Part Two

 

LJ’s Story

 

To understand LJ Evans one needs to go back to her beginnings. She spent the first nine years of her life in a small west Texas town where doors were never locked and everyone knew everyone. When she was nine years old her family moved to small, very wealthy community outside of New York City. Everything was different there and that had shaped her life forever.

 

The first day in her new school was her last. Entering the classroom the teacher asked her name. “My name is Lucinda Jane Evans.” After all, that was what she had always been called and why should this be any different.

 

The teacher replied with a sweet smile and kind voice, “Nice to meet you, Lucy, I’m Mrs. Parker. Why don’t you take that empty seat over there.”

 

Blue eyes pierced the teacher. “My name is Lucinda Jane, not Lucy!”

 

The teacher was taken aback by the child but condescended to her wishes. “Okay, Lucinda Jane, please take that empty seat.”

 

Later on in the morning while at recess she was surrounded by other schoolmates and taunted. “Lucy, Lucy is a goosey”…and, “my name is Lucinda Jane not Lucy, Lucy.” Laughing the children continued the same at lunchtime.

 

Arriving home, Lucinda Jane told her parents she would never go back to that school and she never did. From that time on she was called LJ and at the age of sixteen legally changed her name. Her thick skin and aloofness remained with her until college when she met and fell in love with a classmate, Holly.

 

Holly was patient, kind and loving. Soon she was able to break down all the barriers LJ had set up and found the way to her heart. They were both passionate about archeology and spent many an hour at the Indian digs near the University. Holly was so full of life and so much fun to be with that LJ was certain she would spend the rest of her life with her.

 

Unfortunately life has a way of throwing curveballs and LJ and Holly had no free pass. It was the summer of their senior year at a dig in Mexico that…

 

“LJ, don’t!” squealed Holly. “I need to go get the drinking water for the camp…today is my turn.”

 

“The water can wait a bit longer, don’t you think?” LJ asked as she ran a finger lazily over a taut nipple. “You know you can’t resist my charms.” She purred.

 

Smiling Holly pulled the sheet up over their heads. “No, I never could.”

 

“Holly, it’s your turn to get the water so it is time to get out of bed lazybones.” A voice called from outside their tent.

 

LJ collapsed on top of her lover. “Don’t go.” She pleaded.

 

“Tell you what. You hold that thought and I will be back shortly and we can pick up where we left off.” She nuzzled the tempting neck. “I’ll go so fast you won’t have a chance to miss me.”

 

LJ rolled over. “I’ll hold you to that so I suggest you get a move on cause I’m timing you. Hey, you want me to go with you and help?”

 

“Always my protector.” She whispered climbing over the tantalizing woman as she stole one last kiss. “I’ll be fine. Go back to sleep so I can wake you when I return.” She winked before hurriedly putting on her clothes.

 

LJ stretched her long frame and rested her head on the fingers linked behind it. A smile of joy crossed her face as she fell asleep. Waking with a start she called out, “Holly.” Then looking at the clock she was alarmed that it had been over an hour since she had been gone.

 

Quickly getting up and dressing she exited the tent and began looking around. Satisfied that Holly was nowhere in site she went to the dig and asked if anyone had seen her. They hadn’t. “She went for water over an hour ago. She’s missing, we need to find her!” She shouted to the others.

 

Fifteen minutes later they found her lying on the path writhing in pain. What happened was evident by the two fang marks on her swollen leg. Swiftly she was carried back to camp and the anti-venom medicine she desperately needed.

 

Sitting by her side LJ held Holly’s hand as tears cascaded down her cheeks. If only I had gone with her. What an idiot I was to let her go alone. God, please don’t let her die. She prayed.

 

Twenty minutes later Holly opened her eyes and smiled at the vision before her. “LJ.” She whispered.

 

“Holly, thank God.” She said as she bent down to kiss her cheek. “You had me worried to death. Thank God you are going to be okay.” Tears were more abundant now realizing how close she came to losing the love of her life.

 

Once again Holly whispered. “LJ, I love you and I’ll wait for you.” Then she closed her eyes and passed peacefully from this life.

 

LJ sat there disbelieving what had happened. She can’t be gone…she was just speaking to me. “Come on baby, wake up and tell me this is all a nightmare.” She pleaded but she knew it wasn’t; her heart ached and she knew she was alone in the world.

 

It was then that her heart turned to ice vowing never to let another in. Her work would become her compensation for the emptiness in her life.

 

* * *

 

The summer’s dig in Peru had been a great success. LJ returned with a treasure trove of relics the likes of which she had never seen before. To her great dismay, her assistant of five months quit leaving her to fend for herself. The job had been posted and she interviewed several people but never could quite find the right one.

 

“Listen, LJ, if you are going to get any help you need to not be so hard on the applicants.” Rob Ludlow, the director of the museum, said to her.

 

“I will not have some lazy ass come to work here. All I have seen are people thinking this is a no-brainer job. They are either stupid or lazy or both. I will not have that! I will keep interviewing until the right one comes along. My research is far too important to trust it to some idiot looking for a free ride.”

 

Rob shook his head. “Did it ever occur to you that you have spent so much time with the dead that you have forgotten how to be human? LJ, you are not going to find anyone if you treat them as you did your last assistant. Can’t you try a little kindness?” If she weren’t such a valuable commodity he would have let her go long ago.

 

“Look around you, there are people working here that don’t have a problem with me.” LJ was annoyed with the man…who is he to be telling me who to hire? I know what I need!

 

“Only because they have no direct contact with you. I have a meeting with a potential candidate at eleven then I’ll send them down to you. You be nice…this one could be just what you need.”

 

LJ watched him walk away and muttered. “Like you have any idea about what I need.”

 

* * *

 

The fax arrived and the doctor looked it over quickly. Sure, Rob this is just what I need…someone with no experience. She thought as she put the paper back down and resumed her work.

 

LJ was deep in research as she heard her name. “Dr. Evans?” a female voice called out.

 

“Over here.”

 

Hearing footsteps LJ turned her head to see a small woman with short blonde hair and striking good looks. Hmm, she thought, not bad, not bad at all.

 

“Dr. Evans?” The woman spoke in a nervous yet clear voice.

 

“Mrs. Wilcox, take a seat and we can get started.” LJ looked the woman over once again sizing her up as she would an archeological site.

 

“Certainly.” Was the woman’s halting response.

 

LJ knew she had seen the resume but where she put it she hadn’t a clue so she moved things around on her desk until she found it. Looking at it again she remembered what had struck her the most about it and decided to start there. “Tell me, Mrs. Wilcox, do you feel like a falling star?”

 

“I’m sorry, I don’t know what you mean.”

 

Seeing the confused look on the face across from her, LJ thought, not too bright on the uptake.  Sighing she continued. “This resume’ of yours states that you were valedictorian in high school and graduated cum laude from the university then nothing after that. You apparently had a bright future that faded.”

 

Inwardly LJ smiled as she could see she had hit a nerve. “I consider taking care of my child a bright future.”

 

Good comeback she thought before she continued. “I see you took extensive courses in archeology and even did some field work. Can I assume you know about cataloguing and the care of antiquities?”

 

“Yes, I spent one field experience in Mexico unearthing Mayan ruins. I learned a great deal about documentation and the proper handling and restoring of finds. It is tedious work but the rewards are worth it.” Looking at the doctor the woman smiled and added. “You need to be a good puzzle person.”

 

LJ nodded her head liking how the woman spoke and the presence she had. There were still some troubling areas that needed to be discussed though, one being the child. “If your child is sick can I expect you to take time off to be mommy?”

 

“I don’t think that is an appropriate question to be asking, Dr. Evans.” The woman said irritated with the inquiry.

 

“I need to know if I can count on you being here, Mrs. Wilcox. The work I am doing is extremely important; I need reliable help.” LJ knew she was treading on thin ice asking questions that most likely could be construed as bias.

 

“Of course. My parents live here in town and are very supportive. They will take care of my daughter if she is ill or has school days off. I have also done extensive volunteer work and you could ask them how reliable I am…I‘ve never missed a day.”

 

LJ was playing her cards close to the vest knowing that she never wanted to give anyone the upper hand. Listening to the woman answer the questions LJ was struck by her composure and reticence under fire. She answered everything clearly and concisely challenging only when needed.

 

However, one last question needed to be answered. The woman had a bright future that faded when she married and the way LJ saw it there could only be one reason for that…the husband. So why has he allowed her to seek employment now? She wondered…the only way to find out is to ask. So she did.

 

“What does your husband think of your working?”

 

“He died eight months ago. It is just Allie and myself now.”

 

This was a turn of events LJ hadn’t considered. Judging by her address she certainly wasn’t in need of money so why does she want a job? Mulling this over for a moment LJ decided to ask the next most logical question. “Have you decided to start working so you can find yourself another man then quit the job?”

 

What happened next was clearly not what LJ expected. “How dare you ask that question, Dr. Evans? Not only is it inappropriate, it really is none of your business.” With that she got up from the chair and headed for the door.

 

Watching the woman walk briskly between the shelves LJ smiled to herself saying. “I do believe I have found the perfect person.” With that she picked up her phone and dialed Rob Ludlow’s office to have him offer Mrs. Wilcox the job. Finding him not there she left a message for him to get back to her.

 

Ten minutes later LJ once again heard footsteps coming her way. Looking up she saw Rob and thought he must have gotten her message and came to see her personally. As he got closer the look on his face told her this wasn’t going to be a friendly social call.

 

“Rob, what brings you to my neck of the woods?” She asked trying to test the waters.

 

Rob just stood there with a scowl on his face as he tried to compose himself before speaking.

 

Dealing with the problem directly LJ said, “I really was impressed with Mrs. Wilcox and would like to offer her the job. If that is all right with you.”

 

Rob was stunned at her comment. “Excuse me? Are you talking about the woman that felt the need to walk out on her interview with you?”

 

“Yep, she has a backbone and I like that. When can she start?”

 

He couldn’t believe this woman. “Exactly what makes you think she wants the job after you browbeat and intimidated her? That is absolutely unacceptable, Dr. Evans.”

 

Oops, he said Dr. Evans, which meant she was in trouble and she had to think fast.  “Rob, the work I do is very tedious and sometimes downright boring. The rewards outweigh all of that. I knew I wanted to hire Mrs. Wilcox after her first reply but I needed to have all my questions answered.” She took a breath trying to collect her thoughts enough to make this convincing. “I needed to know how far I could push her in order to know if she is up for the job. I must say she passed with flying colors in all areas.”

 

“That still doesn’t resolve the fact that she walked out and you made no attempt to stop her. Do you have any idea how bad that makes this museum look? And, frankly, I am not certain she wants to work for you.”

 

Sometimes in life it is necessary to eat humble pie to get what you want. “Rob, you are right, I was way out of order. Would you like me to call Mrs. Wilcox and apologize? I really want her to work with me.”

 

“No, let me do it. I’m not sure she would welcome your call. I’ll get back to you with her reply.” He began to leave but turned around and said. “LJ, you and I have been through a lot of years together so I feel I can say this to you. Let it go and join the world of the living.” Then he left.

 

No, she wouldn’t change anything. He didn’t have any idea of how much pain she was in or had been in. She liked herself and her life just as it was and that is how it would stay.

 

A half hour later her phone rang. “You’re in luck. She is coming back to fill out the forms. I will call you when she gets here to come to my office. I expect you to be pleasant and kind, LJ. If you need an assistant as bad as you say you will be on your best behavior.”

 

LJ didn’t even get a chance to speak as Rob hung up as soon as he was done speaking. Hey, I can do pleasant and kind. Yes, she would do everything possible to keep the woman happy for she needed Mrs. Wilcox just as badly as she suspected the woman needed to be here.

 

* * *

 

As soon as the call came, LJ headed quickly for the director’s office. Opening the door, she saw Mrs. Wilcox sitting there and smiling in her direction. Clearly out of her element, she didn’t know what to do other than take a seat and wait. Sitting across from the woman, LJ noticed once again how strikingly beautiful she was. The linen suit she wore hugged nicely to the taut body and the color accentuated the eyes, which she thought were green. Dare I speak? She thought, knowing she was on thin ice with Rob, she decided not to take the chance. Fortunately, he entered the room and motioned for them to his office.

 

Once inside they all sat down around a small conference table making it impossible for Kylie or LJ to sit anywhere but next to or across from each other.

 

“Mrs. Wilcox, thank you for coming back.” He began. “We need to talk with you about hours and salary then you and Dr. Evans need to get together and work out what your job responsibilities will be.”

 

In this setting the woman seemed soft and…tempting. LJ had to admit she found herself attracted to her although she was certain she didn’t have a snowballs chance in hell with her. Suddenly, she realized it was her turn to speak and cleared her throat in an attempt to collect her thoughts. What she didn’t quite comprehend is why she was daydreaming; that was completely out of character.

 

“Rob, I am very impressed with Mrs. Wilcox’s knowledge and enthusiasm. I know we have a starting salary based on experience and I suggest we start her off at the top rate. Also, since she has a daughter she needs to get off to school, I suggest her hours be from nine to four with a half hour paid lunch.”

 

“That idea sounds good to me, LJ. What do you think Mrs. Wilcox?”

 

The woman just sat there seemingly staring at LJ as if she were having a seizure of some sort.

 

“Mrs. Wilcox?” Rob said loudly.

 

“Oh, I’m sorry. Yes, that is most generous of you both. I am in shock; I can’t believe what is happening. Thank you, Dr. Evans, for your kindness, now I don’t have to burden my parents so much. Thank you.” Her eyes became fixed on LJ’s as she smiled.

 

“Great, now since that is done you two can head down to the tombs.” Rob dismissed the women as he got up and went back to his desk.

 

“Right, shall we go, Mrs. Wilcox?” LJ said as she got up and headed for the door.

 

“Sure.” Kylie said as she followed.

 

* * *

 

As they entered the workroom LJ pointed to a locker. “You can use that one for your coat and personal belongings. If you want a lock you will have to purchase your own. Down here is the area where you will spend most of your time.”

 

LJ looked over the worktable with pride. This was her idea, her study, and her find and when she finished, it would redefine Mayan history she was sure. The summer’s dig to the never before explored site was a bevy of artifacts revealing glyphs never seen before. “I know my way is a bit unconventional but I like things visual so I can recall exactly the time each item was found. What I need you to start with are making sure all the items match up with the catalog. After that, we will see if we can create any complete or nearly complete items.”

 

“I want to thank you for your generosity towards me. I really appreciate it.” Kylie said.

 

For LJ this type of praise was foreign. She expected people to do their job; as far as she was concerned a job well done was reward enough. Now, here was this woman thanking her for being generous which was a word she never associated with herself. “We shall see how grateful you are after a week, Mrs. Wilcox. I am expecting you to start as soon as possible, which means tomorrow.”

 

“Yes, I expect we will. Any chance you could call me Kylie? Mrs. Wilcox sounds like my mother in law.” LJ listened but did not hear. “Will tomorrow around noon be okay? I have some things I need to take care of before I begin working.”

 

LJ couldn’t believe this woman. Here she went out of her way to make sure her child was taken care of and now she wants to start at her pace.

 

Kylie noticed the look of disapproval. “Listen, I just called for an interview at eight forty-five this morning. I need to arrange for my daughter and reorganize my life. I can’t do that overnight.” Green bore into blue.

 

Shaking her head, LJ took a moment before answering. Exactly what do I do now? Shit, I hate this type of thing; give me artifacts any day! “Why don’t you plan to start Wednesday?” Damn this being nice is for the birds.  “I will see you then.” Adding, “Glad you’ll be working here.”

 

LJ heard the woman say, “Sure, see you then.” After she had already turned to go back to her office.

 

* * *

 

Wednesday came and for some reason LJ found herself anxious for the arrival of her new assistant. Kylie Wilcox did something no one had done to her in a long time…made her sit up and take notice. For LJ, that was very disconcerting and found herself desperately trying to distance herself from the woman by being cold and unresponsive.

 

Unlocking the side door she wondered if Kylie would arrive early. My guess is she will, seems like the type. Better make myself scarce for a while…I don’t want her thinking I’m sitting around waiting for her. With that she headed up the stairs to work on a new display she was setting up.

 

Sometime in the morning LJ took a moment to call the deli down the street to have a sandwich and salad delivered by eleven forty-five. Then she walked quietly to the workroom stopping at the doorway to watch her latest assistant. She was pleasantly surprised to see Kylie engrossed in her work. I didn’t think she was the type to wait around for me to tell her what to do and when to start. She thought to herself as she left the area. Good choice all around.

 

The deli order was delivered and LJ headed down the stairs to the workroom. It amused her to be standing there with bag in hand as Kylie worked seemingly unaware of her presence. Finally the woman lifted her head with a puzzled look on her face.

 

“Time for lunch. I didn’t know what you would want so I brought a turkey sandwich and a salad.”

 

It was clear that Kylie didn’t know what to make of her standing there. Shit I choose something she doesn’t like. “Don’t you like what I brought?”

 

“No, I mean yes, I do like it, I just didn’t know it was already lunch time. Let me get my wallet and I’ll pay you.”

 

The comment took LJ back a little, as she never intended Kylie to pay for lunch. Confusion rattled her brain before she managed to say, “No money needed, this is a benefit of the job.” This being nice is for the birds. What should I do now?

 

“Thank you. I lost track of time.”

 

There was that smile again and LJ had a hard time keeping herself from trying to smile back. She placed the bag on a nearby chair and walked towards the worktable. “Have you found any discrepancies? My team arranged all this after we got back from Peru last summer.”

 

“None so far. This is so fascinating…to think that someone long ago held the very piece in their hand that I am. Do you know anything about them yet?”

 

Cocking her head, LJ couldn’t help but smile at this small woman’s enthusiasm. “I think the site we found was a Mayan village. When the pieces start fitting together we will know more. The jungles of Peru hold many secrets it is just a matter of finding them and deciphering the clues we get. Any one of these items could hold the key to unlocking the mystery that surrounds their disappearance although most of the people in Peru are of Inca descendant in some way.” She loved talking about her work and try as she may could not hide the passion she felt about it.

 

“I find this all so exciting. I can remember the first time I found a cache of arrow and spearheads. It was such a thrill.”

 

Standing there for a moment, LJ was filled with the need to stay and talk with Kylie all day. But, that was an unacceptable option. “Hope you enjoy your lunch.” Is all she managed to say before leaving.

 

Over the next two days LJ would arrive in the workroom with lunch, check out what Kylie had done then leave before she could be drawn into a conversation. The woman unnerved her and that was sending up all sorts of red flags to keep away.

 

* * *

 

Friday afternoon, as with the past two days, LJ watched as Kylie left the museum. Heading back to her desk she flipped through some books trying to concentrate on her research. As it had everyday since the blonde’s arrival, she found it difficult to stay focused.

 

Getting up she began pacing, trying to get a handle on the agitation she was feeling. “This has got to stop!” She said out loud to all the stored relics in the room. Sitting once again her mind drifted back to happier times recalling Holly and how wonderful it felt to hold her. That’s when she knew exactly what she needed.

 

Parking her truck in the crowded lot, LJ walked towards Rusty’s and a night of pleasure. Entering the swinging doors she nodded to the bartender who handed her the usual. Perching herself on a table just inside the doorway she surveyed the crowd just as a fat slob of a man approached her.

 

“Hey baby, good to see you here tonight. Can I buy you another one?”

 

Without even looking at the man, LJ said, “Get lost.”

 

The man continued. “Why don’t you come with me honey and I can show you a real good time.” The man was leering at her, his breath stale with beer and cigarettes.

 

Suddenly, ice cold blue orbs focused on him as she grabbed his balls and squeezed hard. The man’s face turned red as he grimaced in pain. “I said, get lost!” Then she gave one last hard squeeze before letting go.

 

The man turned and walked slowly away trying not to grab himself in an effort to stop the pain.

 

Just then the band began playing and LJ took a long swallow of her beer gazing at the singer as she lost herself in the music.

 

When the band took a break LJ saw the lead singer, Cassie coming her way. Yep, she is just what I need. She thought as she felt herself becoming aroused.

 

“Hey lover, glad to see you here tonight.” The singer purred as she leaned into the doctor. “Mmm, you smell so good.” Cassie rubbed her body against LJ’s legs as she bent to whisper in her ear. “What do you say we get out of here? I can’t wait to feel you inside me.”

 

LJ was on fire, throbbing with desire as she felt the woman’s hot breath in her ear. Taking Cassie’s hand she followed her outside to the truck. Getting inside they embraced in a flurry of passion as hands began groping and touching.

 

Stopping the advances of the singer, LJ whispered. “No, let me.” Then she ripped at the shirt as her mouth closed around the taut waiting nipple pierced with a ring. Her teeth grabbed hold of the golden orb and tugged until the singer squealed in delight. Then her hand went under Cassie’s skirt and was pleased there were no panties to deal with. Jamming her fingers inside she pumped hard and fast. This is just what I need…an impersonal, mind blowing fuck. She thought as she reveled in the singer’s moans for more.

 

Cassie came up for air trying hard to breath after eating the doctor into an explosion of fluids and sounds. “Mmm, you take my breath away, lover. You like the feel of my tongue ball against your clit, don’t you?”

 

LJ could only grunt as she too gasped for air. The effect the tongue piercing had on her was amazing. It drove her to distraction and that was what she needed! To rid her of the tension she had been feeling over the last few days. All because of the green eyed blonde that even now was invading her thoughts.

 

Cassie closed in on the doctor again, ready for more. LJ pushed her away. “Don’t you have some singing to do?” she said, her voice cold and distant.

 

The look on the singer’s face said it all. She knew it was over and there wouldn’t be more. It was always like that. “You know one day you’re going to want me and I am going to say no.”

 

LJ snickered. “That will never happen and you know it. Now run along.” Pulling her jeans up she zipped them then put the key in the ignition and started up the truck. Staring coldly at the singer she raised an eyebrow. ”I said go.”

 

As Cassie walked away LJ put it in gear and started down the street giving the bar one last glance before heading into the dark of the night alone.

 

 

* * *

 

Monday came around and LJ found herself once again watching and listening for the blonde to arrive. As noon approached butterflies began to flutter around in her stomach. She tried desperately to keep her distance from Kylie but longed to just feel her close.

 

With the woman’s departure each day LJ felt a pang of loss and sorrow. She was confused and upset with herself for allowing anyone to have an effect on her. At the end of each day she resolved not to allow her emotions to run unchecked again. She meant it too until she heard the door open each morning.

 

It was several weeks later when she entered the workroom and Kylie greeted her with a broad smile and excitement. “Look, LJ, I finally have a whole one.”

 

Reaching over LJ brushed Kylie’s hand and she had to catch her breath. For a moment blue and green held each other before letting go. Taking the bowl in her hand, LJ began examining it. “What do you make of these markings? They’re rather odd and different from anything I’ve seen before.” Her calloused finger pointed to a strange marking that looked almost like a sun symbol but not quite.

 

“I noticed that too and checked to make sure part of it wasn’t missing. It’s intact. Do you think it is Incan?” Kylie moved to get a better view.

 

Picking up a magnifying glass LJ leaned in closer as their heads almost touched. Again she had to close her eyes to gather her wits. Being so close to the small woman made her senses peak and it took all she had not to act on those feelings. Focusing only on the bowl was her only way of keeping herself in check. “I think we have a significant find here.” Turning towards Kylie she was puzzled by the look on the blonde’s face. “I brought you a chicken Caesar salad today. When you are done, see what else you can come up with in that area.”

 

LJ took the opportunity to leave the work area quickly. Once she was out of the room she leaned back against the cool tiles of the wall. Damn, what am I getting myself into? Shaking her head and muttering to herself she went back to her office. Get a grip on yourself.

 

As always, LJ was watching for Kylie to leave and became a bit concerned when four thirty rolled around. She was about to go and check on her when she heard the familiar footsteps. Quickly she grabbed the reconstructed bowl and began looking intently at it.

 

“I’m leaving now. I think I may be on to another piece but right now my eyes are too tired to focus.”

 

LJ looked up and stretched. “Yeah, that can happen. Sometimes you just need to walk away to get refocused.” There were those green eyes again and the smile that almost made LJ smile back. She turned quickly back to the bowl afraid her eyes would betray her true feelings. As she heard Kylie leaving she began to breath easier…but not for long.

 

“LJ, would you like to have dinner with Allie and me?”

 

Closing her eyes, to try once again to gain control of herself, she sighed. “I can’t tonight, some other time maybe.”

 

“Sure.” Kylie responded.

 

Watching the blonde walk away LJ’s heart sank. It can never happen. She thought with a bit of sadness in the words.

 

* * *

 

It had been another emotional week for LJ. Watching Kylie leave she vowed to stop her stupid schoolgirl ways. Mooning over someone who would never care about me like that…what is wrong with me? REALITY Lucinda Jane, don’t you get it?

 

Once again she began pacing and chastising herself for her perceived weakness. The little voice inside her head told her what she needed and she argued with it until she lost the battle. Leaving the museum she headed to her small apartment to get a shower and then go out. She knew where she would go and what she would do there and she loathed herself. But, she needed release, she needed to dominate and take and that was just what she would do.

 

Arriving at Rusty’s she sat in her truck for a long time. With her window rolled down she could hear the mellow sounds of Cassie’s voice. She knew what she required so she got out and headed for the swinging doors. Pausing for a moment she shook her head and thought, you’re pathetic, before going inside.

 

The crowd was thinning out as the band prepared for their first break of the night. LJ just sat there as Cassie came up and leaned into her. “Thought you weren’t going to do this anymore.”

 

Cassie’s lips lingered near LJ’s ear running the gold ball over the lobe, as she said. “I thought you weren’t coming back.” Then she bit the lobe.

 

LJ’s eyes were scanning the room while Cassie was having her way with the ear when she saw, but also felt, the beautiful green eyes on her. For a moment her heart seemed to stop while she tried to comprehend why Kylie would be here.

 

“Hey, LJ, I thought that was you.” Kylie said as she approached the couple.

 

Standing up and pushing Cassie aside, LJ found herself at a loss for words. “It’s me alright.” Then she felt Cassie by her side again as if she were protecting her territory. “Wait outside for me.” She commanded, irritated by the singer. “Do you come here often? Doesn’t seem like your kind of place.” It was strange to see this beautiful woman in a place like this.

 

“And, just what would my kind of place be?” Kylie’s face was serious before she added. “My friends and I used to come here all the time so tonight I thought I would see if it had changed any.”

 

“Has it?”

 

“Not really…well, you’re here.” Hearing the laugh and seeing the beautiful smile LJ responded with a smile of her own.

 

“I don’t come here often myself, only when I am in the mood.” I wonder what would happen if she knew what that mood entails? LJ asked herself as she slowly eyed the blonde.

 

“It was nice seeing you, LJ.” The blonde was turning to go and LJ felt anxiety at the thought of her leaving.

 

“Are you leaving? I’ll walk out with you.” LJ caught up with her and headed to the door also. Her heart was racing. Shit, Cassie is out there waiting for me. Damn it! It was too late to do anything as the doors swung open and they walked out into the night air.

 

Once outside she felt Kylie touch her arm. “You can do better than that, LJ.” She said as her eyes glanced at the singer.

 

LJ couldn’t believe her ears. She took Kylie’s arm and led her to the side of the building. Looking directly into the green eyes she asked. “I can do better? With who, you?” She didn’t mean to sound so angry but LJ was clearly out of her element here and that scared her.

 

Then she heard the word, “Yes.”

 

LJ pulled her close and kissed her deeply. “Is that what you want?”

 

“Yes.” Was said again as the small blonde pulled her in for another penetrating kiss.

 

All the bells and whistles were going off in her head. “It will never happen.” Inside she was shaking like a leaf so afraid to let her true emotions show...terrified of what might happen if she did.

 

“Why?” The woman asked as LJ turned away.

 

Walking over to Cassie, LJ grabbed her by the hand and began swiftly walking away dragging the singer towards her car. Once the car door shut she roughly kissed the singer as she lifted up her skirt and jammed three fingers inside. Cassie tried to do the same but LJ’s strong hand pulled her away as she said, “NO!” Cassie’s orgasm came hard and fast but LJ didn’t let up. “Again, come again for me.” She commanded as she began once more to pump the woman hard. When Cassie cried out, “Stop you’re hurting me.” LJ took her fingers out and wiped them on the singer’s skirt. Opening the door, she got out only to turn back. “I won’t be back ever again.” She said as she slammed the door shut. Hanging her head she headed for her truck and the lonely night with her shame.

 

* * *

 

Looking in the bathroom mirror LJ wondered how her life had gotten so out of control. For the last fifteen years she found no need to have friends or even be pleasant to people. All she needed was her work and an occasional impersonal liaison. Now she was confused, fetching lunches and worrying about another human being.

 

“You have to get a grip on yourself.” She said to the image in front of her.

 

“But, how do I do that?” the image argued back.

 

“You suck it up and rebuild your defenses, simple as that.” She countered.

 

“I don’t want to go back to being alone.” Was the reply.

 

A tear began its way down her cheek as she thought of how lonely her life has been since Holly passed. Suddenly, she wiped the tear away and walked into her bedroom. Quickly, she changed into jeans and a t-shirt and put on her work boots. Gathering up her “dig” bag she headed for the door.

 

The university had a site south of the city where beginner students could dig and that is where she would go. There she could center herself again and find the answers she needed. Once there she could feel the healing sun on her back as she carefully dug looking for the past to find her future.

 

* * *

 

LJ arrived at work on Monday at six in the morning as she had everyday. The time in the field had cleared her mind and now her cool exterior was back in place. No more would she allow her emotions to rule her. She would conduct herself in a business like manner starting with making no mention of the previous Friday night.

 

Taking her coffee she entered the workroom looking for other clues that might lead to what the curious glyph meant. Finding what Kylie last worked on she inspected it and recognized why she had a problem. Then, she began picking up various photos and scrutinized them looking for something similar. So intent on what she was doing she didn’t hear the footsteps.

 

“Good morning. Didn’t expect to see you in here this early.” Kylie’s words were halting as she walked quickly to the area she had been working in on Friday.

 

LJ followed her. “Is this the piece you had trouble with?” she asked.

 

“Yes, it seems to be missing some pieces.” The woman was clearly uncomfortable.

 

LJ fought the urge to sooth the woman’s embarrassment. Instead she picked up a drawing pencil and started to sketch something. “You see, it is supposed to look something like this. You have to look beyond what you think you see to what is…kind of like looking outside the box. If you haven’t any preconceived ideas of what it is and just look at the parts for what they are…parts…then you may have an easier time of it.  From what I can see there is not enough to make a complete piece. Why don’t you try and form something that looks like this and then see what you need. It is not often that we can find all the pieces like you did before.”

 

“I see I will try that. Thank you.”

 

One thing LJ realized over the weekend with the students was she hadn’t taken any time to teach Kylie. She had courses and experience, but it was limited and years had passed. It was time to act like a teacher and mentor and that is exactly what she intended to do.

 

Putting the fragile fragments down LJ moved to another area. “When you are done with that I want you to look over here and see what you can do.”

 

With her new strategy in force LJ left the room only to return with lunch. Every time she entered the room she used it as a learning experience for Kylie. Yes, it was a plan she could live with.

 

* * *

 

The next few months became intense as more and more pieces were completed and the unknown symbol showed up on most of them. Long into the night LJ would work pouring over volume after volume trying to decipher it’s meaning. She would arrive at four in the morning so she could contact overseas colleagues and pick their brains.

 

She was exhausted and her brain was beginning to shut down, as she would find herself getting confused. The words walk away from the problem echoed in her ears. When she would become frustrated with a problem, Holly would take her by the hand and say those words. Her mind drifted back to happier times but was brought back to reality when she heard a voice.

 

“Hey, are you okay?” Kylie asked.

 

It was as if the small blonde was reading her mind. She turned her head in the direction of the voice and actually smiled. “Nothing that a week’s sleep won’t cure.” LJ said as she closed her eyes realizing for the first time just how tired her mind and body were.

 

She was rewarded with the sincere, sweet, soft sounds of Kylie’s voice. “Why don’t you give yourself permission to take a night off and come home with me and have a good home cooked meal. Bet it’s been a while since you had one of those.”

 

Leaning back in her chair and sighing, she closed her eyes again. This woman, who LJ had been rude, nasty and cold towards, was speaking to her with kindness and compassion. “I would like that very much. Thank you.” Swiveling around in her chair she looked straight at Kylie. “Want me to bring anything?” She was rewarded with what could only be described as a goofy grin.

 

“Nope. You aren’t a picky eater are you?” She asked with a playful tone.

 

LJ smirked at the notion of her eating habits being picky. “I have sat in the jungle and eaten bugs. Don’t think there is anything you can serve I won’t eat.”

 

“Good, is six okay with you?”

 

“I will be there.” She turned back to her research as Kylie left but added. “Um, Kylie, will I need a map to get there?”

 

Laughing Kylie replied. “Hey, you have hacked your way through dense undergrowth I bet you can find your way to my home.”

 

Lifting her head she looked at the space that just moments before held the blonde. How can she be nice to me after the horrible way I’ve treated her? No one ever cared about me like that except…

 

 

* * *

 

LJ left shortly after Kylie and went to her small apartment to take a shower and clean up. On her way to Kylie’s she considered stopping for wine but decided not to because one glass and she would be a goner.

 

Pulling her truck into the driveway of the house, she paused for a moment trying to convince herself she should just leave. The fact of the matter was she didn’t want to leave; she wanted to go into the warm home and for a brief moment, find some peace.

 

Walking up to the door, LJ found herself feeling a sense of happiness. Waiting for the door to open she heard a small voice from inside say, “I’ll get it Mommy.”

 

Standing there, holding the knob was a small miniature version of Kylie. “Hi, my name is Allie, who are you?”

 

LJ couldn’t help herself, she smiled broadly as she squatted down to the child’s level and held out her hand. “Hi, Allie, my name is LJ.”

 

Looking up she saw Kylie standing there looking more beautiful than LJ had ever seen her. “Hi, glad you could make it. I see you have already met my daughter.” Smiling she added. “Come on in, dinner is almost ready. Are you hungry?”

 

Going inside LJ was shocked as Allie quickly grabbed her hand. “Want to come see my Barbie’s?” Her green eyes were looking up in hope.

 

A feeling of fear coursed through LJ. Of all the dangers she had faced in her life nothing scared her like the thought of this child. “Hmm, why don’t I help your Mom first then we can take a look.”

 

“Allie, why don’t you go wash up for dinner.” Kylie gently touched her daughter’s shoulder. “Then after dinner you can bring one doll down to show our guest.”

 

Allie was all smiles. “Okay, Mommy.”

 

“Sorry about that…I think she likes you. Do you want anything to drink?” Kylie was smiling. “Come on in and have a seat, dinner will be ready as soon as I put it on the table.”

 

LJ didn’t quite know what to do; being social was not one of her strong points. Taking a deep breath she spoke. “Would you like some help?”

 

“Sure come on, I can always use some help.”

 

The food was wonderful. It had been longer than she could remember when she actually had a decent meal. She listened to the endless chatter of Allie and was surprised when she found it rather amusing instead of irritating.

 

She was not prepared, however, for the child grabbing her hand once dinner was over. “Come on.” Starting for the stairs and her Barbie collection.

 

“Allie, I don’t think Dr. Evans wants…”

 

“It’s okay, I don’t mind.” LJ headed up the stairs wondering, what the hell are Barbie’s?

 

Barbie, LJ found out, was a skinny, busty blonde clothes hog that always stood on her toes. Allie was animated as she put on a fashion show of the latest Barbie fashions.

 

“Allie, what do you say we go down and keep your mother company?”

 

The child’s face lit up. “Mommy needs my company, she gets lonely and sometimes she cries. Will you carry me?” She asked hopefully.

 

“Sure I will.” Picking the child up in her arms she headed down the stairs. LJ was feeling somewhat disturbed by the thought of Kylie crying.

 

“Looks like you two had a good time with the Barbie’s.” Kylie said as she smiled.

 

“Mommy, she is a really good Barbie player. Can she come back and play with me again?”

 

“We’ll see pumpkin.” Kylie bent down and gave the child a kiss and a hug. “Now why don’t you get ready for bed then I will tuck you in.”

 

“But, Mommy…” The child began to whine.

 

“No, buts, Allie, you know the rules. Now go and get ready for bed.”

 

“Okay.” Allie pulled a pathetic face as she headed back up the stairs only to turn around and say, “Will you tuck me in too?” She appeared pitiful as she looked at LJ.

 

“Sure I will, Allie.” A feeling of warmth coursed through LJ.

 

LJ sat on the sofa with Kylie and for the first time in weeks she felt relaxed. This was just what she needed. Leaning forward to get her coffee cup she touched Kylie’s hand when they both had the same idea. Moving her lips towards the quivering ones in front of her they kissed.

 

LJ found herself becoming lost in the kisses. Kylie felt so wonderful in her arms and she desperately needed to feel close to the blonde. She wanted this more than she ever wanted anything else. Then she heard the words…

 

“Make love to me…please.” Kylie’s raspy voice cried out.

 

Falling deeper into the kisses LJ began to move her hands over the trembling body. How I want her she thought as the kisses intensified. A little voice invaded her thoughts and suddenly she pulled back and said. “I can’t.”

 

“Yes, please, yes.” A muffled, intense voice cried.

 

Everything inside LJ wanted to stay and make love to this woman but she knew it was wrong. Getting up she moved away from Kylie trying to make some distance between them. “I can’t, I just can’t.”

 

“But you could with that singer? What is wrong with me? If it is because I work for you, I’ll quit.” It was clear Kylie didn’t understand.

 

“You don’t understand, the singer means nothing to me. You deserve better and I can’t give it to you.” She desperately tried to explain as her body was crying out to take the woman to bed.

 

“That isn’t good enough. Why, LJ, why?”

 

“Kylie, you are asking me to climb to the top of Kukulcan’s Pyramid and I am telling you I don’t have any feet but you still want me to climb the 365 steps. I just can’t, don’t you see that?”

 

“All I can see is that you don’t want me.” She was crying and LJ hated herself for allowing things to get so out of hand.

 

LJ sat back down, took the blonde’s hand and gazed into the watery green eyes. “Kylie, you are not a one night stand…you’re forever and I just can’t give you that.”

 

Pulling Kylie close to her and holding her tight LJ closed her eyes as she wondered what she would do now. To do as her mind and her body wanted, she would have to totally commit to Kylie…if she did that, she would have to let go of the past and Holly. Could she do that? She needed time…

 

Continued in Part 3

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