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Disclaimer and Acknowledgments
This is an adult story that primarily features stories involving women. If it is illegal in the state, province, or country in which you live; or if you are under the age of 18, please leave the site and find something else to read.There are consensual sexual relations between adult women, which may be graphically explicit.There are elements of strong language, violence, physical and/or mental, as well as some emotional hurt and discomfort in the story.The events portrayed in this story are fictional and any resemblance to actual events and/or people is purely coincidental.The poem, To The One Away, is by Sara Teasdale and is acknowledged in this story.Acknowledgment: Thank you for all your help Alice and Packie.Dedication: This story is for two special ladies, Vi and Carmen.Author's Note:
This story was written in three parts. The first part is from Kiley's viewpoint. The second part is from LJ's viewpoint about the same events. The last part is from both their viewpoints. The reading of the first story Possibilities may help in the understanding of the characters in this story.
Introduction Many people go through life with the feeling something is missing. They can look around them, see their families, jobs and possessions, and wonder why they aren?t happy. Happiness relies on making a total commitment to the life one is living and for some that is difficult.
LJ Evans thought she found happiness when Kiley Wilcox came into her life. They pledged their love for one another and promised that love would last forever. She didn?t realize there was a difference between wanting and committing. Can she let her previous life?s priorities go and become a ?we??
Kiley Wilcox finally discovered what real love was when LJ came into her life. She knew in her heart this was forever, but could the old doubts ever completely disappear? What will happen when she realizes that the choices she?s made will not sit to well with others?
Is their love strong enough to survive temptations and public opinion? Will their relationship bring them the fulfillment they both long for?
~ Of Love And Betrayal ~
~ ~ ~ ?Damn you! Damn you to hell!? Kiley sobbed as she pounded LJ?s chest. ?Why, why? How could you do this to us?? she asked as she collapsed against the taller woman.Wrapping arms around her love, LJ whispered as tears coursed down her cheeks. ?Please forgive me."
~ ~ ~ Kiley Prejudices and Suspicions Sliding down onto the floor, crying, as the dust retreated with the truck, Kiley thought back to the events that brought her to this point. She found it hard to believe how her life had become unraveled in less than an hour. How could LJ profess her love, but do this? Could there have been a clue that this was coming? Her thoughts wondered back over their lives together?For the first time in her life she was truly happy, blissful, in fact. The smile on her face, the spring in her step and the joy she found in life all reflected the tranquility she felt. LJ Evans had turned her world upside down and all around. The very thought of the woman sent her senses into hyperspace?she had found true love and it was hers!
The move to Rhodes End was hectic, but worthwhile as it was one step in sealing a committed bond. Allie was in a new school and appeared completely happy with the situation. In fact, she had taken to calling LJ mom, much to the delight of both LJ and Kiley.
Most surprising of all to Kiley, was her parent?s acceptance of the relationship, as they became an integral part of the new family. Before his heart attack, Carl was a well-known architect and eagerly accepted the opportunity to design the addition to the house. Dorothy, ever the doting grandmother, continued to be there for Allie when she came home from school.
What Kiley didn?t fully comprehend was the fact that not everyone was as accepting and understanding of her relationship with LJ. That fact slapped her in the face with one phone call?
As Kiley came in the door from work, the phone was ringing. Answering it she heard?
?Mrs. Wilcox, this is Pam Green, Allie?s teacher.?Alarmed, Kiley asked, ?Is something wrong.?Laughing the teacher responded. ?No, no nothing is wrong I just wanted to tell you how much I enjoy your daughter in my class. She is delightful and frequently challenges me with her endless questions.?Kiley laughed also, ?That would be our Allie. Thank you for taking the time to call me, Mrs. Green. Since this is a new school I did wonder how she was adjusting.??She?s doing just fine. I did want to share with you something she said today?if that?s all right with you.??Of course, go ahead.? Allie said as a sense of trepidation filled her mind.?We had just finished our science lesson about fossils and Allie came up to my desk.??My LJ is an archeologist and has lots of fossils she could show us.??Really, Allie, who is LJ???My mom!? Allie said.?Allie, I thought your mother?s name was, Kiley.? The teacher asked, confused by the comment.?She?s my other mom.? Allie wondered why the teacher was so dense.?Oh, your step-mom. I didn?t know you had a step mother, Allie.??Noooooo, she?s my mom, too!??Oh, I see, I will have to call your mom and ask her to show us the fossils. Now go and finish up your assignment.?Kiley spoke cautiously. ?Allie is quite outspoken, isn?t she.??Mrs. Wilcox, I thought you should know what Allie is saying at school. Perhaps you should caution her as to what she says about her home life.?Kiley was fuming. ?Am I understanding you correctly, Mrs. Green, you want me to tell our daughter to lie about her mothers???No, not at all, I think you have misunderstood me, I would never tell anyone to encourage their child to lie!??Oh, I think I understood you completely, and I will be having a conversation with the principal about your comments.?The teacher began to sputter. ?What I was trying to say, albeit poorly, was that this is a small, close knit community and everyone is in everyone else?s business. I wanted to spare Allie any sort of recriminations.??Are you threatening me???No, I?m not, I am worried about your daughter and what will happen when other students find out?well, not so much the children, their parents.? She took a deep breath and continued. ?I have first hand experience, and the people in this town can be very vicious.?Pausing, Kiley gathered her thoughts. ?Are you telling me you are a lesbian???No, something much worse around these parts, I?m Chicano. I think your daughter is wonderful and I am sincere in my desire to keep her, and you from facing what I have.??Thank you for your concern, I understand what you are saying.? Kiley?s mind was whirling.?You?re welcome. If it is at all possible I would like to see some of the fossils your partner has.??Right, I will let you know. Mrs. Green, I?m sorry for earlier, thank you for calling. Bye.?The incident shook her to the core; this was her child and she would protect her at all cost. Did that cost mean giving up LJ? Did it mean she would have to chose between her child?s happiness and her own? Her heart ached at the thought for she knew what living a shallow existence entailed. LJ had shown her what joy and happiness were?could she just give that up?She heard the familiar sound of the old truck as it pulled up outside the house. The thump of boots on the porch and the creaking of the screen door meant only one thing?LJ was home. Turning, Kiley?s face filled with a smile as she saw the goofy look on LJ?s face. Just then a whirl screamed by her as Allie jumped into the waiting arms.
?Mom, can you come to my school and be my show and tell? Please, please?I drew you a picture, too.?
?Slow down, squirt.? LJ laughed as she kissed and hugged the girl before setting her down on the counter. ?Now, what is this about school??
?I told my teacher you could come and bring fossils cause you?re a arcologist.?
?Archeologist, Allie, not arcologist.?
?Will you come? I would have the best show and tell of everyone. Please.? She begged.
Laughing, LJ lifted Allie, kissed her again and then placed her on the floor. ?Tell you what, why don?t you go do your chores and help Ben feed the horses while I talk with your mom.?
?Okay, but don?t look at the picture till I get back!? Allie was shaking her finger as she spoke. ?I got to go and help Ben?bye.? She said as she flew out the door.
Laughing, LJ walked over to Kiley and hugged her. ?Do you have any idea what she?s talking about??
Kiley stood on her tiptoes as she gave her lover a kiss. ?I sure do, let me tell you about the phone call I had??
?There you have it. What do you think? I?m afraid I was a bit hard on Mrs. Green. LJ, is our daughter going to be an outcast because we love each other? Am I that naïve? ?
?I certainly hope Allie is not the target of prejudice. But, it sounds to me like I am going to be a show and tell for her.? LJ laughed as she pulled Kiley in for a kiss. ?We can?t stop people from talking, but we can prepare Allie. You may be a bit naïve, but everything will work out, I promise.?
Kiley leaned into the woman, thankful for having her in her life. LJ was right, they couldn?t stop people from talking; it would be necessary to talk with Allie and prepare her for the ugliness of the world. What a sad lesson to learn at such a young age. She mused.
~ ~ ~
It would be five months before LJ and her group headed out for the site in Peru, yet planning had already begun. Kiley resented the intrusion into her domain and the amount of time that LJ needed to spend making the arrangements. Students and their professor visited often as preparations were made for an expedition they hoped would be as fruitful as the year before.
Dr. Maxine Dylan, who worked at the University as an archeology professor, or something like that, accompanied the students. Kiley really didn?t know her title and was just as happy being ignorant on the subject. According to LJ she was quite good at what she did and had collaborated with the excursions for the past five years. Apparently she provided the work force in the form of her best students and graduate assistants. LJ was very excited about the group this year since they were especially talented.
From the first moment she saw the professor Kiley didn?t like her. She oozed sensuality and seemed to stalk LJ, ready to pounce and devour her. Maybe that was the reason LJ always seemed to steer the woman away from her. It was clear to Kiley that there was a definite connection between the two women.
?LJ.? Kiley said sweetly as they shared lunch in the workroom.
Looking up from her book, LJ smiled. ?What is it, baby??
?What?s up with this Dylan woman? For some reason every time she?s here, I feel like I need to protect my territory.? Kiley spoke cautiously as this was the first time she had ever asked about prior relationships.
?Your territory? Is she coming into the workroom and bothering you?? LJ?s voice seemed to be laced with irritation.
The tone of her partner?s voice told Kiley to back off. ?It?s nothing?I?m just being irrational.?
Closing her book with a loud thud, LJ?s eyes pierced her. ?If the woman is bothering you I want to know! I will not have any of those people harassing you. Is that clear??
Kiley?s stomach was doing flip-flops as she realized she had hit a very sensitive nerve. Reaching over she put her hand on top of the larger one. ?It isn?t anything, really. She just has an air about her?like she is the queen or something like that.? It was time for her to diffuse the situation. She would not press the issue, sure that in time, LJ would tell her all the details.
LJ?s eyes seemed to be searching hers, looking for any deception. Kiley held her gaze and struggled to keep her true feelings hid.
?She can be like that.? LJ finally said. ?Just let me know if she does anything to offend or upset you.? There seemed to be true concern in her voice.
Kiley smiled. ?I will, my love. We?d better clean up, they should be here anytime now.?
The afternoon had been particularly hectic with twelve students wondering around her workroom. This was the first time they had come into her workspace and Kiley hated the intrusion. Her ears perked up when she heard the mention of LJ?s name.
?I thought Dr. Dylan was good looking, but Dr. Evans is one hot babe!? One student exclaimed.
?Yeah, did you see how close they were standing together? >From what I hear they are quite vocal in camp.? Winking, the man continued, ?Know what I mean?? Wholehearted laughs and snickers could be heard as the two moved away.
Kiley?s heart fell as her stomach churned. Her world was crumbling around, as her mind was flooded with thoughts of betrayal and lies. Is that why LJ doesn?t want me around? Are they still lovers? Her thoughts were interrupted by a loud crash.
Hurrying toward the sound she saw a student standing speechless, with one of the artifacts she labored to piece together laying on the floor, shattered.
?What the hell do you think you?re doing? Do you know how long it took to put that together?? She screamed as she pushed the kid away before stooping down to pick up the pieces.
?I?I?I?m sorry.? The girl cried.
?It?s a bit late for apologies!? She spat out.
The girl stood there trembling as she saw LJ enter the room.
?What?s going on here??
Kiley didn?t need to look up; she knew the voice. ?This idiot just managed to wipe away two solid weeks of work.? She said as she recovered the last of the pieces.
LJ turned to the student. ?The others are getting ready to leave, why don?t you join them.? Crouching down, she looked into Kiley?s eyes. ?What?s going on? You have been on edge all day, that?s not like you.?
Kiley sat down on the floor. ?What?s the matter?? She growled as she held out the pieces. ?Look at this! These idiot kids come in here and think they can do anything they want! The result is weeks worth of work gone!? Her face was red with anger. ?Do you have any idea what goes on here, or are you too busy with Dr. Dylan to notice??
LJ took the pieces and set them on the table before sitting down next to Kiley. ?I love you.? She said as she took her partner?s hand. ?Do you want to tell me what is really bothering you??
?Are you deaf? I said these kids are driving me crazy.?
?They?ll be with us in Peru, so you?d better get use to them now.?
Kiley tilted her head as her eyebrows scrunched together. ?Us? Am I going with you??
LJ let out a hearty laugh. ?Of course you?re going. How could I exist there without you??
Arms were enclosed around her lover?s neck as Kiley kissed the tempting lips. ?You really mean it, I?m going with you??
Standing up, LJ offered Kiley her hand, helped her to her feet then hugged her close. ?Entreat me not to leave thee, or to return from following after thee; for whither thou goest, I will go; and where thou lodgest, I will lodge?? LJ asked, ?Do you recognize that??
?Yes, Ruth.? A tear of happiness coursed down her cheek
?We are one, Kiley, in heart and soul for all time. I?m not letting you go, ever.?
She buried her face in the strong shoulder and heard, ?I love you.? Here in LJ?s arms, hearing the words of love and commitment, Kiley knew she was loved. Nevertheless, in the back of her mind, the student?s words continued to swirl.
~ ~ ~
Collapsing on the bed, sweaty bodies sighed in complete satisfaction. LJ had been very attentive and loving ever since the incident at the museum. It seemed to Kiley, that LJ was going out of her way to prove how much she was love. They had made love every night and morning since. Each time the intensity level was ratcheted up a notch leaving her craving the woman again.
LJ rolled over and kissed her cheek. ?What do you say, is it time we start thinking about adding to our family? Let?s have a house full of kids.? Her arm slid over the naked body next to her.
Kiley, still filled with the haze of their love making, found it difficult, at first, to comprehend what LJ was saying. ?What?? she said. Then it dawned on her what she just heard. Her eyes opened wide. ?Do you really mean that, a baby? Oh, yes, yes, I want that so much, Lucy.?
?I can?t think of anything more perfect than sharing my life with you and our children.? Came the soft words.
?If we get the ball rolling now we can seriously pursue baby making when we return from Peru.? Kiley said as they lay together snuggled under the soft sheet.
?Good idea and we can even give it a try now?from what I?ve read it rarely works on the first try.?
Lifting herself up to look directly at her lover, Kiley smiled as she stroked the ebony hair. ?I want the father to be tall with dark hair and blue eyes like yours. Our child should look like you, Lucy.? Then she smiled. ?And, if it?s a girl, I want to name her after you?Lucinda Jane Wilcox Evans. That has a nice ring to it, don?t you think??
LJ pulled her down for a kiss. ?Whatever you want, Baby.?
?Really? Hmm, I want you.?
?You already have that, Love. Shall I show you??
?Oh, yes, please do.? Kiley giggled as she positioned her body on top of LJ?s. A baby. She thought. ?I love you, Lucy.? She said, as she once again was falling into the endless abyss of love for the woman.
~ ~ ~
Taking a seat and looking around the doctor?s office, she didn?t see her lover. Kiley wanted LJ there with her when she met the doctor that would perform the artificial insemination. The old fear found its way into her consciousness?she?s probably with that Dylan woman. Her stomach churned as she tired to get a grip on her emotions. LJ hasn?t given me any reason to think this way. It was nothing more than the conjecture by two immature kids. Wasn?t it? Trust, Kiley, trust what you know.
She was brought out of her musings when the nurse called her name. Looking hopefully towards the door she was disappointed to see it wasn?t LJ.
?I have someone who is suppose to be here with me, when she arrives will you bring her to where I am??
?Certainly, dear. Nothing to be nervous about, Dr. Gaston is a very nice woman.? The nurse said as she showed Kiley into the doctor?s main office.
Sitting down, Kiley looked around the room and noted the various diplomas on the walls. A picture on the desk made her think it was the doctor with her husband and sons. The door opened and Kiley turned to see a round woman, who was probably in her late forties, with graying hair enter the room.
The doctor sat down and opened a folder. ?Mrs. Wilcox, I am Beth Gaston. I see you are interested in insemination. May I ask if your husband infertile.?
Kiley nervously laughed as she wished LJ were there. ?No, he passed away several years ago. I would like another child.?
?Ah, we have many women come to us for the same reason. Some are hearing their biological clock tick and want a child before it?s too late. You know it will be difficult to raise a child on your own, do you have family in the area to help you out??
?Oh, yes, I will have lots of TLC.? Kiley couldn?t help the smile that lit up her face as a knock on the door was heard and LJ entered. ?There you are. Dr. Gaston, please meet Dr. Evans.?
Reaching her hand out, Beth shook LJ?s. ?I am glad to meet you, Dr. Evans, are you Kiley?s family doctor??
LJ looked quizzically at the doctor first, then Kiley. ?I?m not a medical doctor, I?m a PHD.?
It was Dr. Gaston?s turn to be surprised. ?Oh, I just assumed?why are you here then? To support your friend??
Kiley realized the confusion and spoke up. ?I?m sorry, I think I mislead you. LJ is my partner.?
First LJ received a glare, then Kiley. ?Partner?you?re lesbians??
Kiley laughed nervously again, no one had ever asked her that question. ?Yes.?
Closing the file Dr. Gaston spoke coldly. ?That of course changes everything! At this practice we do not cater to the likes of you.?
Kiley saw red! ?Excuse me! The likes of you! A moment ago you were ready for the syringe, now we?re not good enough? Who the hell do you think you are??
She completely ignored LJ who stood up, offering her hand and saying, ?Let?s go, we?re wasting our time here.?
Green eyes shot a look that could kill. ?Not until I have my say!?
?Please keep your voice down.? The doctor chastised.
?I will not! Tell me, Doctor, what exactly do you object to? The fact that we love each other, or that we are both women.?
?I don?t need to tell you anything, Mrs. Wilcox, but since you asked, I will. You are deviants who should be ashamed of yourselves for wanting to subject an innocent child to such a horrible lifestyle.?
?You know nothing about our life or how we live it.?
?I know you will corrupt the child so it will lead your lifestyle. I will not be a party to that!?
?You bigot!? Kiley screamed.
She squirmed as LJ put her hand under Kiley?s arm and forced her out of the chair. ?We are leaving now, there is no talking to a closed mind. You can?t understand when you refuse to see.?
Kiley wasn?t going that easily so she gave one parting shot ?You will hear from my lawyer, you won?t get away with this!?
Rage, still within her as she turned to LJ once they were out in the hallway. ?Why did you make us leave? I wanted to scratch that bitches eyes out!? The feisty blonde woman exclaimed.
Kiley willingly went into her lover?s arms. ?Baby, you can?t make people understand when they won?t listen. She has her mind already made up and you aren?t going to change it.?
Kiley sobbed. ?I know I am new to this, but I don?t understand this attitude. We love each other, what?s wrong with that??
?Shh, there's nothing wrong with our lives. Small minded people think in small ways, Love, and we can?t ever change that. We need to live our lives and let our love lead the way.?
?I?m not a sicko deviant, LJ?am I??
She felt LJ hug her closer and kiss her head. ?If you are then I am too. Can?t think of better company, can you??
Smiling Kiley looked up into the eyes she loved. ?No, I can?t. What are we going to do? Do I have to sleep around to get pregnant?? All their hopes for children and strengthening their bond seemed to be lost.
LJ laughed as they headed for the elevators. ?Darling, she?s not the only doctor and the only one you sleep around with is me. Once we get outside I?ll make some calls, okay??
?You?re so good to me.? Kiley said as she stood close to her partner in the crowded elevator.
Leaning over LJ whispered. ?You make it easy.? Then gave the ear a quick kiss as the elevator doors opened.
Kiley stood nervously on the sidewalk as she watched LJ talk on her cell. She held her breath as LJ closed the phone, oh please, oh please, oh please. She prayed.
?We?re all set up with an appointment at one. What do you say we get some lunch before we go??
?Sounds good to me, for some reason I?m really hungry.?
?Chewing out a bigot will do that to you.? LJ said laughing as they headed down the street.
Not caring what anyone thought, she took LJ?s hand as they walked; she loved her and was proud of that love.
~ ~ ~
Commitment And Family
The construction was well underway and the family had moved into their alternate home. Carl and Ben had become fast friends who would spend many a day supervising the building or riding horses out to the various caves in search of arrowheads.
LJ had approached the Andrews about moving out to the ranch when she and Kiley went to Peru. In fact, she offered to let them move into a house on another property that she owned several miles away.
?Why, LJ that is mighty kind of you, but we can afford our own home.? Carl noted.
?No, that?s not what I meant at all! You are both out here all the time and I was thinking that it would be easier on you if you lived closer. My grandmother left me this ranch and two other smaller parcels that both have houses. I rent the land out, but at the moment the houses are vacant.?
Carl patted his wife?s hand as he smiled at this woman who could at one minute, be selfish and hard as nails, and then be profoundly generous and soft. ?Have you spoken with Kiley about this? She may not want us so close.?
LJ let out a hearty laugh. ?You don?t really believe that, do you? Family is everything to your daughter.?
Just then Kiley entered the room having heard most of the conversation. ?If you two won?t willingly move, I will have to kidnap you and do it for you.? She said as she walked over and kissed her parents. ?LJ is right, family is everything. Wouldn?t it be nice if we could go back to the time when families all lived in the same location? Kids got to know their grandparents and the value of family. I can?t think of anything more wonderful.?
?Looks like you don?t have a choice, Mom and Dad. You know as well as I do, once she sets her mind to something it?s a done deal.? Standing up, she hugged Kiley then spoke again. ?Would you like to go and see the houses? I am sure they are in need of a good cleaning and painting, but they are solid and have all the modern conveniences.?
?Shush, LJ, I wouldn?t consider an outhouse as modern.? Kiley said laughingly.
?Hey, we have plenty of catalogs and corncobs in them?that is a convenience.? LJ added.
?Corncobs!? Dorothy exclaimed. ?That could be mighty rough on the rear end.? Laughing she added. ?I prefer leaves.?
LJ?s face took on a serious expression. ?You know that is very rude, Mom, I think Jacques Penne` and his catalog would be very hurt.?
A silence filled the room as each one tried to figure out what set LJ off. Then an uproarious laugh was heard.
Carl and Kiley were perplexed as they looked at the laughing Dorothy.
?Don?t you get it? Jacques Penne`.? She said as she wondered if the two of them were truly dense. ?JC Penny? Catalog? Outhouse?? She laughed even harder as she saw the light bulbs going off.
Tears of laughter were soon running down everyone?s cheeks as they all went outside and into the car. They just had to see these houses now.
~ ~ ~
Laying on the examining table Kiley looked at LJ who was staring out the window. ?We don?t have to do this now if you are having doubts.?
She saw LJ turn around and smile lovingly. ?No, this is what we planned. It is fine.?
To Kiley that wasn?t a rousing response. ?Are you sure? You sound hesitant.?
?Yes, I?m sure?it?s just that I don?t know.?
Kiley sat up and swung her legs over the side of the table. ?Will you please hand me my clothes??
?What are you doing??
?Babe, if there is the slightest doubt in your mind then we won?t do this. We can?t bring a child into the world that only one of us wants.?
?No, lay back down, that?s not what I meant! Kiley, I?ve never been around babies, never even held one and I don?t know if I will be able to help you.?
Laying back down Kiley laughed. ?You are something else. I promise you that after one day you will be an expert.?
Dr. Ellen Britton entered the room. ?Hello, Ladies, are you ready to make a baby??
?Let?s do it.? LJ said. ?Even though we know it probably won?t happen now we will give it the old college try.?
Looking at LJ, Kiley noticed the goofy look on her face. Something else was there too?it had been there for weeks. She?d seen the look before?when LJ was trying to digest and solve a problem. What is going on now, LJ and why don?t you open up to me and let me help?
She saw the way Dr. Dylan and LJ interacted and it was obvious to her a history existed between them. Her mind flashed back to the first time she saw LJ sitting on the table at Rusty?s. The look on her lover?s face that night, as she watched the singer, she knew now, was one of deep sexual desire?lust. She had never seen that side of her partner and wondered why not. It wasn?t that LJ didn?t desire her?she did, but it was different from the way she looked at the singer.
?Yep, let?s do it.? Kiley finally said as she held LJ?s hand.
~ ~ ~
Rolling over, Kiley brought her arm up to hold LJ only to find the bed empty. Flu had hit her hard and she had spent a good deal of the night in the bathroom. LJ had been wonderful, holding her head and wiping her face with a cool washcloth. Looking at the clock, she saw it was close to seven thirty, before she closed her eyes again.
Then they opened wide. ?Shit!? she said as she sat up only to have the room spin around her. Steadying herself, she grabbed her robe and headed for Allie?s room. Finding the room empty, she began to panic as her mind whirled and her nauseous stomach churned.
Heading down the hall she looked in the kitchen and family room all the while calling out Allie?s name. Just then, the door opened and in walked her two loves laughing.
?Where have you two been, I have been worried to death about you??
A whirling Allie ran to her mother and hugged her legs. ?Mommy, Dolly had her baby and I got to pet him. His name is Chester and he is so cute?can I have him for my own??
Kiley let out a small laugh as she looked at LJ standing in the doorway with what seemed to her a look of complete fulfillment and love. As she began to speak, she felt the now familiar feeling, and then ran for the bathroom.
As her head rose, LJ was there with the wet washcloth. ?Baby, I was hoping you were feeling better. Want me to get you some juice or anything??
?Oh, god, no! The last thing I want now is something to eat. Would you mind getting Allie ready for school?? She said weakly.
?Let?s get you back to bed and then I?ll take care of Allie and take her to school before I go to work.?
?I can?t go today?I?m sorry.? She mumbled as she crawled in bed.
LJ pulled the cover up around her partner then kissed her cheek. ?You take care of yourself, that?s more important than work. I?m going to call Mom and have her check on you later.? Once again she kissed Kiley. ?I?ll be back before we leave. Try to get some sleep.?
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Dorothy arrived at the house, walked in, and moved quietly towards the bedroom. Peeking inside she saw her daughter lying on the bed with her knees up to her chest. Moving over to the bed she felt her daughter?s head. Green eyes opened and gave her a curious look. ?Hey, sleepyhead how are you feeling??
Closing her eyes Kiley sighed deeply. ?Like a truck ran over me.?
Sitting on the bed, Dorothy picked up the phone and dialed. ?I?m calling the doctor so we can get to the bottom of this??
Five minutes later she hung up. ?Get yourself up, showered and dressed; you have an appointment in an hour. I?ll go make you a cup of tea.?
Kiley blinked as her mother left, then began to lift herself up as the phone rang. ?Hello.? She managed to squeak out.
?Hey, babe, how are you feeling now??
?Hi, its good to hear your voice. I think porcelain and I are becoming best friends.? She managed to say while she felt churning again in her stomach.
?I think I?ll come home and take you to the doctor, maybe he can do something to help you.?
?Just a minute.? Kiley said as she dropped the phone and headed for the bathroom. Several minutes later she returned. ?Don?t know where it?s all coming from.? She said, trying to laugh, but failing. ?One step ahead of you, I have an appointment in an hour. Mom is taking me so you don?t need to come home.?
?Are you sure, I can meet you there.?
?No, you?re getting down to the wire for sending supplies ahead and need to be there. I?ll call you when I get home, okay?? She then felt the swelling coming again. ?I need to go now, I love you. Bye.?
?Please take care of yourself. I love you. Call me. Bye.?
An hour later, Kiley and her mother sat in the doctor?s office hoping for medicine to help with the flu. In the back of Kiley?s mind, she knew what was happening, but she was afraid to speak the words.
Later, arriving home, Kiley quickly began gathering items for a basket of food to take to LJ?s office. She couldn?t wait to see the look on her partner?s face when she told her the news.
~ ~ ~
Kiley?s heart was breaking as the time came near for LJ to leave. It is always difficult to be the one left behind and this time it would be particularly hard. Circumstances due the pregnancy prevented her from accompanying her partner to Peru. Although she understood, she found it difficult to accept.
The night before LJ?s departure, they held each other close as each shed tears.
?I will miss you so much.? Kiley sobbed.
Lifting up Kiley?s chin, LJ wiped the tears away. ?We?ve already been through this, you can?t go. I?ll be back as often as I can?besides it is only two months. Time will fly by for you, I promise.?
Kiley knew her fears were unfounded, but she couldn?t help voicing them. ?How can I compete with those that will be there with you? I will be a distant memory and they will be real.? She said softly.
?You are my life. Don?t you know that? You?re always on my mind and in my heart. I could never forget you or discard you for anyone else.? LJ held up the hand on which she wore the ring Kiley gave her. ?Eternity?nothing less.?
Looking into the blue eyes brimming with tears, Kiley kissed her cheek. ?I love you so much. Eternity?nothing less.? Her lips moved down the cheek to the red lips of her lover. ?Make love with me, Lucy. Never let me go.?
When they woke in the morning they were tangled in each other?s arms, as they were one. It was closing in on the time for them to part and each was reluctant to let go. Their eyes were filled with tears as they searched for words to say.
A knock on the door was ignored as LJ gently ran her fingers over Kiley?s cheek. ?I love you as no other. You?re everything, my life, my partner, my lover, the mother of our children and my other half. You make me a better person, I have never known such tenderness or love as that you bring to me. You will always be here?? She placed Kiley?s hand on her heart. ?And here.? The hand then was placed on her head.? The brimming tears finally began to fall. ?I love you, never forget that.?
Kiley gently wiped the tears away. ?You are wonderful. I love you so much. Come back safe to me my love.?
The knocking on the door became insistent as they heard Allie. ?Hey, I?m hungry are you ever going to wake up??
One last kiss, then they began the day.
~ ~ ~
?Arrrugh! Damn it all to hell!?
Racing over to his daughter, Carl asked, ?What's the matter, Baby??
?What's the matter, you ask? It certainly would be nice to get these contractors to help me instead of hindering me all the time!? Kiley screamed out. ?It?s as if they think I am some idiot that can?t tell time!? Her face was red with anger.
Carl put his arm around his daughter and pulled her in close. ?Why not let Ben and I take care of the contractors and you do the decorating part. After all, we are familiar with all the terminology and have done some building in our time.?
Kiley wrestled herself out of her father?s hold. ?Excuse me! What exactly do you mean by that remark? What, I?m a woman therefore I don?t know about the manly things? Give me a break!?
?Exactly what is wrong with you, young lady? I don?t deserve that tone!?
?Well, you wouldn?t get that tone if you would treat me like an adult with a brain instead of your ?little girl?.?
Carl couldn?t believe the manner in which she was speaking to him. Looking her straight in the eyes he spoke in a low ominous tone. ?I?m here helping you out because you and LJ asked me. Yes, I do know more than you do on this particular subject. If you would like to go it alone it won?t be a problem, but if you want my help, then I better never hear that tone from you again. Is that clear??
Realizing she was taking everything out on her dad and what an ass she had been, she bowed her head. ?Daddy, I?m sorry. I don?t know what gets into me these days. You?re right, you and Ben need to handle the contractors.?
Carl once again pulled her in as Dorothy, who had been close by listening, came over to them.
?Hey, Sweetie, being pregnant is the pits, isn?t it?? Dorothy quietly asked.
Turning to her mother, Kiley collapsed on her shoulder in tears. ?Why isn?t she here with me?? she sobbed.
Carl patted her on the back as he kissed her head. ?I?ll go see what Ben?s up to. It will all work out as it should, Kiley.? He walked away leaving the two women alone. Mothers were much better handling this type of situation.
?Come with me, Sweetie, let?s get a cup of tea and see if we can find a solution for you.? Dorothy wrapped her arm around Kiley?s shoulders and led her to the kitchen in her temporary house.
?Mom, I don?t know what to do. I miss her so much?my life is so empty without her here.?
?Kiley, she has only been gone a little over a week?you need to get yourself together for your unborn child. Didn?t you know that this is what LJ needed to do during this time??
?Well, yes, I knew, but I never thought it would be this difficult. I don?t know what I?m going to do. What if something happens to her?or?she finds someone else??
?Sweetheart, why would she find anyone else? She loves you, you?re having a baby with her and I have never seen any two people more suited for each other.? Dorothy got up as the teakettle began to whistle.
Kiley?s mind flashed back to the night when LJ picked the slut Cassie over her. She had never seen the side of her lover she was sure the likes of Cassie had. She wasn?t foolish enough to think LJ wouldn?t have needs out there in the wilds of Peru. The question was...is LJ?s love for Kiley strong enough.
?Mom, I think I?ll go to Peru.? Her mind was made up!
Dorothy turned and looked at her daughter in amazement. ?Why on earth would you do something stupid like that? Does your baby mean nothing to you??
Kiley?s green eyes turned emerald. ?Woman having babies travel all the time, what makes you think I am any different? I need to see LJ and be with her, it?s as simple as that. If you can?t understand, Mother, then you are the stupid one!?
She placed the mugs of tea on the table before sitting down, her eyes squarely on her daughter. ?Would you like to tell me what really is going on? I don?t believe for one moment you are so insecure that you need LJ that badly.? She cautiously put her hand over Kiley?s and was surprised when she wasn?t rebuffed. ?Please, let me help you.? Dorothy said softly.
Tears were flowing down Kiley?s cheeks as she searched for the words that would explain her fears. She bowed her head and began to speak softly. ?LJ has been gone for ten days?she called me when she arrived?I haven?t heard from her since. She told me she would come back every two weeks?? She raised her head as watery eyes focused on Dorothy. ?I don?t think she will?? There was a long moment of silence as she turned her gaze out the window. ?I don?t think I will ever see her again.?
Dorothy moved her chair next to Kiley?s so she could comfort her. ?Are you saying you don?t trust her? ?
?I don?t know.? Came the soft reply.
?Has she done something to make you think you can?t trust her??
?Not really.?
?Do you love her??
?More than I ever thought possible. Maybe that?s the problem, I love her too much.? Glazed eyes stared out the window. ?I?m not sure she loves me as much.?
?Why do you feel that way?? Dorothy was having a hard time understanding the problem, because from her point of view, it was obvious how much LJ loved her daughter.
When there was no answer another question was asked. ?Do you know how to get in touch with her??
?Yes.? Came the defeated reply.
?Then I suggest you contact her and talk with her about this.? Taking Kiley?s chin in her hand she turned the face towards her. ?If you keep this inside and say nothing then you will never know the truth; you will have convicted LJ with your imaginings. She deserves better, Kiley, and so do you. Talk with her; if she doesn?t know there?s a problem she can?t fix it. You will give her that chance if you truly love her.?
Kiley?s eyes continued to look blank as she listened to her mother speak. ?I?ll think about it. I?m tired, do you mind if I go take a nap?? Getting up, she kissed her mother, then went into the bedroom and closed the door.
Dorothy watched her daughter go as she sighed. ?Fasten your seatbelts, we?re in for a bumpy ride. Who said pregnancy was beautiful.?
~ ~ ~ Sitting in the sun on a lounge chair, Kiley read a book of poems by Sara Teasdale. One caught her eye?She knew LJ loved and missed her, but as the days went by she grew increasingly desperate to see her. Traveling to Peru was out of the question, she knew that, besides, she was as big as a house and probably would need two seats.I heard a cry in the night,To One Away
Sara Teasdale
A thousand miles it came,
Sharp as a flash of light,
My name, my name!It was your voice I heard,
You waked and loved me so?
I send you back this word,
I know, I know.Picking up her phone she dialed the number LJ had given her in case of emergencies. This was an emergency! The babies were very active and she wanted to share the joy with her partner.
A voice said, ?Hello, can I help you??
?Yes, I?m trying to get a hold of Dr. Evans. Do I have the right place??
?Dr. Evans is here, I will get her?it may take some time.?
?Thank you, I?ll wait.? Kiley?s body shook as she waited to hear the one voice that would calm all her fears. She was sure the babies were doing flips as they kicked her.
?This is Dr. Evans.?
?Lucy, is that really you?? Kiley cried.
?Kiley? Is something the matter??
?Nothing is the matter, I just needed to hear your voice and know you still love me.? There was no stopping the tremble in her voice as she spoke the words.
?I love you, Kiley, you?re my one and only. Don?t you know that??
The tears were flowing freely now. ?I know you do, but you are there with all those young things and that Dylan woman. Why wouldn?t you want them instead of the house I have become.? She sobbed loudly.
?Kiley, you?re the one that I love.?
?The twins are so active and you?re not here to experience it with me. Why would you want to be, how can we compete with what you are doing there? How can I compete with that Dylan woman? Just promise me one thing, Lucy.?
?I will do anything you ask, Kiley.?
?Will you not leave me until after the babies are born??
?Leave you? I?m not leaving you Kiley, what on earth has given you that idea??
?Don?t spare my feelings, Lucy, I know you don?t want me anymore.?
?Baby, I need to take care of things first, but then I will come home to you.?
?Oh, Lucy, you are such a silly goose. Why would you do that? You have your job to do there and it?s very important. Besides, it is only another month till your home for good.? Kiley?s lilting voice sounded happy.
?What?s going on with you? One minute you?re crying and now you?re laughing. I don?t understand?do you want me to come home or not??
?Silly, of course I want you to come home, but you have your job to do there. You will be home soon enough. Oh, here?s Mom, say hi to her.? Kiley handed the phone off to her mother.
?Hi, LJ, I see you?ve been talking with Kiley.? She said laughingly. ?Quite an experience isn?t it??
?Mom, what is going on with her? One minute she is crying the next laughing?I?m confused.?
Dorothy tried but couldn?t contain her laughter. ?One word, LJ, hormones. It has been a bumpy ride.?
?I should have known. Is she being awful??
?No, it is rather amusing. Oh, she wants to speak to you again. Bye, sweetie, I love you.?
?Okay, Mom, thanks, I love you too. Bye.?
?Lucy, I need to go now, sauerkraut is calling my name. I love you. Bye, babe.? Then she made several kissing sounds.
Laughing LJ, replied. ?Bye, my love, talk to you soon. Are you having hotdogs with the sauerkraut??
?Lucy! Hotdogs, gag city, no I am having pumpkin pie with it. Bye, I love you.?
~ ~ ~
Homecoming
The day was finally here! LJ was coming home!
Kiley hurried around the house straightening up. She had changed the beds, swept the floors, dusted and made LJ?s favorite dessert. Glancing at the clock she had another two hours until she had to leave for the airport. Pacing back and forth she needed to find something to occupy herself. Flicking on the television she tried to watch some talk show but had no patience for the ridiculousness of some people.
Grabbing her keys she squeezed her enormous belly in behind the steering wheel. ?God, I can?t believe how big I?m getting. Wonder if Lucy will find me disgusting?? Reaching down she slid the seat back further. Wondering how much more room she had she lifted the release again and found herself sliding into the backseat. Now, she was in a dilemma for the seat was so far back that she couldn?t reach the floor to help go back forward. Struggling she grabbed the steering wheel and pulled herself forward only not to go anywhere. Stupid lift the lever at the same time. Finally she was able to make headway when she finally was back to where she wanted to be.
Arriving at the airport she parked the car and went inside, finding a seat by the entrance to the gates. She would sit there and watch people go by until LJ arrived. She began looking at the women and comparing them to LJ. There was no doubt in her mind that her woman was the most beautiful one around. The very thought of Lucy caused arousal to stir inside of her. Then she began to fantasize about how she would feed Lucy dessert as she ravished her body.
?Excuse me, Miss. Are you alright?? A voice out of nowhere spoke to her.
Startled, Kiley looked up to see a distinguished looking man. ?Yes, I am fine. Why do you ask??
?Oh, pardon me. You were gyrating and I thought there perhaps was a problem with the baby.?
Kiley felt the fire erupt on her face. ?It?s hard to find a comfortable position sometimes.? She said with a smile. Oh my god, I need to get laid. She thought to herself hoping no one else noticed. Looking around, she was aware of eyes darting away when she looked up. Once again her face reddened as she wished there was a hole she could crawl into. Then she heard music to her ears?LJ?s plane was landing.
At last the passengers began making their way past the checkpoint. Kiley stood as close to the front as she could watching for the one person that made her heart soar with love. Fortunately, LJ was tall so it was easy picking her out of the crowd. A broad smile crossed her face as her eyes homed in on her lover. Finally LJ saw her and their eyes locked.
Kiley moved through the crowd until she was in front of LJ, then flung her arms around LJ?s neck. ?God, how I have missed you.? She whispered in LJ?s ear.
It didn?t matter to Kiley who was watching or what people were thinking, her love was home and that was all that mattered.
Continued in Part 2
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