~ Professions ~
by Panther
Disclaimers: The characters in this story belong to me. If by some amazing power of coinkydink they resemble anyone, than oh well, 'cause they aren't. The places in the story really do exist though and if you happen to live in the Bay Area of sunny California, you just might recognize then. If anyone out there actually wants to play with my peoples, please ask me first. I don't want to get into trouble.
I did use the lyrics by Tim McGraw's I Like It, I Love It and Deanna Carter's That's How You Know It's Love. I also took the liberty of using O Fortuna from Carmina Burana as a ring tone. Sorry, no infringement meant on my part. Besides, it's not like I'm making money off of this.
Sex Disclaimers: Yes, I've done it again (and my ears are still red). The details are 99% there (I think?).
Sex Sex Disclaimers: The people in this story just happen to be women who love each other very much. If this idea of love is not your café con leche, than please click on the little X on the top corner of your screen. The same applies to those who are under-aged and those who are reading this illicitly. As much as I would like to be your partner in crime, my wallet can't take the strain. Sorry.
Language Disclaimers: There might be a smattering of foreign languages. I think I got the Spanish right... <nudge> Huh? <whisper> What? <whisper whisper> Oh! There's a bit of swearing ahead, just a heads up. One of the character's has a dirty sailor mouth. And there's another one who has a slight potty mouth when she's stressed.
HINT: This story is set after Work Days and Christmas Shoes.
Please feed the muse. She gets cranky when she gets hungry. If you send any comments, complaints, compliments and anything else in between to pantherofartemis@yahoo.com she will respond as quick as she can.
A great big thank you to those that have responded to my plea of feedback with my other stories! I would also like to thank my beta reader. Yes, I mean you Krisypoo. Love you!
Hope you enjoy!
Monday morning. A quiet morning with absolute silence in the Petronski household. The cars were still in the garage, quiet, their hoods cool in the chilly air. The dog was snuffling in her little bed, chasing after dust bunnies in her dreams. The grandfather clock was mutedly ticking away the seconds.
Two forms were wrapped around each other, the smaller one almost completely on top of the larger one. Golden blonde hair spilled across a broad chest. Long, strong arms were wrapped protectively around the one on top.
Warm sunlight spilled in from an unshaded window, letting in the unwelcome morning light. A stray beam trickled over from it's place in the down comforter to shimmer on a pair of shut eyes.
Taylor groaned, warily opening her eyes slowly by degrees. Experience had taught her long ago to never open her eyes all the way all at once. One tended to see white spots for several moments afterwards and staggering around half blind wasn't all that it was made out to be.
The smaller one, Rachelle, growled and impudently turned her head in the other direction, further rousing her companion.
Taylor silently yawned, enjoying the warmth of the covers and her lover before cautiously untangling herself from the blonde land bound octopus and heading into the bathroom. She quietly washed up for the morning, careful not to get water on the mirror. A flick of her wrist and her damp towel was back on it's rack without a single wrinkle or crease.
The German Shepard mix gruffed as her taller mommy woke her from her dreamland. Taylor paused to scratch behind a furry ear before heading into the kitchen with Coco in tow. She flicked on the carafe button and fed the dog before she headed to the fridge.
"Need to go grocery shopping again Coco buddy." her murmur was hushed by a blast of cold air as she checked the freezer.
After pondering her choices for several long moments, Taylor pulled various items out, setting them on the counter. Coco gave her mommy an inquisitive look, complete with a head tilt before deciding that she needed to use the bushes, leaving her human to mutter to herself in the kitchen.
"I can't screw up too bad, right?"
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A petite form stretched languidly, a smile curling the corner of her lips. Although she was rather put out that she had awoken alone, the smell of coffee curbed her pout. The blonde hurriedly washed up and silently crept down the stairs, heading for the kitchen.
The small radio was on, the clear bass rumblings of Tim McGraw coupling with a rather sexy contralto.
"But I like it, I love it, I want some more of it, I try so hard, I can't rise above it, don't know what it is 'bout that little gal's loving, but I like it, I love it, I want some more of it?"
The sable haired woman was stirring something, clad in the cutest pair of plaid boxers and a sports bra.
"My momma and daddy tried ta teach me courtesy, but it never sank in 'til that girl got a holda me, now I'm holdin' umbrellas and openin' up doors, I'm takin' out the trash and I'm sweepin' my floor, I'm crossin' my fingers and countin' every kiss, prayin' that it keeps going on like this?"
Rachelle Petronski snuck up behind the broad back, intent on jumping upon her unsuspecting victim.
Only to have Taylor whirl around at the last possible moment, turning the huntress into the captive. The bowl of something or other was left for later as they leaned into each other.
"Gotta wash my truck, and dress up, pick her up to watch TV, and she sits down on the sofa, she'll move a little closer, she can't get enough of me?"
Taylor winked as the blonde chuckled, both of them swaying ever so slightly to the rhythm of the song.
"That sure of yourself, aren't you?"
"Mmm?I got you, didn't I?"
Rachelle just shook her head.
The sable haired woman propped her forehead against Rachelle's, the two of them sharing the air between. The blonde blinked, trying to focus on the blurry face before her. She ended up cross-eyed as her lover chuckled under her breath.
A new song came over the radio, a woman's voice this time. The beat and the rhythm was slow, more intimate. Rachelle tucked her head under Taylor's chin, feeling the executive's cheek on hers as they danced together in the kitchen. She felt, rather than heard the resonant voice in her ear, singing to its audience of one.
"If you get out in the driving rain, stand in the eye of a hurricane and never think twice, if you turn your back on selfishness, and your thoughts are for someone else, 'cause they changed your life?"
Taylor twirled her before tucking her back under her chin.
"That's how you know it's love, that's how you know it's meant to be, when the span of forever just never seems long enough, that's how you know it's love?"
They slowly slid past the cooling plates of bacon and banana blueberry pancakes.
"When you're heart insists you give it all, when you no longer fear the fall, and you just let go, when the past is finally dead and gone, fate leads you to the one, that holds your soul?"
Past the cooling stove and the stainless steel sink.
"That's how you know it's love, that's how you know it's meant to be, when the span of forever just never seems love enough, that's how you know it's love?"
Rachelle let her eyes flutter shut, simply following and trusting her other half to lead.
"That's how you know it's love?"
They stilled as the song neared it's end, the radio turning into background noise as the two women held each other tight. Rachelle was more than happy to remain where she was and let time pass them by.
She shrieked as her world blurred and found herself trusting all of her weight and the unrelenting forces of gravity to her partner's strong arms as Taylor dipped her.
The executive closed the distance between them, bending until her lips just brushed Rachelle's.
An enthusiastic clapping momentarily distracted to two lovers.
Taylor barely had time to straighten and upright the blonde before her arms were full of a freshly awoken, energetic Erica.
"Dance me too Tay!" the adorable four year old bounced, knowing that her other mommy wouldn't let her fall.
Rachelle shook her head as she leaned against the counter. "What do you say Erica?"
"Pwease?"
Taylor chuckled before twirling around and round, much to the little tow headed girl's delight. They moved with complete disregard to the rhythm and tempo of the music, letting the melody in their heads guide their energetic steps.
Rachelle snuck off the grab her digital camera, taking more than a handful of images of her two most favorite people.
Taylor, who never did not like having her picture taken, leaned and whispered something in Erica's ear before setting her down. The two lunged at the blonde, chasing her out of the kitchen and into the den. They ran rampant throughout the house before ending back in the den.
Taylor and Erica had managed to trap Rachelle between them and the coffee table and leather couch. They stood sentry, snickering as they followed the blonde's feints in her attempt to lose her pursuers.
Taylor scooped Erica up before tossing the giggling mass at her lover. Rachelle shrieked as she was caught her daughter, the girl's momentum being enough to trip her onto the couch, making them both flop and sink into the overstuffed leather.
Erica tickled her mother from her perch astride the blonde's stomach, digging her little fingers into Rachelle's side.
"Ack?help?Taylor!" the blonde squealed as she struggled ineffectively from her daughter's grip.
"Heh?" Taylor stuck out her tongue. "Sucks for you, being ticklish and all."
Rachelle's growl was choked off as her lover joined in the attack.
Erica squealed with laughter, delighted with having her other mommy join in the game of tickle bug. It was only on the weekends that she could play with both her parents like this. If Mommy wasn't at work, then Tay had gone to work, or she was at school.
But she didn't mind.
Mommy always came to pick her up from school and they would go home. Then Tay would show up a while later and they would have fun.
Tay was fun. Sometimes, Tay would let her ride on her shoulders and they would go galloping around the house, much to Mommy's displeasure. Then they would go outside and catch light bugs. Tay would reach out and pick one, putting it in her hand and it would flash a few times before buzzing away.
And sometimes, when Mommy wasn't looking, Tay would motion her to be quiet as she crept up behind her. Sometimes Tay would have a feather or a piece of grass or nothing at all, and she would tickle bug Mommy. Mommy would shriek and try to run away.
Other times, Mommy would try to tickle bug Tay, but Tay would only get mad.
But Tay wasn't really mad. Erica would know when was really mad when there wasn't a laughing in her eyes. Then, she knew that Tay was being real mad.
But Tay almost never got mad.
Mommy though, Mommy was something else.
Mommy would get mad lotsa times, but then she would be smiling later on. Mommy never stayed mad.
Erica giggled.
She was glad that Mommy never stayed mad because sometimes peoples that Mommy knew with would get her mad. And Erica wasn't happy when Mommy was mad.
"Come on. All my hard work is getting cold." Taylor scooped her little tow head up and headed for the kitchen, herding her bigger tow head ahead of her.
"You cooked?" Rachelle blinked as she noticed for the first time, the breakfast that had been set out for them. Pancakes and eggs with bacon and sausages weren't really extravagant, but with Taylor's level of skills when it came to the kitchen, it was somewhat hard to not think if the fire extinguisher had been used more than once.
"Yeah. It wasn't actually that hard."
"Should we be worried?" the professor trapped her daughter between the armrests and the table. "Does it move?"
"Oh hardy har. You're soo funny." Taylor set the plates on the table, handing Erica her special fork and spoon. "Martha Stewart was good for something for once."
"Eww?" Rachelle wrinkled her nose. "And I thought you had good taste."
She blinked as her partner flicked salt at her.
"What is this, 'beat up on Taylor' day?"
"You're just too easy."
"Calm is the word that I believe you're looking for."
"Yummy Tay."
The executive kissed her daughter's forehead. "Thank you sweetie. At least someone appreciates me."
Rachelle grinned as she headed for the fridge for some OJ. "Yummy Tay."
A shiver ran down her spine as she watched her lover head to the fridge, her hand reaching up to rub the ear that the blonde had nibbled in passing.
"I was referring to the food."
"Well?" Rachelle slid two glasses of chocolate milk to the two other females. "There's that too."
"And to think you were shy once."
"You corrupted me."
Taylor almost choked on a mouthful of scrambled eggs. "ME???"
"Mmmhmm. After that first night, I was ruined for life." Rachelle grinned toothily. "The full moon, you, me, your hand in you know where."
Blue eyes rolled. "That was our first date. The only thing I remotely did to you was stick my hand your pocket. And that was in your jacket, and only because my hand was in yours when you decided you were cold and stuck both our hands in your pocket."
"I had the little baggies under the eyes the next day. I looked horrid, but I was happy."
"Remind me to buy you hemorrhoid crème."
"There isn't anything wrong with my butt."
"For the little baggies under the eyes. It worked in Miss Congeniality."
"The guy didn't put any on her."
"So? He's a beauty pageant makeup person thingie, he's a queen, and he's gay."
"Good point." Rachelle chortled. "I got a lot of flak that day. Everyone thought that I had gotten lucky."
"Oh great, now I have 'easy' stamped on my forehead?"
"Nah, I told them the truth."
"Like they believed you."
The blonde looked over. "They didn't say anything."
"Right."
"I told them I was in love."
Taylor blinked, her fork poised half to her mouth. Her breathing hitched twice before smoothing out, a slow blush rising on her high cheekbones.
"I did." Rachelle smiled quietly to herself as she was gifted that incredulous, breathless, speechless look in those favorite cerulean eyes of Taylor's.
"Love you too."
Collectively, they managed to get their daughter fed and clothed, ready for her half day at school before the bus came to pick her up. They waved goodbye to Erica as the old yellow transport choked and coughed its way down the street.
"What time did we say we would meet our mothers?' Taylor shut and locked the door behind her.
"About one. Why?"
"Mmm?I was thinking?"
Rachelle and Taylor headed to the kitchen.
"Yesss?" the blonde inquired when nothing more was forthcoming from her lover.
"The house is clean and our little munchkin is off to school?" Taylor filched the dishes from the blonde's hands. "It's our day off, together?"
"Mmmhmm?" a shiver ran through Rachelle as she watched Taylor's eyes turn almost violet. It was a nice shiver. Shivers were nice. Nice shivers were good.
"We aren't going to lunch with our respective maternal figures for a few hours?"
A kiss behind a pinking ear as a pair of warm hands slid under Rachelle's sleeping shirt.
"With no pressing engagements whatsoever?"
Blonde hair cascaded back as black curtained forward, brushing the tilted neck.
"What on earth are we going to do with all this spare time, hmmm??"
"I'm sure?you'll?" Rachelle was rapidly losing her ability to form coherent sentences. "Think of?some?thing?"
A hand laced through her hair, tugging her up gently to meet Rachelle's lips, capturing hers. Taylor relented, breaking away only long enough for a breath before she moved on, exploring the blonde's jaw, the ever sensitive point right under her ear before moving right back to her slightly parted lips.
Rachelle literally purred as she slid her own hands up the arms pinning her in place, stroking the flexed biceps before trailing up taut shoulders and back down to cover the scant black sports bra.
Taylor growled as she sensed, rather than heard her lover's feline exclamation of contentment. A flick of her wrists, combined with a firm grip, accompanied by a loud tearing sound quickly and efficiently divested her lover of her shirt.
Yet another reason why she loved to sleep in the nude. Torn clothing aside, Rachelle really didn't see the point in wearing something that was going to land on the floor or the TV or the lamp twenty minutes later.
Her train of thought completely derailed as she felt the molten heat from a pair of hands as they skimmed over her skin. Goosepimples rose as Taylor didn't touch her, keeping just millimeters away.
Somehow, they managed a few steps towards something solid, though neither really cared to see where they were actually heading.
Emerald deep eyes flew open as Rachelle gasped from the icy blanket that was now freezing her back. The refrigerator evidently took offense and choose them to kick in and start humming.
"Bed?couch?something?now?"
Taylor nipped her shoulder, just hard enough to show her irritation. Rachelle tugged her along behind her by way of their now linked hands. They stumbled into the master bedroom, Tay kicking the door shut behind her out of habit. She turned, only to let her eyes flicker shut.
Rachelle had closed to distance between, so close that her lips barely brushed Taylor's. She was faintly aware of the trembling tension in her lover's body, knowing full well that if either of them didn't move soon, they would end up on the floor.
The executive evidently thought likewise as she gently guided the both of them to the king sized bed that dominated one wall. She never increased or decreased the distance between her and her lover.
The backs of her knees hit the edge of the mattress, lending a little nudge that eased the blonde onto it. Taylor ran her hand up a tensed forearm, her other hand released from its tender confinement.
It was funny really, how turned on she was. Rachelle sighed. Taylor was barely touching her, just grazing her all too warm skin with her fingertips, her blunt, short nails just brushing her.
Everything was too much and entirely not enough.
Taylor let an irrepressible smile grace her face as she watched her lover's hands clench and unclench, twisting the bedspread and comforter between her fingers. Rachelle's skin was so soft under her fingertips, like chamois skin or a newborn puppy.
Her hand ran up her lover's side, going over each bump of her ribs with maddening slowness, going up to trace across the smooth line of Rachelle's collarbone. She trickled down an arched neck, scratching down her lover's breast, letting the nerves in her fingertips feel the trembling in Rachelle's stomach increase.
It was driving her insane. No matter what she did or how hard she tried to proliferate the contact between them, Taylor would draw back, leaving only her long fingers to linger on Rachelle's heated, sensitive skin. It was driving her crazy.
And she was loving every maddening nanosecond of it.
Rachelle willed herself to stay still, struggling with her body as her lover's fingertips traced the outside of her hip, feathering over the tops of her thighs, caressing the inside of her thighs. A whimper managed to escape her as Taylor's touch skimmed back up to rest right underneath her breasts.
She shuddered as the soft, warm puff of Taylor's breath came intoxicatingly close to her breast. Anticipation made her shiver, every part of her being already on fire, Taylor's light contact and vaporous touches setting off a wildfire that raged white hot under her skin.
A breath was inhaled sharply through her teeth as she felt an indescribable warmth wrap around her nipple, only to be replaced with an incredible coldness as instant later.
It was almost painful as the iciness spread, running a blunt edge down one side, up another to encircle her other nipple. A large hand cupped her other, slightly neglected breasts, warming the chilled flesh.
A touch to Taylor's cheek brought her back up, urging her away and upwards to meet Rachelle's lips. She melted into the kiss, more than willing to let her blonde lover take the prerogative. Rachelle covered her mouth possessively, kissing her lover with enough hunger and force to bruise. Taylor let her lips part slightly in the wake of the onslaught, feeling the professor slip her tongue against hers.
And, as rough and physical Rachelle had been a moment ago, she was soft and gentle, almost as if she was afraid that her sable haired lover was about to break. They explored each other's mouths with delicate luxury and in exquisite detail.
Rachelle shuddered as she and Taylor broke for air, twining her hands in strands of raven as the dark haired woman trailed down once more. She gasped as Taylor's lips covered a nipple in encompassing heat, her tongue warm velvet against her sensitized skin, her teeth rasping a sharp counterpoint.
Taylor nibbled a burning trail down her lover's trembling stomach, delving into Rachelle's belly button, inhaling the scent of jasmine and only Rachelle.
She took her time, soothing the irritated skin with tender licks, trailing silken midnight like a balm.
Rachelle whimpered at the feel of Taylor's lips and tongue, of midnight hair trickling down her belly, all coming to nestle between her thighs. A muted hiss escaped her lips as a searing breath proceeded a bolt of sensations.
Taylor groaned as the heady tang of ambrosia and her lover hit her senses as she tasted her lover's becoming softness. She took her time, fluttering light touches with flat, drawn out stokes, carefully nipping her way around the blonde's clit.
"Gods? please?Taylor?"
A hand tangled in her hair, pulling almost painfully. She slipped one arm under her lover, giving her just enough leverage to slide the other hand up.
Rachelle gasped at the welcome intrusion, pressing into the large hand, trying to increase the contact. It was entirely too much, Taylor's fingers moving just right in her, the hot mouth on her clit, the silken tongue playing her just right.
And it was utterly not enough.
Incoherent and inadequate words poured from Rachelle's lips as liquid fire coursed through her veins, filling her entire being with a throbbing sense of lightness.
Taylor felt the surge that washed over her lover, slowing her movements to draw out Rachelle's pleasure, ignoring the ache that was growing between her own thighs. The only thing that mattered now was her Rachelle, her blonde's gratification.
She lost track of place, time, everything. Only the touches that came from Taylor, her lover in every sense. Explosion after explosion ripped through her making her shudder and shiver. Wave after wave of pleasure washed over her, releasing the pressure that had built up inside her. The inconceivable, proverbial fireworks exploded in her soul as she rode out her orgasm on the wings of love.
When the pulsing aftershocks faded, Taylor placed one last kiss on the apex of her lover's strong legs before moving up just slightly to rest her head on a still trembling stomach. A smile grew on her face as her lover's ragged breathing and gurgling stomach echoed in her ear.
A touch to her chin, a light tug at her hair caught her attention, bringing herself back up. Arms slid around her shoulders, pressing down the back of her neck. She complied willingly, rewarded with a kiss for her efforts.
A thigh made itself known, taking advantage of her distraction and slipping surreptitiously in between hers. Rachelle chuckled huskily, hearing the hiss of her Taylor's startlement.
"Ohmygods?"
Every single muscle and tendon in Taylor's arms was flexed, straining with her body weight and the psychosis of what her lover was knowingly doing to her. Her hands were clawing, burying in the pillows as she groaned through clenched teeth.
Rachelle slipped her hands down Taylor's tense, broad shoulders, along her smooth sides, to settle on her narrow hips. She felt her lover's labored breathing stir through her hair as the coolness of the room battled with the liquid desire being painted along the length of her thigh.
She felt nails digging into her backside, trailing up to scratch along her spine, diffusing along her ribs, feathering across her stomach, coming to rest just underneath her breasts.
Rachelle glanced up into violet hued eyes, holding the gaze as she leisurely turned her head, delicately biting the inside of Taylor's wrist.
And that was all that it took to send her over the edge.
She growled and leaned down, burying her face in Rachelle's neck as her orgasm ripped through her.
Rachelle held her lover close, whispering loving nonsense into Taylor's ear as the woman trembled in the safety of her arms. Her lover was mumbling something into her neck, indiscernible to even her nearby ears. Her hands roamed the smooth back, trying to sooth the angry pink lines that were impressed into tan skin.
Taylor shifted so that she was laying on her side, not wanting to smoosh Rachelle under her heavier weight. The blonde readily moved with her, turning so that she was spooned against her lover's chest. Taylor fished around for the covers, drawing them up to cocoon the both of them against the imposing chilly air.
They stayed that way as they drifted off the sleep, their legs and hands entwined until it seemed like an impossibility to separate them.
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"What's taking them so long?" Katarine Petronski glanced at her watch for the third time. "They're always on time."
Her table companion, Karen Jameson, said nothing, apparently content to stare at the menu for the umpteenth time.
Just as Katarine was about to get up and call to her daughter's house, a familiar car pulled up.
"Hi Mom!" Rachelle smiled as Taylor pulled her chair out for her. "Sorry we're late."
The older Petronski took one look at her daughter and smiled. "Guess we don't have to worry about you and Taylor getting LBD."
The two lovers glanced at each other, confused.
"LBD?" Rachelle inquired.
"You've never heard of lesbian bed death?"
For the first time in her life, Taylor spewed water at her mother through her nose.
"Are you okay honey?" Rachelle patted her lover's back after offering her mother in-law her cloth napkin.
"Fine?fine. Never been better." Taylor squeaked as she sputtered and hacked up a lung. "Never better."
"Was it something I said?" Katarine blinked.
"No! No...just went down the wrong tube...is all." Jesus Christ on a moped. First Christmas with my mother and we're onto this subject already???
"Where did you hear of this?"
Katarine glanced at her daughter. "On-line. Why?"
"ON-LINE???" the younger women seemed to have acquired a sunburn in the span of two seconds.
"Yes?"
"Find anything else interesting?" Taylor inwardly cringed. Oh dear lord. Did she actually read some of the stuff on-line????
"Yes, actually?"
"Really?" my mother?reading?stories?detailed descriptions?
Taylor thought about hiding under a rock. The sites for guys?
Rachelle was considering moving far, far away. The videos?
The lesbian Kuma Sutra?
Cunniligus?
Toys?
BDSM?
Dungeons?
Whips?
Chains?
Cutting?
Master and slave?
Daddy and boy?
Orgies?
Oh?
My?
Gods...
"Some of them were quite good actually." Katarine forged on. "I particularly like the ones by a Melissa Good and a JLNicky."
Ohmygodsohmygodsohmygodsohmygods?
Karen, who had been silent until now, coughed. "Um?where's Erica?"
"OH?" both daughters chorused. "She's at home?babysitter?."
"Is that safe?"
"Actually, the sitter is a student of mine." Rachelle smiled wanly. "I'm sure nothing's going to happen. Stacy's babysat for us several times already."
"Oh?"
Taylor glanced at her mother. Is she squirming? "Are we ready to order?"
Lunch was going to be interesting?
Erica was probably having a better time?
Ugh?.
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"You lost my kid???" Taylor exploded, a vein throbbing visibly on her forehead. She took a step forward, sending the babysitter back three. The teenager swallowed hard as she watched the cords in her employer's neck grew taut as a pair of glacial eyes bore into hers.
"I?I?she?"
Rachelle swiftly stepped in front of her enraged lover, hoping to keep their babysitter intact long enough to question her. "Honey?"
"Erica isn't a pet or a glove or a book, Stacy!!! How in the world can you lose an four year old kid??? MY four year old kid???"
"I?but?the?"
"Sweetie?"
And in the midst of all this, all of them missed the doorbell chiming. Three times.
It was only a cry of 'Mommy' that silenced all present. Erica dashed in through the opened door, heading straight for both her parents.
She was immediately swept up in both her parent's arms, squiggling in their ever tightening embrace.
Two fretfully exultant parents checked over their daughter for damages, overwhelmingly glad that Erica was back with them safe and sound.
An Asian police officer had entered the living room, supporting a quickly wilting babysitter, easing her onto the nearby couch. Stacy was wet with sweat and shivering furiously as her jaw was kept clenched tight to keep from chattering.
Taylor swept upstairs with Erica in her arms, much to the urging of her partner, leaving Rachelle to deal with Stacy and their new unidentified guest.
"My apologies ma'am, for coming in without your permission."
"That's quite alright. Thank you so much for bringing Erica back to us." the blonde hugged the officer tight, beyond appreciative. "Thank you so much?I don't know what to say."
She released her uneasy victim after receiving a hesitant pat on the back. Rachelle turned to Stacy, immediately crouching at her feet.
"Oh you poor dear. If you had told us that you were sick, we could have gotten someone else to babysit for us. There wasn't any need to overtax yourself like that."
Stacy smiled unhappily at her employer. "I didn't think that it would be that bad, honest. Besides, I need the money?"
Rachelle unzipped her purse, extracting half a dozen twenty dollar bills and tucking it in the teenager's hand. "Here, take this and get on home. It's not worth passing out, whatever you need to money for. Go on home and get something to eat and go to bed."
"But, what about Taylor?"
"I'll take care of Taylor. You just get better, you hear me?"
Stacy peered sadly at the upstairs hallway. "She's pretty mad at me, isn't she."
"Oh don't worry about her." Rachelle leaned forward and hugged the sick woman, whispering conspiringly into her ear. "Just between you and me, under that tough, bitchy corporate face, she's just a little pussy cat."
That earned her a phlegmly chuckle, "Thank you Rachelle."
The topic of discussion floated down the stairs at that moment, heading straight for the babysitter. Taylor shook her head as she took in the bloodshot eyes and shivering shoulders. "Sorry for shouting at you. I know you're not feeling too hot. Want a ride home?"
"With all due respect ma'am I'll be more than happy to take Ms Stacy home."
Taylor turned to officer to thank her.
Only to stop, blue eyes wide and shocked.
"Jessie??"
"Hey Tay." a small smile lifted a corner of a stern mouth, breaking the stoic officer's visage.
"When did?you're a?since?"
"'Bout two and a half years ago, yeah I'm a bobby, no not in a long while."
They stared at each other for a moment before Taylor walked right up to her, her expression unreadable. The officer's face was equally blank.
Both Rachelle and Stacy were taken aback when both dark women engulfed the other in a fierce bear hug.
"Been a while."
Taylor's fingers reached up to trace the white scars that peppered the tanned skin, her eyes roaming from the short shorn hair, to the painfully perfect, immaculate uniform, and back up to the unfathomable depths of old deep brown eyes. "Yeah, it's been a long while."
"Catch up with you later?"
"Here?" Taylor managed to fish out a business card and scrawl her cell phone number on the back. "Call me."
"Right." the officer helped Stacy to her feet after the tucked the thick paper away into her pants pocket. "Later Tay."
"Who was that?" Rachelle asked as she flopped down on the couch beside Taylor.
"A very old friend of mine."
They sat in the gloom and shadows of their den, shaken by their missing Erica scare. Taylor was trying her best to stop the pounding in her chest, trying hard not to let her hands shake. Rachelle was in the calm state of her panic, still trying to wrap her mind around the fact that her daughter was upstairs in the bathroom.
"Mommy?"
"Hey munchkin." Taylor let a relieved smile grow on her face as her daughter climbed up on the couch between her and her lover.
"You feeling okay sweetie?" Rachelle kissed the top of her daughter's head, more than glad that Erica was safe and sound.
"Mhmm. The nice police officer brung me back." the little blonde snuggled with her parents. "Gave me a pop."
Taylor shook her head. Jessie was always carrying something sweet and candyish with her in her endless pockets. "Did you have a good time?"
"Mhmm. I got to wear her hat."
"That must have been fun." the blonde smiled as she ran her hand through her Erica's hair. "Was it like the other police hats that you've seen?"
Erica shook her head. "No. I got to wear her cowboy hat. She gave me a horsie ride too."
"Mmm? I know it's fun, but try not to get lost again kiddo. You drove me and Mommy up the wall with worry."
"'Kay Tay."
"Promise?"
Erica nodded and yawned into Taylor's side.
"Looks like it's your bedtime sweetie." Rachelle cradled her daughter against her shoulder, heading upstairs. "Let's get ready for bed."
Erica compliantly brushed her teeth and washed her face, the excitement of her day catching up with her quickly. Her bath time wasn't quite as splashy as it usually was, her water playtime being contented to bobbing and dunking her rubber duckies and her fishes.
Taylor had set her daughter's pajamas on her bed and was waiting with a big soft Tigger towel to dry her sleepy kid with. Erica was dry, dressed, and ready for her bedtime story by the time Rachelle had the bathroom cleaned up and back in order.
Rachelle and Taylor climbed into bed with their daughter, bracketing her much like oversized bookends. Taylor laid back, content to listen with Erica as Rachelle weaved a story for her audience of two. It was a nightly ritual for all three of them. Rachelle would spin a tale from the depths of her never ending imagination, calming Erica to a half asleep state. The Erica's eyes would drift shut as Taylor's low voice lulled her to sleep.
Tonight however, both women stayed, even as their daughter slept.
"Remember when she went in to have her bath on the night of her fourth birthday?" Rachelle's voice was nothing more than a soft whisper. "When she saw the little ocean you painted in the tub?"
"Mmm?I could hear the squealing all the way downstairs."
A smile graced both parents' faces.
"It took me forever to wipe up all the water. I have no idea how your kid gets makes so big a mess with so little water."
"Oh, now she's my kid huh?"
"Oh come on Taylor. You're the one she goes to when she's scared."
"And Mommy is the one that makes everything okay."
Blue and green eyes met, seeming to glow in the low light.
Rachelle gently brushed a strand of soft blonde hair back, her head propped against her fist.
"I remember the first day after we brought her back from the hospital. You were holding her like she was some sort of biohazardous material or something."
Taylor chuckled. "I was so afraid that I was going to break her. She was so small."
"Honey, most babies start out small."
"Well, I know that?now."
With great reluctance, they cautiously rose and headed for their own bedroom. Both stopped in the doorway, simply standing there and staring at the little girl that both women had raised.
"How do you know Officer Jessie? I've never heard you mention her before." Rachelle asked as she changed for bed.
Taylor spat out her mouthful of toothpaste and wiped her face off before joining her lover.
"I met her in college. We went to UC Berkeley together." she slid in under the covers beside the professor. "We were the best of friends."
She was sitting in her biochemistry class, in the front row of the combo desks. The professor wasn't there yet and she was early for class. Her notebooks and pens were all arranged neatly in front of her, pencils settled in the little groove in the desk to keep them from moving. There were other students all around her, grouped together and chattering with each other.
Leaving her completely alone.
"Hey."
Taylor looked up to meet twinkling brown eyes staring at her from an Asiatic face.
"Hi."
"Name's Jessie."
"Taylor."
They shook hands, checking each other out.
"You new here?"
"Yeah." Taylor smiled nervously. "First time here."
"Want some coffee?" Jessie nodded to the silver thermos that she had set down on the desk that she now occupied.
"Sure."
They sat together, side by side, sharing coffee from the inverted cap of the thermos.
"You been to Avalon yet?"
Taylor shook her head. "King Arthur?"
Jessie let out a chuckle. "No, the club."
"No. I haven't really had the time to go exploring yet."
"I'll take you there sometime."
"Anything special about it?"
"Nice place, music's okay, beer's good."
"Oh."
"Nice place to pick up girls too."
Taylor blinked.
Jessie groaned. "Don't tell me I guessed wrong."
"No, you didn't." blue eyes looked over at the Asian skeptically. "Do I have it tattooed on my forehead?"
"Nah." Jessie sniffed. "I saw the black triangle on your key chain."
"Oh."
Finding out that they were dorm mates was a pleasant surprise. She and Jessie got along well, helping each other study for their courses, sharing stories about life, holding back the other's hair as they worshipped the porcelain goddess.
Jessie helped her carry around her books when she broke her ankle. Taylor put salve on Jessie's tattoo of a winged dragon on her back. Jessie was there to cheer her on and keep her sane during finals week. She was there to cheer Jessie on during the basketball and volleyball tournaments.
And it was like that throughout all four of their years together.
"Sounds like you two were like peas in a pod." Rachelle snuggled close.
"She was my best friend then."
"Then?"
"Well?" Taylor wrapped her arms around the blonde. "You're my best friend now."
"Oh?love you."
"Love you too."
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"Hey."
Taylor glanced up from her coffee. "Hey yourself."
Jessica Lin slid onto a chair across from her old friend. "You look swell."
"Thanks. You're looking?"
"Older, uglier? you can say it you know."
The executive shook her head. "Nah. I was going to say hot."
"Liar."
They sat staring at each other for a long moment, taking in the lines and colors that time had added onto each other.
"I like it." Taylor nodded.
"The dress?"
"Nah. " she gave the uniform a long look. "Doesn't do you justice. I was going to say the gray hairs and the scars. Makes you look like a modern day Casanova."
Jessie snorted. "Yeah, for people who like cutting."
The waitress came by just then to take their order, intruding upon the reconnecting friends.
"How's life?"
"Great." Taylor grinned. "You met my partner and my daughter. Rachelle and Erica. I work at Lingen Enterprises. One of the head honchos. Doctor hates my job. I think it's alright. Nothing much really."
"Biochemist?"
"Gave up on it. It got boring."
"Mmm?" Jessie took a sip of her water. "You're turning ?what?forty six this March."
"Yeah." a pause. "What about you? What've you been up to?"
"Not much." the Asian woman shifted in her chair. "Been a cop for two and a half now. Used to be in the armed forces."
"Like the army or something?"
"Or something."
The executive frowned. "What happens when they find out about you being a dyke?"
"My CO already knows. He doesn't have a problem. Haven't told anyone else. 'Sides, they need me more than I need them."
A lunch of light pasta primavera and wood fired pizza arrived along with their Millers. They dug in, eating in companionable silence, looking over the table at each other between bites.
Jessie had changed a lot since she had last seen her at their college graduation. Her hair was cut short, in a very dykey kind of style. Gray shaded her temples, giving the Asian a sort of nobly aged look. Her face was more angular, sharper than she remembered. Muscles shifted right under thin skin what was tanned from the sun. White scars marked her face, from what, Taylor had no clue.
Two in particular caught her attention.
The more subtle one cleaved one of her eyebrows in two, giving her a sort of permanently arched brow.
The other was a long wicked looking slice that ran from somewhere in the black hairline, cutting across a cheekbone before angling back towards her ear, and ending inside her shirt collar, down her neck.
Suddenly, brown eyes met hers, making her shift her gaze.
Jessie's eyes were different too. They were black, unreadable. So unlike the mischievous, lively ones that she remembered from her college days. There was a shadowed weariness, a sense of having seen too much in their time, in them.
"What about you?" her own voice seemed to surprise her.
"Me?"
"Yeah." Taylor wiped her mouth with her napkin. "Find anyone who'd be crazy enough to put up with you?"
Something flickered in Jessie's eyes before vanishing just as fast as it had emerged.
"No. No one." Jessie's jaw clenched once. "Just me and my cat."
"Oh."
Jessie paid the bill, swiping it faster than Taylor could respond.
They headed out for a walk, towards the main shopping strip. They passed an Old Navy and a party store, going by Barnes and Nobles and Any Mountain.
Taylor glanced at Jessie, who was just lighting a cigarette.
"Rachelle wanted me to ask you to dinner at our place tonight, just as a thank you."
The cop glanced at her, flicking the ash off her cigarette. "Can't."
"Tomorrow?"
A shrug. "Sure."
Taylor nodded. "At seven."
A hint of a smile graced the corner of Jessie's mouth. "I'll bring something."
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"I'm going to be late tonight honey."
A groan. "You know that Jessie's coming tonight."
"Yeah, yeah, I know. It shouldn't take me more than an hour."
"Try and hurry."
"Do my best."
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Dead tired and beyond exhausted, Taylor could think nothing more than collapsing on her couch or falling into her bed.
The house was empty, with candles lit on the dining table and dinner set out on the good china, a bottle of opened wine off to one side. All the lights were off and Taylor didn't hear a peep.
"Rachelle? Erica? Anyone?"
Something, a creak or a whisper or something, sent her upstairs. Maybe Rachelle and Jessie were playing with Erica in her playroom.
Taylor stared at Rachelle and Jessie, her eyes wide and unbelieving.
"Uh?Taylor?" the cop managed to stammer out as she neatly slid out from the blonde's rather suspicious embrace. "Rachelle?"
Blue eyes slid from one woman to the other, both in each other's arms, in the bedroom that she shared with only Rachelle for eighteen years. Jessie was not looking her in the eye, nor was Rachelle. Both looked like they trying very hard at looking guilty.
"What is going on?" Taylor never knew that her voice was capable of such harshness. "Jessie? Rachelle?"
"Taylor, I could use a little help here?" Jessie took a half a step back, trying to stay balanced with the blonde's weight leaning all against her.
The executive silently cradled her wife in her arms, her jaw clenched as a pair of wiry arms wrapped around her neck. Rachelle giggled as she was placed on the covers, murmuring something indiscernible. Jessie, sensing something was amiss, decided to retreat to the safety of the living room, leaving her friend to ready her lover for bed.
Taylor brushed the hair out of Rachelle's face as she made sure that her lover was alright and tucked safely in bed. She wasn't quite sure what she was supposed to be believing. There was something in that image of Rachelle and Jessie holding on to each other that made her heart hurt. The fact that her lover was slipping into unconsciousness at the moment wasn't all that reassuring.
She silently closed to door behind her, careful not to disturb the unconscious blonde's slumber. Not that it was likely that Rochelle would be up and about anytime soon. But just in case?
And what was she going to do about her old friend sitting in her living room?
Memories of her girlfriend from college ran through her head at a furious rate, pictures of finding Barbara and Jessie kissing in her kitchen, whispered words of how the dark-haired Asian had stolen the Canadian swimmer from right under her nose. Taylor took in a few cleansing breaths in an attempt to calm her anger that was threatening to erupt.
She took the stairs down slowly, one by one, hoping to buy some time.
Jessie was sitting on the leather couch in the den, her legs sprawled out in front of her, her head and arms almost hanging off the back. The police officer looked like she hadn't been sleeping too well. There was shadows under her eyes that hinted that not even a good week's sleep could make them disappear. A cloud of weariness seemed to have settled on her, almost like a well worn mantle. Her restlessness brought out the tension lines around her eyes and on her brow.
Yet Taylor didn't notice.
The executive fed the flames of her anger with fuel from the long past, nurturing it into a raging inferno.
So it was the conflagration that Jessie was greeted with.
"What the fuck did you think you were doing?"
The cop turned to face her old friend and blinked.
Taylor loomed over Jessie, her eyes glacial, her anger perceptible even in the shadowy depths of the comfortable den.
"The one second that I turn my back, the one second that I decide to trust you again, you make another one of your famous moves."
Jessie said nothing.
"I thought that you might have changed. I thought that I had gotten the old Jessie back. I thought that you were the same person that I told my secrets too."
Taylor was beyond livid, impossibly striking in her fury.
"I have no idea what the hell I even did to you to have you constantly sniffing around me, but I'm warning you Jessica Lin, there is no fucking way in hell that I'm just going to stand off to the side while you seduce my Rachelle like you did with Barbara. I'm not the same stupid idiotic college kid anymore. There will be no fucking way that you can pull the wool over my eyes if you even toe that line."
The officer stood slowly, unfurling to her full height. Somber, cheerless brown eyes held Taylor's blue for the longest moment before she turned and headed for the door.
Jessie paused in the open doorway, half in and half out. The broad back was slumped, like all the weight of Atlas rested on her human shoulders. She half turned, gazing at her longtime friend with eyes turned black with the night. Selene's light turned her hair silver, her black trench coat into billowing mercury.
"Erica's tucked in." an impenetrable silence. "I didn't know that she was allergic to pseudoephedrine."
Taylor blinked.
She stared at her closed front door for a speechless moment.
Pseudoephedrine.
Rachelle was going to be eternally pissed when she came to.
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Black eyes closed as a puff of smoke and frosted air was wisped away by the night wind. It took everything that Jessie had to force the memories away as Taylor's words echoed in her head. She sighed, her shoulders slumped in a sudden bout of depression.
Maybe her old friend had been right. Maybe there was something in her that just seemed to draw endings like these.
Maybe that was the reason that April had left.
Not that she blamed the woman. Fifteen months without a word would have made her a bit miffed.
But it wasn't like she had really wanted to go on that damned mission anyway. It was supposed to be the last one before her status was placed into stasis. What she got was fourteen months of pain and torture and another month of bureaucrats and inquisitions.
And a stranger in the doorway of the home that she had shared with her lover of thirteen years.
The new owner had told her that April had been planning on moving to the West coast, somewhere with an ocean and a beach.
So, with credit card in hand and a Yamaha between her still aching legs, she had scoured all the towns and cities on the Pacific side. Months of searching had yielded nothing. Jessie never gave up though. She had settled temporarily in San Francisco, hiring a private investigator when even her connections turned up nothing on her lover's whereabouts.
She had decided to stay, hoping and praying that she would receive something, anything to aid her in her search.
Yet nothing had come out of it.
The endless days had turned into endless weeks that had turned into months and months into years. With each passing day, the little candle of hope burned lower and lower in her. Jessie had finally stopped hurrying home to go through her messages. She stopped checking her mailbox and her e-mail every hour. It hurt less and less as she resigned herself to being alone once more.
It was kind of funny, if she really thought about it. Every past break up with her lovers had always ended with 'Dear Jessie' letters or a huge fisticuff that usually landed her with a bruising handprint on her cheek. April had been the first one that had left quietly, without a word.
April had been the first that had given her the feeling of forever. It had been April and only April that had given her that funny feeling in her chest every time those chocolate brown eyes looked at her.
And it had been only April who had completely shattered her, heart body, and soul.
Jessie swallowed hard, forcing back the lump in her throat. She stood, taking a long drag off her cigarette. There was a pause before another plume of blue gray smoke was exhaled into the night.
It was getting harder and harder to get up in the mornings now. It was like nothing in the day was really worth that much to have to go though the motions. Her job and her cat were losing their hold on her.
And now, Taylor was accusing her of doing something with her lover.
Shit, Rachelle was one of the most loyal people that she had ever known and she herself wasn't that big of an asshole to try anything like that. She had to be, to put up with Taylor. They even had a kid together.
And what was that college comment about?
Jessie found herself standing at the edge of the four-story apartment building, looking down at the cold concrete sidewalk. It would be so easy to just take that one extra half step. A couple inches and she wouldn't have to deal with life, or the prospect of going through life without April.
The toes of her boots protruded from the edges of the leaf-choked gutter. A few more inches and nothing in the universe would ever hurt her again. No accusations, no crap from the boys at the precinct, no having to deal with her mother and her shit. Nothing.
April would lose the resilient ethereal hold on her everything.
Just a couple more inches?
In the shadows of the roofs of the Creekside apartments, with the stars covered by a blanket of gray clouds and the moon gone from the sky, a silhouette fell from the roof. It arced in a sense of morbid grace, landing hard on the unforgiving sidewalk, before fading out of existence.
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She was sore everywhere. Her back hurt, her elbows hurt, her knees hurt, everything hurt.
And her head hurt. It was like thousands of little turtles were playing ricochet in her skull. Or a handful of muskrats fighting ferrets with miniature cannons. Either way, it hurt.
"Feeling better?"
Rachelle sighed and turned towards the voice without opening her eyes, snuggling closer to the warm body that was laying next to her. For some strange reason, all the turtles, muskrats, and ferrets quieted a bit, easing the headache down to a dull roar.
"Mmm?"
Taylor brushed her lips against the still damp forehead, wrapping her arms around her sick lover.
"Animals went away." croaked the blonde.
The executive said nothing, opting to letting her octopus cling to her. If her curiosity ever got the better of her, she could always ask later.
They stayed, unmoving, under the covers for several long moments, letting the clock tick away the time. The larger being wrapped herself around the smaller one, tracing idle patterns on the bare stomach.
"What semi hit me?"
Taylor nuzzled mussed blonde hair, sighing. "Worse than that. Jessie didn't know that you were allergic to pseudoephedrine."
"Oh?" Rachelle grumbled something indiscernible before tucking her face in her lover's neck. "I remember now."
A brief silence.
"Some are allergic to bananas. Others, peanuts. Just my luck it's nasal decongestant."
Another moment of silence.
"Something happened, right?"
"Mmm."
Rachelle groaned before whining nasally. "Why do these things always happen to me?"
"Not always."
"Running around the house in my underwear screaming, 'I've got the gumbo!' doesn't count?"
"Not your fault. Someone spiked your drink."
"Going skinny dipping in our pool on the Fourth in broad daylight."
"Umm?"
"Trying to feed my toddler the dog's food for lunch and giving Coco mushed carrots instead."
"Errr?"
"Tripping over my own two feet, spilling my apple juice all over you and trying to wipe it off with a handful of ice cubes."
Taylor chuckled. "I'm glad Eugene managed to convince you to take those cold pills. Otherwise I would have never gotten to courage to ask you to dinner."
"Bck? don't remind me. I think I turned a million shades of red that night." Rachelle coughed. "Not to mention I was a nervous wreak that first dinner together."
"We could write a movie." a dramatic pause. "Two women, one city. They meet one night at a party thrown by a mutual friend and one spills their drink on the other. A dinner is offered as an apology and romance ensues. Rated R due to lesbian willies. Parental discretion is advised. No one under the age of seventeen admitted."
"Agh? that's worse than your 'writer from Nantucket' joke." Rachelle stuck out her tongue, inadvertently tasting the sweat on Taylor's skin. "Where do you get these things anyway?"
"The internet is really, really great?" warbled Taylor in a high falsetto before continuing in a rumbly bass. "For porn."
Rachelle shook her head. "I don't know why I wanted us to go see Avenue Q."
"I don't use the internet for porn?" a long finger poked the blonde in the side. "Just to e-mail my girlfriend named Alberta who lives in Vancouver. Did I mention that she sucks like a Hoover?"
Taylor's head was bounced on the mattress as her pillow was swiped out from under her. Rachelle managed to bean her lover in the head with the feather filled sack a couple times before being flipped onto her back, the pillow squashed between her and a mock enraged executive.
Rachelle growled as her lover shook her hair out of her blue eyes, muttering something about sticking her report papers together with rubber cement.
"You can get high on that stuff you know."
"It would make the people that you work with more interesting. Not to mention all the stories that I could weasel out of Sandy and Tessra."
Taylor stuck out her tongue.
"You feeling better?"
"Some. Not as stuffy."
"Good?what was that about animals?"
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Taylor reluctantly untangled herself from a still sleeping Rachelle.
It was six in the morning and Erica needed to be fed and dressed. Breakfast was going to have to be made.
Maybe she could pull it off again.
Hmm?
She washed up and headed downstairs.
Coco followed behind her into the kitchen, heading straight for her food dish. The Shepard mix picked up the bowl in her mouth and dropped it at her tall mommy's feet, nudging it towards the human with her nose, her brown eyes shamelessly begging.
Taylor ruffled the fur behind her ears and picked up the bowl. She laughed as she watched Coco suck up the kibble like a vacuum.
"Do you even chew?" the executive shook her head and rummaged through the fridge to see what she could throw together.
Taylor sucked on her lower lip as she shut the fridge and riffled through the cabinets. Erica like milk and Fruit Loops?maybe that would work. There was no way that she could mess that up.
She glanced at the clock.
Maybe she could call Jessie to apologize. Her friend had always been up before her in the past. Maybe she was up?
Nah?what if she didn't want to be disturbed?
Then again?was there any harm in trying?
Taylor shook her head and began pulling out bowls from the dishwasher. She'd call later?maybe at night?
Yeah.
She poured the milk before heading up to wake Erica up. Rachelle could sleep in a little. Knowing her lover, she'd still want to teach today.
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All the lights in the apartment were out. The window blinds were drawn and the doors locked. The hallways empty.
But someone was home.
Up the short flight of stairs, in one of the vacated bedrooms, a cat laid on a satin pillow, its white paws curled around and under it.
A weight bag, scaled at a hundred pounds, swayed like an oversized pendulum, aided in its momentum by Newton's law. For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction.
And so this law of physics was obeyed. For every skin on leather contact, the bag swung out before drifting back.
Jessie was in a state of mind where nothing other than the imagined opponent mattered. Over and over, a face, each different from the last, shaped and formed on the worn bag before being obliterated with a blow.
Blood spattered on the ceiling, on the walls, on the floors, clinging to the bag, collecting before slowly trickling down to join and meld with the small droplets that littered the black mat.
The only light afforded in the room was from the outside, unwittingly let in by the night breeze. The curtains, burgundy to the point of being blood red, parted submissively to Mother Nature. Selene's fingers parted through the narrow gap, slithering in on the stuff dreams were made of.
Somewhere, the phone rang before the answering machine clicked on.
"Ms. Lin, this is management. I need to talk to you about your habit of throwing cigarette butts off of the roof. Please call me back as soon as possible. Thank you."
And still Jessie paid no heed.
She felt only two things.
The more prominent one rested on her chest, squeezing her heart, settling on her brain with malevolent ease. Of strangers, she had infinity. Of acquaintances, she had many. Of friends, she had few and those were sprinkled far between.
Jackson, back on the East in Quantico. Rio in the south, with her nights and her samba. Cho here in sunny California, with her women and wine. Sam with his men and his Corona. Maddu in the Orient, with her Krishnas and Shivas. April somewhere.
And Taylor here.
Taylor with her unwanted college memories, her blank accusations and blatant temper.
Her best friend.
Had been.
It had been years since she had seen the black haired, blue eyed beauty.
Graduation.
That had been the last time.
All of them standing with robes, caps, and careers in hand.
Taylor laughing with her family, posing with friends for the camera, hugging classmates.
Avoiding her.
So she had walked away, never looking back.
Sophomore year had been about Barbara.
Barbara.
Jessie growled.
She had heard the gossip and the rumors that had spread through the dorms with wildfire efficiency. Whispers of how she had stolen the Canadian from her best friend, of how she had gone behind Taylor's back to get another notch in her belt.
And Taylor had believed.
No matter how many times she pleaded with her friend, no matter how hard she tried, no matter what she did, Taylor believed.
Until word got around that Barbara was with someone else, after three someone elses.
Junior year was a little better.
They shared coffee and studying again.
But things were never the same. Taylor was always be bit more reserved than when they first met.
Jessie, with her chest heaving and sweat stinging her eyes, stopped. The weight bag was stopped between her hands, her forehead leaning against a particularly wet spot.
That was one face that never, ever completely coalesced on the black leather.
Her hands hurt.
A brown eye popped open and glanced at the mess on the walls and floors.
Ugh. She hated cleaning up.
Her feet hurt too.
She pulled away from the bag, managing to just stumble into a bench. Her short hair stuck up in every possible direction as she shook her head, flinging salt water every which way.
It was stupid, she knew. She should have wrapped her hands and worn shoes.
But she hadn't cared.
Now her feet and her knuckles were going to be a bloody mess for a week. Literally.
Then they would itch like crazy before the scabs would start cracking and flaking off.
You'd think you'd learn after the first time. Or the second. Or the third. Stupid.
There was a long sigh and a lengthy pause before Jessie forced herself up from the press bench and headed for the first aid kit that she kept stored with her loose workout things.
The shrill beeping of her phone brought Jessie running and tripping down the stairs, spilling the scraps of antiseptic wipes, gauze, and tape. Her feet slipped on the carpet just as her fingers reached the buzzing phone.
The caller was greeted with mumbled cursing and a terse 'hello'.
"Cousin Sam wants to see you."
The cop glared at the dial tone sounding from the cell, knowing that the caller had already cut the line.
Why now of all times?
Something glass shattering against something solid was the only sound in the house as a very pissed off cop stormed upstairs to pack for her upcoming trip.
She hated relatives.
And she was going to regret throwing that.
She hated cleaning up.
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A large hand reached for the phone set on the corner of the large desk, pushing the speakerphone button. Three rings and the other end was picked up.
"Hello?"
"Richard, do you have the Leonne account set up yet?"
"Yup, just finished it right before you called. Stranley said that the connections should be good in about three hours. Leonne's heads are getting together to transfer everything as we speak."
"You realize that your timetable is three days off Richie." the low voice was not amused.
"Umm?" the bass on the other end faltered and a harsh swallow was heard. "I?ah?"
"I'm afraid that have left me with no choice Richard." a no. 2 pencil was whirled over a thumb before it was captured and the motion repeated once again.
A sigh was swallowed by the space of the room.
"I'm going to have to give you a raise."
"Huh??" Taylor could just picture Richard staring at the phone in his hand. "What was that boss?"
"I'm going to have to give you a raise." the executive grinned as she tossed the pencil down. "Congratulations. You got the account a full three days in advance."
It was quiet enough on the other end to hear a fish burp.
"Umm?thanks?boss?"
"Talk to you at the next meeting Richard. Keep up the excellent work."
Taylor hung up with a grin on her face. She turned her swivel chair to stare outside at the panoramic view that she had of the plethora of smaller buildings and streets below. A tune played over and over again in her head, happily timed by her twitching foot.
A quiet knock on her door cut her merriment off abruptly, the executive managing to pull on a stern face just as the door opened, admitting Josefina into her inner sanctum.
"Something up?" memo to self, stop listening when Erica plays her My Little Pony videos?cute ponies, dumb theme song?
"Si, you have a meeting with the Systematic board. They are in conference room dos."
"Gracias, Josefina." Taylor snitched a legal pad from her stack and headed out a side door that led to the hallway.
She stopped often on the way to chat with the workers, exchanging greetings and questions about welfare with the mail sorters and the many other secretaries, waving at the Advertising VP.
It was amazing how fast words could travel by mouth. Taylor was told by Candace Koling, one of the secretaries, who had heard from Skyler Yang, a clerk, who had heard from Jamie Stellars, a mail carrier, that Jillian Tolard, a married Sales person with three kids, a goldfish, two dogs, and a husband who was an at-home writer, was having a steamy and torrid affair with Tessra McFifer, the Director of Personnel and Henry Dowler from a recently acquisitioned Gemini Corporation.
Heaven forbid she did anything to merit making the gossip circle. Although it would be amusing to see the look on a shy, prudish Tessra's face once she got wind of that. Oh, the morose ways she had of amusing herself.
Taylor swallowed the chuckle that tickled the back of her throat, pulling on her sternest, most businesslike face before throwing the doors open to conference room two.
The long table filled with men and women in formal business wear all turned to look at the newcomer, folders and various documents placed neatly before them. Taylor took her seat at the head, meeting each and every eye one after another.
"Ladies?" a mechanical pencil was pulled out and her legal pad was propped against the edge of the table. "Gentlemen?shall we being?"
The faint scratching sounds of graphite on paper accompanied the first member of Systematic's droning speech, Taylor's hand sketching out the beginnings of a bird.
She hated these boring, long winded meetings. Why not just condense everything into an e-mail that contained the information? Or maybe just skip these daily things altogether and have them compile everything into one meeting once a month.
I wonder what Rachelle is doing? Probably something a lot more exciting. Hope she's feeling better after what happened last night.
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"Sugars may be classified as aldoses or aldehydes and ketoses or ketones. Their classification is dependant on the location of the carbonyl group. Sugars can also be classified according to the length of their carbon skeletons. Here are some examples."
Rachelle uncapped an Expo white board marker and wrote aldose and ketone in two separate rows on one side of the whiteboard. She drew three columns, labeling those as well.
"Three simple sugars, C3H6O3, C5H10O5, and C6H12O6, being triose, pentose, and texose sugars in that order."
She drew the appropriate molecular compounds in the way that they were strung together via linear structure.
"Notice that texose sugars have two aldoses, being that glucose and galactose have a third point of variation. Remember that a third point of variation is the differential in the spatial arrangements pertaining to the asymmetric carbons within the monosaccharides."
Rachelle paused to take a sip from her cup of herbal orange tea, noticing a hand going up somewhere in the back row of desks.
"Yes, Mr. Davis?"
"Are the carbon skeletons really formed like that?"
"That is an excellent question, Mr. Davis." the professor nodded as she drew on the whiteboard once more. "Truthfully, we draw them linearly because scientists are lazy that way. In aqueous solutions, most sugars actually form a ring structure, like so."
The same atoms, carbon, hydrogen, and oxygen, were drew on the board, this time in a hexagonal shape, the covalent bonds marked with the proper lines to the proper molecules.
"Are there any questions?"
Not a hand was seen in the air.
"Good. Your assignment tonight is to find as many monosaccharides as you possibly can, with a bare minimum of twenty five, and list them in both linear and ring."
Groans could be heard throughout the class.
"Hey." Rachelle smiled brightly. "Think of it this way, we don't start polysaccharides and amino acids until next week. Now those are real fun."
Her students fled out of the classroom, eager to get out of their biology class, leaving Rachelle alone with all her papers. She grimaced at the stack of ungraded tests that she had in one folder, next to the pile of quizzes from her literature 101 classes.
"Bck?" she grudgingly pulled over the smaller stack and dug around her desk drawer for a red pen. "I hate grading papers."
One quiz was done with. That kid was going to regret not studying.
"Wonder what Taylor's doing? Probably in a meeting or in yelling at some hapless victim."
Another quiz done. Not bad.
"Hope Jessie's alright. I don't think Taylor's called her just yet."
A third quiz.
"Probably take Taylor a week before she calls."
"You know, talking to yourself is a sign of the onset of senility."
Rachelle's head shot up from her grading, looking up at the intrusion. "Hi Tracy."
"Hi yourself. Want to get lunch with me and Toby?"
"Sure. You just saved me from grading my 101 quizzes." the blonde locked away all her papers before going to join her friend and fellow colleague. "And I'm not senile."
"That's what they all say." Tracy grinned. "Then they start talking to their hands and wearing their underwear on their heads."
"And they let you teach psych?"
I hope Jessie's feeling alright.
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"Goddamnmotherfuckingsonofaputa." a gloved hand reached up to wipe away sweat from an angry face. "I absofuckinglutely don't believe this."
A taut body wriggled and squirmed under the confining restraints of its bondage.
"Of all the fucking places, they just had to fucking pick one that's overrun by vermin, smells like camel shit and has the most extensive and uncomfortable air ducts."
Jessie mouthed off several other various curses, ranging from disparaging the building contractor's family lineage, to the various tortures that she was thinking of subjugating the mouse that was running down her back and between her thighs to.
"The fucking jackass couldn't have just picked the warehouse to store the package. Just had to pick the one very last fucking room on the very top fucking floor."
Her knees hurt, her elbows hurt, her back hurt.
And she was still ten minutes late.
"I was supposed to be on vacation, on my job, doing my cop thing and Cousin Sam wants me to fucking pick up a goddamned package for him! Lazynogoodbratwurstforarkhédias, I swear I'm going to kick his pockmarked ass if I ever meet him." Jessie peered out a vent grate, still mumbling a blue streak as she spotted her pick up. "About bloody fucking time."
She quietly popped the grate open, making sure that the grate was nearby, just in case.
Three bound and gagged women stared at her, their expressions all warring between disbelief and abject fear. Jessie motioned them silent with an index finger on her lips as she pulled a Beretta from it's hiding place in her shoulder holster.
"Evening ladies." one click of her switchblade and three swipes freed them from their bonds. "Captain Jessie Lin of the United States Navy at your service."
The officer shucked off her pack, pulling out two Kevlar vests.
"Your name and which one gets you one of these nifty things. They're kinda handy, stopping most bullets and all."
"Ria Paspulati, my father is the ambassador to Sri Lanka."
Five foot three and seven eighths, black hair, gray eyes, twenty one years three months and twenty four days, one hundred thirty two pounds twelve ounces.
"Kathryn Schlosser. Mother is the ambassador to Cuba."
Five foot eight and three quarters, blonde hair, blue eyes, twenty three years seven months and eight days , one hundred forty one pounds three ounces.
It was annoying how accurate the profile descriptions could be.
Jessie turned to the one remaining woman. "And who might you be?"
"I'm Eilana Morrtan."
The officer cocked her head to the side before shrugging and placing the Beretta against her forehead.
"Don't know who you are. Might as well."
"But?"
"Captain!!!"
"Please!!!"
"What?" Jessie glared at them. "How do I know that she's not one of kidnappers?"
"She's a friend of mine." Ria glared right back. "We've known each other growing up. We live almost right next door for crying out loud!"
A second of uneasy silence.
"Alright, but you are going to owe me big time for this, Ms Eilana and Ms Ria." she sighed and shucked off her black fatigues and unstrapped her own vest. "Here, take this and let's get the hell out of here."
"And how are we going to do that? Just walk right up to the guards and say 'oh don't mind us. We're just getting out of here. Have a nice day'?"
"You know Ms Kathryn, you need to work on your sarcasm a bit. It sounded a bit too real to me." Jessie glanced at the door for a moment, as if she was stopped in thought. "Right then, we take the quiet way out, through the way that I got in. No noise from any of you. We'll be right over their heads. Mind you, it's a ten story climb, but I think you'll find the going down easier than mine coming up."
She buttoned up her shirt before giving them all a boost up the shaft. A jump and a quick pull up and she was in with them. The grate was replaced with a metallic clink.
"I'll take point, you three make sure that you don't get lost. Might get a little dark in some spots, so hold on to each other if you have to."
They made their way through the twisting labyrinth, led by their rather irritated guide.
"Of all the bumfucking places they had to pick, they had to pick the one's with the smell." Jessie paused, evidently listening to something that only she could hear. "Bleeding pommies."
Eilana, who was right behind the Captain, nearly jumped out of her skin when a hand was clamped over her mouth.
A disembodied voice hissed close to her ear, making her shiver as she felt a warmth looming close to her ear.
"Not one word or move, understand? Pass that on to the others."
Just as the words arrived into Kathryn's ear via Ria, bullets tore into the sheet metal that made up the ducts, letting in light from the outside.
"Oh, I would have been so pissed if that had hit me." Jessie peered down the hole near the space between her thumb and index finger. "You lucky little bugger.
She crawled towards the nearest grate, drawing a pair of 9mm Glocks from her hip holsters.
The two men under her never knew what hit them as a black blur planted its size ten boots into their backs, sending them into a face plant into the carpet. The other three guards whirled around, their fingers pressed tightly on the trigger as they scrambled to find the intruder.
Jessie whapped one in the nape of the neck with the butt of her pistol, using his slumped body as a launch board as she grasped the other two by the backs of their shirts and brought their heads together for an out count.
"Lin five, yang zip." she growled as she peeked out a crack in the door. "Looks like we're going to have to take the fast way out."
She herded her little troop out of the shaft and motioned them silently to stay in the room as she headed for the elevator. Luckily for her, all was clear and before long, all of them were ensconced inside the moving car.
And stuck like shooting ducks inside the cul-de-sac.
Jessie hit the stop button, halting the car between the tenth and ninth floors. Much to the younger womens' protests, she cracked open the hatch in the roof, pulling herself up before tugging them up behind her. They complained about the dangers of standing on their moving transportation, quite vocal and descriptive in their stories of plummeting tens of floor down to the bottom of the shaft.
"Would you rather be shot to pieces when the doors slide open?"
That shut them up right quick.
It took a freed, rusted screw and an accurate throw at the start button to get the elevator going again. Jessie really didn't want to know why the screw was loose.
But something went wrong.
The elevator halted two thirds of the way down. A rain of bullets pockmarked the back of the car, noisily greeting them when the doors slid open with a ding.
"Motherfuckingsonofabacchae. Godsbedamnedpiecesofcyclopsdirtybutthairs. Knew I shouldn't have pulled that screw."
Jessie slithered down the opened hatch as the lethal hail lessened, her Beretta and a H&K submachine gun in her hands.
"Stinkingcodfishcodpieces."
Firing blindly with the sub, the captain literally risked her head to get a peak at their attackers.
This was not good.
Bet Taylor's having a better day than me?
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"I don't give a shit about how many generators it takes to get that plant back up and running. I'll buy you a fucking nuclear power plant if you can find a way to plug it in."
Furious scribbling accompanied by rapid, muted chattering.
"If you can't get it done, I'll find someone else who can."
More chattering.
"Think of it this way Johnson. If you get that plant up and running within the next three hours, I won't invite you over to my place and serve you hand picked Rocky Mountain Oysters on a silver platter."
The mechanical pencil snapped in half.
"If you don't know, then look it up!!"
The phone was slammed down into its cradle, bouncing twice before stilling obediently before a very livid executive.
Three plants down, two because of tornadoes and the third because of a janitor's illicit cigarette.
Bloody fucking hell.
And she still had that meeting with Bolton and Jamco. Not to mention a million other things. E-mails, messages, reports? just things.
And her doctor wondered why her blood pressure was so high.
Taylor rubbed the bridge of her nose, feeling the onset of a migraine knocking merrily on her skull.
A break.
That's what she needed. A moment away from the chaos and mayhem that was her job. Preferably before she exploded. Maybe a cup of coffee and a call to Rachelle.
"Yeah, maybe?"
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Lunch with Tracy and Toby had been interesting to say the least. The curly haired blonde had introduced her to the new professor. Rachelle had been rather impressed by the woman's quiet, yet well grounded comments and questions during their usual digressing philosophical discussions. It wasn't often that someone could give her pause with a rather hard query.
She was in the middle of stacking papers into appropriate files when her cell phone went off.
"Hello?" greeted Rachelle benignly as she thumbed through her stacks of papers.
"Hey babe."
"Hey! What's up?" she plopped her shoes decadently on her desk, wiggling her sneakered feet.
"Think I might have to go home late tonight."
Rachelle groaned.
"I know, but I've got a sea of papers that are close to suffocating me, three plants crashed, and those gods-be-damned meetings to go to."
A faint clicking in the background.
"Did I mention I have two thousand, three hundred, eighty seven messages in my inbox?"
"I want Dr Williams to take your blood pressure right now."
"Ugh. Don't remind me. My stress ball popped and now I've got sand in places where sand has no place being."
"Those things can pop?" Rachelle queried, astounded and astonished.
"Mmm?evidently."
The professor sighed. "Did you have lunch yet?"
"I got a chicken salad sandwich and a half a gallon of chocolate milk."
"Well, at least you're eating." Rachelle mumbled, chewing on a pen cap. Another sigh. "Just try to get home on time tonight, okay?"
"Do my best."
"Love you."
"Right back atcha."
Rachelle clicked off, wrinkling her nose in disgust.
Her day was just not going her way.
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She hurt.
Her lip was split. Her nose was bloody. Her ribs were on strike. Her leg was on fire.
And she had yet to open her eyes.
Jessie groaned, trying to blink the fuzzies from her vision. She did a quick inventory of her various injuries, stretching each muscle group one by one slowly to figure out exactly what was working and what was not. Mostly, she was alright. Nothing life threatening anyway.
"Invisible ink's thought to be just a novelty item. Toy and magic stores sell it everywhere. You used to be able to make it in the privacy of your own home too."
"What???"
A shifting of rough khaki.
"Ex-Lax used to contain phenolphthalein before it was banned by the FDA. One pill and some alcohol and you've got yourself invisible ink. Phenolphthalein has an alkaline pH and when the carbon dioxide in the air hits it, it turns the ink acidic and the color goes poof. You can achieve the same thing with thymolphthalein indicator and sodium hydroxide."
"Oh shut up will you???" Kathryn ineffectively lunged at Jessie, her blue eyes narrowed in anger. "We're going to be killed and the first thing that you do when you come to is ramble about some stupid chemistry stuff!!"
"Did you know that there's a mathematical formula to plan just how long one should wait before attempting to escape?" Jessie scooted closer the Eilana. "You multiply the number of people who're in your way and the number of people on your side."
"You're crazy."
"Take that and divide by the firepower that you have on you. Then multiply by three."
"Shut up."
"Then you take what you have and subtract ten. Divide that by the number of floors you have to go and add the number of possible exits."
"Enough!"
"Divide by the likelihood of death. Take that and divide by a hundred."
"I said, shut up!!!"
Jessie grinned before leaning towards Eilana, kissing her soundly right in front of the others.
Eilana looked shocked, her eyes wide and her body stock-still.
Jessie chuckled, chewing on the cuffs that she had managed to twist around in until they were joined in front of her. She dodged the flying body, neatly evading Kathryn with a well timed twist.
"Keep your britches on. I'm not after your girlfriend."
"She's not my girlfriend!!!" the blonde teetered on her side.
"So you say." Jessie smirked. "Tada!"
She wiggled her hands, now free of her shiny silver bracelets, a bit of metal peeking from between her lips. The others goggled at her, unsure of what to think.
"Eyes are interesting things."
Kathryn groaned. "Here we go again."
"Both the cornea in the fibrous tunic and the lens in the vascular tunic focuses light rays into the retina. The iris regulates the amount of light that is passed through the pupil and the lens. Light then passes through the ganglion and bipolar cell layers, past both the inner and outer synaptic layer of the retina."
Jessie held a coin up in between her fingers. A flick of her wrist and the peso was flipping up end over end before succumbing to Newton's law of gravity, landing squarely in her palm. She curled her fingers shut and unraveled them again.
The twenty peso bit was gone.
"Roughly one hundred twenty million rods in the photoreceptor layer allows us to see shades of gray in dim light. About six million cones allows us highly keen color vision in brighter lighting."
The peso appeared again, pulled out from behind her ear.
"Images are broken up, shattering into millions of little pieces after they have been inverted both vertically and horizontally. These bits are sent to the outer synaptic layer to the bipolar cell then to the ganglion layer before condensing into the neurons in the optic nerve. The nerve runs right to occipital lobes of the cerebral cortex. Your cerebral cortex or the gray top layer of your brain collects these little bits and shards of light and somehow manages to piece them all together correctly to form what you perceive that you see, building this pristine, vibrantly accurate mosaic."
Ria and Eilana blinked.
"You know the old saying 'the hand is quicker that the eye'?" the captain chuckled. "That's a lie. The eye and the mind are always faster than the hand."
Somehow, the coin danced across her knuckles.
"Illusion. Noun, meaning a misleading perception of reality; an overly optimistic idea or belief; misconception. In other words, it's what your mind perceives it sees."
And disappeared into her closed fist once more.
"Illusion is a combination of physical and psychological. Magickers trick both your mind and your eyes. They make you believe what you see with your very own eyes when in fact, what's happening is something else altogether. They'll use physical misdirection, physically doing something to distract you. They'll use psychological misdirection, acting and talking normal which allows them to get away with murder. They can use 'forcing' to make you think that you've got them all figured out. Once you've learned their trick and your mind says 'hey, I figured it out' and stops, misdirection come back into play."
Kathryn somehow managed to right herself.
"'Slight of hand' is sort of a watered down version of illusion. Illusion is tricks that use large objects or animals or people. Sleight of hand is more of a small scale thing, kinda like pick pocketing."
Jessie grinned as she opened her hand.
"You want to give me back my money?"
Ria blinked, looking down at her hand. And in it, there was the peso.
Jessie palmed the coin back.
"'Slight of hand' is the most useful magic. At least, that's what I think."
"Oh shut it will you?"
"Ms Kathryn, would you mind returning my peso?"
Her head jerked towards her hand.
A twenty dollar peso winked at her.
"Oh, Ms Kathryn?"
She looked up at Jessie.
"You might not want to close that hand too tight."
Another jerk. Metal mutely tinkled on the worn carpet as Kathryn dropped the five wickedly pointed circular stars.
Jessie scooped them up, pocketing them before she set about releasing all three women. She motioned them to stay as she pulled something from inside of her sleeve.
A faint click.
Five seconds, not bad. Not bad at all.
With the locked picked open, the captain cracked the door open just a slit.
"What do you think you're going to do Captain? Bean them in the head with your pesos and hope that they fall over?"
Jessie turned slowly, her brown eyes cold and angry.
"Do you know when it is that you truly feel alive?"
No one uttered a word.
"It's not when you free climb an impossible cliff face with nothing but your powder and your hands. It's not doing a hundred and twenty on your Duccati in the pouring rain. It's not bungee jumping or sky diving. It's not chasing tornadoes or cliff diving."
A dark smirk curled one corner of the captain's mouth.
"It's when you take a knife or a razor and you run it along your skin. It's when you press down hand enough to cut yourself, when you cut deep enough to draw blood."
The deadly peso reappeared in her fingers.
"It's then that you know you're alive because you bleed. You know you're alive because it hurts, because you feel pain."
Jessie flicked her wrist, smiling as she heard a soft, wet gurgling followed by a thump.
"That's when you know that you're truly alive. Because it's then that you realize that everything else is an illusion."
Another flick and another gurgle.
"Most, if not all our lives are illusions. Everything in the future is imagination. Pure speculation. Everything in the past is memory. Memory is unreliable. It shifts and deceives us. There is one instant where everything is real and that's the now. Even that is always shifting from future to past, imagination to memory. An illusion."
I'd give anything to live that illusion again. Everything.
She motioned them to stay, slipping out the door, heading for the cooling bodies that were sprawled out conspicuously in the hallway.
Ria, Kathryn, and Eilana all strained their ears, listening for any sounds. They had converged together into a corner of the room, huddled together in with the primal instinct of protection in larger groups.
The door eased open once more.
A pair of green eyes widened and the muzzle of a gun flashed in their direction as the intruder half turned to sound the escape.
A gloved hand slipped over his mouth, choking his exclamation as the other slid alongside his ribs and under his arm.
"You wanna know what a breaking heart sounds like? It's noiselessly silent, not like the shattering sound or the cracking crash that Hollywood has down pat on the screens. It just gives up almost, beating lighter and lighter with each passing minute until it silences itself. It depresses itself, like hole inside that just keeps getting bigger and bigger until it swallows you whole. It's the painful loss of everything that you held dear, of hope and love and dreams. Everything."
Jessie let the body drag her onto her knees, watching with a detached air as her captive's pulse slowed.
"And it hurts like a motherfucker."
She pulled the dagger out from it's place in the inert chest, pausing to wipe it clean on the hapless shirt before slipping it back into her boot. Her hand reached up to close the unseeing eyes.
Jessie glanced up at her charges before unfurling to her full height.
"Let's go."
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"A horse, a horse, my kingdom for a horse."
Green eyes smiled at the mostly attentive class before her.
"Tonight's assignment will be a three page paper on the irony of such a line. It must tie in Richard the Third and the things that he has had done to those that stood in his way, preferably in a philosophical way. And it must be an intellectual paper. No BS allowed. Remember there's a quiz on acts one through three on Friday."
Groans accompanied the scraping of textbooks on tabletops.
Rachelle stretched her back out as the last student disappeared behind the door of her classroom.
And she nearly jumped out of her skin when her cell phone rang.
"Hello?"
"I love you."
She sighed. "Now what happened?"
Taylor snorted. "What makes you think anything's wrong?"
"Because you called me twice in the last three hours?"
"Oh?" the executive sighed. "Well?actually, I just wanted to take a break. My head is killing me."
"I see?"
"I tried calling Jessie to?you know?apologize, but she wasn't home and she's not picking up."
"Mmmphfff?" Rachelle yawned and stretched her legs out. "Well, I'm heading out of here in about an hour. Erica and I might end up going to Calabazas Park for a bit if you're going to head home late."
"'Kay. See you soon."
"Love you."
"Love you, bye."
Rachelle sighed and started shuffling her papers together, ready to go pick up her daughter and have a little mommy time.
A knock on her door diverted her attention.
She sighed. "Yes?"
A russet head poked in, hazel eyes blinking shyly at her.
"Hey Kara. Come on in. What can I do for you?"
"Hi Professor." the student slid in, taking a seat in the front row, her hands fidgeting with her notebook.
"What's wrong?"
Kara glanced around, acting more skittish than a pigeon. "I wanted to ask something Professor."
"Call me Rachelle. What's your question?"
She glanced back at the closed door. "You're?you know?lesbian?right?"
The blonde blinked. "Yesss?"
"I was just wondering?um?how you?you know?"
"How I knew?"
Kara shook her head. "No. Everyone knows that you have someone?"
"A lover? Significant other? Partner? Bed buddy? Girlfriend? Blanket warmer? Wife?"
"Yeah?" the redhead blushed. "I was wondering?"
This could take a while?Rachelle propped her elbows on her desk. "Yes?"
"I was just wonder how you?you know?do?it?"
Rachelle blinked completely blindsided. "Umm?it?"
Kara nodded, her face almost as red as her hair.
"Umm?oh dear?" that was a understatement. Rachelle coughed. "Well?you just do?it?"
"But?what if?you d something?wrong?"
"Well?I'm sure that your?girlfriend would let you know?"
"Oh?"
By all rights, she should not be having this conversation with Kara. There was almost an infinite amount of trouble that she could get into if a word got out about this. Rachelle chewed on this as she took in her painfully shy and blushing biology student.
"Listen, do you want to have lunch tomorrow with me? So we can talk about this without me having to worry about the dean walking in?"
Kara blinked, then nodded.
"I'll see if my partner can come too. Maybe she'll be more helpful?" maybe I can get her to explain it. She's a lot more blunt than I am?eeek?
Rachelle scrubbed her face as her student scurried out, trying to rub the heat off.
"Ho boy?that'll be an interesting lunch?"
Her student?asking for advice?
"Eeek?"
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"Tsk tsk tsk."
A gloved hand motioned for the three women to stay put.
Three men were huddled around a television, avidly watching a football game. Their guns were slung lazily from their shoulders as they both cursed and cheered when one team scored a goal.
"First you leave my gear out on a table not thirty feet from the room that you locked me in?"
Four forced hisses followed four simultaneous thuds.
Silencers were such wonderful things.
"Then your guards are watching the game that only the US dubbed soccer."
Jessie searched their bodies, pocketing what she could use and tossing everything else into the garbage.
She swiped one of the sentry's gun.
"Uzis and Tokarev rifles? You've got to be kidding me."
Her charges came right up behind her when she signaled that the coast was clear.
"I woulda not been so ticked if you used AK-47s or AR-15s, but Uzi's and Tokarevs? Give me some credit here."
"Would you mind not talking to people with holes in the backs of their heads? I really want to go home before they find out that we're not in our room."
Jessie grinned. "Right away Ms Kathryn."
She led them to the stairwell, peeking down all the way to make sure that no one was standing guard below or above them.
"To the garage."
The parking lot was quiet, echoing their footsteps in a weird sort of eeriness.
"Can't you ladies walk quieter? You sound like a stampede of water buffalo or something."
The younger women winced and tried mincing.
"Oh never mind, just keep walking."
Jessie grinned as she trotted silently to a blue Hummer., never mind that she could hear running footsteps coming after them.
Two seconds and the doors were unlocked.
"Everyone get in and stay down. Make sure that no part of you is showing in the windows."
She pulled Eilana short though.
"I'm sorry to pick on you tonight, but can you drive?"
The woman nodded.
"Well, those stupidgoodfornothingtwofacedsonsofajaskasses are going to be after us jailbreaks, so I need you to do the driving."
"ME???" Eilana squeaked out.
Jessie nodded as she unbuttoned her top. "You've got short black hair, so you'll have to pretend to be me."
Eilana took the black BDU shirt, staring at the fanciful snakes that wound around the captain's biceps.
"Where are you going?"
The Asian hotwired the car before turning back around.
"I'll be right behind you."
A brief pause.
"By the way, thanks for keeping the cuff pick in your mouth."
She looked up at Jessie. "No problem."
So Eilana hopped in, hoping and praying that their kidnappers wouldn't shoot her.
No such luck.
Once the Hummer cleared the garage and was headed down the road, four sedans sped along right behind her. Windows shattered all around her as bullets hit the seat cushions, the dashboard, the roof, and almost everything else.
One car pulled even with her, the passenger window rolled all the way down and the muzzle of a gun pointed right at her. Eilana willed her car to go faster, hoping that maybe she could outrace them.
And just as suddenly as the car was there, it disappeared.
The sedan swerved off violently to one side, crashing into a tree with a thunderous clamor of screeching metal and crunching glass.
Another one, the one tailgating her pulled away also, their car listing to one side as sparks flew from between their tire rims and the road.
Two cars boxed her in, the guns that protruded from them glinting in the moonlight, all at her.
A blur caught the corner of her eye.
A shadow landed on the car on her left, smashing into the windshield before roaring off the hood and into the night. The car veered off to the side, sputtering to a stop before exploding into a fiery ball of flames and black smoke.
The last car tried sideswiping the Hummer, making Eilana swerve hard to the left.
Right before blood and gray splattered across the driver's window.
And another explosion melted everything inside it.
Eilana glanced apprehensively at the mirrors, trying to see if she had any more followers.
A thud and a black shadow attached to her passenger side widow wrought a muffled scream from her.
And then, Jessie was sitting in the bullet riddled seat.
"Hey. You want me to take over now?"
The two managed to switch seats, stopping on the side of the road just long enough for the captain to bandage the graze track on the back of Eilana's neck.
Jessie made her keep the shirt on and let the two others in the back know that they were safe for the time being.
Eilana blatantly stared at her, taking in what the moonlight decided to light.
The captain seemed to have a lot of tattoos. There were fantasy creatures and animals running rampant across her skin. All of them were distorted by scars that crisscrossed her back. A blackbird flew on ragged, torn wings. The dragon that graced the small of the captain's back had a circular scar where the eye should have been. A battle between Chimera and Pegasus was interrupted by cruel, parallel lines that cleaved Chinese characters into slices.
There was one though, that was untouched.
A name formed in the Celtic snake of eternity was stamped on Jessie's chest, right over her heart.
"April."
She blinked.
Jessie glanced over at her. "It says April."
"Oh?sorry."
Before the captain could say anything else, a cell phone in the glove compartment rang.
The two women looked at each other before Eilana handed the over phone.
"Hello?"
"Who is this?"
Jessie grinned. "Really now Pedro, don't you remember me?"
"Who are you?"
"I'm the one who managed to swipe your shipment of warheads, C-17 and all. In the Ukraine, remember?"
"You!!!"
"Yes me. You miss me?"
"Who are you???"
"Someone you don't want to piss off Pedro."
"Where are my people???"
"Those lazy bums? They're either dead or watching a football game. Me? I'm on the road with the three princesses that you locked away in that modern tower of yours."
Cursing in Spanish flooded the phone.
"Listen Pedro, quit with the money making schemes alright? Try something else for a change because I'm having way too much fun here."
Jessie grinned. "I didn't even know that planes came with their very own strumpets until I stole your C-17."
She laughed as she tossed the phone out of the window, not bothering to sign off.
"Let's get you ladies back to where you're supposed to be, huh?"
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"You have got to be kidding me?"
The door slid open without a protest.
"These guys are a bunch of amateurs."
A gloved hand locked the door behind it.
"And you want me to pay to send these idiots to go down there and screw things up even more?"
The blinds were snapped open with a vicious jerk.
"What do I want? I'll tell you what I want. I want you to get your fat ass out of your secretary's bed. I want you to put your dick back in pants. Then, I want you to get on a plane headed for Dallas to personally make sure that those lines are put back in correctly. That's what I want!!"
Taylor sighed, rummaging around her desk drawer for a spare stress ball or something that would allow her to vent her anger without worrying about paperwork from Tessra.
"I wouldn't are if we were in an interstellar war! I expect you to do your job and for you to do it right!!! Why the hell else would I be calling you in the middle of your evening cluster fuck???"
A bright yellow smiley face poofed in her fist.
"I don't think I can use any smaller words to tell you this. Maybe you're just incompetent and think that I'll put up with your shit just because you've been with us for thirty plus years."
A pencil snapped.
"What the fuck do I pay you for???"
100...99...98...
"You get those lines within the hour or I'll personally toss your ass out of my office window. Maybe I'll even throw your pants down after you. If I'm in a good mood."
50...1...-432...
"Just get it done!!!"
The temptation to just chuck her cell phone out the window was very, very much there. Maybe she could go to Home Depot or Osh and buy some cement or something. San Francisco Bay wasn't too far away?
Taylor collapsed into her chair, staring out at the blooming night sky.
Insanity.
That's what it was.
Why else would she had agreed to take this job. Who in their right minds would want to deal with the migraine of making sure that everything ran right? That board meetings were actually productive? That the workers actually did their jobs?
Who would want to go through four craploads worth of inbox reports?
She groaned.
One more hour and she could go home?
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Jessie could have popped a blood vessel.
"I know, I know. You hate dealing with crap like that, but you're the only one that I trust enough to make sure that no one gets killed and that we manage to grab Pedro alive."
The captain shook her head.
"I really don't think that I can take this assignment?"
Her CO raised a hand, cutting her off. "It's only a little party with the ambassadors and their families, Jessie. Just a little precaution. You know how it is."
"With all due respect sir, that's not my job."
"Well, I'm making it your job." the grizzled, older man sighed. "It's just one night. Not like it's going to kill you or something. Just make sure that they get through the party alive and you're home free. You're the best we have and I'm counting on you Jessie."
She sighed, staring gloomily out a window.
"Alright, then. I'll need an invite."
"Got one right here for you." her CO slid an envelope across his desk towards her. "It's a formal thing. Black tie only."
"This'll be the last time."
He sighed. "I'll try my best."
"No sir, I'm going to make sure this is the last time."
Jessie nodded, pocketing the heavy, embossed vellum paper before saluting and turning around smartly, heading out the door.
Godsbedamnedpiecesoffermentedmoldedduckeggsstuckuptheirtighassedbureaucrats?
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By the time that Taylor managed to get home, most of the lights were off.
Rachelle was curled up on the couch, the stereo playing smooth jazz softly in the background, almost drowning out the blonde's light snores.
The executive stashed her things away before kneeling beside her lover. A unbidden smile curled the corners of her lips as she brushed errant locks of hair away from Rachelle's relaxed face. Taylor tossed her suit jacket onto the back of the couch before scooping her lover up in her arms and heading for the bedroom.
A quick detour to check that Erica was alright before she deposited a still sleeping Rachelle onto their bed.
There were times when she wondered if the little blonde could sleep through an earthquake. Rachelle didn't move once during all the unintentional jarring as the executive tugged her under the covers.
Taylor blinked as she glanced from the clock to the bathroom to the enticing bed.
Sure?why not?
She climbed under the covers, spooning around Rachelle before falling asleep as her head hit the pillow.
I'll call Jessie tomorrow?
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Jessie tossed her helmet onto the couch, relieved that she was back at her apartment. She had skipped going to the medic, knowing that it would only take more time from her and her solitary sleep. The wounds she would deal with later.
Her cell phone rang, filling the silence with an aggravating buzzing. A reluctantly finger flicked it open.
"Jessica, you there?"
Her words rang in her memory, sounding the bells of long repressed memories.
"Jessica?"
"Worthless, good for nothing piece of trash."
"A girl like you never got anywhere. You'll never amount to anything more than a whore on the street corner sucking on some john's dick."
"You think I don't know what you're thinking? I'm your mother, I gave birth to you. I know exactly what you're thinking. If you think you're going to leave this house, think again you fucking dyke."
"Fucking asshole, that's the last time you'll ever break a plate."
"You're an accident, a freak. A mistake. I would have gotten rid of you, but I found out about you after three months. Too late, the doctor said."
Words, her mothers words rolled over her, drowning her completely in old anger and aged malice. She couldn't move. Her arms, her legs, her body were rooted in that one spot, rendered completely incapable of movement.
"I told you, I'm not sending you anything Liwen. Don't call me anymore." Jessie didn't bother to click off, simply shutting her cell phone off and headed upstairs.
"Jessica."
A new voice, soft and warm this time, eased the suffocating bands trying to wringing her soul dry.
"Jess."
Slowly, diffidently, she turned.
April stood there, beatific in her dress shirt and briefs.
Jessie stood, immobile, her eyes unblinking and unbelieving.
A cool hand reached out to her, slipping across her palms, to rest with fingers entwined with hers.
April was here.
Dull, barren eyes stared at the contrast between her own tanned skin and the chocolate silk of her lover's.
Unbelieving.
Speechless.
Beyond words.
April glanced down at her hands, her long fingers tracing the stark white scars that slashed through Jessie's wrists. She brought limp hands up to her face, pressing her lips against the marks, her eyes sad as they focused on the still woman before her.
"I'm sorry?" Jessie looked away, not wanting to see pity or sympathy or disgust.
"You're still here."
The captain swallowed. "Cho found me."
April freed one hand to cup her lover's chin up to face her.
"I'm glad she did."
Jessie had no choice but to look.
And she did.
Warm breaths skittered across her skin, something that she thought she would never feel again. The smell of sandalwood and rain and April surrounded her senses. The rough, silken tresses that brushed across her face. The soft fingertips that traced her scars. Brown eyes that mirrored her reflection, windows to a very cherished soul.
She refused to let her eyes close, not wanting this dream to end.
Except it wasn't.
Warm, very much there lips brushed across hers. Solid hands running through her hair, stroking the graying temples. Blunt, clipped nails scratched the back of her neck, drawing a shiver from her being. A breathing, beating, clement body pressed against hers. Faint whispered words in her ear, tickling the downy hairs on her cheek.
Jessie shuddered as something in her broke.
Something that April seemed to sense, because she pulled the Asian to her and cuddled her close, unmindful of the crushing embrace that threatened to cave her ribs in.
Jessie buried her head in her lover's chest, simply breathing.
Feeling.
Knowing.
A chuckle bubbled out from somewhere in the depths of her chest, the first in over two years.
It washed over her, a waterfall of thankfulness to all the deities, to the Fates, to whoever let her be here in this moment.
A nibble on her shoulder wrought a shiver from her, relighting a fire in her that had long gone out.
Jessie tasted the slightly salty skin before her, her calloused hands gliding over the sleek body in her arms. April returned the caress, tracing the trembling shoulders and the scarred wings of the enormous raven that covered them. Her fingers outlined the blood red rose inked on the nape of her lover's strong neck, the brazen beak that held the bloom, the piercing eye that glared up balefully from the dark creature.
Jessie reached up, sliding April's shirt from her slender shoulders. Her own rough hands reverently stroked the seamless back, taking in the smooth, unblemished skin.
So unlike herself.
Her battered, scarred body with its multitudes of artwork inked over it. April's untouched milk chocolate that was halfway between steel and softness that belied the deceptively demure build. And an attitude that was quick to flare to emotions. Emotions that she had long learned to keep inside her.
She allowed herself to be backed into her bed, dragging her willing victim along with her. The world faded away as familiar, full lips brushed hers once more, a velvet soft tongue entreating entry.
She immediately granted admission.
They parted for a breathless moment, their breathing ragged, uneven.
"You're here."
April only smiled.
"Stay?" asked Jessie beseechingly, fear peeking out from her hooded eyes.
One whispered word was all it took.
"Always."
Jessie kissed her lover once more, gently twisting so that she was looking down at the smaller body under her own. It was strange, how they fit together. April was a good three inches shorter than her even in heels.
And yet it was perfect.
Her hands wondered down the stomach, caressing April's hips with the pads of her thumbs before returning up. She grazed her palms against the gentle curve of her breasts, arching her neck to nibble on the skin between. Jessie moved with skillful familiarity and such attention, as if she was committing every moment to memory.
Her fingers, hands, lips, her tongue mapped April's body with tender care. She nipped her way up, nibbling the sloping undersides of April's breasts, soothing the angry red marks with her cool hands. Her warm silken tongue glided across goose pimpled skin, drawing a shaking shudder from her lover.
A hand tangled in her short hair, scratching intoxicatingly at her scalp. The other traced the curve of her cheek, skimming across her features with an ethereal light touch. It traced her brows, running along the length of her permanently arched brow. The larger scar tingled as an index finger ran down its path to end at the base of her neck.
A tug on her forelock brought her back up, April's brown eyes sparkling almost black. Jessie welcomed the bruising kiss, sure that she would be tasting blood in her mouth. She wanted to, returning the kiss with enough vigor to scrape her teeth against her lover's, wanted to assure her mind that this was real and not an illusion.
Somehow, when she managed to open her eyes, April was perched above her, staring down at her with an almost predatory smile. Jessie gasped as rough, wiry curls brushed over the top of her thigh. She leaned up, flickering her gaze between burgundy lips and coal black eyes. They kissed again, gentle this time, exploring each other's mouth almost lazily.
Jessie's eyes fluttered shut as her lover's heavy breathing feathered across her lips, drawing a sigh from them. A velvet softness replaced the gentle breeze as April's lips moved across hers, almost distracting her from the hand that was slipping down her abdomen. Fingers traced her taut stomach, following the outline of her muscles and delving into her navel before slipping even lower.
Liquid fire spread through her body like quicksilver, welcoming the intrusion with wondrous bliss. It threatened to send her over the edge, right then and there.
But she wouldn't let it.
Jessie's brown eyes fluttered back open, fastening on the glorious woman before her. Her calloused hands settled on her lover's hips, contrasting nicely with her darker tone. A smile curled the edges of Jessie's lips as she felt April grind against her, painting her thigh with sensual desire.
Then, and only then did she even allow her body to start to give in to this unbelievable wave of passion, wanton need, desire to crash over her.
To let her heart heal as love began to patch the hole that April had left behind.
April's thighs clenched tight around hers, Jessie's name poured forth from her parted lips in a never ending mantra. A growling sigh escaped Jessie, the only sound that she made as the jolt that radiated from her groin became lightning that coursed through her entire body.
She buried her nose in April's leonine neck, nuzzling the slick sheen of sweat that covered her lover's skin. They lay curled together, holding each other, exchanging light touches and nibbling damp skin, basking in the warm glow of their recent lovemaking.
"I love you." Jessie's voice was no more than a hoarse whisper as she rubbed her nose against April's.
"I know."
Jessie closed her eyes, delving in the warmth that washed over her. She laid there, her eyes shut tight as her arms refused to let her lover go.
The phone's intrusive dial tone intruded on her bliss, the annoying operator's voice instructing her to hang up and dial again.
Her brown eyes shot open, blinking up at the white expanse of her ceiling.
No?
Her bed was warm, the phone on the floor somewhere, the window blinds open.
No?
The rasp of her harsh breathing was the only sound in the abysmal silence.
No.
She was alone.
The lamp went crashing against the dresser, shattering into a mix of stained glass and ceramic shards. The alarm flying after it, breaking into metallic and plastic bits that could never be put back together again. The phone was torn out of the wall, line and all, to be sent crashing against another wall.
No, damn it, no?
Jessie buried her head in her hands.
Why?
Her whole body shook.
Why?
"Damn it, why?"
Her broken voice shattered the silence.
The moonlight filtered in through the window, turning the falling drops into crystalline tears. Jessie's shoulders shook, her entire body trembling.
You said you'd be there when I got back. You promised.
And for the first time in a long lifetime, her sobs sounded in the vast, abysmal emptiness of her bedroom.
Imperceptibly, the faint scent of rain and sandalwood wafted in through the open window.
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Rachelle peeked in through the door, watching her lover gaze absently at computer screen.
Taylor had been up since before the sun to fix something or other. Her cell phone had been constantly ringing, the opening tunes of O Fortuna reverberating in concert to the bleeping of the executive's beeper and the pinging of her electronic mailbox.
But Taylor wasn't paying attention to any of her now quiet modes of communication.
She was staring at her monitor, her cell phone held limply in hand.
"You okay?"
Taylor blinked and turned to face Rachelle. "Yeah?"
The blonde cocked her head. "That didn't sound like a very sure 'yeah'. You sure?"
"I'm just worried."
"Worried?"
Taylor tossed her phone down with a sigh. "About Jessie. I've tried calling her and she's not picking up her cell. Her house phone doesn't work."
"Maybe she's gone away somewhere." Rachelle seated herself on the edge of her lover's work desk.
"I don't know?" she sighed again. "It was scary looking in her eyes that time we had lunch together. I don't think I would have recognized her. Her eyes were so empty and cold?like an animal trying to find somewhere to die or that she had reached the end of her rope or something. Not the Jessie that I knew."
Rachelle didn't say anything.
"When I mentioned about finding someone that could put up with her, there was this flicker of something in her eyes that made me look twice."
Couldn't say anything, really, nothing that could console her lover with what she had said to her old friend.
"Then I just go off on her like I did in college." Taylor leaned forward and laid her head in her lover's lap. "She didn't really have any friends back then. I doubt she has a lot now. Not many people are willing to try and get past that cold and remote front that she puts up. I shouldn't have jumped to conclusions. I know I shouldn't have. Not then. Certainly not now."
"I'm sure that she'll be fine. A little pissed off at you, but she'll be fine. Why don't you try again tomorrow?" Rachelle ran her hand through midnight hair.
"She always kept people an arms length away, you know? Wouldn't even let her friends in all the way." the executive shut her computer off. "I just don't know anymore."
On her cell phone, a single line blinked, waiting inanimately for her command.
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Rachelle stared at her doppelganger, trying to poke a black pearl earring into the hole in her lobe. She was dressed in a black, shimmering evening dress. It clung to her by one strap, accentuating her curves, heightened by the heels that she had donned on.
"As beautiful as ever, m'lady."
She chuckled and turned. "You're such a charmer, Taylor."
"For you? Always." the executive slipped into the bathroom, wrapping her arms around her lover's waist. "But I think there is something missing?"
Rachelle glanced back at her reflection, taking in her body and the sparkling blue eyes that held hers.
"What?"
"Mmm?maybe this, perhaps?"
A cold weight settled on her chest for a moment before warming. Taylor pulled her hands away and kissed her lover's temple.
"Better."
A necklace, made of a delicate filigree of intricate gold knots that surrounded each deep emerald was draped over her neck. The multi-facets winked up at her, even in the dim lighting of the bathroom.
Rachelle turned and wrapped her arms tight around Taylor, burying her nose in the executive's black clothed shoulder.
"Thank you."
"You are very welcome."
When the blonde finally pulled away, she fumbled around for a small velvet box that she had hidden in her makeup drawer.
"Now I don't feel too bad getting you this."
Taylor blinked as she held the sparkling sapphires that were just the shade of her eyes.
"Guess we were thinking along the same lines. Again."
She smiled at her lover and immediately donned the earrings on, giving Rachelle a kiss for her gift.
"Thank you."
"Well?" the blonde grinned. "If that's what I get for buying you jewelry, I saw this really neat-mnhphff?"
Taylor pulled back just a little, until her lips were a hair's breath from Rachelle. "Shut up."
They kissed one last time and headed for the garage.
"Anyone we know going to be at the charity ball?"
Rachelle tapped her front teeth with her index finger.
"Well, Tessra, Sandy and Danni are going?I think Tony might be there?"
Taylor merged into the light traffic on highway 280.
"Oh, one of my co-workers, Professor Lin is going to be there."
"Professor Lin?" Taylor raised an eyebrow.
"Mmmhmm. I mentioned the charity ball and she said she was thinking about going."
"Ah?I see."
Forty minutes later, the executive pulled into the parking lot of the elegant Hotel Neko.
They waited as the parking valets rushed to take the dozen of cars that were still pulling up. Porters rushed to and from the multitude of cars, loading and unloading satchels and briefcases for the hotel guests. There was a cleaning maid polishing the windows of the revolving door, wiping the fingerprints and dust from the glass and bronzed metal.
Taylor chuckled as Rachelle straightened the lapels of her suit, tucking her hair back behind her ear. She offered an arm that was taken readily, leading the way through two huge revolving spotlights and onto the red carpeted walkway.
An attendant was standing at the door of a hallway, taking invitations and checking with the list that he had on the podium before him.
He flashed a bright smile and waved them in, his white teeth perfectly even.
"Enjoy your night madams."
They thanked him and headed on in.
The gala was already well underway. Once the double doors were opened for them, the clamor of the guests washed over them in a wave of noise.
People in all forms of formalwear were chattering with each other, a flute of some sort of liquid refreshment in hand, milling in and out of groups that were gesturing and laughing with each other.
Taylor, being the taller one, wormed her way through the threshold, Rachelle being tucked firmly under her arm.
They found Tessra and Sandy at a table with wine and food, talking about an upcoming and potentially problematic acquisition.
"Business on your evening off? What will Danni think?"
Sandy grinned and stood to hug her boss. "Hey Taylor. I see you've followed your other half here."
The executive snorted. "Gee, thanks."
"Anytime boss, anytime."
Rachelle patted her lover's side, thanking her for pulling out her chair to seat her. "Did you come alone Tessra?"
The Director of Personnel blushed. "Actually, I came with my boyfriend."
"Oh no." Taylor groaned. "You used the 'b' word. Might want to warn him about the Spanish inquisition."
"Inquisition?" the red head was thoroughly confused.
"Rachelle and Sandy together. The government should take lessons from them. No one would stand a chance."
Both women glared at Taylor.
She blinked. "What??"
"You and I need to have a little talk later tonight about sensitive chats." Rachelle slipped on her fruit juice. "Especially since you're going to be explaining finer points of lesbian lovemaking to one of my students."
That certainly unhinged her lover's jaw.
While Taylor was sputtering and stammering, everyone else was turned towards the doors, where reporters and cameras were raising a sizeable din.
Abidias Paspulati, the ambassador to Sri Lanka was entering with his wife, Ameya Paspulati. Their daughter, Ria, trailed behind them, waving at the people as her shimmering train of aquamarine satin attracted the camera shutters.
Cuban ambassador Rosa Schlosser followed in a simple navy sheath, nodding politely to everyone. Her daughter, Kathryn Schlosser, was the one whose arrival garnered more attention. Eilana Morrtan was on her arm, her dress matching the dove gray of Kathryn's loose suit. And everyone knew they weren't related.
"Oh Taylor, look! It's Jessie!" Rachelle pointed to the escort that was lending their arm to Rosa.
Jessie was dressed in a tailored suit in the traditional black with a burgundy cravat and vest. Her hair had been gelled and combed back, illuminating the scar that disappeared into her starched collar.
Taylor tried to approach her friend once she had been settled, only to be turned away by the guards that stood around the ambassadors' table. With their no nonsense, stony faces and possible pistol butts bulging from their chests, talking to a rock would have probably yielded far better results.
The orchestra started up again, having paused for the delegates' entrance, their lively classical refrain drawing out couples to dance on the polished marble floor.
Rachelle and Taylor were one of them.
"Hey, you've gotten better." the professor grinned.
Taylor shook her head. "I'm not the one with two left feet."
The blonde stuck her tongue out at her.
They spun past Danni and Sandy, coming to a slow halt right on the edge of the dance floor just as the melody wound down and faded.
"You wanna see if Jessie wants to dance?"
Taylor shrugged. "I can't get past the granite sentinels over there."
Rachelle nudged her lover. "Well, she's over there, dancing with Ambassador Rosa. You want to try to cut in?"
The executive was not that willing.
"Go on."
Taylor extracted herself from her lover and wove her way towards her friend.
Jessie wasn't dancing really. She was standing beside the Cuban ambassador, listening attentively to whatever the short woman was saying.
"Hey."
Both Jessie and the petite woman looked up at her, making her feel just a bit uncomfortable.
Taylor dodged a tipsy dancer.
"I wanted to talk to you, please?"
Jessie glanced around. "Later."
"Look, I know you're mad at me. I'm sorry I said that stuff about Barbara. Can we talk, please?"
Again, the cop took a quick look around.
"Look, Taylor?it doesn't matter, alright? I just can't right now. We'll have lunch sometime again, okay?"
Taylor looked at Jessie, uncertain that their supposed lunch date would ever really become reality.
"Alright."
Jessie nodded once before turning back to the ambassador.
"How'd it go?" Rachelle handed her a flute of sparkling apple cider.
"Okay?maybe?."
The blonde glanced over at the police officer. "Looks like she's kinda preoccupied."
"Mmm?" Taylor signed.
Rachelle nibbled on a hors-devoirs and patted her lover's knee. "I need to apologize about getting her into so much trouble. Think she'll let me?"
Her lover shrugged.
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There was an itching in the back of her neck that told her something wasn't right.
Jessie scanned the area once more, trying to pinpoint where the annoying tick was coming from.
"How am I supposed to react to this? What am I going to say? What can I say?"
The captain sighed, returning her attention to Ambassador Rosa.
"The press is going to have a field day with this and I didn't even know about it until a few days ago."
"Ma'am?"
Rosa sighed. "What?"
"I'll tell you what you should do ma'am." Jessie sucked on a tooth before continuing. "What you should do is treat her just like you did before you found out that she was with a woman. You should just love your daughter for being who she is."
"How?"
"Just?" she thought of what she had growing up. "Just be there for her, be her mother. She's no different from the girl that you raised."
Rosa didn't look too convinced.
"Because?" sensitive chats were really not her forte. "Because, if you don't, you'll lose her. Because she'll think that she can't say or do anything and she'll pull away so that it hurts less. It doesn't matter what the press says about it because they'll move onto something else juicier tomorrow, but she'll be your daughter forever. And she'll need her mother for forever."
The older woman stared at Jessie for a long moment.
"You would know, wouldn't you?"
The Asian sighed, smiling sardonically.
"Would have given almost anything to have a mom."
A sudden movement caught the corner of her eye.
She whirled around, searching for what had sent her alarm bells ringing. Shitshitshitshitshit?
When nothing concrete emerged to catch her attention, she reached to tap her earpiece. "How's the lookout?"
"All clear."
"Nothing."
"Negative."
"Affirmative."
I don't think so?Jessie tugged the ambassador off to the side, placing her under the protection of one of the guards.
"You guard her with your life, is that understood?"
Soldierboy nearly saluted. "Ma'am, yes ma'am!"
Jessie snorted. "That's Captain to you."
She left Rosa in his large, capable hands, and headed for Kathryn and Eilana, who where feeding each other with complete disregard of the snapping cameras around them.
"Ms. Kathryn, Ms. Eilana. I believe it is time for you to speak with Ms. Rosa."
"Why?"
Jessie threw up her hands in frustration and growled. "Look, I don't have the patience to deal with you right now. Could you just please tone down the butchiness and do as I ask?"
"Come on." Eilana tugged Kathryn along behind her, who followed reluctantly.
"You and you." the captain pointed to the two closest guards. "Follow them and make sure nothing happens to them or I'll have your asses on a silver platter."
They scrambled after the two young women, plowing right through the other protesting guests.
"Glad to know I still have it?"
She headed for the ambassador of Sri Lanka, squeezing her way between the refreshment table and a gaudy floral ice cube.
"I want al least one guard for each person, no excuses. Station two at each possible exit. Anything goes wrong and I'll stick all yawls heads in my preserved body parts collection, personally."
One last check yielded still nothing.
"Damn it, I know you're out here." Jessie blinked.
A server passed by her, bearing a large platter emptied of hors-devoirs.
But something wasn't right.
Jessie stepped behind him, neatly relieving him of his plate with a flick of her wrist. Her gun was pulled out and pressed against his sweating temple.
"Hello, Pedro."
Pandemonium broke loose when someone screamed out 'gun'.
Jessie was unmoving in the middle of the chaos, watching with a detached eye as the guards ushered everyone away and towards the edges of the room.
"Did you really think that I would stay away from your little fun time? You just make it way too easy, Pedro."
He squirmed, trying to break free.
"Ah, ah. You're not going anywhere until the little boys in blue come to give you a new home and a pair of silver bracelets."
Somehow, a hand slipped.
And Pedro was free.
Jessie cursed as she clutched at her side, feeling something warm spread.
"You are so going to regret that. This was one of my favorite suits."
Pedro didn't get very far. Contained in a ring of well trained men and women wielding formidable weapons, no one was going anywhere.
Jessie probed the area around the spot where the little terrorist had hit her. Her face showed nothing other than a few extra lines around the edges of her mouth as her fingers hit a hard, spongy spot, and then the handle of a knife.
Damn?
A flash made her look up once more.
Pedro had grabbed one of the guests, pulling a pistol that he had managed to smuggle in past security.
God fucking damn?
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Taylor tucked Rachelle behind her just in case as she kept a wary eye on the standoff before her, shoving the cold shiver that threatened to shake her into a corner of her mind.
"Honey, you realize that if you get yourself shot, I'm going to be extremely pissed at you."
"Babe, I have no intentions of sleeping on the couch for the next year."
"I would hope not." Rachelle tucked her hand in the small of her lover's back. "I'm just glad that we didn't bring Erica with us."
"Mmm?I think Jessie got hurt?"
"Is she okay?"
Taylor shrugged. "I dunno. She's still standing. It's not like I can get anywhere or anything?"
Rachelle rolled her eyes and peeked through the crook of the executive's elbow.
"Oh my god, that's Professor Lin! He's grabbed our new professor!"
"The new professor?" Taylor blinked. She glanced at her friend. "I'm sure Jessie knows what she's doing."
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"You can't really believe that you'll get very far." Jessie growled, keeping her gun trained on the terrorist. "You're surrounded, Pedro. Just give it up."
"Drop your gun."
"Pedro?"
"I said, drop it!!"
She gingerly tossed her gun to the side after checking to make sure that the safety was on.
"Pedro?"
"Don't move or I'll kill her."
Jessie shook her head.
"I swear I'll do it!" he steadied his trembling hands.
She just laughed.
"Go ahead, Pedro. Shoot her. Put a bullet in her head and put her out of her misery. I don't give a flying fuck. It just makes it easier on me anyway. In the time it'll take to pull that trigger, I'll have one of my other PPK's pointed right between your eyes."
Pedro back up as the captain stepped forwards. His gun wavered and turned towards the shrinking crowd, randomly pointing at a suited woman, right at her widened blue eyes.
Jessie laughed once more, harsh and emotionless.
"I don't care if you shoot anyone. I'm not the one who has to deal with the paperwork. Pick ten, any ten. After that last bullet, you're going to be all mine."
Both Taylor and Rachelle breathed a sigh of relief when the steel muzzle pointed away once more.
"Back off." Pedro searched frantically for a way out. "I mean it!!"
"There's no fucking way I'm letting you walk out of here alive, Pedro. You run for the door and one of my hollowpoints will make you head pop right open."
Jessie stepped right center into point blank, staring into the frightened brown eyes of Pedro's hostage. She smiled, trying to reassure the terrified woman.
"You come any closer and I swear I'll kill you."
"I've got nothing to lose, Pedro. My April died on a mission in the Ukraine. No friends, no family. No one to miss me. I've been exceedingly pissed and waiting for someone like you to come along to help me with my anger management. You're just a little shithead that popped up in my crosshairs. And I'm going to enjoy taking you down."
His eyes were wide, unbelieving as he muttered. "You're crazy, woman."
"Yeah, I'm crazy." Jessie snorted. "Insane even. Just the government's little pet homicidal maniac."
Pedro twitched, his brown eyes darting from one point to another, then back to the callous captain. This wasn't supposed to happen this way. Everything that he had so carefully planned had gone awry. Nothing, with the exception of himself, had gone right. His hostages had managed to escape his grasp. More than a dozen of his men were dead.
And now, he trapped with nowhere to go and no way out.
And it was all because of this crazy Jessie person.
It was because of her that he had lost over two and a half million American dollars worth of stolen weaponry seven years ago. She was the one who had cost him almost half a billion dollars worth of stolen warheads four years prior. Not to mention his private plane.
"You're not going to get out of here alive, Pedro."
Jessie watched as something set in his eyes.
Something was going to have to happen very soon.
Hopefully, she had played her cards right.
The ballroom echoed with screams as the sharp retort of gunfire reverberated off the walls and high vaulted ceiling.
Pedro struggled ineffectively against the iron grip that held him aloft. The hand wrapped around his throat was impossibly firm, without the slightest tremor. There was nothing remotely human in the black eyes that bored into his soul. They were only cold, feral, empty, devoid of anything but hate and anger. Death stared back into his eyes, it's inhuman strength keeping him aloft, squeezing around his neck and cutting off his air.
Jessie flung her arm out, tossing him against the bar, sending him crashing into the shelves of bottled alcohol and delicate crystal glasses.
The guards immediately pounced on him, cuffing him amongst the glass shards and splintered wood.
A smile curled the corners of the captain's lips, brightening her grim visage. It stayed, even as she sank to the ground, her knees unlocked, unable to hold her up any longer.
She forced her eyes to open, looking up to thank the woman who had been Pedro's hostage.
Right into her dream.
Maybe it was her nightmare.
She didn't want to wake up either way.
Teary brown eyes mirrored her reflection. A hand threaded through her hair, the other holding her tight to a shaking chest. A warm body warded off the icy chill of the marble floor. Chasing away the familiar darkness that threatened to consume her.
Jessie blinked, not sure that she could say anything.
Except?maybe?
"Entre tanto que el cuidado,
en contemplarte suspenso,
que vivo asegura sólo
en fe de que por ti muero."
The softest lips pressed against her temple, a warm tear wetting her cheek.
"Still filled with useless knowledge." the sweetest voice in all the heavens whispered into her ear.
"Come on. You should know this one, Teach."
"Filis, Sor Juana Inés de la Cruz, last stanza."
Jessie wrapped her arms around a thin waist, ignoring the stabbing pain that accompanied each breath. A fluttering beat pounded against her ear as she breathed in the scent of sandalwood and rain.
"I'm sorry."
"For what?" she sent a prayer to whoever was listening, to heathen gods, to Allah, to the God that she had given up on long ago. Just anyone.
"This?you?that I wasn't there."
"Oh?"
A pause.
"I got the letter. Thought you were dead. Couldn't stay in our place. It hurt too much. Been lonely ever since."
Jessie sighed, pulling back just enough to trace along skin like coffee and cream. "Love you, April."
"That's good." April captured the captain's hand, bringing it up to her lips. "'Cause I never stopped either."
A smile, a real one that crinkled the corners of her twinkling eyes lit her face up. A tear trickled down one cheek, wetting the warm hand that was cupped there.
The first happy one in her eternity.
Taylor and Rachelle had somehow managed to get through the human barricade to come sliding to a halt beside the two women.
"Hey Tay." Jessie smiled weakly. "Meet my someone. Teach, meet Tay."
"Nice to finally meet you Professor Lin."
"You know each other?"
"Rachelle told me about the charity ball."
A choked laugh rattled from the captain. "I owe you two?"
"You just get better, alright?" Rachelle patted Jessie's knee.
"Try. Can't promise though."
April buried her nose in Jessie's hair. "Forgive me?"
"Gone like yesterday."
One pair of brown eyes leaked tears as another fluttered shut.
"Jessie, you hold on, alright?" April tucked her old lover's head under her shin. "I just found you. You've got to hold on, 'cause I've got a bone to pick with you."
One last 'thank you' to a crying Rachelle and a grim faced Taylor. One last 'love you' to a sobbing April.
The slow, shallow rising and falling of a black, white, and red chest faded.
Taylor and Rachelle held each other tight as they watched the EMT's load Jessie onto s stretcher in into the back of the idling vehicle. The last they saw was the captain's pale, inert face and a coffee brown hand entwined in a limp, scarred one. Watched as bright red flashed on the walls and the cars, on them and the police officers, on everything.
Rachelle buried her face in her lover's chest, breathing in the smell of Taylor. Taylor rested her head on a bowed, blonde head, listening as the heavens above thundered and rumbled. Both listened as the angels cried from up above as the darker half of one soul faded, their tears washing down on the world, turning it into melted gray.