard someone knocking on the door. "We just can't get a break, every time we get in the shower…" She moaned and clutched at her lover when she shut her up with a sultry kiss.
"I'll get the door, maybe me covered in just soap will send them screaming from the building."
"Nah ahhh…I'll go, shoot 'em and leave the body for someone else to report." Grabbing Alex's robe from the back of the door, she pulled it on and headed to the door with a scowl plastered firmly in place. "I have a big gun and a badge that makes it legal to shoot and ask questions when I feel like it!"
"Well, our two badges beat your one badge so open up and let us in!" John yelled through the door and gave Fin a smirk.
Olivia opened the door and gave her friends evil glares. "But if I throw in an ADA badge it beats your two badges and have I completely lost my mind?"
"Possibly," John said as he walked into the apartment and looked around at the disarray. "Do I smell charcoal and grilled hotdogs?"
"In the kitchen, Alex goes nuts when she BBQ's, we could feed the whole bull pen. Lemme get dressed, it'll give ya time to come up with good excuses as to why you're here." She headed back to the bathroom, once inside; she dropped her robe and climbed back into the shower with Alex. "John and Fin are here and we're feeding 'em left overs."
Alex turned and blinked water from her eyes. "What did we do this time…ohhh Hell…where's the vibrator?" She climbed from the shower grabbed the robe that Olivia had dropped and pulled it on. "Please let it be under the couch." She mumbled as she tried to walk from the bathroom with some dignity.
*****************
Munch looked out into the living room from where he stood in the kitchen and tilted his head sideways and then back before tapping Fin on the shoulder. "Tell me that's not one of those Jelly dildo vibrators standing up on the coffee table."
"OK I won't, that's a new foot massager by foot med…let's see how she handles this." He whispered after seeing Alex try to sneak out into the living room by way of her bedroom, she scanned the room and felt her face take on a heat that could rival a volcano. Moving quickly to the table, she grabbed up all the items that littered the top and slipped the dildo into her pocket. "Hi guys, did you find everything you needed?"
"Ohhh yeah and then some," John said around a mouthful of hamburger. "Kind of cold out for a BBQ isn't it?"
"It's never too cold for that," she placed the dirty dishes on the counter and pointed to her bedroom. "Lemme go get dressed."
"The echo finally reached us didn't it?" Fin said and grabbed a Coke from the refrigerator. "They're just too funny; I wonder if she knows the dildo's too tall for her pocket?"
"Probably not, we'll send her and Olivia a memo on the difference between proportions."
***************
Olivia watched Alex fall face first into bed and just lay there, pulling a t-shirt on, she dropped down beside her. "Did you find our toy?"
Alex pulled it from her pocket and waved it in the air before dropping her arm. "It was standing up waving at the guys, I know damn well they saw it, how could they not see a neon green jelly dildo in the center of the coffee table!"
"Ooops, guess we're busted on having horrible taste in dildo colors." She snickered and fell over to cuddle up to her lover. "It's not like they all don't know what goes on; remember we're the sex police."
"But this is really embarrassing Liv, I mean they know about our dildo."
"I'll tell 'em it's mine and to drop it." She got up after placing a kiss on her neck and went out to find the guys still eating. "A lot better than those ones we get from the street venders huh?" She squeezed past John and started to make a pot of coffee. "So what brings you guys over here besides free food?"
"We got Alex cleared on the file theft thing," Fin handed her a copy of the report that the secretary wrote and went back to eating. "We did a mug shot six pack with your girlfriend's picture in it, she didn't pick her."
"You put one of Alex's security pictures in a six pack?" She laughed and sobered when she saw her walk from the bedroom dressed in a faded NYPD sweatshirt and jeans.
"No we got one from when she was doing titty flashing movies," John smirked and winked at Alex as she stopped in mid step and paled. "Hey Alex, you know you should have gotten some royalty checks from those videos."
"I am so screwed; there goes my chance to be Governor of New York." She slumped down onto a bar stool and dropped her chin down on top of her hands.
"Hey I'd vote for ya," Fin said. "It'd be the first time we had someone in office that wasn't so damn stuffy and holier than thou. And ya look a Hell of a lot better in a skirt than the one we got now." He noticed the looks directed at him and shrugged his shoulders. "I ain't sayin nothin."
"OK, so I'm cleared on stealing those case files, what about the rest of the case, anything new on my stalker?" Both men shook their heads and then John raised a finger.
"We did find out that the woman who took the files was mousy, know any mousy little woman?"
"Besides my assistant no…wait, did you guys check her out?"
Olivia slapped a hand down on the counter and looked to her lover. "She's always there and she has access to you computer, files and anything else in the building."
"But she's been there longer than I have why would she be stalking me?" She asked and then looked around for the cell phone that was ringing. "Someone's phone…where's our phones?"
"I have no idea," she went into the bedroom and grabbed the ringing phone, flipping it open, she listened and stopped dead in her tracks.
"Is she there with you…I told you that I didn't like that and that you would pay?"
"Yeah I'm here and you won't do a damn thing because you're a coward, come and get me asshole...ohhh wait you can only make threats by leaving notes and calling on the phone. So that means we're safe, I've already taken out all your flunkies." She made her way to the kitchen, grabbed the notepad lying near the phone and wrote down the number that came across the small screen on the cell phone. Fin grabbed his phone, called the bull pen to have Elliot and Monique check to see who the number belonged to.
"You won't get away with this, she's mine and she will always be mine!"
"Keep on dreaming asshole and all those damn roses you keep sending, we toss them in the nearest dumpster, Alex doesn't want them or you." She looked at the note Fin wrote and then to John. "What's the matter is it finally sinking in that she doesn't want anything to do with you, is that why you're so quiet?"
"I'm coming for you Detective Benson!" Then the line went dead.
"OK what was that all about?" Alex asked in a low threatening voice and grabbed the notepad from where it lay. "Wait a minute; the call was made from my boss's phone?"
"That's what Monique said, they were headed there to see if they could catch whoever it was making the call."
"Like that's gonna happen," Alex whispered and looked to her lover. "What did the asshole say before they hung up and was it a woman?"
"Ohhh that they were coming for me and I have no idea what sex the person is they were using one of those electronic voice devices." She laced her fingers with Alex and looked to her friends. "I think this goes way beyond stalking, stalkers want the person to know who they are. This asshole is too secretive and keeps sending flunkies after us."
"Hopefully the camera's picked something up and we've got this picture for Alex to identify, the woman was at her computer." John handed the picture over and waited to see if Alex knew who it was.
"She was at my desk…I've never seen her before and where the Hell was my assistant when this woman was in my office which is supposed to be locked!"
**********************
"Fuck where the Hell did she go," Monique looked around them and then to the stairwell doors. "Shit, I bet she took off down the stairs and is wandering around on another floor."
Elliot planted his hands on his hips and looked around with narrowed eyes; chances of catching the woman were slim. "Take your pick, these stairs or the ones at the other end; we meet out front after the outside is taking care of."
"I'll take these and then check the back alleyways, make the loop and meet you out front." She took off at a jog to the stairwell while Elliot took off in the opposite direction to the stairs that came out closer to the front doors of the building. Just down the hallway from Alex's office door was the public bathrooms, a small redheaded woman walked out carrying a large blue book bag with her black wool coat draped over her arm. She stopped in front of one of the office windows and checked her hair before heading to the elevators. She had seen the two detectives searching for her but never paid any attention to her as she slipped into the bathroom, they needed to pay more attention to their surroundings, she had been walking among them for months and they never knew.
"Now to go take care of Detective Benson and ADA Cabot in one shot or should I say two?" She laughed manically and ignored the strange looks she got as she walked from the elevator.
************
Cragen sat on the edge of Olivia's desk and looked to his four detectives and then down to the toe of his brown shoe, at every turn this stalker was getting the best of them; he was wondering if it wasn't a cop or one of the investigators that the DA used. What he wanted to do about the person and what was lawful were two different things, he wanted to just turn his detectives loose and let them do what ever to nail the stalker but he had to remember that no matter what the person did, they had rights. "OK people, I want two of you to ghost Alex and Olivia," he held up a hand when he heard mumbling. "I know that they'll both throw a shit fit over this, blame me. The other two sit in the security office and watch out for any female going towards Alex's office or Liz's for that matter. Someone goes in that isn't identifiable, grab 'em."
Elliot looked from Monique to John and Fin and shrugged his shoulders, he really didn't want to ghost his partner, he had caught Hell the last time he had her watched. It took weeks before she was civil to him and didn't send fiery glares over the desk tops at him. He had done it because he was afraid for her and because she had ignored the threat to herself. "We can flip for it or we'll take the boring job of watching the monitors?" Monique spoke up and watched Elliot breathe for the first time in a few minutes.
"So we get to watch the nymphomaniacs…I didn't say that." John said and looked over his glasses at Elliot. "You know if they catch us Olivia's gonna hang a foot up both our asses?"
Elliot gave him a wide grin and shook his head. "Better you than me, I got the royal reaming last time remember?"
"Ohhh how could any of us forget, she sat across from you and shot daggers all day long, not to mention pouring Tabasco sauce in your coffee when you weren't looking."
Monique gave them all an evil grin. "I would've done worse, Ipecac is nastier."
"See that," Fin waved a finger at her. "They're worse than any serial killer and just plain evil, they bat their eyelashes to distract us and dump Ipecac in our coffee."
***********
Olivia had both hands stuffed deeply into her coat pockets; she looked to her side and at her lover who was staring back at her with a raised brow. "Will you loosen up Liv; you're acting like we're going to a firing squad." She reached out and yanked one of her lover's hands from her pocket and twined their fingers. "I'm tired of being cooped up and worrying about if that freak is gonna get me," She pulled Liv up against her side and whispered in her ear as they walked. "Besides we have two of New York's finest following us."
"Oohh don't tell me Elliot is playing body guard."
"Nope, we got the other two, ya know the men in black. Has anyone ever told John that he does not blend in with the general population?"
"Yeah and ya know if he dresses in anything other than black it's hard not to just stare at 'em, he looks so different."
Alex looked to her side and smirked; her lover was jittery and kept looking around them like the stalker was going to jump right from the side of a building. "Calm down Liv," she changed her tone of voice and had Liv stopping dead in her tracks to look at her as if she had grown two heads. "Dontcha know ya give yerself a nervous condition, ya know I was hoping we could just take a walk, relax, catch a movie, and be regular people dontcha think?"
"That is just…ya sound like…I have no idea...freaky."
Alex chuckled and bumped shoulders with her. "That's just super, ya think I'm freaky. Imagine having to listen to someone speak like that for years, after a while ya start ta talk just like you're from Brainerd Minnesota."
"I can just picture you in the courtroom talking like that; the judge would lock you up. Who do ya know from Minnesota?"
"College room mate, it took me a while to get used to her speech patterns, she never swore, she would always say 'What's the Christ' instead." She looked to wide brown eyes and grinned. "So ya think putting up with the other detectives is weird, try someone that says 'what's the Christ all the time."
"Munch and his conspiracy theories sounds good compared to the other, how about we take 'em to see a chick flick that should drive 'em nuts?"
Alex grinned evilly and shook her head. "I'm thinking much worse, a dyke bar, with lots of leather."
***************
"I think Alex made us." Munch said and stepped to the side to let a huge woman walk between him and Fin.
"Ohhh you mean that's what she meant when she turned her head, winked and mouthed I see you guys?"
"That would be it, ohhh Hell Fin look where they're taking us."
Fin ran a hand across his mustache and goatee, shook his head at what kind of luck he and his partner were having. "We can deal, you should be used ta women not wanting anything ta do with ya." He slapped him on the shoulder and waited a few minutes before going into the dyke bar. "I'm gonna make Alex pay for this, talk about frustrating."
He and John took a spot in the corner nearest the door and stayed in the darkness, with a flash of their badges; the bartender left them alone with their Cokes and kept the other patrons from bothering them as well. "Leave it up to Alex to drag us to a dyke bar where men were considered the enemy."
"Ohhh come on Munch, that's what all your wives considered you even before ya got divorced." He looked around and watched as the women mingled and spoke in normal tones. "Ya know this is kinda nice, no loud music blasting your ear drums, pushing or pissing contests, maybe they got something here."
"Yeah civilization, the way it should be." He raised his glass for a refill and then spotted Olivia and Alex sitting at a far table watching them. "I think this is their idea of fun, watching us try to hide in a bar full of women."
**************
"OK now who's watching who now?" Olivia asked and took a sip of her beer.
"I think it's funny, not like you guys haven't been in all sorts of places before but for those two to just sit and be uncomfortable as Hell makes my night." She leaned in and looked into dark eyes. "So tell me about all the titty bars you guys have been in?"
Olivia took a longer drink, placed her bottle on the table and looked off into the distance like she was trying to pull a memory forward. "Seen one set of tits seen 'em all…maybe I should just eat my gun now huh?" She wished that someone would come along and start a fight or some other distraction to help get her out of the trouble she had just put herself in. "That didn't come out right, of course you have the best pair of…just shoot me…please?"
The entire time Olivia was stumbling over her words, Alex's smile was growing wider until she blinded her lover with it. It wasn't often that she smiled but when she did it was breath taking and a total shock to those who saw it. She placed her fingertips over her lover's lips to stop her babbling and intertwined their fingers together. "I think this is the first time that I've ever seen you at a loss for words Detective Benson, and in bed doesn't count if that's what you're thinking."
"Well what am I supposed ta say to you when I've put both feet in my mouth?"
Alex leaned in and whispered against her lips. "Don't say a word." She brushed their lips together before tangling her fingers in her lover's hair and deepening the kiss.
***************
"Go back in your apartment this is police business." The female police officer said to an older man who poked his head out into the hallway and went back to work trying to get the locks on Olivia's door opened. She knew that both Olivia and Alex had top of the line locks on their doors but nothing could withstand a crowbar and a set of master keys for every door lock made. It paid to know people in different lines of business and have people owe favors. She heard the final click and pushed the door open with a quiet whoosh. Leaning in with her pistol out in front of her, she stopped and listened for any sounds. When no sounds came to her ears, she put her gun away and made her way to Olivia's bedroom, the first place she started looking were her dresser drawers. "I know you have one, every cop has a couple back up weapons." She searched every drawer being careful to leave it as undisturbed as possible, her next area to search was the bathroom, she knew of people hiding backup weapons in plastic bags in the toilet tank. When she came up empty, she searched the bed, closets and ended up in the living room. "Come on Detective Benson, you're not the type to not have an extra piece, where do you hide it?" She went into the kitchen and pulled open a drawer closest to the door, there she found full clips and a Berretta. "I knew you had one, now to make good use of it." She looked around to make sure that nothing was out of place and then left the same way she came.
*************
"Damn Davies to Hell and back, she would have to quit and leave me to find everything on my own!" Barrows yelled and flung file folders off his secretary's desk in a shower of pages and post-it notes. She hadn't even given him a second to beg and plead before she threw the office keys at him and slammed the glass door hard enough to crack the glass. Now he had court in less than twenty minutes and couldn't find the briefs he needed or the investigation reports, without them he didn't stand a chance of winning the cases. Yanking the bottom drawer of her desk out and dumping it on the floor, he made a bigger mess and added to his problem. His screaming obscenities about women in general was brought to a halt when the door opened and one of New York's finest stepped in to look down at him.
"Are you the counselor who caused the problems for ADA Alexandra Cabot?"
Barrows looked up with narrowed green eyes and nodded his head. "If you mean having her suspended for stealing files then yeah that's me, what's this about, is she having me served?"
The officer pulled the Berretta from behind her back, fired one shot between his eyes and dropped the gun to the floor. "Consider yourself served." She turned and looked around the outer office before stepping into his and looking for the VCR to the security system, after pulling the tape out, she turned and left with it in her hand.
**************
Elliot looked up from where he was watching the empty hallway on the security monitor, Monique had fallen from her chair when her cell phone woke her up, she was now looking at him with wide eyes and her mouth hanging open. "OK we'll be right there…where's Benson now?" She hung up her phone and waved a hand at the door. "We got a big problem; we got us a dead lawyer and Olivia's Berretta at the scene."
"Ooh don't tell me she went and finally did us all a favor, she was supposed to let me watch!" He jogged after Monique and stopped when his cell phone rang. "Stabler…yeah we heard, where are they?"
"Right now they're on the dance floor and I'm not about to describe what they're doin." Fin shoved Munch and waved a finger in front of him. "Don't you dare, someone will kick your bony ass and then I'll have to rescue you." He took a deep breathe and waited for Elliot to stop laughing. "Munch wants his ass kicked by a bar full of lesbians."
"We're headed over to the scene now, keep Alex and Liv…hell I don't know what you can do where those two are concerned."
"We can handle them; let us know what ya find out."
"OK, gotta go Monique is ready to kick my ass." He hung up his cell and ran for the car as it was creeping away from the curb. "You're worse than Liv; she's left me standing on the sidewalk before."
"As slow as you move I can't figure out why ya don't have moss growing on ya. Now get your ass in here so we can go see what the Hell is going on."
"I'm not slow; I just can't run and talk on the phone at the same time."
***********
"Let's ditch the boys and head on home," Olivia said close to her lover's ear and then slipped her hands down across her hips to her ass. "I just wanna lay on the couch with you, watch some TV and eat ice cream."
"Ya know you're a cheap date, a container of Ben and Jerry's and you're happy." She took Olivia's hand and pulled her towards the back door to the bar. "We'll stop and get ice cream on the way home, there's that little place near my building that stays open all night. We can rent some DVD's there to; maybe get a scary movie or something."
"You don't mind just hanging out at home," she looked at her large silver watch. "It's like seven at night and we're headed home, is that a sign of old age?"
"With our screwed up lives, being able to just lay around and relax with you is the best thing in the world." When they got outside, Alex pressed Olivia up against the wall and leaned into her body. "How long before the guys know we've snuck away?"
"A few minutes at best why?" She didn't have a chance to say anything when Alex pushed her along the wall and into a dark cubby hole used to store empty soda canisters. "Ohhh Hell Ally we're gonna get caught…" Her head fell back on her shoulders when Alex unbuttoned her Levis and slipped her hand between her thighs. "Ally…you're evil…" Her words were cut off when Alex captured her lips in a consuming kiss and caressed her slick folds, reaching out she wrapped her arms around Alex's neck to steady herself. She couldn't believe what they were doing out in an alleyway with Munch and Fin just inside the building. Their kiss broke and left them gasping for air and then panting when Olivia slipped a hand down the front of her lover's baggy khaki's and into the wetness that gathered between her thighs. Feverishly they thrust against each other until Alex fell against Olivia and grunted out her release against her shoulder. With her climax still pounding between her thighs, she pushed deep inside of Olivia and felt her muscles clamp and then flutter around her fingers. They stood in the darkness holding on to each other while trying to catch their breaths; it started out as a low chuckle and then grew when Olivia thought of what they had just done.
"What's so funny?" Alex asked and fastened her pants back up while Olivia tried to straighten her own clothes.
"I can't believe what we just did," she gave Alex a quick kiss and pulled her against her body. "This moves to the top of my risky places where I've had sex, I thought the church was up there but this."
"Wait a minute; you've had sex in a church?" Alex pulled back and pulled her into the dim light of the bars lights.
"I just gave you my deepest secret," she took her hand and pulled her towards the street where they could catch a cab for home. "It was a very long time ago and it was in the basement where they have the boiler room, damn my legs are still shaking." She stopped and leaned against a street sign.
"You really are kinkier than I am; I thought this was very risky."
"Remember baby I'm older and I led a life the complete opposite of yours, my teenage years were Pink Floyd, AC/DC, Led Zeppelin and Kiss. We got wasted and did all kinds of stupid ass stuff that you would never have thought of." She thought a few seconds and grinned. "Come to think of it, you'd be arrested today for what we did and got away with because it was considered a kids prank."
Alex moved to her side and stood close to absorb some of her body heat and get out of the cold wind that had kicked up. "Like what?"
"Stealing the light bars off police cruisers, one night we stole the city bus shed off Broadway and West 97th. If my mom had ever found out what I was doing she would have locked me up herself." She waved a hand and moved forward when a yellow cab pulled up to the curb and stopped. They climbed in, gave the address and sat close together in the back seat.
"I bet ya never did anything like flash your tits to a couple thousand drunken college students while riding on a spring break float going down Bourbon Street in New Orleans?"
"Uuummm nope, does yours or my apartment count, 'cuz that's the only place I'm doing any flashing?" She tossed bills to the cab driver and waited for Alex to get out of the cab before following her to the front door of her building and then inside.
***********
"Ohhh fuck dad's gonna kill us if we don't catch up to those two," Fin grumbled and peeled around the corner and up the street where Alex's building was. "I should've known they woulda pulled something like this, damn women."
"Were we supposed to follow them into the bathroom as well; it's not like they're just regular citizens that can't take care of themselves." John said and grabbed onto the dashboard to keep from being tossed through the windshield. "You're driving sucks, it's worse than Monique's!"
"Yeah well we never did get those drivers licenses, didn't need 'em in our neighborhoods." He slapped the NYPD placard on the dashboard and got out of the car. "I hope they came here instead of going to Liv's place, it's bad enough she's gonna flip out when we tell her what happened but to go home and find cops in your crib."
"So instead we get to witness the meltdown with no back-up, just great." Munch mumbled and opened the car door.
*****************
"Detective Benson I'm Officer Judas, I'm here to take you into the 15th precinct." The female officer said as she walked towards Alex and Olivia. "You're needed for questioning in regards to the murder of Attorney Barrows."
Olivia blinked and pushed Alex behind her, there was something with the way the officer moved that didn't feel right. "What has that got to do with me and why didn't my Captain call me?"
"I'm not sure, I was told to come over here and bring you in." She slowly moved her hand behind her and pulled out the M-18 air tazer she had and fired it at Olivia. The second the EMD wires hit her, she went rigid and dropped to the floor. Alex back peddled until she hit the wall behind her and then turned to run for the outer door. She got right to the door and felt the coldness of a gun barrel press against the back of her neck. "Move and I'll blow your head clean from your shoulders; now move real slow out the door, any sudden moves and you're history."
"You can't get away with this; there are two cops right outside this door."
"Yes I can, I can kill you and then what ever happens to me doesn't matter, I just want those stupid cops to see that I win in the end no matter what. And the best part is that Detective Benson has to live with the thought that she lost you because she failed at her job and at protecting her lover."
"So you've been stalking me all this time just to kill me and then die yourself, that is completely asinine." Alex said and stood looking out into the park, she hoped that she could either talk her stalker into putting her gun down or at least stall her long enough for Olivia or the other two detectives to come to her rescue. "Why me, I mean there's plenty of other people out there you could have stalked?"
"Yes but there's only one Alexandra Cabot, High Society snob turned Assistant district attorney, you put innocent people in prison and let the real criminals walk around." She jabbed her in the back of her neck harder. "You let the man who raped and killed my sister get away with it, our father was walking around until I killed him and the best part is you people just now caught on to what was going on?"
Alex felt weakness in her knees as the realization hit her. "All the men that have been turning up dead…you're part of that?"
"Of course I am, you got my sister but that's because she wanted the cops to get her, my job was to play with you and keep you off balance."
"I never had any of those men in court, so you wasted a lot of time stalking me to keep me off balance." She slowly turned to face the smaller woman and held her with ice blue eyes. "I'll ask you the same question I asked your sister, why not go to the SVU and tell them about everything? If they had known what your father had done they would have arrested him."
"Ohhh like a corporate big shot with more money than brains would end up behind bars; he paid off so many people to keep the truth hidden that it would take centuries to uncover it. But then you people all know about the money changing hands, it's too late now, my little sister is dead and so is the asshole who abused us sexually for years." She watched Munch and Fin step up behind Alex and grinned. "Your Key Stone Cops showed up, a lot of good it'll do, they shoot me, I shoot you. Or the other way around, either way you're dead counselor." She waved the gun in front of Alex's face and then held it at her forehead.
She watched Olivia step up behind the officer but keep to the side so that she could see her. "Well then get it over with, I don't have all night for this," she let her ADA façade slip into place and saw that her lover had noticed. "Such a pity that I'll be shot by a coward, you couldn't handle this any other way?" Straightening her shoulders and placing her hands behind her back, she dipped her head and took one step to her right. When her lover's eyes darkened, she lunged to the side and hit the ground hard. The sounds of shots firing and then a searing pain across her hip sent her deeper into the pavement. She didn't move until Olivia knelt beside her and then pulled her onto her lap. "What took you so long?"
"I thought I'd flop around on the floor for a few moments, you know take full advantage of a few hundred volts of electricity running through me." She slid her hand under the Kevlar vest she wore and rubbed a sore spot. "The vest helped but not much and don't you ever play with a nutcase again,"
"You guys OK," Fin asked and held out his handkerchief to Olivia. "Alex ya know ya caught a shot in the ass?"
"I thought so, it burns like a bitch." She dropped her head onto Olivia's shoulder and winched when she applied pressure to the area. "Liz will just love this; I get shot in the one place she's always wanted to kick."
"What about our imposter there?" Olivia asked even though she knew the answer, she wasn't going for a wounding shot; she shot her in the back of the head.
"One word," Munch walked up to them. "Swiss cheese, or is that two words, either way she's harmless now. And what in the Hell were you thinking counselor, I saw that courtroom dip thing?"
Alex chuckled and then groaned when pain shot through her ribcage. "I didn't know that anyone paid that much attention to how I moved in the courtroom besides Liv, it worked so who cares right?"
"Yeah and that's the good news of the night," Fin said and then shrugged his shoulders. "Well maybe not but it's in the way ya look at it, we got a dead attorney and he was shot with Liv's off duty piece." He grinned when Olivia closed her eyes and dropped her head down to rest on her lovers.
************
Olivia walked down the hallway attaching her badge and holster back on her belt; it had taken IAD a week to clear her of the Barrows shooting. That alone proved that they're incompetent assholes, she had a solid alibi with being in a bar with hundreds of people, two detectives following her and Alex and the cab drive to her lover's building. IAD still had to check with everyone and their damn grandmother to make sure that she couldn't have possibly snuck away and killed the attorney. There may be crime in the police department and it started in IAD, it was a crime that those in charge of weeding the problems out were all brainless. She checked her cell phone and realized that she had grabbed Elliot's instead; she wondered how many phone calls he had received that made no sense to him what's so ever. Even though they had been partners for years, she had different contacts than he did. Turning the corner to the bull pen, she saw her partner raise the phone to his ear and knew that it would not be an easy day for them when his face turned a bright red and his mouth dropped open in shock. "Wanna have hot steamy phone sex?" Elliot's mouthed moved but nothing came out until he saw Olivia standing next to him.
"It's for you." He handed her his cell phone and sat shaking his head and thinking of what kind of sex life his partner had.
"Detective Benson can I help you?" She asked and then groaned when she heard her lover laugh hysterically on the other end. "What did you do to Elliot, he's in shock?"
Alex sobered enough to talk and then laughed more after telling her lover what she had said. "I know I called your phone, I was just as surprised as he was when I heard no reply for my phone sex offer."
"I may have to call 911 or his wife," she went around and dropped down into her chair. "So is that what you really wanted or is there something else?"
"What I really want and what I can have are two different things, right now I want nothing more than to be at home. But, I need the ME's reports on my stalker so I can close out my end. And a shoulder massage would do wonders for my attitude, my floor wants me locked up or my desk moved to the bull pen."
"So you can bother us all day instead of them, I can handle that." She searched her desk and then Elliot's for the files and pulled them from his out box. "I got 'em right here, I'll be there in a few minutes as soon as I get Elliot to stop looking at me like I'm nuts." She hung up with Alex and then looked to Elliot. "So you and Kath don't have phone sex?" She grinned and waited for him to say something.
"If we have sex period it's a total shock, with four kids running through the house it's hard to have any quality time if ya know what I mean. So besides phone sex, what did Alex want?"
"She has to close out her reports and needs the ME's report before she can do it, any word on how her stalker was able to hide among us?"
"Yep, Monique was able to trace her activities to of all the damn places, the records archives. She's worked for the city for six years and in those years, she's been able to hack into every rape case file ever investigated."
"Well that just told me how she was able to get so much information on Alex," she took a copy of the report from Elliot and scanned over the pages, when she came to an area for expenses, she snickered and looked at her partner. "The city paid for all those roses that went to Alex?"
"Yeah, she somehow got into the city council funds and charged all those flowers to a certain councilman and a few law firms as well, we turned that part over to the white collar guys. I know they'll be having all kinds of fun looking into why no one noticed the money missing and why there are all kinds of charity checks being deposited in personal accounts."
Olivia felt the burn in her stomach start up again, with another senseless death more bad guys would be brought down. "If they had just stepped forward with what they knew, we could have helped them."
"But somewhere along the line, we failed them and the only way they could see justice done was to take it in their own hands. Sometimes we win and sometimes we get smacked around because we're blind," Cragen said and handed Olivia her off duty weapon. "We just have to do better in the eyes of the public," he handed Olivia a folder. "Now we can start by getting these over to Alex, this should be the last of the files on the two combined cases." He went back to his office to get the ball rolling on other cases.
"Guess I'll run these over to Alex, ya need anything?" She got up, switched cell phones with Elliot and waited for him to answer.
"Nah, knowing that the honeymoon is still in full swing, I may not see you for hours."
She gave him a smirk and a small wave as she left the bull pen with the files in her hand, she knew he was right but she wasn't about to admit it.
***************
Alex laid her glasses on her desk, leaned back in her chair and rubbed her tired eyes with the heels of her hands. Even with the other ADA's taking over her cases while she was out of the office, she still came back to a full in box and numerous other files that haunted the place. Days before when she returned, her assistant had caught her blowing up the seat cushion that was used by people with hemorrhoids. The bullet shot had healed but it was still tender and her doctor advised the use of the cushion. Now she wished she had never brought it into to work with her, Liz had poked her head in her office just to laugh at her. "Maybe private practice needs to be looked into further…nah, I'd have to deal with scumbags." She let her head drop back and closed her eyes, that left her wide open for her visitor to sneak in and lay a single pink rose in the center of her desk and then drop to her knees beside her desk.
"I don't know about private practice but I can give ya a private performance."
Alex opened one eye and looked down into her lovers mischievous dark eyes and knew that she was completely serious with her offer. "And what would this performance entail and will it get me in deep shit?"
"All you gotta do is sit back and let me take care of you and the only way you'll get in trouble is if you scream." She crawled on her knees until she was in front of Alex; she placed her hands on her knees and pushed her fingers under the edge of her gray skirt. Pushing her lover's shirt higher, she saw the edge of her silk hose and moaned deeply. "Ohhh God, you wore stockings with a garter belt."
Alex let her head fall back again and whispered in a deep voice. "It's the black lacy one that matches everything I'm wearing," she jumped when Olivia took her shoes off and started rubbing her feet. "What are you doing?"
"What I said I was gonna do, give ya a private performance." She ran her thumb up Alex's arch and pressed in to massage a sensitive spot, a wide grin came over her face when Alex whimpered and then slapped a hand over her mouth. "I'm gonna get you one of those foot massagers, ya know the ones that you put your feet on and they vibrate?"
"What do I need one of those for if I have you?"
"For the simple fact that Cragen won't be getting a call from me about one of his detectives being under one of my ADA's desks, that's why she's getting you one."
Olivia looked over her shoulder and up over the top of Alex's desk to see Liz standing in her doorway. "Hi Liz," she got to her feet and backed away from her lover's desk. "I brought those files you needed, guess I'll be heading on back to the bull pen." She started to leave and stopped when Liz waved a hand at her.
"Just to let you know Alex, we have court in the morning," she held up a finger when she saw that she was going to argue. "You're second chair, this is a slam dunk molestation case, we're going for the max on it so relax and read over this file and I'll see you at 0900 in courtroom three." She tossed it on the messy desk and left with a small smirk on her face.
"We were so busted," Alex grunted and let her head fall back on her chair again. "Good thing you were only rubbing my feet."
Olivia walked to the door closed it softly and then locked it before going back over to her lover. "Remember when we talked about day dreams and you sharing your office, now's the time to share." She dropped down onto her knees between her lover's legs and pushed her hands up under her skirt. "Anyone calls or pounds on the door can go to Hell, we're busy." She pulled Alex to the edge of her chair, pushed her shirt up around her waist and ran her fingers down to unfasten her garter straps.
"Liv search a little better, you don't have to unhook everything." When a deep moan came from her lover, she knew that she noticed that she wore crotchless panties.
"You're an evil evil woman but I love you anyway." She dropped her head between her lover's thighs and moaned deeply with what she found. Alex gripped the arms of her chair in a death grip when Olivia's tongue licked between her folds, moving her legs so that they were over her lover's shoulders, she gritted her teeth to keep from making a sound and pressed her feet into the edge of her desk. Her hips thrust upward and rolled with her lover's tempo, she gripped the chair arm with one hand and used the other to cover her mouth. She was rapidly moving towards orgasm and knew that no matter how quiet she was someone might still hear. When two fingers slipped inside her center, pumped in and out and then hit her sensitive spot, she bit down on her hand and let the waves from her climax wash over her. After a few minutes went by and she was able to catch her breath, she looked down into twinkling dark eyes and grinned.
"You know we're getting good at the risky stuff, wanna try my desk tomorrow?" Olivia asked and wiggled a brow when Alex shook her head. "You're no fun," she wiped her chin and stood up to pull her lover in for a deep consuming kiss that had them both moaning and falling into the desk chair. When they parted Olivia rested her forehead against her lovers and mumbled. "Now for the agonizing hours before we get home," she was about to pull away when she felt Alex tug at her belt and then lower the zipper on her pants. "Whatcha doin counselor?"
"Living out a day dream, can't let you be the only one." She pushed Olivia back until she was sitting on the edge of her desk with her pant's hanging off one foot.
*************
Cragen came from his office and looked around the bull pen for his detectives, when he saw that Olivia was missing still, he knew damn well Elliot had to know where his partner was. Where's Liv, we've got what the Bronx cops think is Jeremy Perkins. They found his abandoned car at some warehouse over there and found him in the trunk…in pieces."
"She's still with Alex I guess, how come Bronx homicide isn't looking into this one?"
"Because it fits in with what Perkin's told Alex and he's missing his family jewels, we just need their reports and then we can close out everything on this end. So go grab your partner and when you're done, call it a day." He waved to the other detectives and then dropped a file on Monique's desk; he was keeping her in the SVU department to help with all the paperwork generated by the numerous cases. Pointing to Fin and John, he held out a small piece of paper. "We got a rape of an elderly man at the old age home near the hospital, check it out and let me know what ya got." He watched as the place cleared out and headed to the coffee machine for 10w1000 sludge. Some of the cases they worked he found it hard to believe, this rape of an old man was one of them.
*****************
Alex looked at her lover from over the tops of her glasses when she came into the living room, a wide grin came to her when she noticed how tired she was. She moved the files from the spot next to her and then patted the couch. "I see you got my message, I didn't want you going to my place and then panicking when you saw I wasn't there."
"I got it right before we left the scene in the Bronx, which was a fucking mess. The Perkins girls hacked and slashed dear old dad beyond repair." She shook her head and then laid it on Alex's shoulder. "No shop talk, what's for supper or are we ordering in?"
"I thought we'd order pizza and then turn in early," she wrapped her arms around Olivia and pulled her into her body. "Are we at the part in a relationship where we can have just one residence?"
"I think we are, it would be easier than running back and forth, the question is which place do we keep?"
"I own my place but I could sell easily if you wanna keep this place or maybe find something else."
Olivia pulled back just enough to look into dark blue eyes; she shook her head and leaned back into Alex. "Nope, this place sucks; we'll keep your place."
"And maybe later on look for a bigger place where I can actually have a real BBQ and lawn chairs?"
"Anything you want baby, I'll go where ever you go no questions asked."
"OK then we're going to the bathroom, I wanna soak in a hot tub and forget that my ass hurts and that Elliot knows we had sex in my office." She laughed when Olivia groaned.
"Another thing I'll never live down, my luck to get the tail of my shirt zipped in my fly."
"We got it undone, I'm just glad Elliot noticed before you went running around on the streets. You have to admit it was pretty funny and then Elliot trying not to laugh at us." She got up from the couch, pulled Olivia up with her and then pulled her all the way to the bathroom. She pushed open the door and breathed deeply of the scents that escaped with the hot air. "I was hoping you got home before the water got warm and the candles burned out, I called Elliot as my back-up plan and had him promise to get you home early." She turned Olivia around and started to undress her. "That's why he dropped you off before going back to the precinct." With her lover's clothes in a pile, she pulled her sweatshirt and shorts off and stepped into the tub. She sat down and sighed when the hot water started to relax her tired muscles, she held out a hand to Olivia and waited for her to sit down and lean back against her. Using the thick bath sponge, she squeezed water out across Olivia's breasts and watched her skin turn pink. "Would I be pushing it if I asked you to wear this?" She dropped the sponge, slipped her silver ring from her finger, untwisted it into two rings and held half out in front of Olivia. "I know it's kinda soon and everything but I…need this…mentally if that makes sense."
Olivia turned her head and looked into terrified blue eyes; she held out her left hand and watched tears flow down her lover's cheeks as the ring slipped down her finger. "You were really afraid that I would say no weren't you?"
"Why wouldn't I be, I'm not the easiest person to live with, I get stalkers and I'm an uppity bitch, etc..."
"I'll take everything you throw at me," she leaned forward, kissed her and tried to put all of her feelings into that one action. "I love you Alex and that includes the ADA Cabot persona as well, you just beat me to the asking part is all." She reached out for her Levis and dragged them over by one pant leg. She searched through the pockets and came across a small blue velvet bag, once she was cleared by IAD; she had run across the street and down a few blocks to a jeweler. It took her a whole five minutes to find what she wanted and then less time to take a serious chunk from her checking account. But after looking at the rings a couple times since she got them, she knew it was worth it. Even more so now since she now knew how much it meant to both of them. "I got these today and I was gonna wait and do a romantic thing," she turned so that she was looking at her lover, pulled her forward and then wrapped her legs around her waist. "I can't think of anything more romantic than sitting in the tub with you and with candles lit all over the room." She dumped the rings out in her hand and then lifted one up to blue eyes, a small smile came across her face when Alex looked to her with tear filled eyes. "It's not the rock of Gibraltar or anything but sometimes big is just plain gaudy." She slipped the diamond ring onto Alex's finger and then kissed her palm. "I love you Alexandra Cabot."
Alex took the other ring from Olivia's hand, slipped it on her finger and noticed how the rings matched. She pulled her lover to her, pressed their foreheads together and whispered in a soft voice. "Liv, you could have given me a paper clip twisted in a circle and it would have meant the world to me. I love you and I plan on making your life a living Hell to the very end."
Olivia laughed and gave her a tight hug. "What are ya gonna do to me that can last for years on end?"
"Something that could drown one of us if we stay in the tub," she tilted her head and brushed her lips across Olivia's and whispered. "We're gonna eat before we play because you're gonna need the energy."
*****************
Elliot and Olivia sat a few rows back in the court room watching Alex walk back and forth before the jury; she was second chair to Liz but was giving the closing remarks on the child molestation case. "Tell me something, does she like practice this stuff before she comes in here?" Elliot asked in a hushed tone.
"Nope, she reads the case file the night before and then comes in here and scares the Hell outta everyone." She tilted her head to the side and looked from her wife's calves all the way to her hips. "I'm the luckiest damn woman in the world." She mumbled and jumped when Elliot grabbed her hand. "What are you doing?"
"I'm not blind Liv and did you really think that you could hide a diamond ring and wedding band on your finger?"
"I wasn't hiding anything; if I wanted to I could have kept my hand in my pocket." She sighed and rolled her eyes when he whistled low and rolled her hand back and forth.
"She put out a chunk of money for this didn't she?"
"Yes I did and it's something I wasn't to sure about but I'm glad I did it, ya know I never thought I'd be with anyone let alone Alex."
"I think of that every time I look at Kathy and our kids, life is precious Liv and I'm glad you two have each other." He looked up to the judge when the gavel pounded and then saw Alex come there way. "You're in deep shit, you missed her closing comments and I'm gonna narc on ya."
"Gee thanks Ell, I'll remember that next time you want me to shop for Kathy's birthday present."
He grinned and looked up as Alex stopped beside them. "Congratulations Alex, it's about time someone tied her up."
"It's the other way around Elliot," Alex winked at him. "She's trying to make an honest lawyer of me by handcuffing me to the head board every night." She looked around them and saw the jury coming back in. "They can't be done already," she looked to Liz who was standing in the door and arched a brow. "She won't be fitting through the door if we get a guilty on this."
"You know that's what's gonna happen and I'd say it was your closing argument that won it."
Alex gave her a smirk. "You mean the one that you two whispered through?" She turned back to her table and waited for the judge to take his seat again.
************
"I can't believe you missed my closing statements," Alex said and took the spoon from Olivia's hand and dug into the container of ice cream.
"I'm sure it was brilliant as always," Olivia mumbled around a mouthful of ice cream and then swallowed. "Liz is scary, not only does she make kids cry on the stand, she makes men cry like big babies," she pulled Alex back against her chest and buried her face against her neck. "One more skeil of the street, so many more to go before we're all safe."
"Enough shop talk Liv, it's depressing as Hell," she waved the spoon in the air and then stuck it into the container. "Now about all the furniture we're gonna have in here once we move your stuff outta your apartment."
"I'm thinking I'll let you pick what you wanna keep from there and the rest can stay, it's not like I have anything that has sentimental value or what not."
"Oohh nooo, you're helping me with this, I'm not gonna toss away your favorite coffee cup or anything. We'll bring everything here and then go from there, it'll be like that show they have on TV but not as drastic. I Know I have stuff around here that should have been in a dumpster years ago."
"For starters I'm getting rid of something that's been bothering me for a long time," she grabbed the bottom of the old ratty sweat shirt Alex wore, pulled it over her head and tossed it to the floor. "How's that for starters?"
"I think we're headed in the right direction," she got up from the couch, held her hand out and then pulled Olivia to her feet. "And it's a good thing neither one of us is on call tonight because when I'm done you won't be able to lift a finger, the world will have to survive without Detective Benson for one night."
Olivia followed behind and laughed all the way to the bedroom. "Funny, I was thinking the same about your future condition." She closed the bedroom door knowing that if either one of their cell phones rang that they wouldn't hear them, she had already taken care of the ringer on the bedroom phone earlier that night. She would try her hardest to keep the world out for just one night, after what they had been through in the past weeks; she would gladly suffer at Cragen's hands if an emergency call went unanswered.
The End.
Turning Point
By Larisa
Hecate3366@frontiernet.net
The Athenaeum's Scroll Archive